Month: March 2022

What You Really Want To Be Doing

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Healing Waves TarotToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally a representation of the chaotic power of destruction, sudden changes, upheaval in one’s life, and the need to rebuild what has been torn down by these elements and factors.

Okay so hot take here, but what I see when I look at this card is… an orgasm.

Maybe it’s because today is orders day and Gideon and I had to cut our play short last night, and I’m eager to get back to the play we were doing because it was super hot and intimate… but that’s what I see.

Today’s message? Get what needs to be done finished so that you can go back to what (um… who) you -really- wanna do.

DECK USED:  HEALING WAVES TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for March 13th: What is blocking me right now?

Shaman's Dream OracleReading Summary: You are lost (Drifter) in a melancholy fog (Whale Song) instead of experiencing clarity and connection with the world around you (Jeweled Web).

Take Away: This has to do with the depression and the fact that you are stuck in the MDE’s pit right now.

Just remember that it won’t last forever and you will rise back to the surface again.  That clarity and connection will return, just as it has in every other MDE you’ve gone through.

DECK USED: THE SHAMAN’S DREAM ORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for March 13th: Do Spread #2
Question: A check-in on how I’m going to feel about living here once the construction across the alley from my place is finished.

Healing Waves TarotReading Summary: The gray shows that the emotions on this will start out “meh” and develop into thoughts of resentment before eventually settling into something more grounded and accepting.

There is no red in the last card. The amount in the first indicates the “meh” is suppressed anger that, once out in the open (red located on the arrows), will begin to heal (lack of red in Queen of Earth).

The blue in the first card is lacking in all the others, indicating that you are going to miss being able to see the sky more than you realize, and it will be a thorn in that suppressed anger’s “paw” that only time will be able to pull out.

Take Away:  Anger and resentment, a time of adjustment, and no indication of moving to a new location. This is on track with the first time that I pulled cards on this topic, indicating that the trajectory of my feelings concerning the new building going up across the alley hasn’t changed.

DECK USED:  HEALING WAVES TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I am playing catch up with this post, and I can’t remember what I might have done as a self-kindness on this day other than I know I made sure to eat my yogurt, take my vitamins, and drink my tea with its collagen peptides in it.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_9189The Hike’s End

A breathless moment
of inner heat
and dew of sweat
skimming skin
as the trail ends
suddenly
and the rock’s edge
appears
without warning
as trees
that had flanked
the journey
are now behind
and sea air
slaps cold and wet
against flushed cheeks

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Get Moving

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Twisted Circus TarotToday’s draw is the Three of Wands (same as yesterday), which is traditionally a representation of actively moving from a planning stage into action, picking a direction, and moving towards one’s goals.

Today’s imagery is far more traditional than what we received with yesterday’s card, and what I see here is a sun setting (as opposed to rising as I saw yesterday).

The resounding message that I get from the imagery in this card is “Get moving”.  It speaks of time a-wasting. The movement of the banners on the top of the staves speak of movement and motion, and the need to disrupt the stagnancy in one’s life with action.

DECK USED:  TWISTED CIRCUS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheMarchTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for March 13th thru 15th

Animal Tarot - Renewal CardMarch Animal Guide – Raccoon – Teamwork and finding healthy balance between independence and community, goal-oriented, ingenuity, industriousness, cleanliness, curiosity, adaptability, and equality.

In this card from the D Virtue’s Animal Tarot, the Raccoon takes the position of the Judgement card, which is titled “Renewal”. The quote on this card says “It’s time to get clarity about your life purpose and make changes so that you’re on the path most Divinely suited to you. Forgive what has been without judgment, and fearlessly embrace what’s to come.”

Twisted Circus TarotWhere should I pay more attention to the signs {of nature}?

The Star and The Chariot – Allow the things that lift you up to carry you forward. When you enjoy something, don’t discount it, but instead use it as fuel for your soul.

This means getting more time out in nature, and while out there, allowing your enthusiasm and the things that bring you joy to “carry you away” for a while.

How could I deepen my relationship with the divine around me?

Two of Wands and The Emperor – Own your plans and the direction you want to go in. Don’t be wishy-washy about these things, but instead step into the responsibility and make a plan that you can act on.  Plan… then act.  Make a plan, detail it out.  Get things sorted.  Then act.

What help can you offer to deepen my connection with nature?

Ten of Cups and Judgement – Don’t allow “should haves” to poison your paradise. People make mistakes. Let go of the judgements that are holding you back from true happiness.

Also, allow yourself to be less responsibility oriented. It’s okay to set all that shit aside for a bit.

DECK USED: TWISTED CIRCUS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Does time with Gideon still count if it’s three days in a row?  I hope so cuz today’s play was… so amazing.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_6382The Lure

Salt water
ripples
under a cloudy sky
reflecting back
the clouds
in gray shades
of green
that conceals
the dark depths
beneath
from view
and frigid waters
whisper
“Dive In”

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❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Animism Tarot, Lunar Oracle, Mystery Secrets Lenormand

Earth – Ace of Pentacles and La Visione – Focus on what is in your head that you want to manifest into the physical… and begin. Now is the time to get started.

There are two projects that fit this description right now, the shelves for my decks, and the website for my business. I don’t expect or even anticipate that either will get done this week, but these cards indicate that it’s time to get going on them both.

Air – The Lovers and La Fenice – As you begin to rise out of the ashes of your depression, focus on making good choices. In order to rise, you need to ensure that you further that by making all the healthy choices that you can.  It’s important, as it is only with these healthy choices that you can truly rise fully from the pit.

Water – Strength and L’Amore – Lean into your relationships with others for added strength this week. This is especially true when it comes to Gideon. His strength fosters your strength, and it is through leaning on others when you need that you are able to bolster your own strength and become better and stronger yourself.

Fire – The Hierophant and Luna Nueva – Lots to learn this week. Make sure you are throwing yourself into this research and learn from those with more experience than you. This is in reference to the need to begin looking into your new website.  As a previous reading you had done indicates, you are at the beginning and there’s much to learn. Delve in, but don’t expect it to just happen overnight.

Waning – Lily and Letter – Leave the old behind where it needs to be. Your past notes aren’t going to be a help in this, and it’s better to not go off of past research, but instead start fresh.

Waxing – Clover and Tower – A quiet week is ahead for you, and it’s time to start working on getting your taxes together.  There’s diligence that needs to be done.  You’ll find things will go nice and easy in this area in the week ahead if you spend the time getting things started.

Take Away – Paperwork and research are both good endeavors to lean into this week, as is spending time with Gideon and letting him help to bolster you up.  Make healthy choices to keep your rise out of the pit nice and steady with no setbacks.

DECKS USED:  ANIMISM TAROT, LUNAR ORACLE, MYSTERY SECRETS LENORMAND

The Little Pebble

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

The Nomad TarotToday’s draw is the Child of Earth (Page of Pentacles), which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world.

A little pebble in a sea of black. You wouldn’t think that it says that much, and yet… it speaks to me of a journey of learning and discovery, and the self doubt of those moments when something new is begun.  Sometimes, it can feel in these moments like we are all alone, fumbling in the dark.

Just as I am fumbling in the dark, struggling with manifesting what I want to accomplish, so too does the pebble fumble in the dark and feel alone in its struggles. There is a reminder here in this little pebble that even in the dark… we glow.  Brightly.  We shine… and so too do you shine, and I shine as well.  We all shine brightly, even in our moments of uncertainty and doubt.

DECK USED:  THE NOMAD TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for March 12th: When do I underestimate my intuitive abilities?

Ritual Clarity OracleReading Summary: In times of struggle and distress (The Knuckles), when you are feeling blocked and confused, or just plain lost in a fog (The Moon).

Take Away: During these times, you should be pausing and asking for guidance (The Planchette), and use your intuition like a road map instead of allowing yourself to become stymied in those feelings.

Instead of letting these negative emotions hold you back, a better choice here is to see these emotions as an indication to turn to your intuition to help you find your way free of the fog.

DECK USED: RITUAL CLARITY ORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for March 12th and 13th

The Nomad TarotHow am I doing mentally at this time?

Death and The World – Although you have been struggling with depression lately, you are now in transition to something better. It’s going to take time, but your on your way back out of the pit.

How can I improve upon where I am mentally over the week ahead?

Strength and Judgment – Hold strong against that inner narrative of judgement that is trying to keep you oppressed. You know that that inner narrative lies, so don’t buy into what it has to say.

Additional Question: In what way do these times of depression benefit me?

King of Earth atop Queen of Earth, The Hanged Man – The depression forces you to take time to ground and nurture yourself, and creates within you a stronger core by giving you a far wider scope of perspectives on both yourself and others.

DECK USED: THE NOMAD TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Like yesterday, I spent time with Gideon in play and it helped me in feeling more centered and less knotted internally.