Selfishness
Alone I stand
on the hill
and turn in a circle
as I feel the wind
nip at my skin
and ache
deep in my soul
where the wind
can’t touch
I miss you
and I don’t know
how to say it
without sounding
selfish
Month: March 2022
Fresh Air Lenormand Reading
What is weighing on my mind right now?
La Femme and La Maison – Nesting issues. I feel like I’m twisting in the wind when it comes to the bookshelves that I want to put up and get organized. I need to start taking things one small step at a time instead of looking at the whole with longing and berating myself for not getting anything done.
How can I free myself from these oppressive thoughts?
Le Deuil and Le Livre – It’s time to set aside old ways and instead seek new, better methods and options. These old habits aren’t serving me and they’re actually harming me as well as my progress. Time to find a better way forward.
What fresh new perspective will benefit me?
Le Chance and Le Serpent – Keep a skeptical eye on lady luck right now. There’s a lot of hidden pitfalls among the weeds at the side of your path right now, and you can’t depend on lady luck to have your back in all things. Better to watch your step… just in case.
DECK USED: LE NOUVEL ORACLE DU PETIT LENORMAND
Listen to the King of Cups
Today’s meditation was skipped (again).
Today’s draw is the King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, intuition, and creativity.
This card often represents my partner Gideon, as he carries within him the qualities of the King of Cups and is very often the personification of this card. He is definitely of the “alpha” variety as his personality is quite dominant, but in a supportive way that fosters trust and connection. He understands the struggle of emotions and is always there to guide and/or support as needed.
Today, as I was pulling my card, I was talking with Gideon in Trillian, and this is what he was saying just as his card fell out of the deck.
The message in today’s card is a reminder to make sure that I am listening to Gideon. Listen to him when he tries to lift you up. Listen to him when he provides you with support. Listen to him as he reaches for you to help ease your feelings of stress and anxiety.
DECK USED: LUIS ROYO’S LABYRINTH TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: Is generosity an inherent virtue, or is it learned behavior?
Reading Summary: It is something that we learn from those around us (Ville), and from those that lead us (Dirigeant)… it is about what lies behind us (Savoir Antérieur).
Take Away: These cards indicate that generosity is learned behavior, and not something that we are inherently born with. We learn through the example of others, and through reflecting back on those examples to help guide us forward in or own behaviors.
I wouldn’t say that -all- generosity is learned behavior, but in my opinion? I’d say that the cards are correct when it comes to the majority of cases.
DECK USED: VIES ANTÉRIEURES
The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for March 1st and 2nd
What does intuition mean for me?
Nine of Wands, Five of Swords RX atop The Fool – It is a way for me to understand the world and diffuse conflict through better boundaries. Without my intuition to guide me in social situations, I can often feel like an idiot fumbling along in the dark without any real guidance or skill. Intuition gives me the ability to overcome this feeling and navigate such situations more smoothly.
How can I better listen to my inner voice?
Page of Pentacles and Queen of Pentacles – Remember that you still have a lot to learn and need to take your time in doing it. Don’t rush, but allow things to move at their own pace while focusing on how to nurture yourself through the journey. When you are kind to yourself, you give yourself more room in which to grow.
DECK USED: LUIS ROYO’S LABYRINTH TAROT
I’m playing a bit of catch-up at the moment and I can’t remember what my self-kindness was for this day.
Gideon’s Challenge
The Evergreens
Beneath the thaw
are prickly bits
delicate spines
that are
far more hardy
than implied
by their fine needles
and fragile spines
yet life remains
green and strong
weathering
the storms
as we all
wait for spring
to arrive
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
Weekly Creativity Prompt – Different Perspectives
Prompt: “Pull the card from your deck(s) that matches the card posted below. Compare the imagery between the card provided below and the card(s) from your own deck(s). How would you read them differently and why?”
Tarot of the Hidden Realm – In this imagery (not surprisingly), I see wishes and hope. In the golden glow and wistful expression there is hope for good things to come, and in the blowing purse of her lips and preparation to send seeds to fly is the wish she will use to give those hopes flight.
The thing is? Wishes sometimes come true, but sometimes they don’t. Blowing those seeds into the wind sets flight to one’s hopes and wishes, but it doesn’t guarantee results.
The Greater Secrets Tarot – (From the COTD reading I did on this card the other day.)
In the imagery of this card we see a representation of the three fates.
The idea of the three faiths that not everything is under our control, no matter how much we want it to be. Some things will be decided for us, depending on the situation and external forces. There’s nothing we can do about this except to be adaptable and prepared to adjust to what is thrown in our way upon our path by chance or fate.
Gravity Falls Major Arcana – The “shut your yap” in this card says it all for me where this card is concerned. Well, that and the reference in the imagery back to the “Wheel of Fortune” game show. Here, again, I see an indication that being clever and making smart decisions can help to protect one from the fickleness of chance, but not mitigate it entirely. Sometimes you just have to accept what’s being dealt and deal with it.
Orphans of Dudleytown Tarot – Could you imagine the amount of balance it takes to ride one of those penny-farthing bikes? It’s not as if you can stick out a leg to catch yourself if you begin to fall. It’s almost a unicycle. Unicycle with training wheels, right? What I see in this card is that when you take risks, there’s a chance you could fall down. You have to make the decision for yourself if the risk is worth the chance you take or not.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE HIDDEN REALM, ORPHANS OF DUDLEYTOWN TAROT, GRAVITY FALLS MAJOR ARCANA, THE GREATER SECRETS TAROT
Fate and Adaptability
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Wheel of Fortune, which is traditionally a representation of
In the imagery of this card we see a representation of the three fates.
The idea of the three faiths that not everything is under our control, no matter how much we want it to be. Some things will be decided for us, depending on the situation and external forces. There’s nothing we can do about this except to be adaptable and prepared to adjust to what is thrown in our way upon our path by chance or fate.
DECK USED: THE GREATER SECRETS TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for March 1st: What do I need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?
Reading Summary: As you work on strengthening your connection with your guides (Guides and Gestation), remember that they are on your side and here out of a love for you, to help you and nurture you on your path (Amour).
Take Away: Now is a time of growth between you and your guides. To help facilitate this growth, you need to remember that they are on your side always. Trust doesn’t always come easy, and this reminder is here to help you keep this in mind as you move forward.
“We are here to provide guidance, not fuck you over.”
DECK USED: DRÁÔ ORACLE
Mr Lionharts’ #TheMarchTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for March 1st thru 3rd
Draw a card from an animal deck to reveal your animal guide for March.
Raccoon – Teamwork and finding healthy balance between independence and community, goal-oriented, ingenuity, industriousness, cleanliness, curiosity, adaptability, and equality.
Why are you showing up for me right now?
The Tower, Seven of Swords and Three of Cups – You’ve recently experienced a lot of “tower-type energy”. At this time, you need the love and support (as well as a bit of distraction) provided by those around you to help foster a stronger foundation and lift you up, so that you can continue to stand strong as you move forward.
How would you prefer me to work with you?
The Lovers and The Fool – “Use the energy I possess to forge a path forward that is both healthier and happier, and allows you to have more fun with less worries and stress.”
DECKS USED: ANIMAL TOTEMS AND THE I-CHING, THE GREATER SECRETS TAROT
I’m playing a bit of catch-up at the moment and I can’t remember what my self-kindness was for this day.
Twisting the Leaf 