Month: December 2019

Flipping the Table

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Today’s meditation was once again not done in the morning, as I was again waiting for the helper.  She did actually show up today, but she was late.  I hate when the phone jerks me out of my meditation and was expecting her earlier, thus… no meditation.   I will do my meditation before bed again tonight, and like last night, probably fall asleep part way through it.

Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is a double without a jumper, which means both cards dropped out of the deck together as one.  The cards in today’s draw are the Emperor and the Chariot cards.

These are both very strong cards that represent forms of dominance and control.

I had thought, when I pulled the cards this morning, that this was about work.  But after this evening, I know that it was a push for something else. A push to find some time for you… and for us… and for the time we’ve had tonight and the “tension relief” involved.

I know that we were trying not to allow me to drown during the holiday rush, but I think I needed that release of control and the giving it over to you for a bit.  I did drown, but it was just beneath the surface rather than deep within the depths, so hopefully the drop won’t be too bad.   Honestly?  If it is…. it was worth it.  I needed this time with you and that dynamic between us, that control and intensity that is an integral part of you and us.

DECK USED:  OSTARA TAROT

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: What relationship evolved the most this year?

Darkness of Light Tarot

Reading Summary:  At the beginning of the year I went through a severe depression (Five of Coins) and was very apathetic about the idea that my therapist had concerning a daily affirmation (Four of Cups). I decided, though, to to adjust the activity to something I could connect with (Death) which brought me to a place where I was more attuned to my emotions (Seven of Cups) and began to discover a new level of emotional depth within myself (Ace of Cups).

Take Away:  The relationship that has evolved the most over the past year is my relationship with myself and my emotions.  Thanks to the mental health card of the day activity that I do here on the blog every day, I have been able to not just heal and recover from my depression much faster than I have in previous MDE experiences, but I have found a new outlook as well, which as helped me in discovering and beginning to explore, and even accept,  a depth of emotion that I quite honestly didn’t think that I was capable of.

DECK USED:  DARKNESS OF LIGHT  TAROT

 

December Story Time (Part 1)

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Just a little creative writing and story telling exercise.  I will be starting something like this with you once your basic lessons are done with the tarot suits.

Parameters for Part 1:  Draw (at least) five cards. Use one card per sentence to tell us a fun fictional tale.

Wayhome Tarot

The Adventure Begins

There was once a young man at the end of his rope stuck upon a path that split in two different directions (Two of Swords).  He stood at the head of the path in indecision, unsure which way to go and seeking insight from his surroundings to give him a direction (Hanged Man).

One path lead to stability and responsibility, but would take a good deal of effort and balance to make work (Two of Pentacles).   The other path lead to adventure that would require a great deal of bravery and resistance (Nine of Wands).

What he really wants is success and accolades, though, and the path that contains adventure appeals to him the most because of this (Six of Wands).  Thus this is the path he chooses as he steps from the cross roads to seek the spark, gathering his energy and strength in close as he prepares to step into the unknown with the open receptivity for what is to come, but the stability of good sense to assist him in keeping him on his path (Mother of Swords).

DECK USED:  WAYHOME TAROT

 

Avoiding Overload

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Today’s meditation has not yet happened yet, as I thought I was getting up early to make sure everything was ready for the helper to arrive this morning.  Then, she didn’t arrive, so I ended up lying down for a couple more hours of sleep rather than staying up.   I will do the meditation before bed tonight, and have plans for it to be a self-directed visit to the cabin in the woods.

Three of Wands - Tarot of the Little Prince Today’s draw is the Three of Wands, which is a representation of

What I see in this card today is the dangers of becoming too  self-reliant.  The young man has a fire going on a windy day, and he is distracted by other tasks and not paying close attention to the potential danger of the fire’s sparks being set loose through the carry of the air.

It is yet another reminder that I need to be sure I’m asking for help at the moment.  And it’s a good one, because I nearly told my helper to forget about coming this week.  After standing me up for two days in a row, she says she’s coming tomorrow and I honestly wanted to turn around and say no.    But I DO need the help… so I’m going to let her come.

I’m definitely going to be looking for a new helper come the new year tho.  I don’t mind her flaking out now and then through most of the year, but I made it very clear that this time of year is the major focus of why I hired a helper in the first place.  The rest of the year her help is appreciated… but at this time of year it’s needed.  If she can’t hold up to that part of things, I need someone that can.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: How can I honor that discovery? (Building off yesterday’s read.)

Herbal Healing Tarot

Reading Summary: Take this new perspective (Ace of Swords) and open myself up to it (Two of Cups), because trying to charge ahead and do everything myself (Knight of Wands) is a recipe for disaster (Five of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Usually, this lesson is about work and pushing myself too hard.  In this case, it is a very similar lesson, but it has to do with allowing others in to be a support system to my emotional health.  This defense mechanism doesn’t really serve my well being, and if I want to honor this realization about myself, I need to consciously take steps to avoid allowing that defense mechanism to take control.

DECK USED:  HERBAL HEALING TAROT

 

Self Care Saturday (on Sunday)

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As I’ve mentioned before, these readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and are not meant as a predictive reading.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

SCS

Earth – Five of Swords and Trust – It will be important to remember to trust in yourself over the next week in order to better work through the struggles that the week will bring. These struggles more than likely have to do with the holiday rush, and I need to remember that I am strong enough and resilient enough to work through this time of year without things falling apart completely.

Air – Knight of Pentacles and Return – I need to remember to balance all that hard work and  productivity that I have going on right now with some time outside among the trees. My mind is becoming crazily cluttered during all this work going on right now. If I want to keep things in balance, I need to remember to connect with those things that strengthen my roots.

Water – Five of Pentacles, Soften, Revive – This appears to be a recurring theme this week. The cards indicate I need to stop closing myself off and make sure I remain open to the support of others in my life to help me keep my emotions not just balanced, but uplifted and out of the dark pit that they can sometimes fall into.

Fire – Four of Cups and Distance – Step back from the apathy, but keep the distance. I can’t explore my creative spark right now when my drive and ambition is being challenged by an overwhelm of work. Don’t allow this separation from my creative spark to bring me down. The holiday rush will be over soon and I can return to that spark once more.

Waning – He of the Fiery Sword – That fierce, go-get-em energy that pushes forward, ever forward towards justice and right and the goals that require an extra oomph of drive.

Waxing – Gloominous Doom – In the week ahead it will be important to pay attention to self-destructive habits and ensure that I do not begin to slide down the slippery slope of pessimism and negativity that can often come with the self destructive urges that can often visit and draw my eye and interest.

Take Away – It appears that this week is going to be a bit of a struggle, especially on the mental and emotional level. I need to make sure I watch out for pitfalls that could cause me to slip into a depression either in the now, or in the near future once things slow down. A little extra self-care and me-time could go a long way this week in helping keep things balanced and healthy.

DECKS USED: ANIMA MUNDI TAROT, WISDOM OF THE FOREST ORACLE, BRIAN FROUD’S FAIRIES’ ORACLE

 

Sharing Creativity with Others

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Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was focused on auditory input during meditation.   That is to say, it focused on letting in external sounds and incorporating them into your meditation rather than trying to block them out.   I’ve done this meditation before, and it’s been very relaxing.  Unfortunately, I had a hard time staying focused today, so I guess that leads back to less serenity and more “mental bench presses” for today’s meditation as a whole.

Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of emotion, creativity, relationships, and intuition.  This often comes across as the spark of new creative opportunities, curiosity, and learning through intuition.

When I saw today’s card, what I saw was the opportunity to share my creativity with others.  This is something I do through my jewelry design all the time, and through our literary RP as well.  The appearance of the Page of Cups in today’s draw is a reminder of the pleasure that I receive in the sharing of my creativity with others.

During this time of year I have a habit of closing down, my focus narrowing in tighter and tighter until I am blocking out everything else.  The message in today’s draw is to be aware of this tendency and take care to not allow my focus to narrow too much.

DECK USED:  OSTARA TAROT

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: What did I discover about myself this year?

Light Seer’s Tarot

Reading Summary: In times of struggle and healing (Ten of Swords), no matter how chaotic things are if I make the choice (Two of Swords) to work with others rather than retreating into myself (Three of Pentacles), the end result of those moments is better (Judgement) than when I try to ride it out on my own.

Take Away: As mentioned earlier in this post, when it comes to times of stress and struggle, as well as the healing that comes afterward, my natural defense mechanism is to close myself off and retreat inward.   One of the things I have discovered, though, is that this is not healthy for me.  A better route, that is healthy and healing, is to fight that urge and make the choice to reach out to others for support instead.

This doesn’t, of course, negate my natural defense response… but it does give me perspective on a healthier option to explore once I realize I’ve begun closing myself off.

DECK USED:  LIGHT SEER’S TAROT

 

You Have What You Need

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Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long, and focused on… to be honest?  I don’t remember.  I do remember that when I started the practice that my anxiety was up, and by the time I finished with the meditation my anxiety was back under control, which was really nice.    I just don’t remember whatever the topic was.

Tarot of the Little Prince Today’s draw is a double without a jumper, which means both cards came out of the deck together.  The cards in today’s draw are The Magician and the Five of Swords.

The cards in today’s draw are a reminder that I have all of the skills and tools that I need in order to deal with struggle and conflict.  I just need to remember to utilize my resources in a way that is to my best advantage.

Sometimes when the shit hits the fan we forget that we have what we need to take control and come out on top.  Today’s draw is a reminder that these tools and skills are available to me any time I need them, especially when in the middle of conflict or crisis.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: How can I improve my relationship with my spirit in the coming year?

Forest of Enchantment Tarot

Reading Summary: This is an interesting repeat of a previous theme that speaks of taking what you need with you (Seven of Challenges) and removing yourself from difficult situations (Six of Challenges), in order to find a new path and method moving forward (Ace of Challenges).

Take Away:  I have a number of new methods and paths coming up in the coming year including shadow work that I plan to work on, and beginning to explore the mediumship ability that is no longer allowing itself to be ignored.  It will be important in keeping a healthy relationship with my spirit that I don’t forget the lessons and skills I have already learned, as well as keeping in mind that the purpose of these things changes is a positive one, when moving forward into this new beginning.

DECK USED:  FOREST OF ENCHANTMENT TAROT