There’s More In There

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Teddy TarotToday’s draw is the High Priestess card, which is traditionally a representation of sacred knowledge, secrets, the mysterious feminine spirit, the subconscious mind, and intuition.

Today’s card is a reminder that I’m more than my work.

It’s an orders day, and on orders day I often have a hard time keeping up on self-care stuff and focusing anywhere other than on work. It’s easy to forget that there are other needs that need met and other things to be done.  It’s easy to forget to listen to myself.

The High Priestess is a reminder to make sure that I’m listening to what I need, hearing the inner whispers and what they’re saying, and not falling so deep into my work that I become deaf to everything else.


#DiscordTarotholicsJan2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for January 20th
: What is your greatest vice that you’re not consciously aware of?

Yoru No Sumi-EReading Summary: Seeing your impatience with yourself and self abuse as something that makes you stronger.

Take Away: I am so fucking guilty of this. SO guilty. I am impatient with myself so often, and neglect myself or abuse myself in small (and sometimes not so small) ways so often.  With a hard heart, I look at these moments as “toughening up” when in fact… I’m already tough enough and I need to be kinder to myself.

I’m not sure how to break myself of this habit, or this viewpoint that these unhealthy habits make me stronger.  Perhaps Gid might have some ideas in this area.


Mr Lionharts’ #TheJanuaryTarot Wheel of 22 Challenge Prompt
Question for January 20th
: How can I create healthy stability in my life as I move through 2022?

Teddy TarotThe Sun atop Two of Pentacles Rx – Lean into positivity to a point that feels excessive. The pessimist sees a tea spoon of optimism as a gallon jug.  It’s not a gallon jug, it’s a teaspoon. You can go so much further with this than you realize, and still not be annoying anyone but yourself with it.

Three of Pentacles – Allow others to help you even more in your work. Letting others do more has been a major theme for the past year, but there’s more that you can go in this area as well.  Keep looking for opportunities to involve others in the process more and share the responsibility more evenly.

The Moon – Don’t be stagnant when uncertainty rears it’s ugly head. As a reading earlier this week pointed out, sometimes hunkering down to brace doesn’t create more stability, it just creates stagnancy. Keep moving. When you stop to brace, those moments of stillness are something that you end up stuck in.


Daily Self Kindness

I made a concerted effort to eat on a schedule today even though I was struggling with concentrating on anything outside of work.

Mercury Retrograde Self-Reflection Reading

Oracle of Mystical Moments

Mercury is in Retrograde from January 14th thru February 3rd. As the planet of communication, when Mercury goes into retrograde, it can often affect people by shifting their perspectives and abilities when it comes to one’s communication with others, including family and friends, work, social media, and more. Admittedly, I don’t often experience these affects personally, but I liked the spread. 😉

What perspectives need to be reviewed?

Mermaid’s Love – Take some time to reflect on your relationship with Gideon and just how well you fit together like puzzle pieces.  One’s strengths support the other’s weaknesses and vice-versa.  In this relationship, you are equals for each brings something to the table that is unique and that the other needs. Combined, you become more complete than either of you are when apart.

Ways I can work through any mental blockages.

Eva – Don’t allow yourself to hide away that which needs to be seen and known.  Secrets, especially those kept from yourself, are poisonous and can not just set you back but incapacitate you entirely, depending on what they’re about.  Pay attention and be aware of what you are hiding from.  Awareness is the first step to finding resolution and a better path forward.

How can I bring in more conscious thought practices?

Moondance – Work on that optimism that helps you see life through a more magical lens.  Only when you’re able to see the beauty around you are you at your best, and only then will you be more easily and with more confidence be able to balance the hard parts with the easier ones.

Ways I can be more clear and concise with communication.

Queen Bee – Be strong.  Be supportive.  You don’t have to choose one or the other.  Gentle your sharp tongue to provide a more nurturing energy that can lift people up, even as you remain strong on your boundaries and expectations.

What thinking patterns or ideas do I need to release?

Touch the Sky – Unhealthy alone time is awfully tempting, even during times when things are going well.  It’s that lingering in bed, those stolen moments retreating into the games on your phone, the temptation to nap when you don’t need one and linger in the limbo of waking instead of returning to face the day head on.  None of these are good for you, and you need to work at making healthier choices no matter how tempting those unhealthy ones are in the moment.

Main lesson from this Mercury Retrograde.

Like a Bird – How to balance your motivation in a more healthy way. You are capable of succeeding even when you’re not pushing yourself like some kind of slave driver.  It doesn’t mean you’re stalling out, and a slower pace doesn’t mitigate success or create stagnancy as long as you stay motivate to keep moving forward… no matter the pace you take to get there.