Morning Bonus Read – Clarity

Bonds Across Time: An Inuyasha Tarot - Clarity Tarot Reading

[NOTATION: I adjusted the last two questions of this spread for my own needs.]

1. Biggest Distraction

Ace of Arrows – Too much started and not finished. Too many new ideas dancing around in your head wanting your  attention, and not enough time to start… let alone finish them all. Writing them down helps, but it’s not resolving that distraction entirely.

2. Where To Focus Instead

Queen of Cups – Your emotional growth and the needs you have for emotional nurturing. There is also an element here in the imagery of the mug that is referencing the need to pick one thing at a time to go after instead of multiple things at once.

3. Past Experience to Let Go

Wheel of Fortune – The unknown coming up and biting you on the ass by surprise.  The unexpected happens and is a part of life.  You can’t let the uncertainty of that knowledge and those experiences hold you back.

4. Useful Past Experience

Five of Cups – Same as above (the figure in this card is looking over at the Wheel of Fortune). You need to look at these past experiences and take value in them, instead of ignoring them and the issues they have wrought for you.

5. What to Cultivate

Six of Arrows – That new healthier path you have been working towards. In order for this new path to work, you have to let go of the old habits that have made you feel so secure for so long. Leaving them behind isn’t easy, but until you do, you won’t be able to move forward.

6. Next Step

Page of Jewels – Little steps. Accept the time it will take to learn and progress at building these new habits and skills. Take the time needed to decide and accept that what needs to be left behind is truly okay to let go of, and what you want to bring with you is worth carrying forward.  There’s no rush.

7. Advice From My Guides

Seven of Swords – Don’t be impulsive.

DECK USED:  BONDS ACROSS TIME: AN INUYASHA TAROT

Occasional Uncertainty Is Okay

Today’s meditation was skipped.  The construction across the street was deafening today, even with the windows and sliding glass door closed.  I had plans to do my meditation after they quit in the evening, but then I ended up napping and making dinner after and the plan just went to shit.  I really don’t want to start meditating with my earbuds in, but I am thinking that I’m not going to have a choice.

Lubanko Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is The Moon card, which is traditionally a representation of the unknown, confusion, fear (especially of the unknown), finding your way through dark and uncertain times, the subconscious, anxiety, and jumping at shadows.

There is no comfort in the Moon card, only a hint of the emerging awareness in the murky waters of the subconscious.  A path through the darkness lies concealed in the water, while all around is darkness and shadows, and the uncertainty that they create.

These feelings are common in times when you can’t be in control of a situation.  Feeling like things are out of your control creates a sometimes overpowering sense of anxiety, a riot of confused emotions, and even feelings of helplessness.

The affirmation card for today brings this type of situation into focus, reminding us that when things don’t go as planned and you feel like things are not within your control?  It’s okay.  It’s okay to feel that way sometimes.  It’s okay because who wants to be in control of everything in life?  Everyone?  Every moment and every small detail?

No one.  That in itself would create it’s own mess of stress and anxiety. So, when you’re feeling things are out of your control?  Take a pause.  Take a breath.  And remember that it’s just in this moment within this situation.  Things will feel less uncertain over time and as the situation involved resolves itself.

DECK USED:  LUBANKO TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

#PrideintheTarot Challenge
Questions for June 8th thru 10th

Connolly TarotA card for living authentically.

Five of Wands – Sometimes fighting for what you are passionate about means leaving your nest of safety and security behind.

A card for embracing diversity.

The Hierophant – Teach by example. Show people how rich and complete life can be by staying open to the wide range of diversity that life has to offer.

A card for connecting with my body.

The High Priestess – Your intuition speaks to you through your body. That quiet knowledge needs you to pay attention, and you need to get things under control with your pain levels so that the pain is not muffling your intuition’s voice.

DECK USED:  CONNOLLY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: How is “art” distinguished from something that “isn’t art”?

Lubanko TarotSummary: Art is filled with passion (Strength), it is empowering (Chariot) and transformative (Death).  It makes people think… contemplate… and seek to understand (Judgement). 

Take Away:  The cards here are indicating that art moves people.  It touches them on the inside and inspires.  It reaches in and makes you think.  It’s individual, and touches each person differently, connects with each person differently.

Even as subjective as art is, the fact that it reaches in and touches us is wherein lies what  makes art “art” in the first place.

DECK USED:  LUBANKO TAROT

CoffeexTarot’s Self Love For The Summer Prompt
Question
: A self-love message from my inner child.

The Zen of Animals OracleHorse – Get outside and run wild for a bit.  You need that outside time and you’re not giving it to yourself.  The longer you wait, the worse the lethargy and restless discontent will become, so make the time to get out into the forest and frolic with the energies and entities among the trees and moss.

Dragon – Our greatest growths and deepest depths of our selves are developed under times of stress, strain, and discomfort. You’re a survivor, and you shine as bright as the dragon’s pearl shimmering in the sun, a glow of inner strength and depth earned through all you have been through.  Don’t forget just how strong and courageous you are.

Goat – You’re sure footed on your life’s path.  Sometimes you have to move slower than others, but as long as you are listening to your moral compass and following your intuition, you won’t trip or end up straying off your path.  Allow that moral compass of yours to keep your steps steady and sure as you move forward one step at a time.

DECK USED:  ZEN OF ANIMALS ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

Well, I didn’t really want to, but I ended up taking a much needed nap today.  Also, got a brief amount of quiet time to nuzzle and snuggle with Miss Luna (which is how I ended up taking a nap in the first place).

Taking a Pause

Today’s meditation was skipped yet again.  I overslept then the day went all awry and… it just didn’t happen.

Playful Heart Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of misfortune, domestic or financial troubles, scarcity, and ill health.

Today’s card really speaks to me intuitively through the imagery.  It says that sometimes life is filled with absurdly frustrating and challenging moments, and that all you feel like doing those moments is breaking down on the side of the road and say fuck it.

I get this.  It happens.  Hell, it happens to me.  I have fallen apart in oncology appointments, had my soul screaming so loud that the only peace I could find is curled in the bottom of a running shower, and bawled my eyes out in physiotherapy sessions. Sometimes… falling apart feels like the only thing left.

The addition of the affirmation card for today is a reminder that when you’re feeling those moments come to their peak?  It’s time to pause. Take a big, deep breath and instead of screaming? Let it out slow then take another.

DECK USED:  PLAYFUL HEART TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How are my goals progressing?

Backyard Blessings Cards and Playful Heart TarotThe Wheel of Fortune indicates that my progress comes and goes. Although not steady, it’s still moving forward.

The advice provided here indicates that, I need to make sure that I focus on optimism and abundance at this time.  I’m getting somewhere, even when things are slow.

But, I’ll get there quicker and healthier if I’m invested in joyful experiences along the way, feeling grateful for what I have, and making sure that I’m continuing to work on counteracting my pessimistic nature with more optimism. Especially during the times when things feel like they are lagging,

DECK USED:  PLAYFUL HEART TAROT AND BACKYARD BLESSINGS CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Self-Care for the New Moon…

Playful Heart TarotReading Summary: Go get that healthy alone time (The Hermit) in nature’s embrace (The Empress), before you lose the chance to do it (The Wheel).

Take Away: I’ve been a bit lax about getting myself out in the woods this last couple of months. Ever since the stalker letter showed up, actually.

I need to move past my resistance and actually do it though. I can feel I’m not getting what I need, and that it is not just dragging me down at this rate, but actually hurting me.

It’s possible (and, in fact, would make perfect sense) that my resistance here is seated not just in my concerns over the whole stalker issue and the fear involved in that, but also is tickling at my self-destruction tendencies.    In either case, whether it’s fear or the dark seduction of self-destruction, it’s something I need to break free of and not allow it to take root and continue to grow.

DECK USED:  PLAYFUL HEART TAROT

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question
: How can I move more into my heart space?

Secrets of the Mystic Grove OracleReading Summary: Being successful alone is well and good. But,when you work together with others your accomplishments are more significant, and you get more done. In looking ahead to the future, make sure that you are including others more in your endeavors and accomplishments.

Take Away: The cards here are indicating that if I want to move more into my heart space I need to invite those around me in closer and allow them more room in my life, including in allowing them to be more deeply involved in my endeavors and help me on my path to success and accomplishment.

DECK USED:  SECRETS OF THE MYSTIC GROVE ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

I splurged on going to a seafood restaurant today and had calamari, deep fried brussels sprouts, four pieces of halibut fish and chips.

Morning Bonus Read – Caring For Your Garden

Caring for Your Garden Reading - Aquarius Lenormand

Crown: Where can I activate my power at this time?

Fish – Sometimes it’s not about resistance.  Sometimes our greatest strength is in going with the flow and letting things move at their own pace.  Success doesn’t always have to be a fight. Reach in deep and seek the strength to let yourself move with the currents and adjust to each shift and flow of change.

Arbor: What protects me but also frames and limits my perspective?

Tower – The things that have happened in your life have made you extra diligent and watchful, extremely cautious about the security of your home and your surroundings. This behavior doesn’t just protect, but it also causes limitations that can sometimes make you feel trapped.  It doesn’t mean they’re not important, only that you need to be aware of the influence that these things have on how you see the world and those around you.

Landscape: What is the background energy in which I’ve been situated?

Star – Hope as you move forward, seeking the light.  You know that the opportunity for growth and better things is there. You may not have found the right road to reach that horizon yet, but you know it’s there and you’re inspired to reach for it.

Rabbit: What is the most fertile ground for advancing my position?

Letter – This is a reminder to get my property tax paperwork taken care of.  It’s been sitting on my desk for the past four days and I keep glancing at it but not getting it done.  There’s a deadline, so… yeah.  I need to get that done.

Glowing Gold: What is the potential of this investment of energy?

Mountain – There’s a lot to get through and a lot yet to overcome.  Like all journeys and the hurdles involved, you don’t get anywhere if you don’t keep taking one step forward at a time.  Take on those challenges one at a time, and soon enough you’ll find yourself at the peak and ready to hoof it down the other side. Then, of course, there will be yet another mountain to follow.

DECK USED:  AQUARIUS LENORMAND

What I Want, When I Want It

Today’s meditation was skipped as it’s an orders day.

Fortune Queens: A Drag Race Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is The Lovers card, which is traditionally a representation of relationships and sometimes marriage, as well as making healthy choices, weighing one’s values when making a decision, and themes to do with love and harmony.

When combined with the affirmation card pulled for today, what I see is a reminder that sometimes making choices… is hard.  Sometimes it’s a tug of war between what we want and what needs to be done, or a debate between what is best for others or best for ourselves.

At these times, having choices doesn’t feel like a boon, even though it absolutely is, and it’s important to take a step back and just breathe.  Let things settle, weigh your values and your needs against what might be your actual desire.   Stay calm and the right answer will come.

Sometimes?  That means we can’t always have what we want when we want it.  For example, in today is an orders day. This means that the mass majority of my waking hours has to be focused on work and getting orders ready to ship, which means limited contact with Gideon. It sucks, but it’s temporary. And so I tell myself to breathe through it and keep moving.

DECK USED:  FORTUNE QUEENS: A DRAG RACE TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS

CoffeexTarot’s Self Love For The Summer Prompt
Question
: What spiritual gift do I possess?

Oracle of the Strange ForestFirefly – My ability to be genuine with both myself and the world around me. I’ve met people that find this quality extremely annoying, and others that find it refreshing.  Some understand, and others can’t grasp it.  But I really have no one else I’d rather be, and no one else I could bother pretending to be.

I don’t have the heart, the motivation, or the memory to hide myself from those around me, and I figure if I instead simply allow my true sell to shine, people are far more aware if I’m someone they’d want to get to know, or someone they’d rather pass on.

Groundhog and Hawk – Balancing optimism with control. Allowing others room to grow in their own way and their own direction while providing guidance.  This balancing act between providing inspiration and direction, and allowing others to grow at their own pace and in their own unique ways is something that I find extremely important.  It’s a gift that allows me to guide (and occasionally also teach) others without imposing my own path upon theirs.  Instead I encourage their own growth on their own path, and provide experiences and information to help them find their way.

DECK USED:  ORACLE OF THE STRANGE FOREST

#DiscordTarotolicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: About love…
Question: How can I better discern acts of love from those spurred by other motivations?

Fortune Queens: A Drag Race TarotReading Summary: You need to work on having more faith in those around you (The Star atop Three of Cups). Everyone picks (Seven of Cups) a bad apple now and then and has to take time to recover from the betrayal (Wheel of Fortune atop Four of Swords).

Take Away: The answer here in these cards is that there is no better way to discern acts of love from those spurred by other motivations than the methods I am already using.  You can’t know everything, and life can turn on a dime and bite you in the ass.  

Have a little faith, and try not to go too overboard on the paranoia.

DECK USED:  FORTUNE QUEENS: A DRAG RACE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I’m going to bed at a decent hour tonight.

Self Gratitude Is Important

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I was just too damned tired.

Spiritsong Tarot and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Four of Shells (Cups), which is traditionally a representation of meditative contemplation, taking a pause in which you turn away from external help and look inward, soul-searching, meditation, and at times, apathy and discontent with what is being offered.

I find that the Flower Fortunes card for the day matches this theme in the way that we often forget to pause and appreciate ourselves in the day to day of our lives.

We see the good in others, we evaluate the world around us in the day to day much lie the watchful crane stands still among reeds and evaluates its environment.   But when do we take time to actually look at ourselves and truly appreciate ourselves?  Not all that often.  Instead we look with a critical eye, an apathetic eye, or the eye of someone seeking out their favorite whipping boy.

The message in today’s cards is to take a step back and look at yourself with kindness.  Look at yourself with appreciation.  Take time to be grateful for yourself.  For who you are and what you can do, for the decisions you’ve made and how far you’ve come.

DECK USED:  SPIRITSONG TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

#DiscordTarotolicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #1

Prairie Majesty Oracle How is the rise of summer energies manifesting in my life?

Dragonfly – You’re being given the opportunity to pivot direction into something stronger and happier.  Welcome the change and lean into the turn.  What you’re seeking is around that corner,  you just need to let go and enjoy the ride.

How can I Harness these summer energies for my purpose?

Earthworm – In order to let this change happen you’re going to need to let go. Take a breath, and let the chips fall as they may instead of fighting against it because you’re afraid or uncomfortable. The struggle isn’t needed and is rooted in judgements concerning the discomfort that comes with change.

Where would I be best served in directing these energies throughout the summer months?

Cottonwood – You need to direct this energy into a sense of curiosity and enthusiasm. Don’t let the dread of change and discomfort take away this opportunity. Stretch your self tall, explore… look at it as an adventure.  Something fun and interesting instead of something to fear.

DECK USED:  PRAIRIE MAJESTY ORACLE

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I improve upon how I spend my time?

Spiritsong TarotReading Summary: More focus on what I’m doing, less distraction (Ace of Acorns). Increase your gratitude practices, for they help you feel more fulfilled as a whole (Nine of Shells). Seek out time with Gideon which allows for both emotional growth as well as a sense of emotional security (King of Shells).

Take Away:  Everything looks back to the Ace of Acorns, meaning that whatever I’m doing, no matter what it is, I need to make sure that I am leaning into focusing on that thing instead of allowing multiple different things to tap in and distract me, splintering my focus.

This is something that has been happening quite a lot lately, and only I can make the changes and choices that will allow me to get past this splintering of focus and back to somewhere more solid and productive.

DECK USED:  SPIRIT SONG TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I allowed myself not to give a fuck about my mother being pissed off that I fell asleep on her when she was on the phone.