self help with tarot cards

Uncertainties and Self Worth

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Today’s meditation was another of the unguided sort. It was about ten minutes long and focused on breathing exercises while I did some stretching of my back and hips.

Jack-O'-Lantern Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Death card, which is traditionally a representation of slow moving, organic change. This isn’t the sudden, chaotic change of the tower, but rather it is a slow type of change that comes in over time, developing a little at a time.

What stands out to me today in the imagery of this card is the owl perched upon the scythe. This indicates to me a factor of knowledge and understanding.

Even slow change can give our confidence a beating sometimes. Just because we know what’s coming and see it developing over time doesn’t always mean we feel ready for it, or capable of riding it out.

Today’s cards are a reminder that sometimes? How we feel about ourselves is not a reflection of how capable we are.  Especially when we’re feeling down on ourselves. It’s a reminder that even during times of change and uncertainty, we are still enough. Even when we are feeling weak and worried… we are still enough. Don’t let anyone or anything make you think otherwise.

DECK USED:  JACK-O’-LANTERN TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread for October 16th

Eldritch Tarot

Domination over the spirit.

The Emperor – You have a great deal more control than you think you do. Over yourself, and over others as well.  Use this ability wisely, and ensure that you are considering what is good not just for yourself, but also for others, when making decisions and taking action.

What can I do to work towards more personal freedom?

Queen of Pentacles – Lean into nurturing yourself more.  Give yourself the care you need instead of ignoring physical pain and pushing it under the rug. The better care you give your physical self, the more freedom you have both from exhaustion and pain, as well as from the limiting physical effects that these cause.

What choices or thoughts are not helping me right now?

Six of Swords – A desire to escape keeps lingering in your mind and it’s just slowing you down from dealing with the crap that needs to be dealt with.  Yes, it would be nice to take more time off.  Yes, it would be amazing to have a holiday season that wasn’t a marathon through hell.  But that’s not feasible, and lingering in those thoughts only allows discontent to flourish.

What feelings or emotions are holding me back?

Four of Cups – This echos up to the thoughts above and the discontent that is being bred by those thoughts.  You want more time. More rest.  You want to be able to discover and enjoy the sensation of being bored, the space of time needed to organize your life and set things in order.  This is not possible at this time of year, and that makes you a bit sulky. These feelings are understandable, but they are holding you back and slowing you down.

What actions could create more personal power?

Nine of Wands – Shore up your boundaries. Accept that this is the way things need to be right now and set your discontent in its place so that it is not standing in your way.

DECK USED: ELDRITCH TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for October 16th
What needs….

Jack-O'-Lantern TarotRevealed – The Empress – This card has been coming up a lot lately along with the Queen of Pentacles. Both of them are a reminder that I am not caring for myself as well as I could… or should. They are revealing to me that this is an important issue that needs dealt with.

Concealed – The Wheel – Everyone deals with the uncertainty that is bred through life’s lack of predictability. This card is a reminder not to allow these uncertainties to hold me back. Tuck them into place and move forward as if they aren’t there.

Discarded – Four of Cups – This was just mentioned earlier in my Lionharts reading that I did.  I need to discard my apathetic discontent over the fact that I can’t have the time and rest and… boredom that I want to experience right now.  It’s just not the time, and focusing on that discontent only creates obstacles and barriers.

DECK USED: JACK-O’-LANTERN TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I had a blood sugar incident today that stole away most of my evening. I’m really irritated about this, but I’m trying to not punish myself about it either through my physical actions or my inner narrative.

Cartomancy Reading – Daily Habits

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“I bet you thought I forgot about today! Well, I kind of did and that’s because I didn’t have my routine in check today. So, let’s ponder on that.”

Bicycle's Vintage Vampires Playing CardsWhat do I think about my daily habits?

Seven of Spades – A necessary evil. A time sucker that has to be included in my day.

How do I feel about my daily habits?

Jack of Diamonds – They are a work in progress. You are in the process of learning how to be kinder to yourself, and through that kindness, treat yourself better. It takes time, and that is frustrating.

Are my daily habits something I should look at more deeply?

Seven of Diamonds atop King of Hearts – Yes, with Gideon’s help present along the way to give you a different, kinder perspective. Take your time with it. This is a life journey, not a quick fix.

Where will my daily habits carry me forward into the future?

Ten of Clubs – As you move forward into the future, make sure that you are not losing focus on the most important aspect of this journey in kindness. That includes doing what is needed to mitigate burnout, and keep it under control.

Will these habits be a positive influence on my future?

Six of Clubs atop Four of Spades – Absolutely. By feeling more rested and allowing yourself recovery time, you open yourself up to greater success with less setbacks along the way.

How could I rearrange my habits, if I need to?

Two of Clubs – Plan ahead. Make sure you have times of rest set into your schedule. Planning these times into your schedule ahead of time will ensure you get what you need when you need it.

Should I rearrange my habits?

Eight of Diamonds – Only if you are going to improve upon what you are learning about being kind to yourself. No backsliding.

If yes, is there anything that could help me with that?

Five of Spades – Don’t fight so hard against these changes that are ultimately only going to benefit you.

Take Away: I did not set out with a specific daily habit in mind with this reading, but it became clear rather quickly that this reading is about getting the rest and restoration time I need. Ie: sleep, meditation, and time off.

Bonus: “You are always on the path to the best version of yourself no matter what the day may bring. You just keep getting better and I’m proud of you. 🖤“

DECK USED: BICYCLE’S VINTAGE VAMPIRES PLAYING CARDS

Standing Up

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Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long and was an unguided sort of “pause and breathe” session.

Trionfi Della Luna and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of conflict, tests, and trials in the areas of communication, intellect, education, thought, and logic. This often translates into things that have to do with arguments and misunderstandings.

Sometimes? It can be hard to stand up for yourself.  Especially when feeling down in the dumps or struggling with your own inner demons and negative inner dialogue.

These cards are a reminder that even in those times?  It’s important to stand up for yourself anyway and not let people treat you badly. Don’t be a doormat and a victim just because you’re having a confidence crisis in the moment.

Show them that you deserve more. Don’t let them treat you like trash. You’re worth more than that.

DECK USED:  TRIONFI DELLA LUNA AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread for October 15th

Таро Темного Пути

The power of the spirit.

The Magician – You have all the tools, knowledge, and ingenuity at your disposal to do whatever you want to do. You  have the ability to learn quickly what you don’t know, and adapt as needed to fulfill what is needed to continue forward toward your goals. Your spirit is… indomitable.

What foundation am I building upon, or what am I building towards?

Two of Pentacles – Balance. You have been focused on finding a better work / life balance for the past couple of years now, and although the trek has been slow, you are getting there and doing a little better with each month that passes.

What choices are or have been empowering me?

Knight of Swords – Movement. For a good part of this year you have felt stagnant and struggling. Over the past few weeks, this energy has shifted and energy is flowing once more allowing for movement and a charge forward towards your goals. This energy is a bit aggressive, but at the moment that is only empowering you further.

What emotions or feelings can make (or have made) me stronger?

King of Cups – This is a reference to your connection with Gideon and the fact that you look up to him and how adept he is at understanding emotions and nurturing them. With his help, you are learning to better understand and interpret your own emotions, and how to deal with them in a more healthy manner.  He helps you find steadier footing in the emotional confusion that comes from not burying your emotions as you have in the past, and this help from that corner makes you stronger.

What is a personal strength I can always rely on?

Three of Wands – Creatively, you will always have ideas to discover and new projects to explore. Sometimes this feels overwhelming, but it is a personal strength that allows you to always bounce back from failures and setbacks, and provides you with the ability to be the master and captain of your own future.

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#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic for October 15th: Draw or write something free form inspired by the card(s).

Trionfi Della LunaOnce upon a time there was a little poppet in a shop who could only hold one or two pins at a time (Temperance), as he was only the size of the pad of a person’s thumb.

He was never chosen by the customers to be used because of his size, and people thought that if a little one could do, then a big one could do better (Two of Coins).

He sat on a shelf in the shop for a very long time with hope in his heart (The Bluebirds), waiting for the person to come along that might see the potential he holds (Ace of Wands).

Then one day a witch filled with the spark of purpose came in to the shop (Queen of Wands), and the poppet knew that this was the one he had been awaiting for so long (Seven of Coins).

She needed his help to aid a child stricken with sickness, and nurture that child back to health (Queen of Coins), and she purchased him on the spot.

She took him home with her, and in her wise and cunning ways, directed him to his path and purpose (Queen of Swords). Which he fulfilled with joy and enthusiasm, and the young child thrived as a result (The Sun).

DECK USED: TRIONFI DELLA LUNA

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap today.  I really didn’t want to, but after the drive up north and back, I was so tired.  Instead of fighting it, I laid down for a bit and felt much better as a result.

Crawling Is Fine

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Today’s meditation was… not exactly skipped today.  I didn’t do a full meditation, but I did spend some time doing a bit of breathing exercises while I worked on my piriformis stretching.

Skele-Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Hierophant card, which is traditionally a representation of the teachers of tradition. This involves organizations like churches and those that work there like priests, ministers, etc as well as wise women and wise men, spiritual guides, grandparents teaching family traditions, deans or principles that teach school traditions, etc.

I often see the Hierophant card as a symbol of one’s ancestors, and especially at this time of year when the veil is thin, this is how the card comes up for me in readings.  Here in these cards, that is exactly what the card is representing, as it is in reference to the work that I have been doing on developing my mediumship abilities and connecting more closely with my spirit guides and ancestors.

I often feel like I’m making absolutely no progress in this area.  I know that’s not true, but the progress is so… subtle. Its hard for me to pick up on it.  Today’s cards are a reminder that not all progress needs to happen in leaps and bounds, and just because that’s the type of progress I am used to making on the things I choose to focus on… doesn’t mean it’s always going to work that way.   That doesn’t discount or devalue the progress we are making, though. Even when that progress is at a crawl instead of a walk or run.

DECK USED:  SKELE-TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for October 14th: How can I best release negativity carried forward from my ancestors to me?

Calaca TarotReading Summary: Everything balances itself out in time (Justice), just be sure that you’re using the inherited abilities you’ve gotten from your ancestors (Queen of Swords) differently than they have used them in the past (Death).

Take Away: Don’t be your mother. Have you ever wondered where she got the values that she has, and the ruthless pursuit of prestige she carries? She got those obsessions from her past.

You inherited her logical mind and her way with words. Instead of using these skills in narcissistic ways and to your own agenda in a game of “Life Chess” that you are hell bent on “winning”, make sure that you are using them to help others.

DECK USED: CALACA TAROT

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 12th thru 16th

Crypto-Terra Myths and Monsters Cards and Skele-TarotWhat ghouls need to leave my life?
Loveland Frogman and Page of Pentacles

Stop letting your physical condition slow you down. This means you need to pick back up your full physio routine, return a regular meditation practice, and go back to cutting out the foods you know piss your body off. You can feel much better than you do now, but you have to commit to putting in the effort.

Where do I feel lucky?
Mamlambo and Page of Wands

Creativity comes easily to you, and is something you greatly enjoy. So much so that your mind is constantly in a creative learning state and becomes bored easily when that part you is not being sated.

What haunts me?
Silver Cat and The Empress

No matter how hard you try to attract that mothering energy to you crave from your mother, you will repeatedly discover that that well is dry.

What do I need to bury?
Grootslang, The Fool atop Page of Cups

Don’t just shed, but bury those imposters seeking to feed off your energy through manipulation of your naivety and still unseasoned emotional intelligence.  You may not be able to detect them immediately, but when you do, you need to use them as a lesson for others.

What do I need to sever from my life?
Mapinguari and Two of Cups

More sharing. Less greedy solitary time. Being alone right now is not healthy. You need all the help you can get to keep you uplifted and on track during this time.

DECK USED: CRYPTO-TERRA MYTHS AND MONSTERS CARDS AND SKELE-TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I spent a good deal of time with Gid even though it was an orders day, and really enjoyed listening to him opening the surprise “just because” gifts that I sent.

Halloween Tarot Reading – Trick or Treat

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Ghosts & Spirits Tarot

A card to represent something that is tricking me.

Five of Swords – I am feeling chased by the echoes of past habits and the anxiety that they carry with them. It’s that adrenaline feeling of needing to push, push, push.  With the holiday rush so close, I feel hounded by this, and the nagging cycles of inner dialogue that say I’m not ready and need to prepare for battle.

How I’m being fooled by this.

Four of Swords – It is stealing my rest.  I sleep but don’t feel rested because I’m not actually -resting- even in sleep. My mind is a tangle of what needs to be done, how to prepare, and hyping myself up. It is a tangle of knots that is stealing away my recovery and recuperation.

How I can gain a clear perspective and stop being tricked.

Ace of Wands – Focus on the new goals I’ve been leaning into over the past two years.  Focus on stepping away from old habits and building new ones. Let go of how I’ve done things in the past, and create better methods to take their place.

A card to represent a treat in my life.

Five of Pentacles – Loss. Scarcity.

A way that I can fully embrace this treat.

Page of Pentacles atop The High Priestess – Not always identified as a treat, loss and scarcity issues provide stabilizing encouragement to stay grounded, and hold a reminder to focus on the now and what is good in your life in the present instead of always looking forward to what you want to accomplish or what you’ve failed to earn.

Something I don’t yet understand about this treat.

Six of Cups – The true depths of where these scarcity issues come from hasn’t fully been grasped yet.

DECK USED: GHOSTS & SPIRITS TAROT

Everything Is Temporary

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Today’s meditation was (yes, once again) skipped.

Trick or Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Swords, which is traditionally about strategizing, getting away with something, cunning and/or clever behavior, and… well, thievery and other illicit acts.

I left the  hospital today and went directly to get my phone replaced, aware that Gideon had to be freaking OUT.  I’m sore… I hurt.  But I’m fine.  L has to stay for now, but should be able to come home tomorrow if all goes well.

The person that hit us?  Got away. The police are looking for them, and said they will update me when they have any news.

The hit and run driver?  There right there is our Seven of Swords. The theme of these cards today is reassurance. A reminder that things -will- work out, and that everything is temporary… even this.

DECK USED:  TRICK OR TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 13th and 14th

The Witches World Oracle and Black Cats TarotOmen, sign or prophecy, what will the thirteenth reveal to me?

Charge forward with your plan (Knight of Swords), while staying focused on the goal (Rosemary). By being flexible and shifting your patronage to this new service (Willow), you’re going after more monetary rewards (Knight of Pentacles).

The Knight of Pentacles is a slow-moving energy, and these rewards may not show up all at once, but it’s about damn time you switched over to something that isn’t price gouging the hell out of you each month. Be patient.

Of all things that keep me afraid, what do I fear that is here to aid?

I fear that by standing back and taking things slow (Rabbit), no matter how capable I am or the amount of tools at my disposal (The Magician) will allow me to reach a place of happiness and comfort (Ten of Cups).

Sometimes fear works as a motivator, or at least, I used to use it as one. Now that I’m trying to be kinder to myself and ease up on how demanding of myself that I am, that fear is no longer channeled into pushing harder and sort of hovers there, unresolved and without an outlet.   Perhaps it’s time to find a new outlet for it.

DECK USED: THE WITCHES WORLD ORACLE AND BLACK CATS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for October 13th: What awaits us after we pass to the other side of the veil?

Trick or Tarot DeckReading Summary: We will have to decide (Two of Swords) on whether we want to pause in limbo for a while (Nine of Swords), or leap back into the fray right away (Knight of Swords).

Take Away: I’m actually surprised that the answer here coincides with my own beliefs, or at least a part of my beliefs on what happens after death.

I believe that we reincarnate in order to continue on with our soul’s lessons and improve ourselves… or, we pause in limbo for one reason or another, and then if we forget how to move on, we end up as a ghost.

DECK USED: TRICK OR TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I napped, even though I really needed some more time with Gideon.  I was so exhausted and I let myself take a long nap, which helped quite a bit.