Gideon’s Challenge

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Yesterday
so resolute
and then
the morning comes
second guesses
warring thoughts
a cacophony
within the mind
as guilt
and obligation
and responsibility
try to beat me
into submission.
And yet,
I persist.

I made the decision yesterday to take a week off from the business and  give myself some breathing room.  This isn’t a full vacation, of course, as I’ll still be working at the farm and the salon, but yet… it is a huge thing all the same. I’ve never taken time off voluntarily just for myself before.  Not ever.

So it’s not surprising that guilt and doubts would play havoc with my insides today concerning the decision.  Thing is though?  I need it.  I need some time.  I’m not letting the guilt and doubts turn me away from this.  I need the time… and I’m taking it.

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One thought on “Gideon’s Challenge

  1. Good for you, baby. I’m so proud of you for sticking to your decision and holding strong.

    You DO need this time off. You’ve never taken time just for you, just because you needed a break and not because of injury or sickness or some kind of demand from your family. This is for you and just as important, more important than those other reasons.

    I love you, man

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