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Morning Bonus Read – Feeling the Feels

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Cheimonette Tarot

Feels I’m Feeling

The Devil  – Temptation to self destruct.  Anti-depressants are a massive help to keeping me well balanced, but they don’t resolve everything.  This temptation comes and goes.  Sometimes it is stronger than others.  This isn’t about death, but rather about turning my entire life upside down, and razing the entire thing and everything I’ve worked for and built to the ground. This temptation is sneaky… slipping in to try and nudge and whisper, insidious and conniving as it works to tempt me astray.

The World – Potential for the new and different. I can see it glimmering in the distance, that promise of something new and better, of growth and transition.  I see it and sense it, I want to push for it and seize it… but I know that’s not how this works.  Growth takes time.

Feels I’m Ignoring
Ace of Disks atop The Moon, Five of Disks

Financial uncertainty and scarcity issues. This is a very strong theme in my life, and a driving force of my motivation a great deal of the time.  It’s a fear that I struggle with, and have struggled with ever since my emancipation from my parents at sixteen.   I am, at this time, doing my best to accept that I’ve done well for myself.  That I’m comfortable and safe, and that everything is stable.  There is no need for this fear and no need for it to rule my life.  I’m working at not allowing it to have such a loud and overpowering voice in my life.

Feels I Need To Embrace

Two of Staves – Pick a direction. Stagnancy sucks. I’ve felt like I’ve been stuck and waffling. I understand the need to pick a direction and I feel that I’ve begun that process.  It’s just taking far longer than I’m comfortable with.

Nine of Cups – Gratitude directed toward the self and toward having put myself in a place where I now have the time and space to even do “the feels” at all.

Feels I Should Feel More Often

Death – Embracing change instead of fighting against it.  It’s so hard not to struggle against change or fall into the feelings of fear and uncertainty that change can bring rise to.   Not all change is bad, though.  And even the change that feels bad?  Sometimes turns out all the better for having happened. Embracing change is hard, but I’m working on doing so more and more.

Seven of Cups – Feeling empowered by my wealth of options instead of overwhelmed by them. This is a perspective change that I’m not always able to shift into.  I can see it.  That wealth of opportunity… but I can’t sometimes get my emotions to follow along with that positive perspective I can see.  So, it’s like I can see it, but not quite touch it.

Feels I should Share With Others

Six of Swords – Discuss with them the desire you have to change direction.

Ten of Cups – Share this adventure with them and make them a part of the whole.

DECK USED:  CHEIMONETTE TAROT

Year Ahead Spread 2021 – July thru September

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This spread is a predictive spread that is very commonly used as a bit of a preview of the year ahead. The question asked for each of these positions is…
Tarot Card: The theme of the month in question,
Oracle Card: What to focus on for the month in question, and
Affirmation Card: A ray of hope to hold onto for the month in question.

Year Ahead Spread for Divination

This reading is simply a brief exploration of the current trajectory of my path and energy for the year ahead. Like all predictive readings, nothing here is written in stone, it’s more of a look ahead just to have an idea of what to anticipate and what to work at avoiding.

As an experiment, I have decided to do my year ahead reading a little differently this year. In January I pulled cards for the first six months of the year.  Today, I am revisiting the spread to pull cards for the last six months of the year, three of those months I will then interpret now, while the last three months of the year I will interpret at the beginning of October. I feel that this might help in ensuring a more accurate reading for the second half of the year.

Six Month Ahead Spread for Divination - Part 2 - July through December

2021’s Theme – Justice – This card is calculated through mathematics, and is not drawn randomly.  My card for 2021 is the Justice card, with the theme of having to acknowledge that what you put out into the world and what you do in your life reflects back to you in turn.  Good begets good, bad begets bad.  Following that inner moral compass will be especially important this year and possible a bit of a challenge.

I never wrote down my interpretations of this particular reading, but I want to get it up and posted in case I want to look back on it later.

Brady Tarot, Tree Whisperer Oracle, Magickal Herbs OracleJuly’s Theme – Six of Feathers (Passage) –

July’s Focus / Advice – Boundary –

July’s Ray of Hope – Awaken (Goldenseal) –

August’s Theme – Five of Horns (Loss) –

August’s Focus / Advice – Challenge –

August’s Ray of Hope – Soothe (Slippery Elm) –

September’s Theme – Father of Roots –

September’s Focus / Advice – Origin –

September’s Ray of Hope – Activation (Yerba mate) –

DECKS USED:   THE BRADY TAROT, TREE WHISPERER ORACLE, MAGICKAL HERB ORACLE

Morning Bonus Read – Perspectives

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“Sometimes an outside perspective is helpful. Do a divination reading about yourself from the perspective of someone else. Maybe ask a spirit or deity who cares for you what they see when they look at you.”

SINS Anima Playing CardsWhat do my spirit guides notice about my body?

Six of Hearts – You’re working at finding better harmony. This isn’t an easy task, but you’re slowly becoming more accepting and more kind to yourself, and at finding a way to balance your wants and desires with your body’s needs.

What do my spirit guides notice about my mind?

Ten of Clubs – Overloaded. So many plans and ideas, so much judgement of self, so much inner dialog getting in the way and making you feel overwhelmed even when you’re not actually being overburdened at all.

What do my spirit guides notice about my heart?

Two of Diamonds – Your heart knows where it wants to be rooted, but you’re playing tug of war with it. It’s not a weed, stop treating it like one.

What do my spirit guides notice about my soul?

Six of Diamonds – You are generous with giving of yourself. Sometimes too much so. You offer so much of yourself to others that at times it can be unhealthy for you.

What do my spirit guides notice about my life?

Two of Spades – Two paths before you and you are stuck at the crossroads.  That stagnant feeling you’ve been feeling lately is a sign of this crossroads and the internal struggle you’re going through in trying to “pick a lane”.

What do my spirit guides notice about my problems?

Four of Diamonds – Stop bracing for impact. It does no good and only holds you back. This is  a habit from your youth, and you don’t have to worry anymore about that second shoe dropping… or the first one for that matter.  Take a breath and relax.

What do my spirit guides notice about my general relationships?

Three of Spades – You’re always far too prepared to be disappointed by others. It’s okay to have a little faith in people and not be ready for them to rip your heart out.  It’s okay to not expect the worst.

What do my spirit guides notice about my relationship?

King of Spades – There is a great sense of security, and you know where you stand. You know that your advice and opinions are heard and valued, and that submissives really steer the ship. You know that his support is not a burden to him, even if logically from your perspective it feels like it should be.

What advice does my spirit guides have for me?

Queen of Spades – Own your forthright nature. Own the qualities that make you your mothers son. Your sense of values and moral compass will assure that you don’t follow in her footsteps. Instead, you will use these qualities for the good of others, instead of for your own selfish desires.

What warning do my spirit guides have for me?

Four of Hearts – Stop stalling when you need to get things done that you’re not enthusiastic about. Just get them done.

DECK USED:  SINS ANIMA PLAYING CARDS

Transitioning from June to July

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NOTATION:  I did not finish interpreting this spread here on the blog.  I got some of what I needed from it at the time of the reading, but I just never got around to writing it all down.   Regardless, I want to place this on the blog to make sure I have a record of it to look back on.

Month End Tarot Reading - Spiritsong Tarot and Pure Magic Oracle

Here and Now, I Am – The Wheel atop The Sun, Salamander –

Leaving Behind – Seven of Shells and Telekinesis –

Focus Forward – Queen of Feathers and Mantra Medicine –

Negative Influences – Nine of Acorns, Songbirds atop Voudon Roots – Someone is trying to fuck you. Don’t turn a blind eye. Make sure that you are diligent in your words. Doing another severing would be a good idea.

Positive Influences – Page of Acorns and Burning Man –

Relevant Shadows – Eight of Crystals and Hecate’s Path –

Lift From The Past  – Ace of Acorns, Astral Travels atop Florida Waters –

Future Event to Prevent or Overcome – Seven of Acorns and Brigid –

Approaching Opportunity – Page of Feathers and Ancient Amulets –

DECKS USED:  SPIRITSONG TAROT AND PURE MAGIC ORACLE

Morning Bonus Read – Cancer Season

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Cancer Season Tarot Reading - Cosmic Visions Tarot

What is a major theme of my Cancer season?

Ace of Pentacles – New opportunities abound. Choose your actions wisely and take care on where you put your energy. A small choice made during this time will have vast ripple effects later.

How will this theme impact me?

Temperance – Stretch your wings but measure your responses. It’s okay to explore and to allow things to pique your interest, just make sure you don’t “dive in” head first without any moderation.

What should I embrace during Cancer season?

Father of Pentacles – Okay so… totally crude but, “Grab his dick and ride it for all you’re worth” was what came to mind when I saw the imagery in this card today.  Gideon is usually represented by the King of Cups, but between the bears, the flames, and the direction of his arms reaching?  I just… that’s what I got.  He’s my anchor.  My rock.  My big ass bear.  And absolutely the focus of my sexual energy.

How can I come out of my shell during this time?

The Tower – Rip it all apart, tear it down. Be brave and accept that you can’t build the “house of your dreams” on the ruins of what isn’t working.  You have to demolish before you can build.  The imagery here speaks to me of doing this type of thing with my own thoughts, my own habits, and my own inner narrative.

How can I spend this time being soul-centered?

Nine of Swords – You may not be able to let go of all your fears, but now is a good time to explore them.

DECK USED:  COSMIC VISIONS TAROT

Weekly Creativity Prompt – Doomed From the Start

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Prompt: “Draw up to three cards from your tarot (or oracle) and use them for guidance in choosing something to share with us about your childhood.”

d'Morte Disney Tarot

My sister and I once made a plan that was doomed from the start. (The Tower)

We decided to force our father to treat us as equals by cutting her hair like mine and dressing identically so that he couldn’t tell us apart. (Strength Rx)

Instead, it resulted in him following through on a threat he’d made a number of times in the past, and he took the door off our bedroom and the bathroom too. (Death)

DECK USED:  D’MORTE DISNEY TAROT