An Issue Resolved
Tangled knots
begin to unfurl
as relief slips in
a little at a time
and as much caution
is given in the moment
hope blooms hot
and bright
in the deep inhales
between breaths
Anger should linger
after mistreatment
and yet
I’m just so happy
it’s over
Tomorrow is the full “Snow” moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us. Today’s spread is about the medicine within, and brought to you by Ethony‘s Tarot by the Moon series.
Where is my power during this full moon?
L’Amour en Destinée – Place your trust and confidence in the cycles of life and your belief in the universe to provide you with opportunities to thrive. Shit happens, it’s a part of life. Remember that you are a survivor and will ride the upswing with a strong grip. You will not drown, for there is still too much yet to be had.
What belief, relationship, or habit no longer serves me?
Le Souffle de L’Amour – What is no longer serving you, at least at this time, is belief and habit that drive you to fight even when you are powerless. Try using these moments of powerlessness to rest instead, and to prepare for opportunity to show its face.
What area of life could benefit from me taking a risk?
Les Trois Temples – Here we see an encouragement to let ourselves delve into the passion and connection that sex provides. There is more to sex than physical unity, and this card is an encouragement to connect more deeply, without fear, and allow that connection to flourish through the three centers of the body, the heart, and the mind.
Where am I being called to be creative and think outside the box?
Les Voiles de L’Amour – Instead of focusing on what’s not going right, focus on what is. You’ve just experienced a huge upset with a great deal of anxiety. The thing is? Instead of waiting for the next shoe to drop, you should be enjoying this time, breathing in and letting the calm wash over you as you take pleasure in the moment. The future will take care of itself, don’t let your worries block your view of what you have to cherish and enjoy in the present.
Where am I seeking validation in my life?
Le Mystère Amoureux – Self care is not something that you can be given by others, it’s something you have to do for yourself. Validation won’t come from others, no matter how much you want it to. It is within that you need to find what you seek, and that includes the motivation to actually do the things that tend to your well being rather than allowing distractions to pull you from the love you need to receive… from yourself.
Full Moon advice from the Minoan Goddess Amalthea.
L’Amour Cosmique -Step away from mental rigidity and allow fluidity, curiosity, and adaptation to take the wheel. Struggles and turbulence are an opportunity to show how well you can bounce back from a stumble. Don’t allow these distractions to pull you off course of your chosen path towards the person you want to become and where you want to go in your life.
Today’s meditation was skipped. It was suggested by the cards but all I really wanted today was time with Gideon.
Today’s draw is the Two of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of balancing different aspects of one’s life, struggling with prioritizing multiple responsibilities or projects, and themes to do with time management. This card can often indicate the ability to adapt to a constantly changing playing ground in one’s life.
The imagery in this card absolutely says to me “both need equal attention”. Not that I’ve been with a woman in… well, a really long time now. Gideon and I have been together going on 14 years, so at least a bit longer than that. But, in my experience? When it comes to pleasure, foreplay, and breasts… both need equal attention.
The card is sexy, but the message? That is about making sure I’m balancing my needs with my business and my business with time spent with Gideon. Only through a modicum of balance can I make sure to eek out as much pleasure from the day as possible while still managing to get my responsibilities taken care of.
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for February 14th: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this upcoming full moon?
Reading Summary: Gideon (Two of Cups) has all the tools needed (The Magician) to help you keep from twisting in the wind in your current situation (Five of Swords). Allow him to distract you and use those tools to make you feel happy and loved (Ten of Cups).
Take Away: You need the uplift, and Gideon is the one to give it to you. Let him sweep you up into experiences that bring joy and pleasure into your life. You need these to help in counteracting the struggles that you’re dealing with right now.
I agreed that I’ll call the doctor tomorrow about losing time.
Walk In the Woods
Tenderhearted
tender soul
and tender footed
in the snow
a handful of tears
drip down my face
and knots unfurl
and an
oh so slow pace
but the fresh
crisp air
smooth and clean
eases almost
everything
How can I accept myself as I am today?
Nine of Coins – Take some time to look at and admire all that you have accomplished and recognize how well off you actually are. Give yourself credit for all that you’ve done.
What can I do to show myself love today?
Four of Cups – Meditate. Let go of your dissatisfaction and disillusionment. Accept that you have done what you can for today, and that it’s out of your hands now until tomorrow. Brooding on the issue is not going to help you, and is forcing you into an unhealthy state.
How can I best express my love today?
Hanged Man Rx, Seven of Wands atop Chariot Rx – Restrain yourself from going gung-ho into “fight mode”. You know you’re in the right, but getting up in arms is not going to resolve things any sooner. You will draw in more bees with honey than vinegar.
Something someone else does to show me love.
Page of Wands – They give you new and exciting things to focus on to take your mind off of the things that you can’t deal with right now. Gideon, in particular, has been working to distract you through your shared passions and new adventures you create together in your play.
Something that will bring more love into my life.
Three of Swords – Acknowledge your pain, sense of betrayal, and disillusionment, and then let it go instead of holding onto it so that it continues to bleed you. Don’t coil yourself around that pain, or it will continue to cut you over and over again.
Today’s meditation was skipped, although I settled in for some piriformis exercises and have been doing some deep breathing off and on throughout the day to work on keeping my anxiety under control.
Today’s draw is the Six of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of success, especially the sort of success that garners public recognition, people pleasing, high praise from others, and public accolades.
Although the figure in this card’s imagery is successful and holds their laurel wreath high, their head is bowed at an angle that suggests that their success is hard won and the weight of that battle weighs upon them.
The message here in this card is a reminder that you are not entirely helpless, even when it feels like it. Make those happy that you can. You’re limping, but not dead yet.
This is about the issues with Etsy, and a reminder that although I cannot reply to customer inquiries at the moment, renew sold out items, process returns or refunds, etc. I can continue to fill orders. It’s a reminder to do what I can until I can once more do everything needed.
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #2
Topic: Current security issues with Etsy.
Reading Summary: You feel completely undermined (King of Pentacles Rx) at the moment and more than a little betrayed (Imagery in the Ten of Swords). It echoes back to how you felt with the PayPal debacle (Four of Cups atop Three of Swords). Take this as a time to chill (Four of Swords) until balance can be restored (Six of Pentacles).
There is a reminder in the color correlation between the Cups in the Six of Cups and the Coins in the Six of Coins, combined with the direction that the figure in the cups faces as if looking to the pentacles figure’s juggling. It is a reminder that just because you were treated so poorly in the past issue with PayPal does not mean you will receive the same treatment this time around.
The green in the Four of Swords bleeds into the bottom right corner of the Three of Swords, a reminder that times of struggle and disappointment are a time to take a step back. To rest, meditate, and recuperate from the shock and pain of the struggle, trial, or test you have been confronted with. This green then flows upward into the Ten of Swords, indicating that to not heed that need for rest can make things far worse in the end.
The orange glow that is shared between the Four of Swords and the King of Pentacles Rx then offers promise that taking the rest needed can help restore a sense of balance and groundedness, even when dealing with said trials, tests, and struggles.
Take Away: The cards have been saying this a lot over the past few days. Rest. Recover. Recharge. It’s hard for me to let go of control and ease myself away from an issue. I’m so geared towards picking at things until I fix them that not getting anywhere with the picking causes a lot of anxiety. I need to take a breath and step back, letting things sort themselves out in their own time. It’s much harder this time around than it sounds.
Lots of good crying in play with Gideon today. Heartrending stuff. But… I actually feel like I needed the cry, and feel a bit better after having done so.
Twisting the Leaf 