Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_8791The Departure

A stranger
lies on tiles
with clammy skin
and shallow
noisy breaths
and when they stop
compressions start
as sirens wail
in the background
Will anyone mourn
the loss
of you deciding
to let go?

I will.

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Rosenwald Tarot, The Personal Oracle, Steampunk Lenormand

EarthKing of Wands and The Wings – Stability and grounding are something that you prioritize above all else. This week, make sure you are looking for ways to make these priorities rise above the rest. Don’t forsake them for other pursuits, as you need this sense of security in your life right now more than ever.

AirQueen of Cups and The Star – Focus on mitigating the effects of your negative self-narrative with positivity and optimism. Bolster yourself and soothe the emotional turmoil that that narrative creates by fostering hope. These are the tools you need to keep that inner narrative from continuing to drag you down into the muck and the mire.

WaterThe Hanged Man and The Amulet – It’s time to pay attention to your emotional wounds and deal with them. Not just on a physical level or an interpersonal level, but also through your spiritual practice. Incorporate your spirituality and practice into this journey and you will find you will get far more out of it as a result.

FireThe Emperor and The Lightning – Don’t go cracking the whip this week, or you might end up with some unpleasant consequences if you do.  No extra crap on your plate or additional responsibilities.

WaningLetter and Key – Don’t worry about the taxes right now.  Yes, they’re important, but you can set it aside for a bit longer in order to give yourself the room you need to take care of yourself.

WaxingTower and Ship – Take time to talk with Ms B about her upcoming trip and make sure she has all that she needs and is being safe about her approach to this travel and prepared.  Look out for her, for she’s not always great at looking out for herself.

Take Away – Low responsibility, no extra tasks or work added to my plate, and make sure I’m looking after Ms B and that she’s being safe.  The depression is at its turning point and it’s time to focus on the climb back out, which includes feeling like you’re going a bit “overboard” on the optimism and positivity.  It’s not as overboard as it feels, so keep going and really lean into it.

DECKS USED: ROSENWALD TAROT, THE PERSONAL ORACLE, STEAMPUNK LENORMAND

Refine and Redefine

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Story's Fairy Taling TarotToday’s draw is the Art card. This deck is based on the Thoth system. In that system, Art replaces the RWS Temperance card, and it’s traditional meaning is about finding which elements are missing in your life, honing and refining one’s skills and abilities, and self-discipline angled toward a purpose.

In the imagery of this card, we see the three little pigs doing exactly that.  They work to hone and refine the house they are building to perfect it for their needs.

Today’s card is a reminder that there is still work to be done.  It doesn’t need to be done right this minute, in fact, it would be better to take some time to look over your plan and do a bit of refining yourself. Look for what’s not going to work, and see if you can’t adjust and refine things until you get just the results you’re working towards.

DECK USED:  STORY’S FAIRY TALING TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheMarchTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt

Medicine Cards - RaccoonMarch Animal GuideRaccoon – Teamwork and finding healthy balance between independence and community, goal-oriented, ingenuity, industriousness, cleanliness, curiosity, adaptability, and equality.

The Raccoon appears in the Medicine Cards Deck as card No.46, and is described as a protector and provider, likening them to the tales of Robin Hood and pointing out that, in groups, there is a great deal of generosity demonstrated in their behavior among each other.  Although this creature is often seen of as a “trash bandit”, they often steal not for themselves, but to further their community and feed those unable to feed themselves.

Story's Fairy Taling TarotA desire I should feed in support of my best self?

Queen of Wands and Nine of Cups – Do more of the stuff that you want to do, and less of the stuff you don’t. Indulge in your pursuit of happiness instead of setting it on the back burner.  Don’t allow you focus to pull you from the things you enjoy, allow the things you enjoy to distract you from your focus.

In what way could respecting my needs liberate me?

Death and Four of Swords – Respecting your needs will foster gradual changes towards a healthier form of rest and restoration, a more grounded inner narrative, and better sleep. It’s through being kind to yourself that you will be able to heal more thoroughly and find a better balance in your life for further restoration moving forward.

What is the first step I can take to honor my needs?

Ace of Pentacles and Three of Pentacles – New collaborative methods at work are needed, but make sure that when you invite people in to help you that you’re doing so in a healthy way for both yourself and for them. Look closely at your methods and how you interact with others and turn over a new leaf on how you go about expressing what is needed.

DECK USED: STORY’S FAIRY TALING TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Today I went down into the basement storage and worked to get the shelves reinforced and the place cleaned up.  There’s at least 15 years of dust down there.  Piles of it.  And if I’m going to be putting stuff down there that I have to access somewhat regularly, all that had to be taken care of.  I’ll have to go down once more and wipe everything down with a rag, but when my body said stop?  I stopped instead of continuing to push myself to do more.

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_8758The Slipping Day

Stillness
breathes deep
in the quiet
of evening light
as the sun slides
towards horizons
and casts
golden hues
over the land
while clear sky
deepens
into rich shades
of flawless blue

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Ostara 2022 – Spring Equinox

Tomorrow is the Spring Equinox, which is considered by many to be the first day of Spring, and is one of only two moments in the year when the sun is exactly above the Equator and day and night are of equal length. After this day, the brightness of daylight begins to overtake the dark hours in the sky as the days continue to longer and longer, and the nights shorter and shorter.  This transition is the basis within the celebration of the holiday itself, as we celebrate the warming and awakening of the earth as she prepares to share her abundance and generosity with us all.

In my path, the Spring Equinox is also known as Ostara.  Although this holiday is celebrated (as Easter around) the world by those that embrace many traditions that originated in Paganism, most don’t realize the full and rich history that this holiday holds.

Sabbat Holiday Cards, Herbal Healing Cards Vol 1 & 2, Pagan Underworlds Tarot, Compendium of Witches Oracle

Like with new moons and full moons, I usually do a spread to check in with myself and give myself some direction for the next couple of months for each solstice, equinox, and other Sabbats. This spread is an adaptation of my Self Care Saturday spread, so there are sure to be  some similarities in how it is read. The focus of this spread, though, is not about Self Care, but rather about progress and my path. The time period is also longer, reaching through the next handful of weeks until the celebration of the upcoming Beltane at the beginning of May.

Theme of the SeasonOstara, Waning Gibbous Moon, Betula alba (Silver Birch)

Ostara, as mentioned above, is a celebration of nature’s awakening after the long winter’s sleep.  It’s about the eager energy of spring finally beginning to show itself to us in visible ways, and the uplifting hope that comes with this renewal of energies in the world around us.

In farming, the Waning Gibbous Moon is a time of planting (with the exception of annuals) and transplanting, as it’s believed that absorption of nutrients from the soil occurs the most during the waning phase of the moon, and this sets up bulbs, tubers, and young plants with the energy and food needed to burst into growth for the approaching new moon to come. 

Metaphysically, it is a time of release, in which we focus on ridding ourselves of bad habits, negative thinking, and other barriers that hold you back from growth, creating room for more positive energy to flow in as the new moon approaches.

Silver Birch (Betula alba) symbolizes new beginnings, renewal, purification, and protection. This tree holds lessons for us in how hardy even the most fragile of us can be, and in lessons to do with potential and growth. Its oils, extracted from the bark, can be used as an insect repellent as well as to treat certain skin conditions, while an infusion from its leaves is both a diuretic and antiseptic. It’s sap also has healing properties that are useful in treating urinary tract infections.

When looking at these three cards together, the theme that I see here is as the Ostara card says… “The land shall sign with the promise of Spring”.  Yes, the equinox is here and yes, spring has begun, but it is the promise spring brings that we see in these cards.  A promise that in the days and weeks to come we will find energies renewed, and life once more ready to emerge and grow strong.  The abundance is not quite here, but it’s coming. The promise has been made… and it’s coming.

EarthFive of Cups – Dissatisfied and pessimistic. This is something you’ve been battling a lot over the past month or so and you’re finally at a place where you are aware of what is going on and that it’s not just a fog but a depression. This awareness has the potential to allow you to see your moments of dissatisfaction with your current progress towards manifesting what you want as a side effect of that depression.  An illusion instead of reality.

AirKnight of Cups atop The World – Stuck in the moment and not focusing ahead on where you’re going but instead on old ideals. The Knight faces toward the past and toward the world of potential that the past holds.  Turn around and look forward towards the future, instead of staying stuck focusing on past ideals.

WaterThree of Wands – You’re getting there. The depression screws with your emotions, but you’re on your way to clearer skies. It may not always feel like it, but keep moving forward and don’t look back (an echo from the Air section of this reading).

FireSeven of Swords – You need to let go of what is too heavy to carry. Moving forward is easier without all that weight. Ease up on the expectations you put on yourself and let go of the responsibilities that don’t matter right now. You can pick stuff up later on after you’re feeling better if it’s still important at that time.  Right now, it’s just too heavy and is weighing you down. Take only what you can carry and leave the rest.

WaningThe Mystic and Staff – Wandering into the woods with no direction and allowing yourself to meander is not going to serve you well right now.  You need direction, purpose, and focus at the moment to assist you on your travels both spiritually and in life.

WaxingThe Reconciler and Moon – Accept what cannot be changed and focus on what you can alter through reasonably chosen achievable steps. Don’t allow your imagination and what is illusory to stand in your way, but instead use determination to seek clarity, purpose, and direction.

Take Away – Everything here is about opening up to potential. There is a great deal of opportunity upon the road ahead, but in order to see that opportunity clearly and take advantage of the healing it has to offer, it’s going to be necessary to confront inner demons and let go of the negative bad habits that are tying your hands and holding you down.

DECKS USED: SABBAT THEMED ART CARD, PAGAN UNDERWORLDS TAROT, COMPENDIUM OF WITCHES ORACLE, HEALING HERBAL CARDS VOL 1 & 2

Don’t Waste Your Time

#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was another of the guided #dailycalm meditations from the Calm app. The meditation was a full body yoga nidra, which moved through the entire body from head to foot, before expanding out to encompass the entire body.

As the quote from today’s meditation (to the right) indicates, this type of meditation makes it easy to let go of one’s thoughts and drift in a place of sensation.  It’s one of my favorite types of guided meditation.

Soul Cards TarotToday’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, conflict, and the harbinger of energy stirring to life after the rest and recuperation found in the Four of Swords.

You’ve got this. Slay it, baby.

The tug of war between the birds and the cat is strewn with blades of conflict.  Neither is winning… but neither is either of them loosing.

The message here is a reminder that sometimes conflict isn’t the best option.  Being contrary can waste a lot of time if you let it.  Look at where you are feeling contrary… and consider how much time you’re wasting trying to play tug of war with things and people that don’t really matter.

DECK USED:  SOUL CATS TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for March 19th: How can I better manage my inner critic?

Animal Totems and the I-ChingReading Summary: Accept that it’s a part of you (Alligator) and work at shifting your inner critic’s narrative (Snake) to something not so aggressive (Slug).

Take Away: My inner critic is very aggressive.  Excessively so, and I know this.  It’s not just about what could be done differently, but an abusive dialogue used to beat down my spirit and bleed my soul.

It’s a form of self destruction that can often be insidious, and other times blatant and violent.  The advice here is that It’s important to focus on shifting that tendency to a softer, less aggressive messaging.  Just don’t take it, but accept instead that it’s a part of you that you can work on and adapt, alter and improve upon.

DECK USED: ANIMAL TOTEMS AND THE I-CHING

#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions from March 17th and 18th

Soul Cards TarotWhat do I need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Page of Wands, The Wheel atop Six of Swords – Don’t worry so much about the ups and downs, just act to make things better. Letting the fickle moods of fate hold you back from improving your life is a bad idea, and can lead to many things you want (or need) to get done being abandoned instead of accomplished.

What are my strengths when dealing with others?

Four of Cups and Temperance – You come off as chill, easy-going, and temperate in mood and behavior. Not a lot of extremes going on, but neither are you particularly boring. You appear to know where your bread is buttered and enjoy those things to their fullest, even while displaying those places where you struggle with moderation for all to see.

DECK USED: SOUL CATS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap at the gas station because I wasn’t sure I could make it home safely without one.  So, instead of pushing myself, I pulled a blanket out of the back and took a quick nap.