Responsibilities Come First

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Smoke, Ash & Embers TarotToday’s draw is the Emperor card, which is traditionally a representation of “big dick energy”.  Right so that’s a very modern way of saying what this card represents, which is to say the Emperor is about authority, leadership, structure, and responsibility with a focus on the “greater good”.

Here in this image we see a dragon perched atop his throne looking over his territory.  He holds treasure in one hand and roars his vitality and power into the night for all to hear and acknowledge.

The imagery in this card is all about claiming what’s yours.  It says, “Own it. Do it. Get it good.”  As today is an orders day, it is a reminder that I need to pour my energy into the responsible acts that come with running my business… with the knowledge that after tonight (well, and my drive north tomorrow) I’ll be on vacation.  Not yet… but soon.

DECK USED:  SMOKE, ASH & EMBERS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Question for February 17th
: What is my ancestral calling in my soul’s current journey?
{Draw three cards and use their meaning to describe your calling.}

Love Story Oracle CardsReading Summary: Learning to (Effort) forgive myself my mistakes and trespasses (Forgiveness) and trust that things will turn out okay even when it doesn’t feel like they will (Trust).

Take Away: My family carries a legacy of blame and shame that has been handed down from one generation to the next throughout my father’s side of the family.  It was used to keep children in line, used to keep adults in line, and used to suppress individuality and free choice.  In me, it comes out in the way that I am so cruel to myself when I make mistakes, or when things happen that feel like I’ve fucked up.

These cards indicate that my ancestors wish for me to break this pattern, and that to do so requires not just effort and forgiveness, but trust that even without punishment for the perceived wrongs I might have done, things will turn out alright in the end.

DECK USED: LOVE STORY ORACLE CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for February 17th
: Where have you been settling for “good enough” in your life?

Smoke, Ash & Embers TarotReading Summary: At times when you are feeling vulnerable and uncertain (The Moon), you have a habit of standing back from the fray (Five of Wands Rx) instead of standing strong and making sure shit stays fair balanced between all involved (The Emperor).

Take Away: The thing is?  Your moral compass requires fairness and balance. It’s very demanding of this fact, not just in how you are treated but also in how others are treated.  Nepotism, favoritism, and preferential treatment are not okay and will drive you up the wall.  As well, acts of disrespect and rudeness will send you into the fray to sort things out and return things to balance… except when you are feeling vulnerable and uncertain.  When you are imbalanced on the inside, it’s hard for you to step in, and when you do? You feel as if you are overreacting, which is not the case but you can’t help feeling that way.

For this reason, during these times of imbalance within yourself, you often have to avoid stepping in and leave things alone.  Accept that it’s “good enough” that you noticed and may be able to come back to it later rather than dealing with it at the moment.

DECK USED: SMOKE, ASH & EMBERS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took time to make a list of everything I have to get done tomorrow on my trip, so that I don’t have to overload my brain by trying and remember it all in my head and end up forgetting something as a result.

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_8503Morning Aerobics

I want to be
tangled
up in you
with limbs entwined
and hair
a mixture of
dark curls
and lighter ones
on the pillow case
as we try to climb
under
each other’s skin
again
and again

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Fresh Start Lenormand Reading

Fresh Start Lenormand Reading - The Chelsea Lenormand Red Edition

What is beginning to emerge in my life?

Book and Cross – The ability to add more skills and knowledge under your belt. There’s more to learn, and you are beginning to research all the avenues available to you to make this new venue of research into a success.  This is about the research I have been doing in making myself a functioning commerce website.  There’s a lot of options out there and a lot to learn to make things work.

How does this represent a fresh start for me?

Heart and Letter – Think of this as a love letter to yourself. By bringing this into being, you are giving yourself a sense of security that you have been lacking. It is an act of self-care and a message of self-love as you begin to work at providing for yourself something you’ve recently discovered that you desperately need.

How can I support this new cycle of growth?

Clover and Bouquet – Positivity and an optimistic outlook.  You need to not just see this new cycle as a self-kindness, but put to work the efforts to stay positive in order to keep things open for growth so that you don’t close down, close up, and end up becoming stagnant.  That positive outlook and energy will help keep things on the right track and flowing smoothly.

DECK USED:  CHELSEA LENORMAND RED EDITION