Weekly Creativity Prompt – Random Eight

Shuffle your deck of choice, then pull out every ninth card.
Of the eight cards now sitting in front of you, which card do you relate to most strongly and why?
Of the seven cards now left sitting in front of you, which card do you relate to the least and why?
Extra Credit: There are now six cards left. Assign a real person in your life, a fictional character, a movie, a book, or a song to each of these six cards and then tell us why you made the choice you did for each.

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Part 1 (most relate to)Ten of Swords – I am a survivor. I survived my father’s tyrannic rule.  I survived the accident that decimated the right side of my body and made it impossible for me to go through an MRI machine. I’ve survived sexual assault, betrayals, car accidents, impalement, a home invasion and near death experience, life-long chronic pain, ongoing physiotherapy, testicular cancer, and melanoma.

I have survived through years of suicidal obsession and urges, multiple major depressive episodes, and just this past year I survived a stalker that tried to kidnap me out of a Costco parking lot.  I have survived dropping out of university a mere three months before earning my degree, the crushing disappointment of discovering my mother is not the person (or mother) I thought she was, a metabolism that is determined to eat me alive, and the loss of loved ones.

I have survived, and learned from, all of these things and more. Each of these things was more than just a painful experience. Each experience brought me to my knees and made me bleed either from my body or my soul… and yet I have continued on.  The Nine of Swords connects me to these experiences, and my survival from them… as well as the fact that I continue to thrive not just despite them, but also because of what they taught me along the way.

Part 2 (least relate to)Eight of Wands – I’m not getting anywhere fast these days, it seems.  In fact, life in general as well as the cards seem determined to teach me to slow down and take my time more often.  This is not something that is easy for me to do… and I struggle with it even at the best of times. 

Extra Credit:

Two of Wands – She makes lists.  Going on a camping trip?  She’s got a list.  A shopping trip?  She’s got a list. Need ideas for what to do next weekend?  She has a list for that too. If you need to get organized?  She is the one to go to.  She’ll help you make a list, and explain how to use it too.  There’s power in lists and she knows it well, and she wields that power with impunity.

Seven of Cups – A woman that sees outside the box, if you need ideas, she’s the one to go through.  Not that she’ll give you the answers, but sit and talk with her a while and you’ll soon find that your narrow view of what’s possible will begin to open up.  Options appear where none had been, just in the span of spending time in her presence.  Suddenly, the diversity of what’s possible is breathtaking and you wonder how you ever felt your options were so limited.

Five of Swords – He’s one of those guys that always has to have the last word in any situation. It makes him feel like he’s won, and that feeling is something he lives for. Whether it’s a debate or a disagreement, or even a physical fight, rest assured his voice will be the last one that sounds, and what he says will be sharp edged but probably not entirely unwarranted.

The Chariot – Single minded and determined, he plows forward with his eye on the prize. He knows what he wants out of life and he knows how to get it, he has both hands on the reigns and full control over the direction of his life.  Goals for this man?  They aren’t possibilities… they are already his reality as if he needs only to reach out and pluck them out of the air and they’ll be his.

The Tower – She’s spent her life catastrophizing every little thing. Nothing catastrophic has ever happened to her, and yet… to her even a splinter is just that.  The end of the world.  Her life is in chaos, her world in upheaval… and this is how she lives.  Each and ever day is one horrible thing, one disastrous event after another and she is unable to see beyond the cacophony to anything positive in any of it.  She’s trapped in this place… and refuses to try and escape.

Judgement – He lies in a hospital bed and waits for his family to arrive and surround him.  He has things to say, and apologies to make.  Weathered, with aching joints and years of hard work wrought in wrinkles upon his face… he’s had plenty of time to consider all that he’s done and all that he failed to do.  It’s time to make things right, before it’s too late to do so.

DECK USED:  MONSTAROT TAROT

Do What You Love

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was one of the harp string meditations.  I didn’t extend my yoga/physiotherapy today, and so I didn’t extend my meditation either.  It was a relaxing process, and for once I didn’t have a lot of distracting thoughts dragging me off center again and again.  It was also nice that Miss Luna came to snug up beside me while I meditated today, which isn’t something she does usually during my meditation time. During this time she usually settles in at the foot of the bed a few feet from me instead.

Next World TarotToday’s draw is the Page of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s drive, passion, and that inner spark in the soul that spurs on one’s interests and enthusiasm.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the little green leaf on the staff the figure holds, and the little green lizards.   This is in relation to the very apocalyptic looking surroundings they are in the middle off.  The environment is filled with litter, the bridge in the background appears dilapidated. And yet… there is life here. Not just in the figure that is front and center, but also the lizards that surround her, the sprigs of new leaves on the staff in her hand, and the small tattered looking flowers among the scattered rubble.

This speaks to me of perseverance. Even when everything falls apart?  That inner spark within you will help you to survive, to carry on, and even to thrive under these conditions. This inner spark that lives within your soul is the seat of one’s adaptability as well as the source of life’s burning drive to survive at all costs.  Feed this inner spark the things you love to do… and it will turn into a blaze that will burn through adversity.

Do what you love.

DECK USED:  NEXT WORLD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I feel like I’m struggling to see clearly.
Question: How would my life improve if I accepted that reality is inherently subjective and clarity is a myth?

Vivid Journey Tarot

Reading Summary: A crap load of misunderstandings (Five of Wands) and spurred on by clouded judgments (Judgement) making for feelings of defensiveness (Nine of Wands) that get in the way of positive relationships and good choices (The Lovers). Creating imbalance (Two of Pentacles Rx).

Take Away: When you accept that clarity is a myth, you stop striving for it. Yes, perfect clarity is unattainable because we are not omni-cognizant. But, that does not mean that we should not strive for perspectives beyond our own so that we can get a better idea of what’s going on and, as a result, obtain more clarity than we have when we are closed-mindedly willing to only look at our own view and our own perspective.

Once again, I think I missed the point of the question. I understand these questions are supposed to lead people to a healthier outlook, but all I see this question doing is leading them to a more close minded outlook and lack of perspective.

DECK USED:  VIVID JOURNEY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Topic:  Hold Tight / Let Breathe / Set Free

Alan Tarot - Il Tarocchi di AlanHold TightThe World – I need to hold tight to my path and the knowledge that each day is a new day.  Life goes through cycles, and with each cycle we learn and evolve, becoming more than we were before. My chosen path through these cycles is to improve… to become better.  Better at the things I do, better at my influence on others, better at being myself, and an all around better person.

Let BreatheKnight of Spades and Seven of Heart – I need to ease up on the idea that I always have to move forward and choose which direction to go in right away. So often we feel like every decision needs to be made right away, and that can feel overwhelming. It’s okay to move slow and mull over your choices before making a decision. Giving yourself some space by being a bit less impulsive in your decision making process is a good thing.

Set FreeThe Chariot – I need to let go of the idea that participating in any kind of conflict actually gets me somewhere. Things like blatant disrespect or perceived injustices can often cause me to get my back up. The thing is?  During these moments I want to jump in, in that moment, and give a bit of a verbal “smack down” for that kind of thing. But, that is rarely a wise choice and rarely gets you anywhere.

DECK USED:  ALAN TAROT

Lionharts #TheAugustTarot#ElementalChallenge
Question: Earth, I ground myself in you. What is your message for me?

Encore Tarot

Reading Summary: Instilling more joy and positivity (The Sun) will allow you to triumph (Five of Swords) in your work life (Eight of Coins).

Take Away: The message here is to remember that doing what you love is supposed to be fun.  Too often I get so wrapped up in the “work” side of things that I forget to truly focus on and appreciate the pleasure that my work gives me.  This includes not just my jewelry design business, but also extends to my work on the farm, at the nail salon, and even into my client readings as well.

DECK USED:  ENCORE TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How do I feel when I look inside myself?

Tabula Mundi Tarot in MinimaReading Summary:  Like an esoteric teacher that is also still learning (Hierophant on its side). Someone that walks their own path (Three of Wands), and has a lot of inner shadows (The Aeon Rx).

Side Note: My first impression of this deck is not particularly positive. The imagery feels chaotic and abrasive. I’ll continue to keep it in the rotation for the month, tho, as I need some time with it to get to know it a bit better.

Take Away:  The cards indicate that I identify with being a guide and teacher, but only when I feel that I am learning from others as much as I am giving to them in turn.  The cards indicate as well that when looking inside myself I can clearly see and feel that I have a clear path and direction to my life, but that my soul is clouded by shadows.

DECK USED:  TABULA MUNDI TAROT IN MINIMA

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_8178Propagation

Vibrant
and full of promise
colorful and bright.
Sticky bulbs
of procreation
ready to take flight.
And every touch
that comes
spreads potential
far and wide.

The purpose of flower’s beautiful colors and fragrant scent is to draw in assistance to spread their pollen far and wide.  This allows for reproduction as the pollen from one flower finds its way to another of its kind.   It is a continuous cycle of potential that is repeated again and again, a delicate dance that allows the future to be build from the present… from chance and cooperation.

This is the essence of potential in all things, and something I think about often.  Without chance and cooperation… there is no potential.  No matter if you are a flower… a tree… an insect… an animal… or a person.

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Full Moon in Aquarius – August 2020

The Hilda Tarot - Full Moon In Aquarius 2020

Yesterday was the full moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us.  Today’s spread is brought to you by Ethony‘s Tarot By the Moon series.

1. What possibilities are being offered to me right now?

Death Rx – A time of peace is being offered to me.  Change is so often a constant in life, and organic change is a theme that runs throughout a life like the circulation system of a body.  But there are moments of pause… of peace.  Of quiet.  These moments are not stagnancy, they are an opportunity to take a deep breath and rest before life moves on into the next change.

2. What area of my life is craving freedom and experimentation? (check
the suit for big clues)

Page of Pentacles – Get your ass outside and have more fun with it.  Yes, hiking in the woods is peaceful and amazing, but allow it to do more than just be refreshing.  Allow these experiences to brighten your day and lighten your heart. Find your excitement, and stoke that fire again so that your enthusiasm spills over into a joyous sense of discovery.

3. Where can I be more open minded?

The Fool – Being jaded is boring.  Don’t allow yourself to become boring.

4. What old habits/beliefs need to be released under this Full Moon?

Strength – Heroism is not always a sign of strength.  Sometimes? It’s a sign of weakness and stupidity. Don’t mistake risk-taking behavior for strength… strength comes from within in relation to doing what needs done and how you grow from those experiences. It has nothing to do with putting yourself in unnecessary danger.

5. Where do I need to go with the flow?

Four of Wands – Let your freak flag fly.  It’s okay to be silly now and then.  The entire theme of this reading (with the exception of the allowance of rest) supports this need to let down your hair, kick off your shoes, and just let yourself have a little more fun with life.   It’s okay.  The world isn’t going to fall apart if you have a little fun and smile freely a bit more often.

DECK USED: THE HILDA TAROT

Grounded Creativity

Today’s meditation was… skipped.  I know I should have done it and I even thought that I should do it.  But you know how sometimes we avoid doing things or procrastinate on them even when they are little tiny things that are super simple.  We don’t know -why- we procrastinate on them, but the urge to do so is nearly irresistible?   That was how my meditation ended up getting skipped today.

Tomorrow is a new day.

Tarot of the SidheToday’s draw is the Maker King (King of Pentacles) which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of finance, resources, manifestations, health, and the physical world.  This often presents itself as themes that have to do with authority figures with good solid financial sense, health authorities, etc.

What stood out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card when I first saw it was the vines that grow up beneath the anvil, creating the anvil’s base and swirling  to coil upon it as if to support and stabilize it.

This speaks to me of a sense of grounding and stabilization in one’s creative manifestations.  When you take an idea and apply passion to it… it then manifests into reality.  Sometimes, in order to take that step to manifest something from the insubstantial realm of ideas into a physical presence,  you need a little extra support… a little extra grounding.

I need a little extra grounding.

Everything feels better when I have that support and grounding in place.  Everything feels much more right when I’m well grounded… and that “everything” includes the creative process that swirls within me and allows me to take my ideas and passions… and turn them into something real in the physical world.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE SIDHE

#TarotForGrowthAugust Challenge Prompt
Topic: I feel like I’m struggling to see clearly.
Question: What role does fear play in my willingness to invalidate my personal experiences and perceptions?

Pride Tarot

Reading Summary: The instability of a world with so many ups and downs (Wheel of Fortune) can often cause me to doubt my strength (Strength Rx) and give rise to the urge to retreat (Four of Cups).

Take Away:  I’m not sure how this answer relates to the question asked, although the cards were extremely clear with me on what they were saying.  I’m just… not seeing the connection. Yes, fear of instability invalidates me, but I’m not sure it invalidates my experiences and perceptions…. unless it is in reference to the fact that I have -less- of them due to retreating from the world when my fear kicks in.  Oh… and there it is.

DECK USED:  PRIDE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care this full moon?

Odd Hand TarotReading Summary: Taking things slow (Knight of Pentacles) and with care (the spikes along the border of the Knight of Pentacles make me think of those nails that they put on the edges of rooftops to keep away birds). Allow yourself some impulsivity (Knight of Swords) as long as it doesn’t involve spending money (King of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Practice some practical impulsivity… just do so with care.  It’s okay to slow down.   Those nails really stick out to me in that card today and warn of needing to watch my step both in my impulsive actions as well as in my finances. 

DECK USED:  ODD HAND TAROT

Lionharts #TheAugustTarot#ElementalChallenge
Question: Where can the element of Earth support me right now?

Tarot of Why

Reading Summary: The earth is not just a stabilizing force, but also a teacher (Hierophant). Spending more time in the earth’s embrace can help to teach me a better path to stability (Four of Pentacles) and how to not just experience joy, but embrace it (The Sun and the man’s hand that actually holds onto the sun in the sky).

Take Away:  I am happiest when I’m out in the woods.  This isn’t a secret, nor is it a surprise. But even beyond the forests and the trees, the earth is the element that is my greatest teacher in life, as well as my greatest of stabilizing forces.  I find joy in spending time with the earth, whether that is in the forests I love, tilling my boss’ fields, or just sitting in the park with my shoes off.  The energy that the earth provides is not just stabilizing, but lightens and brightens my soul.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF WHY

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What stops me from slowing down?

Hero Analysis for the Future #79 MHA Tarot

Reading Summary: What steals away (Seven of Swords) my ability to slow down, and keeps me overburdened (Ten of Wands), is my constant need/want for more (Page of Swords).

Take Away:  This is about my need to push.  It’s not my drive that is the problem, but rather a sense of insatiability when it comes to doing better and doing more.  It’s not healthy, and I know that… nor does it come from a healthy place.  And yet I continue to allow it to be a problem because it allows me to accomplish so much more than I would otherwise. 

It’s a bad (but very honest) excuse.

DECK USED:  HERO ANALYSIS FOR THE FUTURE #79 MHA TAROT

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_9317The Classics

Some things
survive forever
From year to year
decade to decade
century to century
These are the things
that are too good
to ever
be taken for granted.
Like kisses.

I love you so f’ing much.

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