Be the Lamb, Not the Lion

Today’s meditation was fifteen minutes and eight seconds, And focused on something called the Beginners Mind.

This is the concept of looking at things through fresh eyes instead of through with preconceived notions. It’s about experiencing things as if they are new, and letting that sense of wonder at something new into your heart and mind.

I think this is something that I’ve started to forget to do. Not that I’ve forgotten how, but more that I’ve just forgotten to practice this in my life.

There was a time when I saw a lot of the world this way… but I feel that over time I’ve closed off and forgotten to experience things in this perspective. I think it’s possible that having that shift in perspective has made me a less positive person.

Perhaps it’s time to start consciously practicing Beginners Mind more regularly in an effort to make it a habit once more.

Today’s draw is the page of pentacles. The suit of Pentacles represents money, resources, and the physical plane. The Page represents an omega type of energy, personality, or person.

The page in the suit can also represent one’s focus and dedication towards something of the physical plane. For me, that is stability. Financial stability is one of my lifelong goals, no matter what tax bracket I’m in or how much money I have (or don’t have) in my pocket at any given time.

This card ties into my current worries about monetary issues and the extra spending that I did while I was in that pit of depression. It’s a reminder to be cautious when spending money for a while so that I can catch up.

The card is telling me to be the lamb. Do not be the lion, full of roar and fight and push and shove. Instead, focus on that goal of stability that I’ve built over the years of my life and accept it takes time and dedication. One small hiccup doesn’t change that in the long run.

At the same time, this card also reminds me not to be too hard on myself about those small spending that I did during that time. Stability is a long term goal. It takes patience and a long reach… not a short race.

One thought on “Be the Lamb, Not the Lion

  1. Your indulgences were small and come far between, love. I think you can forgive yourself this. And you’re absolutely right, slow and steady, man. I know it doesn’t always seem that way, but you are doing an amazing job in keeping your head above water…no matter what life throws at you. And life -enjoys- throwing things at you, giving you way more than your share of setbacks.

    All this considered? You are doing an amazing job and not only can you forgive yourself a few small indulgences, but I think you’ve earned them. In fact, I think you deserve far more than you allow yourself, which only gives me another reason to spoil you. *Grins*

    I love you, precious. You’re doing fine, just breathe and relax. Keep things slow and steady and you’ll get just where you need to go.


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