Today’s meditation was ten minutes and twenty seconds long, and focused on the tone of our inner talk with ourselves.
The meditation specifically focused on questions that we ask ourselves, and whether these questions are fostering curiosity and exploration… or if they are self-defeating.
I think this is a good examination of our self talk, but I think it is limiting to consider only the questions we ask ourselves, instead of the inner discussions we have with ourselves as a whole.
The meditation was relaxing, and I even got a little bit of peace and quiet to do it by myself without somebody wandering into the room.
Today’s draw is the lovers card of the major arcana, which is a representation of choices, harmony, love and relationships, and the alignment of values between two or more parties.
The Lovers card is an encouragement to make the choice to give my family here a chance. Something has changed. There are still the occasional snide comment or ugly remark, but the lions share of the venom is missing compared to past experiences visiting this side of the family. Also missing are the sneaky, vindictive passive-aggressive tricks that used to be so common.
Whatever it is that made this change, I’m set a little off kilter by it and keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Today’s card is asking me to consider that maybe there isn’t another shoe. Maybe these changes are genuine and sincere.
This doesn’t mean I need to make up my mind right at this moment… but it is something to take into account and consider.