On My Feet

Today’s meditation was fourteen minutes and four seconds, and focused on using external cues as reminders to come back to center in your practice.

For the meditation, they used a chime. Each time the chime went off it was a reminder to bring your mind back to the breath and the relaxation of your body.

This actually worked really well for me. I realize that my mind wanders even more than I had thought it did. The audible cue helped me in catching myself in those thoughts and set them aside more quickly.

Today’s draw is the 13th card in the Major Arcana, the Death card. Although it can, this card rarely represents the death of a person or pet. Instead, it’s more common representation is that of change, as is the case for a number of cards in the tarot.

With the Death card, it’s about an organic change… the kind of change that comes on gradually and has now reached its end. Not only is it about that change specially, but also about the cleansing that accompanies such endings.

This card is telling me that my depression has come to an end. It’s been a long road and a hard climb to get out of that pit I’d fallen into… but I believe I’m there.

I feel this climb coming to an end is especially remarkable considering that I’ve been visiting at my mothers house for the past few days. The house is not usually conducive to positivity and healing where I am concerned.

And yet here I am. Standing outside the pit, with a little niggle of anxiety in my gut, but otherwise back on my feet. That hole in the ground that I fell into and the darkness that tangled me up is now behind me.

It’s time to move forward.

One thought on “On My Feet

  1. Coming to an ending in that climb out of the pit is a good thing, my love. And I very much look forward to the days ahead and welcoming you back into the light…and the curl of my arms.

    I am especially grateful that you came back from your visit none the worse for wear, all things considered. I think you can attribute the positivity and progress even while there to your focus on this activity and reminding yourself to be positive.

    I also think that this activity and possibly the sharing of it with me(and your knowledge of my expectation for these posts each day) is helping you tremendously in that movement forward and upward.

    I love you, my angel. So very much
    I’m so glad that you are home, and that you’re almost back “home” with me.

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