Today’s meditation…. turned into a nap. It wasn’t intentional, but that’s how it went. It was just a really stressful and very long day, and once I managed to stay still and quiet my mind, the sandman cracked me on the head and sent me to sleep.
Today’s draw was the Ten of Zephyrs, which is a representation of endings, restoration, and resurrection (among other more negative connotations) in the areas of intellect, the mind, logic, education, and instinct. Some of the more negative meanings include resisting closure, painful endings, deep wounds, and betrayal. The other side of this coin, though, is that it is also a card of recovery, healing from said wounds, and moving on.
What I saw (and see) in this card today is not a predator looking over prey, but rather that the vulture is watching over the birdboy as the boy rests and recovers from whatever has washed him out so egregiously. It reminds me of you, and of our current situation as you watch over me and care for me while I not just recover from the drop, but work at bolstering myself for the trip coming up at the end of the month.
I know you are there. I know you are watching. You make me feel safe enough to let my guard down and work on myself, even with that keen gaze upon me the whole time. For you? Vulnerability is okay.
I love you.