Gideon’s Challenge

Not Okay

I… am not okay. I felt myself sliding down the walls of the pit and I clawed at the walls to slow the fall. I thought I’d managed to catch myself and cling to the side…. and then I slid further still. I am not okay. I know this. But I know, too…. that I will be. Eventually.

It is a game of patience. Of waiting. Of remembering that my mind is lying to me, that all the painful whispers picking at my soul are not fact but fiction. I haven’t been this deep for two years now.

Please… please don’t last until April like the last time. Please let me be able to climb those walls back up to the light again soon. Please.

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

One thought on “Gideon’s Challenge

  1. Awwww baby. It hurts my heart to see you suffering so. I would give anything if I could do more to help you, if I could take away the pain and the misery for you.

    I love you, beautiful. Just keep reaching, keep trying to climb that wall. Keep fighting for me, my love.

    It’s going to be okay, baby. This is temporary, it’s going to be okay.

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