June 25
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was focused on the affirmation in the card included in this post. It was primarily breathing exercises while repeating the affirmation as a mantra. I can honestly say that I waffle quite a bit on this particular affirmation, as sometimes it feels like everyone knows what the hell is going on and what they’re doing… except me. And then other times? Everyone’s lost and I’m grounded. Right now? I’m feeling a bit lost and everything feels uncertain, so the assurance at the bottom that “It’s all going to turn out fine” was perhaps the most useful part of this affirmation for me today.
The Sun – This card is an indication of success and positivity. Having fun and enjoyment are all rolled into the theme, and the reminder here is that everyone needs to have those things that make them happy. You are no different, and it’s okay to show others what those things are and share them with others rather than trying to hide them away and keep them secret. No one is going to take them from you or make you feel bad about them. Just because that’s how it worked as a child doesn’t mean that it works the same as an adult, so own your happiness and allow others to share in your fun. It’s okay.
DECK USED: GRUNGE TAROT
June 26
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was focused on the “it’s all going to work out fine” affirmation in the card on the left attached to this post.
Nine of Swords – This is a card that is all about nightmares and anxiety. It’s about those things that wake you up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, or make it impossible to fall asleep in the first place. Ms B goes in for her shoulder surgery tomorrow, and there’s a huge amount of concern about infection for her, because she’s diabetic. There’s a lot of worry going on… a lot of “What If” thinking going on.
Together these cards are a reminder that “what if” thinking is all in your head. It’s not a portent of doom, but rather your mind making up stories of the worse case scenarios possible. Here is encouragement to look to the positive, to make sure you stay hopeful, and to lean into optimism instead of listening to those negative whispers trying to slip in and drag you down.
It’s all going to work out fine.
DECK USED: VINTAGE MARSEILLE TAROT
June 27
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was focused on the affirmation in the included card in this post. What this card brought to mind for me is the best advice I ever got from a therapist. She told me that everything is temporary. Everything. Including depression.
The thing is? When in the grip of a depressive episode it feels like it will never end. That life will feel that dark and heavy and empty forever. I spent the majority of last year struggling with a depressive episode that would just not let go. And yet? It did eventually end. It was indeed temporary.
It’s important to remember that this too is temporary. Life will not always be filled with worry and upheaval. It’s just what’s here now… but it won’t be forever.
Ten of Wands – Burden leads to overwhelm which leads to burnout. Make sure that you are not overdoing it, and let yourself lean on others for help instead of taking it all on yourself. This does not have to be all on you, so ensure you are advocating to get the help you need rather than just piling more and more on your own back.
Twisting the Leaf 