Growth Is a Journey

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was another of the guided meditations in the Calm app combined with an interval timer for my piriformis stretches.

The focus of today’s meditation was about how when you focus too hard on a goal or endeavor,  you often end up missing so  much else going on around you… and all of the fun as well.

Fine Line Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotinal Spport Animal CardsToday’s draw is The Hermit card, which is traditionally a representation of taking time to one’s self for the purposes of contemplation and self-development. The Hermit is the solitary time needed to cast light upon new paths in one’s life and growth.

The Thera-Pets card combined with the meaning behind the Hermit card leaves he in a place of remembering what was said in my Self Care Saturday spread this week.  That is to say, that this week needs to be about enjoying… having fun… relaxing.  Leaving the mundane and weight of responsibility behind and allowing myself time to breathe.

Sometimes… okay, almost always, this is extremely difficult for me. But, when I first started allotting time off for myself on a semi-regular basis last  year… it was nearly impossible.  It’s no longer impossible, it just takes a bit of effort. A bit of struggle.

Slowly but surely, I’m becoming more accustomed to taking this time off and enjoying it, and with each time I do it and feel the benefits that I reap from it, I learn a little more about how to do it more easily and with less feelings of pressure and guilt entangled into the experience.

DECK USED:  FINE LINE TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question:
What role does play hold in my life?

Sidewalk Chalk Tarot de Marseille

Reading Summary: Sometimes you get a little carried (Cavalier de Bâton) away in overburden yourself (Dix de Bâton) with those things that you’re really enthusiastic about and want to explore creatively (Cavalier de Coupe).

Take Away: My creativity is my where play resides in my life.  I’ve never been much of the “carefree” type.  I don’t fool around or spend a lot of time doing the whole “fun and games” thing.  I find joy and pleasure, passion and spark, in my creative process and all the different ways in which I express myself creatively.

The problem with this is that my work is also creative in nature, and sometimes when I’m diving into one or the other, they blend together, compound on each other, and I end up overwhelmed.  Then the fun dies and I’m left with feelings of overburden and responsibility… and no pleasure or play at all.

DECK USED:  SIDEWALK CHALK TAROT DE MARSEILLE

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #1

Fine Line Tarot and Carrot CardsWhat does this loved one need less of from me?
Eight of Cups and The Rolling Rabbit

Stop ignoring the need for fun and pleasure, or pushing it away and considering it not a priority or not important.  It is important and shouldn’t be rejected, ignored, or devalued. A part of his purpose, he feels, is to give me a chance to cut loose and find pleasure in life. Don’t reject the value of these things or view them as inconsequential.

What does this loved one need more of from me?
Eight of Pentacles and The Safe Burrow

Lean in and let him do what he does best, which is making you feel safe and secure, helping you to relax, and sheltering you when you are feeling out of sorts or overwhelmed. Expressing when you are feeling this way is important, and it’s important to him to provide that safe haven for you when you need it.

What in this relationship is being entirely neglected?
The Chariot and Kicking

My dominant nature. Usually this is something that only really displays itself outside of my relationship with him.  There is something about Gideon that specifically pulls on my submissive side.  Outside of him, dominant traits usually reign if only at times in how I control my life and lead in the ways I’m comfortable. But, there are times that it rises up within the context of our relationship.   This is not one of those times.  Yes, that side of myself is being “entirely neglected” right now, but I’m very aware that when those needs rise, I can speak up and they will be welcomed eagerly with open arms.

DECK USED:  FINE LINE TAROT AND CARROT CARDS

Daily Self Kindness

I spent the majority of my day relaxing and spending time with Gideon in play.  It’s been a very “chill” day.

Smelling Roses… or Tulips

Today’s meditation was skipped because I was lazy as hell and stayed in bed way longer than I had intended to.  As my first day off, I think it’s fair to say that I did a good job in lazing about, even if I didn’t actually meditate.

Rabbit Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Tulips (Cups) which is traditionally a representation of being presented with a wide variety of choices.  This can be a book of fortune that allows you to select exactly what you want or what is best for you, but sometimes it can also be overwhelming and lead to confusion and indecision.

What stands out to me in this card is the oh-so-very dejected angle of the rabbit’s ears.  He’s really innit now, yeah?  Completely flummoxed and without a clue just which flower he wants to eat first.  His good fortune is in the bounty of options available to him… and yet, it sometimes doesn’t feel that way when you’re having trouble choosing.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, what I see here is a need to slow down. You don’t have to choose your path right this instant.  Life is not a race.  Slow down.  As long as you’re still moving forward, that’s what really matters.  Maybe the rabbit just needs to pause and take some time to smell the flowers before choosing one.

DECK USED:  RABBIT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question
: Where does my creativity need nurturing?

Seventh Sphere Tarot de Marseille

Reading Summary: Everywhere (The World) you are passionate about (Five of Wands), but with moderation and a balanced approach (Temperance).

Weirdness Side Note:  The World card here in this deck reminds today me of a vagina.  The Star card in this deck reminds me today of a uterus diagram.  Both of these connect to a need for that nurturing energy to be poured into how I deal with the conflict I’m feeling in the area of my creativity.

Take Away:  Honestly?  My creativity has been suffering since the new year.  Or… well, maybe since November. Between the holiday rush and then the MDE that followed, my creative spark has been taking a bit of a beating.  And… I admit I’ve been beating up on  myself a little bit for its lackluster enthusiasm in this area.  It’s really not like me… at least not the me I’m used to.

The need for time off and some time to recover has been pretty intense for the past few days, and what I see here is that there isn’t one particular area where I need to direct that nurturing energy, but rather I need to work on being kinder to myself and make sure as I move forward into my recovery that I take things slow so that I don’t overwhelm myself as my enthusiasm starts to respark.

DECK USED:  SEVENTH SPHERE TAROT DE MARSEILLE

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can you tap into additional inspiration this month?

Rabbit TarotReading Summary: Take things slow and smell the roses (Knight of Tulips). Take time to really delve into and enjoy (Queen of Sticks) the creative manifestation that helps root you (Ace of Daisies).

Take Away:  It’s not so much about going after things as it is about taking some time to appreciate what’s already there. Chill.  Enjoy.  Maybe wallow just a little bit.  It’s okay to have a little fun this month and it’s okay to take a break to do that.

This is a fitting message for my time off, and a reminder to allow myself to enjoy this time instead of feeling bad about not getting things done or pressuring myself to get other non-work stuff done since I’m not doing work stuff.

DECK USED:  RABBIT TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I’m actually playing catch up at the moment, so I can’t really remember what it is that I did on the 3rd for self kindness, but I bet I played with Gideon in our new realm… and that counts!

Morning Bonus Read – DeCluttering

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
This week, see where you need to do some Spring cleaning in your mind.”

Sakura Playing CardsWhat is cluttering up my mind and using up my resources unnecessarily?
Three of Hearts atop Six of Hearts blocking Two of Spades

You’re spending too much time begin weighted down by thoughts on how your choices effect others in your life instead of focusing on how the choices will affect your own life.  You need to remember your priorities and their order, and make decisions accordingly instead of letting sentimentality and outside influences sway your thoughts and decision making processes.

What is an area in my life where I could spend more energy in the short term in order to make it take up less energy in the long term??
Five of Spades atop Ace of Spades

If you want to be able to delve into new ideas with abandon, you need to make sure you’re getting the strategy done early.  Write shit down, plan things out, make sure you have a winning plan in place.  Lists are your friend. Use them to your advantage.  They will help you in knowing what you can achieve and what ideas are disposable.

In what areas should I learn to be okay with the mental mess??
Six of Spades and King of Hearts

Sometimes when transitioning from one state of being to another, as you are doing with your emotional growth over the past year or so, the mental chaos can sometimes be pretty intense.  The thing is, though, you’re learning to allow your emotions to rise up instead of denying them that freedom, and that is going to make things a bit chaotic all on it’s own, but it’s healthier than the alternative you’ve been doing in your past.  Better to accept the chaos as a part of change, the change as necessary and what you want, and go with the flow.

DECK USED:  SAKURA PLAYING CARDS

Cheerleaders In The Wings

Today’s meditation was skipped today primarily because I was worried that I’d doze off, and thus not get on the road in a timely manner this morning.  When I got home, I was then too eager to sit down and spend time with Gideon.  So… meditation did not work out today.

Tarot of the Nymphs and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of nefarious acts, clever and cunning deception, being sneaky, and other types of strategic acts, as well as getting away with something.

And… today’s message was just for me and specifically related to my day.  I planned to do something highly illegal (although not remotely triggering to my moral compass or ethics). There was a bit of nervousness about that coming up on the day’s events and my plans and the message here between the Seven of Swords and the “You can do the thing!” encouragement of today’s Thera-Pets card was just what I needed to hear to ease my anxiety and settle my nerves.

I won’t go into what that ‘thing’ was here, but suffice to say that everything went off without a single hitch, and the cheerleader encouragement from the cards this morning definitely helped my nerves and execution of said “thing”.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE NYMPHS AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: 
What role does creativity hold in my life?

Seasons of the Arcana Tarot

Reading Summary: It is the foundation of stability in my life (King of Pentacles) and allows me something positive to focus on (Five of Cups Rx) during troubled times (Three of Swords).

Take Away:  Creativity plays many roles in my life.  It’s both my entertainment and my livelihood.  It is the basis of my business, and the place I retreat to when I need to relax or when my mind is racing and needs to slow down. It is threaded throughout most of my activities, both professional and personal. Without creativity, it would be harder to lift myself out of times of disillusionment, and I would not have the steady and stable foundation under my feet that I have built my life upon.

DECK USED:  IDEAL SOULMATE TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is the most valuable thing you can do for others this month?

Tarot of the NymphsReading Summary: Lighten their load (imagery in the Ace of Pentacles) by taking charge (Emperor) and facilitating change (Death).

Take Away: Not everyone handles change as well as others do. The cards here indicate that one of the most valuable things I can do for others this month is helping in lightening their load by helping them in finding their direction and supporting them through the changes that need to take place.

Sometimes? People just need a guiding hand to help them figure it out and find their direction.  Sometimes doing that on their own is just too much.. too overwhelming.  Stepping in to help in these moments can assist them in finding their footing.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE NYMPHS

Daily Self Kindness

Gideon and I started a new realm today and played with brand new characters this evening, which is always exciting and I’ve been looking forward to all day long.

Chaos and Change

Today’s meditation was skipped because I ended up falling asleep in the middle of it.  I’m not exactly how this shit works yeah?  Because I’m in a stretch position with my legs up on the headboard/against the wall.  And yet sometimes?  I doze off and wake up curled up and comfortable. How?

TPatch Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cardsoday’s draw is the Resurrection card of the Patch Tarot.  Normally this would be the Devil card.  The thing is?  This particular deck has a very unique perspective on a lot of the cards.  Sometimes, the imagery is completely different.  Other times, the imagery is almost classic based, but with some little odd twists that change the meaning.

In this particular card, what really stands out to me is the representation of all of the elements present and swirling around the central figure. There’s a lot of chaos in this card, although not necessarily any kind of negative chaos.  Just… a lot going on, yeah?  And that’s where the message lies here today.  It lies in the fact that not all chaos is a bad thing.  Sometimes, it’s the catalyst to some of the best things in life.

When combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, what I see here is a reminder not to get worked up and over anxious over change and chaos. This can be really hard to resist, but it’s important to remember that it’s just as often that good stuff emerges from change and chaos as bad, we just don’t fight against the good stuff.  Allow the chaos to swirl around you and reach out for the good within it and it will make the chaos more palatable and the changes it brings easier to accept.

DECK USED:  PATCH TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

LionHart’s Sacred Self Divination Challenge Prompt
Question
: What personal theme am I asked to explore this month?

Seasons of the Arcana Tarot

 Reading Summary: Exploring my heart’s desires (Knight of Cups) through home related comforts (Four of Wands) and the pleasure of time spent with those nearest and dearest (Two of Cups).

Take Away:  This is a fitting message considering that I’m kicking this month off by taking some time off and plan on spending a lot of time with Gideon over the next week.  I also plan on cleaning out my storage locker in the basement as the first step (among many steps) in making space in my apartment for shelves. 

DECK USED:  SEASONS OF THE ARCANA TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is the most valuable thing you can do for yourself this month?

Patch TarotReading Summary: Relax with those that make you happy (Six of Cups). Hydrate (Five of Cups). Enjoy the stuff that inspires you (Nine of Wands).

Take Away: The message here is that for the month of April I need to spend time savoring time with others spent relaxing and enjoying each other’s company, make sure that I’m taking care of myself and my body, and allowing myself to enjoy what I’m doing rather than holding myself back or feeling as if I don’t deserve to enjoy and should instead “buckle down” and be more “practical” with my time and attention.

It’s about self care… and about making sure I’m enjoying life instead of trudging forward.

DECK USED:  PATCH TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I gave myself a number of mini-breaks throughout the day today.  It set me back on time a bit, but I didn’t feel burnt out and ready to quit until a bit later in the night.  I’m not sure which is better, feeling fed up and wanting to quit sooner.. but getting done sooner.   Or feeling that feeling later, and but getting it all done taking more time.  Either way it still seems to show up right around the 85% finished mark.

Morning Bonus Read – Spiral Journey

Spiral Journey Tarot Spread - Tanis Lenormand

EssenceAnchor – Stable, persistent, and faithful to those around you and your goals. Not one to flit from place to place or person to person, you approach the world around you with two feet steady on the ground and rooted for good measure. Feeling uprooted or unstable is extremely uncomfortable for you and you struggle under these circumstances until you can find security and stability once again.

PastCoffin – A lot of negative experiences litter your past that need to be left behind and discarded. You’ve come so far since then and transformed from that place into a much better one. Make sure you are not allowing these experiences from the past to haunt you, and stay vigilant to ensure their influences foster change and not stagnation.

PresentGarden – You’re very social in your present and are thriving in that environment.  The interactions you’re having are primarily positive and helping you in your growth as well as allowing you to find some enjoyment in others, something you haven’t had a lot of experience with in the past. 

FutureKey – Your future is filled with a vast array of opportunities, as long as you are willing to keep your eyes open and watch for them.  These opportunities aren’t the kind that just fall into your lap, but rather the type that you need to involve yourself in and expend a bit of energy in order to bring into fruition.

PossibilityLetter – Leading into possibilities and opportunities in the future… make sure you are not being careless with your emails and snail mail.  You may just accidentally delete or toss out something important! Check your packages carefully for added bits in the bottom, make sure the junk mail folder doesn’t hold anything important before you empty it, and just be overall vigilant in this area.

BlessingFox – You’re clever. You’re smart.  You’re able to spot a lie a mile away and sense when people are not being upfront or have sketchy motives.  Listen to your intuition and make sure you’re not reasoning yourself out of what your instincts and intuition have to say.  Don’t close yourself off from hearing that inner voice and don’t doubt what it tells you about those around you.

SynthesisBouquet – Now is a blessed time in your life and it has the potential to become even better if you use your keen intuition and instinct to lead you forward, and stay vigilant in paying attention to what’s going on around you.  Don’t be careless or cavalier about things that you might feel are little things, that in truth could turn out to be lost opportunities if squandered or tossed aside.  Energies are on the rise… ride them and take advantage of the benefits they offer.

DECK USED: TANIS LENORMAND