#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was ten minutes long (yes, I actually did it!), and was a guided meditation from the Calm app.  The meditation today spoke on connecting with one’s emotions and allowing them to flow through you instead of trying to either discount them as irrelevant, push them away, or bury them.

I am absolutely guilty of this, although I’ve been working over the past few years to do this less often. I think I’m doing good at being more open to my emotions rather than burying them, although I still find myself doing the latter on occasion when I’m feeling too overwhelmed.

Everfree TarotToday’s draw is the Ace of Cups atop the Five of Wands, a combo that insisted on coming out together.  Traditionally, the Ace of Cups is a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. The Five of Wands, on the other hand, is traditionally about conflict, tests, trials, and struggle in the area of one’s passions, intensity, drive, willpower, and determination.

In this draw, the Ace of Cups overshadows the Five of wands, speaking of the Ace of Cups being the dominant card out of the two.

Together, these cards are a reminder that I am beginning my climb out of my depression. Reconnection with my enthusiasm is needed, and that spark of motivation that has been under duress for so long needs to be rekindled and fostered to grow into something positive and satisfying.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for March 14th and 15th

Everfree TarotHow can I increase my intuitive abilities?

Queen of Swords and Ten of Swords – Understand that it’s time to “level up” and that you need to take this opportunity and use it strategically to further your abilities. As your intuition reawakens from the level of dormancy that the depression forces it into, nurture it in the same strategic ways you have done in the past so that it can stretch and grow.

How can I keep myself safe using my intuition?

The Lovers and Knight of Coins – Make good choices that further a solid foundation and grounded strength. Don’t rush.  Instead, take things slow and steady, and do them right the first time.


Daily Self Kindness

I lost a good deal of my day today to trying to set up the new email client I’m testing out. I’ve been using Windows Live Mail forever, but just recently I got a notification that they’re changing how applications are allowed to connect to their service, and this change means that after May 30th, WLM will no longer work. I know this doesn’t sound like a self kindness, but it is because I’ve been feeling the need to procrastinate dealing with it… and if I did that, the deadline would come to pass without it being done and I’d have been screwed.  By doing it now, I’m allowing myself space and time to adjust to this new program and test it out thoroughly before I’m stuck with it for good.

Weathering the Storm Lenormand Reading

Mystery Secret Lenormand

What recent storms have I faced?

Man and Fish – An inability to adapt as fluidly as you would like. Issues with Etsy, struggles with depression… all of these sort of things are usually something that you are able to stand strong during and adapt to as they happen. During the past few months, though, there’s been a lot of rigidity and an inability to adapt, which has in turn caused a lot of unnecessary anxiety, among other things.

What have a learned about myself through these difficulties?

Crossroads and Rider – You need to be more decisive.  Don’t hesitate to make choices, even when feeling uncertain. It’s okay to have to course correct later, as by keeping moving you continue to adapt instead of allowing yourself and the energies around you to go stagnant.

How can I gain strength to face future challenges?

Heart and Snake – Don’t take everything to heart as a betrayal. Sometimes people fuck up and it’s not intentional or directed at you specifically. Make sure you are not falling into a victim mentality where every hurt and slight appears as if it is an attack… when in truth it’s not about you at all.