Today’s meditation was supposed to be ten minutes long but turned into an 80 minute nap when I dozed off in the middle.

Today’s draw is the Queen of Claws (Swords) combined with the affirmation “Hurt is not the same as hopeless. No amount of sadness or sickness can swallow the light inside of us.”

Do you know that feeling when you disappoint a parent, and it matters even though you don’t want it to? I feel that feeling a lot. These cards are a reminder that just when you disappoint someone, it doesn’t mean you’re less than or not enough. Even if they say that you are.  Even if all that they can see in you is your flaws, mistakes, and those things in you that disappoint them again and again.

Parents are people too, and they have their likes and dislikes, just like everyone else. They have their prejudices, and they’re often wrong just as we all are. Take care not to internalize that as your problem. It’s not… It’s theirs and theirs alone.

DECK USED:  PAW OF LIGHT TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

Lionharts #TheFebruaryTarot Once Upon a Tarot Prompt
Prompt for February 1st: Do the My Fool’s Journey Tarot Spread

What overarching theme characterizes my life right now, laying the foundation for my journey?

Nine of Snacks (Pentacles) – You are learning to pause and appreciate your hard work, and to be more grateful for what you have accomplished and earned thus far, rather than always pushing forward for what comes next.

What opportunity is presenting itself this month, shaping the landscape for my journey?

Wheel of Fortune – You are being given the opportunity to learn and observe the ups and downs that are a natural part of life rather than reacting blindly to them. This involves learning how to panic less and ride out the unpredictable swings of life with more grace.

What am I guided to work on or overcome this month, adding depth and empowering growth to my journey?

Four of Catnips (Wands) – You need to work on putting home back under the category of somewhere you are enthusiastic to be, instead of seeing it as just your workplace and a place to toil. It’s time to return your home in your mind to a place to relax, enjoy, and find peace.

What knowledge or guidance, internal or external, can I draw upon during this journey?

The Hanged Man – Remember your objective to always be open to other perspectives in order to learn more about not just the world around you and the people in it, but also about yourself. Take care to ground yourself in this intention as you move forward along your path.

Which aspect of myself should I embrace or be aware of throughout this journey?

Six of Bowls (Cups) Rx – You are not always as decisive as you would like to be, or as you would like to have others think you are. You need to stay aware that during those times, you have a tendency to slide into a state of unhealthy stagnancy rather than making a decision.

DECK USED: PAW OF LIGHT

I didn’t pull all of my February decks today as planned, but just a few. I can pull the rest on a day when it’s not so busy and there’s more time for such things.