Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and focused on dealing with other’s anger, criticism and other negativity. It spoke of using labeling to “disconnect” from the influence of other’s negativity. This is something that I find I do naturally, probably because of my father and what I went through with him while growing up.
What I’ve found, though, is that as you have woken up my emotions and torn down my walls, I do find myself absorbing more of that crap when it’s directed my way than I used to. Or rather, I have to consciously make the choice to disconnect rather than doing it automatically. It’s a drawback of those lowered walls that I’m not entirely thrilled about, but the strengthened connection with you and enhanced intuition and clairvoyance all make it worth it, I think.
Side Note: The last two day’s missing posts are a very CLEAR lesson for me that I cannot put off doing my morning routine (devotional, meditation, card draw) for later in the day. It doesn’t work… and it doesn’t get done, no matter my good intentions to the contrary.
Today’s draw is The Moon card of the Major Arcana, which speaks to me of bravery in moments of uncertainty. The moon is full of shadows, illusion, and uncertainty. It’s hard to see what’s ahead, and even harder to see through the shadows to identify what works there.
This can cause paralysis and anxiety, which is a problem. But, what the imagery in this card says to me is that even in these times of uncertainty, its important to keep your chin up and to stay in touch with your values. Life’s not always easy and the path forward isn’t always clear, but if you stay in touch with that inner compass and keep your head high, you will pull through those times.
With the holiday rush now starting to slow and life at the cusp of returning to normal, it’s a good reminder, as that transition is a difficult one for me and can make me feel both uncertain and adrift.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember
Question for 17th: Where did I focus the bulk of my energy this year?
Question for 18th: What happened as a result of that?
Reading Summary: I have been getting the Ace of Pentacles/Queen of Cups combo a LOT lately. Just making a note of it.
Working on new threads of income in my business (Ace of Pentacles), discovering that new depth of emotion that has been awakening (Queen of Cups), and upping my spiritual practices as well as exploring further development of my intuition, clairsentience, mediumship (The High Priestess).
Resulting in an overburdening of doing too much at once (Ten of Wands) which makes the world feel like it’s tipped on its axis (The Tower), and a need to find a better way of doing things (Six of Swords).
Take Away: As I seek to find a balance between work and self-care (which includes time for self and for self-focused pursuits), things have come to a “something’s got to give” point. For so many years I have essentially filled my life with work. Even my creativity is work, as I’ve turned my creative interests into my business. Add on top of that running the business as its own task, and my other part time jobs, etc…. it’s a lot. And then I’m adding my personal stuff on top of that now.
That “something that’s gotta give” has to do with how much I feel I can put on my plate as once. And, the lion’s share of what is on my plate has to do with the business. I have a plan to restructure how I work concerning the business, that will hopefully ease that overburdening.
DECK USED: UNIVERSAL FANTASY TAROT
Today’s draw is the Page of Wands, which is a representation of a receptive omega energy in the area of one’s ambitions, passions, and drive. This often comes through as themes concerning exploring one’s potential and sparks of inspiration.
Reading Summary: Struggling with feeling overburdened (Ten of Swords) while telling myself I can handle it on my own (Knight of Wands). Sometimes accepting support from others is okay (Three of Cups) while allowing collaboration (Three of Pentacles) to find a better way forward (Page of Swords).
Today’s draw is the King of Wands, which is a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality or person in the area of one’s ambitions, passions, and drive. This manifests in a push of energy toward leadership which displays itself with a commanding presence that possesses high expectations both of the self and of others.
Reading Summary: Letting money slide through my fingers (Six of Pentacles) while feeling confident I can indulge in my passions without repercussion (Queen of Wands). It’s only through staying strong and practicing restraint (Strength) that I will find true stability that I can celebrate (Four of Wands).
