Rest and Recovery

Today’s meditation…. turned into a nap.  It wasn’t intentional, but that’s how it went.  It was just a really stressful and very long day, and once I managed to stay still and quiet my mind, the sandman cracked me on the head and sent me to sleep.

Today’s draw was the Ten of Zephyrs, which is a representation of endings, restoration, and resurrection (among other more negative connotations) in the areas of intellect, the mind, logic, education, and instinct.  Some of the more negative meanings include resisting closure, painful endings, deep wounds, and betrayal.  The other side of this coin, though, is that it is also a card of recovery, healing from said wounds, and moving on.

What I saw (and see) in this card today is not a predator looking over prey, but rather that the vulture is watching over the birdboy as the boy rests and recovers from whatever has washed him out so egregiously.   It reminds me of you, and of our current situation as you watch over me and care for me while I not just recover from the drop, but work at bolstering myself for the trip coming up at the end of the month.

I know you are there.  I know you are watching.   You make me feel safe enough to let my guard down and work on myself, even with that keen gaze upon me the whole time.  For you?  Vulnerability is okay.

I love you.

Deck Used: Stolen Child Tarot

One thought on “Rest and Recovery

  1. Tell me what was so stressful about today, love. The upcoming trip? Or something more than just the typical post office day runs across the border and all?

    *Melts at the rest of the post because….because you’re you*

    I love you, my heart. I love that it’s okay to be vulnerable for me. That you trust me enough to let down your guard even when life has you worked up and torn down. I love that it’s me that you come to when you need a place to rest and be safe and loved.

    I will help you bolster yourself into finding that “topspace” or as close as you can get to it before you leave too. Whatever you need, my love. And even when or if you find that space to show the hard as fuck sharp edges, I’ll still be here when it becomes too much and you need to be soft and small again….even if just in the privacy of my arms while you rest.

    Mine, beautiful boy. All mine.

    Don’t forget to carry my heart with you. To remind you that you are loved, and that every little thing is going to be okay. You can do this.

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