Month: May 2019

Be the Lamb, Not the Lion

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Today’s meditation was fifteen minutes and eight seconds, And focused on something called the Beginners Mind.

This is the concept of looking at things through fresh eyes instead of through with preconceived notions. It’s about experiencing things as if they are new, and letting that sense of wonder at something new into your heart and mind.

I think this is something that I’ve started to forget to do. Not that I’ve forgotten how, but more that I’ve just forgotten to practice this in my life.

There was a time when I saw a lot of the world this way… but I feel that over time I’ve closed off and forgotten to experience things in this perspective. I think it’s possible that having that shift in perspective has made me a less positive person.

Perhaps it’s time to start consciously practicing Beginners Mind more regularly in an effort to make it a habit once more.

Today’s draw is the page of pentacles. The suit of Pentacles represents money, resources, and the physical plane. The Page represents an omega type of energy, personality, or person.

The page in the suit can also represent one’s focus and dedication towards something of the physical plane. For me, that is stability. Financial stability is one of my lifelong goals, no matter what tax bracket I’m in or how much money I have (or don’t have) in my pocket at any given time.

This card ties into my current worries about monetary issues and the extra spending that I did while I was in that pit of depression. It’s a reminder to be cautious when spending money for a while so that I can catch up.

The card is telling me to be the lamb. Do not be the lion, full of roar and fight and push and shove. Instead, focus on that goal of stability that I’ve built over the years of my life and accept it takes time and dedication. One small hiccup doesn’t change that in the long run.

At the same time, this card also reminds me not to be too hard on myself about those small spending that I did during that time. Stability is a long term goal. It takes patience and a long reach… not a short race.

On My Feet

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Today’s meditation was fourteen minutes and four seconds, and focused on using external cues as reminders to come back to center in your practice.

For the meditation, they used a chime. Each time the chime went off it was a reminder to bring your mind back to the breath and the relaxation of your body.

This actually worked really well for me. I realize that my mind wanders even more than I had thought it did. The audible cue helped me in catching myself in those thoughts and set them aside more quickly.

Today’s draw is the 13th card in the Major Arcana, the Death card. Although it can, this card rarely represents the death of a person or pet. Instead, it’s more common representation is that of change, as is the case for a number of cards in the tarot.

With the Death card, it’s about an organic change… the kind of change that comes on gradually and has now reached its end. Not only is it about that change specially, but also about the cleansing that accompanies such endings.

This card is telling me that my depression has come to an end. It’s been a long road and a hard climb to get out of that pit I’d fallen into… but I believe I’m there.

I feel this climb coming to an end is especially remarkable considering that I’ve been visiting at my mothers house for the past few days. The house is not usually conducive to positivity and healing where I am concerned.

And yet here I am. Standing outside the pit, with a little niggle of anxiety in my gut, but otherwise back on my feet. That hole in the ground that I fell into and the darkness that tangled me up is now behind me.

It’s time to move forward.

Beltane… continued

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You have asked me about how this celebration of warmth and vitality applies to me today, and how this holiday helps to start my day off on a positive note.

First and foremost, with the exception of Hallows Eve, this is my absolute favorite holiday. To me, it feels like it is a celebration of life at its most vibrant and vital. New sprouts are reaching, new leaves unfurling. It is in this spirit that I wish to emulate.

I am striving to bring that sense of vibrancy and vitality into my attitude and outlook today, to notice the beauty of it in the fresh air and tender greens starting to opening up to seek the sun.

It is like that saying to “let light into your life”, although in this case it is more about letting spirit of Beltane into my heart and mind.

Beltane

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Today’s meditation was fifteen minutes. Instead of using a guided meditation, as I have been doing recently, today’s meditation was self guided and focused on the significance of the holiday at hand and incorporating its theme into my day and my life.

BeltaneLike my meditation, my daily focus activity is a bit different today. I am not using the cards, because today I have Beltane to focus on as my theme for the day.  Beltane is a holiday for me, and is all about abundance and warmth.

Where Ostara (aka. the spring equinox) is a whisper of spring to come, Beltane is a trumpet that announces it is here in all its glory. Beltane is about that spark of warmth that Ostara whispers about now coming to fruition.

It is a time of vitality and virility, with life and promise around every corner and under every leaf.

I think this holiday has a lot to teach about welcoming warmth, positivity, and hope into my life.

Today is also, of course, Linette and I’s birthday.