Luna’s Snake
Crazy, kooky
nutty girl
with a
brand new toy
she twists and rolls
tackling the snake
she plays pretend
as tongue hairs
tangle
in woolly strands
and says…
“I love my new toy
Daddy.”
Month: April 2021
Growth Is a Journey
Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was another of the guided meditations in the Calm app combined with an interval timer for my piriformis stretches.
The focus of today’s meditation was about how when you focus too hard on a goal or endeavor, you often end up missing so much else going on around you… and all of the fun as well.
Today’s draw is The Hermit card, which is traditionally a representation of taking time to one’s self for the purposes of contemplation and self-development. The Hermit is the solitary time needed to cast light upon new paths in one’s life and growth.
The Thera-Pets card combined with the meaning behind the Hermit card leaves he in a place of remembering what was said in my Self Care Saturday spread this week. That is to say, that this week needs to be about enjoying… having fun… relaxing. Leaving the mundane and weight of responsibility behind and allowing myself time to breathe.
Sometimes… okay, almost always, this is extremely difficult for me. But, when I first started allotting time off for myself on a semi-regular basis last year… it was nearly impossible. It’s no longer impossible, it just takes a bit of effort. A bit of struggle.
Slowly but surely, I’m becoming more accustomed to taking this time off and enjoying it, and with each time I do it and feel the benefits that I reap from it, I learn a little more about how to do it more easily and with less feelings of pressure and guilt entangled into the experience.
DECK USED: FINE LINE TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: What role does play hold in my life?
Reading Summary: Sometimes you get a little carried (Cavalier de Bâton) away in overburden yourself (Dix de Bâton) with those things that you’re really enthusiastic about and want to explore creatively (Cavalier de Coupe).
Take Away: My creativity is my where play resides in my life. I’ve never been much of the “carefree” type. I don’t fool around or spend a lot of time doing the whole “fun and games” thing. I find joy and pleasure, passion and spark, in my creative process and all the different ways in which I express myself creatively.
The problem with this is that my work is also creative in nature, and sometimes when I’m diving into one or the other, they blend together, compound on each other, and I end up overwhelmed. Then the fun dies and I’m left with feelings of overburden and responsibility… and no pleasure or play at all.
DECK USED: SIDEWALK CHALK TAROT DE MARSEILLE
#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #1
What does this loved one need less of from me?
Eight of Cups and The Rolling Rabbit
Stop ignoring the need for fun and pleasure, or pushing it away and considering it not a priority or not important. It is important and shouldn’t be rejected, ignored, or devalued. A part of his purpose, he feels, is to give me a chance to cut loose and find pleasure in life. Don’t reject the value of these things or view them as inconsequential.
What does this loved one need more of from me?
Eight of Pentacles and The Safe Burrow
Lean in and let him do what he does best, which is making you feel safe and secure, helping you to relax, and sheltering you when you are feeling out of sorts or overwhelmed. Expressing when you are feeling this way is important, and it’s important to him to provide that safe haven for you when you need it.
What in this relationship is being entirely neglected?
The Chariot and Kicking
My dominant nature. Usually this is something that only really displays itself outside of my relationship with him. There is something about Gideon that specifically pulls on my submissive side. Outside of him, dominant traits usually reign if only at times in how I control my life and lead in the ways I’m comfortable. But, there are times that it rises up within the context of our relationship. This is not one of those times. Yes, that side of myself is being “entirely neglected” right now, but I’m very aware that when those needs rise, I can speak up and they will be welcomed eagerly with open arms.
DECK USED: FINE LINE TAROT AND CARROT CARDS
I spent the majority of my day relaxing and spending time with Gideon in play. It’s been a very “chill” day.
Gideon’s Challenge
The Quiet One
No giggles
no laughter
but there’s a whisper
there
Hidden eyes
see between
delicate droplets
peering out
from dark spaces
as the whisper
says again and again…
Don’t see me.
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Six of Daisies and The Double Carrot – Be generous, but only when it’s special and pulls to that mystical mysterious side within. This isn’t just about decks and money, but in all things. This week the focus needs to be on where you’re being pulled and investing in those things that speak to the mystical and mysterious. There will be time for more mundane pursuits later on.
Air – Ten of Daisies and Thick Fur – You’ve spent a lot of time fostering your sense of stability and need to keep this in mind as you move about your week. Stability is important to you, so make sure you don’t discount it as unimportant when the time comes that it should be taken under consideration in order to continue fostering its growth.
Water – Nine of Carrots atop The Fool and The Butterfly – Again we visit the theme of mystery and mystical, this time in the area of one’s emotions. It’s important to not allow your worries and anxieties to overshadow your joy and enthusiasm for the small and beautiful mysteries in life. It’s okay to have fun. It’s okay to enjoy having fun.
Fire – Justice and Babies – Working on balance will foster better results than pushing yourself too hard and then having to recover after. Imbalance is not good for you, it’s unhealthy, you know this well. That includes in the area of the things you are most passionate about. Turn over a new leaf and try a different way.
Waning – Indigo Flame atop Yellow Flame – Plotting and planning and those things of the mundane need to be set on the back burner this week. It’s okay to cut loose. Let go of those weighted and heavy topics and let them slide away for a time. They will be there waiting for you next week.
Waxing – Rainbow Ray – Healing and Awakening. This week marks the awakening from that pit of depression and finding your footing once more. The last tendrils of healing need time to stretch, grow, and flourish. Make sure that you are being kind to yourself, and ensure that you are not weighing yourself down during this time when your healing is in its last delicate and tender moments.
Take Away – Serious mundane issues need to be set aside this week. It’s your time off and you need to rest and heal, recover, and have fun. Don’t bother investing in anything that isn’t speaking to that deep inner voice and allowing you rest and pleasure. Serious things can wait… they’ll be there for you when you go back to work next week.
DECKS USED: RABBIT TAROT, CARROT CARDS, NEST OF LIGHT ORACLE
Smelling Roses… or Tulips
Today’s meditation was skipped because I was lazy as hell and stayed in bed way longer than I had intended to. As my first day off, I think it’s fair to say that I did a good job in lazing about, even if I didn’t actually meditate.
Today’s draw is the Seven of Tulips (Cups) which is traditionally a representation of being presented with a wide variety of choices. This can be a book of fortune that allows you to select exactly what you want or what is best for you, but sometimes it can also be overwhelming and lead to confusion and indecision.
What stands out to me in this card is the oh-so-very dejected angle of the rabbit’s ears. He’s really innit now, yeah? Completely flummoxed and without a clue just which flower he wants to eat first. His good fortune is in the bounty of options available to him… and yet, it sometimes doesn’t feel that way when you’re having trouble choosing.
Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, what I see here is a need to slow down. You don’t have to choose your path right this instant. Life is not a race. Slow down. As long as you’re still moving forward, that’s what really matters. Maybe the rabbit just needs to pause and take some time to smell the flowers before choosing one.
DECK USED: RABBIT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: Where does my creativity need nurturing?
Reading Summary: Everywhere (The World) you are passionate about (Five of Wands), but with moderation and a balanced approach (Temperance).
Weirdness Side Note: The World card here in this deck reminds today me of a vagina. The Star card in this deck reminds me today of a uterus diagram. Both of these connect to a need for that nurturing energy to be poured into how I deal with the conflict I’m feeling in the area of my creativity.
Take Away: Honestly? My creativity has been suffering since the new year. Or… well, maybe since November. Between the holiday rush and then the MDE that followed, my creative spark has been taking a bit of a beating. And… I admit I’ve been beating up on myself a little bit for its lackluster enthusiasm in this area. It’s really not like me… at least not the me I’m used to.
The need for time off and some time to recover has been pretty intense for the past few days, and what I see here is that there isn’t one particular area where I need to direct that nurturing energy, but rather I need to work on being kinder to myself and make sure as I move forward into my recovery that I take things slow so that I don’t overwhelm myself as my enthusiasm starts to respark.
DECK USED: SEVENTH SPHERE TAROT DE MARSEILLE
#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can you tap into additional inspiration this month?
Reading Summary: Take things slow and smell the roses (Knight of Tulips). Take time to really delve into and enjoy (Queen of Sticks) the creative manifestation that helps root you (Ace of Daisies).
Take Away: It’s not so much about going after things as it is about taking some time to appreciate what’s already there. Chill. Enjoy. Maybe wallow just a little bit. It’s okay to have a little fun this month and it’s okay to take a break to do that.
This is a fitting message for my time off, and a reminder to allow myself to enjoy this time instead of feeling bad about not getting things done or pressuring myself to get other non-work stuff done since I’m not doing work stuff.
DECK USED: RABBIT TAROT
I’m actually playing catch up at the moment, so I can’t really remember what it is that I did on the 3rd for self kindness, but I bet I played with Gideon in our new realm… and that counts!
Gideon’s Challenge
The Invitation
Soft as fleece
light as feathers
downy fronds
gather and cluster
promising rest
and comfort
in a loving
green embrace
Come
Lie down
Stay a while
Twisting the Leaf 