Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.
Mercy – You are in a cross roads between providing care and mercy for others, and providing compassion, forgiveness, and kindness for yourself. You can’t do both, and there are times right now where there is a definitely conflict when trying to choose. Don’t forget that sometimes? You need to come first. You always have more than enough compassion for everyone else, but never give yourself remotely enough.
The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.
Bringer of Light – Let go of the dishonesty that you have been given, and let go of the resentment that those lies have caused. You know the truth, and can see clearly the nature of those that you thought were above reproach. You know now… which is better than not knowing at all. Take that knowledge and clarity of sight with you moving forward, but leave behind the resentment and lies you were fed.
What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.
Solitude – Be sure that you are giving yourself the alone time that you need. In order to process, you often need time alone, and forsaking your need for it will only create chaos in your life. Give yourself that peace and solitude that you need to work through your thoughts and feelings at your own pace.
Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.
Grounding – Make sure when you do grounding exercises that you aren’t going too far into it. If you’re not careful, it can drag you down into the dark. Even the most healthiest of things can become unhealthy when taken to excess.
The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.
The Herbalist – Lean into and listen to those recommendations that have a holistic bent. Between the new therapy treatment you’re in, the chronic pain, and other medical conditions… sometimes it’s the simplest answers that are the right ones, especially with how sensitive you are to certain medications and treatments. Holistic approaches can often provide you with a more gentle option.
The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.
Harmony – The betrayals of those that you thought were your friends and gave your trust to stain the friendships you have now with a fear of a repeat experience. It causes distance in your friendships with others, as you struggle to relax and go with the flow. Its time to revisit those betrayals and work on easing those fears that are always there holding you back. (This is about the “pissant” incident.)
Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.
Summer Solstice – Instead of focusing upon those above mentioned betrayals, take time to focus on the good times and good experiences you’ve had instead. Not everyone you’ve come across was like those you were hurt by in that incident. The pain sticks more easily, but the good times are there too and need to be remembered in order to combat the lingering of bad memories.
A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.
Beltane – Spring and early summer is a time of high spirits and high energy. Make sure that as you revel in this energy peak that you don’t over-commit yourself to responsibilities that will later feel too heavy.
Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.
Romance – Seize the opportunity while it’s there for the taking to spend extra time with Gideon and give him extra attention. It’s not always possible have that extra time, and right now? You do. Use it to make him feel cherished and strengthen the bond between you.
Message from the Spirit World – Love is all you need. This spring has been a time to reconnect with Gideon. That connection is one of the most naturally healing things in your life, and getting a chance for both of you to wallow in it is healing for you both right now.
Message from the Mind’s World – Sometimes when the truth of something is revealed, you need to take time to yourself to fully process. This time isn’t selfish, but a kindness of compassion that allows you to “absorb the blow” of surprise and process it in your own way and at your own pace.
Message from the Physical World – This summer has the potential to allow you to find a connection with your body that is more copacetic and in harmony than it has been for a while. Make sure you are using this time to practice healthy grounding exercises such as meditation and shinrin-yoku.
Twisting the Leaf 