Morning Bonus Read – Appreciation

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
The weather may be getting cooler or bringing in some mighty storms wherever you are and for some of us, it gives us joy, but not for all of us. Today, we will discover and give a little appreciation to ourselves. This is a short prompt, enjoy some TLC after!

Bicycle Sewer Dwellers Playing CardsWhere in my mind am I feeling my best? Why?

Nine of Hearts and Seven of Spades – I’m feeling at peace and content in my mental health because I managed to dodge a bullet with the medication adjustment I did at the last MDE onset.

What familiar comfort can connect me more closely with how my mind is feeling?

Nine of Spades atop Two of Clubs – These cards are a reminder that I now know what the medication adjustment can do and, when I detect another onset coming in the future, I can use this again at that time.

Where in my body am I feeling my best? Why?

Ten of Clubs and Ace of Clubs – I’ve made leaps and bounds this year at the new strategy in not overwhelming myself with too much on my plate at once, and thus managing to avoid the resulting cycle of burn out.

What familiar comfort can connect me more closely with how my body is feeling?

Three of Clubs – Keep doing what I’m doing. It’s working and it’s a healthier choice than what I was doing before. Make it familiar and routine, a permanent part of my path going forward.

Where in my energy am I feeling my best? Why?

King of Hearts – Although it never feels like enough, I’m getting the support that I need in my relationship to keep my energy uplifted. When everything else feels like it goes to shit, I am drawn to Gideon like a moth to a flame. He helps me get out of my own head, find peace, and reminds me that I am loved.

What familiar comfort can connect me more closely with how my energy is feeling?

Ten of Hearts – Don’t forsake the positive place that this energy provides. The security of knowing I am loved, and that he’s not going anywhere, is something worth not just acknowledgment, but a good amount of wallowing in.

Where in my true self am I feeling my best? Why?

Six of Hearts and King of Diamonds – I am starting to find a new level of peace with my past and look at it in a more positive manner. This has been brought about by the realization that I need to create a more compartmentalized view of the past and the present, a discovery that I made earlier this year and I’ve been processing ever since.

What familiar comfort can connect me more closely with how my true self is feeling?

Ten of Diamonds atop Ace of Spades – Sink into the new sense of stability that this realization has created. I’ve always been hyper-fixated on building increasingly more stability and security in my life. This new realization has allowed me to enjoy what I’ve built and be comfortable instead of being driven to always do more.

DECK USED: BICYCLE’S SEWER DWELLERS PLAYING CARDS

Morning Bonus Read – Libra Season

Retrospective Tarot - Libra Season Tarot Reading

What needs balancing?

Eight of Coins – You are spending too much time focusing on work. Even in your down time, this is where your mind lingers. You’re not in the busy season quite yet and you need to make sure that you don’t push yourself into it before it’s time.  Six weeks in that demanding physical and mental space is long enough.

How to align your energy?

Three of Wands – Movement. Get yourself outside your burrow and experience the world. You need the fresh air and the exercise, the movement and the time outside.  Get as much of that as you can, while you can.  Soon enough you won’t have time for it (or much of anything else) and you’ll be aching for it.

How to create a better work/life balance?

Knight of Cups – Spend more time pursuing the stuff you enjoy. It’s about having fun and finding the fun in the things you do. At one point you found joy in every aspect of your work, and it’s time to start seeking out that joy once more.

How to find balance and harmony in relationships?

Page of Swords atop Eight of Swords – Learn to identify more quickly when a relationship isn’t working for you and needs to be severed. Cut the cords before they become toxic.

How to find peace and balance in your own heart?

King of Swords and The Tower – Seize control of the chaotic moments of change in your life. Make them yours, and use them as tools to strategize towards something better.

DECK USED: RETROSPECTIVE TAROT

Finding the Fire Within – Part III

Stretch Lenormand - Finding the Fire Within Reading

How can I incorporate self-discipline to stay true to myself moving forward?

Dog and Birds – Be kind and loyal to yourself. Don’t allow your inner narrative to turn ugly and hurtful, but instead use your self discipline to bolster yourself with positive feedback and kindness.

What should I avoid?

Scythe and Ship – Being cruel to yourself isn’t going to get you anywhere. Self- flagellation only holds you back.

What lessons have I learned from this process?

House and Child – To see my personal “sphere” in a different light that is more open and positive than before.  Opening my eyes required re-framing how I see things, and these readings have assisted me in that, allowing me to take a fresh look at what I’ve built in my life and the shelter it provides.

What inspires me to be true to myself?

Broom and Mountain – This answer might seem a bit odd, but it’s the things that I have struggled to overcome that give me the strength and inspiration to be my  true self.  Some organisms grow best in ash instead of soil.

How does my authentic self align with my purpose?

Letter and Fish – By chronicling your journey as you work to learn to better go with the flow of life’s currents, you don’t just allow yourself to reflect back on your personal journey, but allow others to be inspired in the sharing of it.

A card for self-care.

Cross and Stork – Don’t forget that you require a certain amount of recovery and recuperation after shifts of fate and unexpected changes.  It’s okay to give yourself that time, to allow yourself to sink into it instead of pushing forward.

DECK USED:  STRETCH LENORMAND

Finding the Fire Within Part II

Finding the Fame Within Part 2 - Lenormand Reflet di Lune

How can I release my fears and insecurities?

Anchor and Crossroads – Make sure that you are grounding yourself, so that when difficult choices arise you’ll be on solid footing. It’s always more difficult to make good decisions when your life feels chaotic and your energy is out of balance.  This process becomes even more difficult when that imbalance allows fears and insecurities to slip in and pollute the decision making process.  By having a steadily grounded foundation under your feet during these times, there’s less chance of those emotions screwing with your decisions.

What steps can I take to more deeply embrace my true self?

Lady, Moon, Cross – You need to return to doing regular lunar rituals with L. Not only do they provide a deeper connection with your path, your spirituality, and the energies surrounding you, but they connect you more deeply with L as well. As your other half, she is a part of you and you a part of her.

How can I protect myself from external factors?

Ship and Lily – Visit your mother.  You may not entirely understand how this can protect you from external factors, but the cards here indicate that visiting your mother will do so.  Perhaps it will douse the fire of her outrage and future machinations or something.

How can I boost my confidence to express myself?

Book and Key – Knowledge is power. Do your research so that whatever you are expressing yourself about can be resourced if needed. Having a strong foundation of sources to back up your knowledge will provide you with more confidence in what you are saying. Consider, on certain topics, noting down a list of resources for future reference.

What guidance do I need through this process?

House and Mountain – Retreat to the comfort of home when things feel insurmountable. Allow that comfort that both your physical home, as well as Gid and L, can provide to soothe you and shore up your strength to try again.

Self CareFish – For now? Just go with the flow. You can worry about the more challenging stuff later on.

DECK USED: LENORMAND REFLET DE LUNE

Morning Bonus Read – September

Lonely Dreamer Tarot 2nd Edition - September Tarot Reading

What is the energy surrounding you this September?

Gradual change (Death) while taking care to remain seated and keep your emotional growth as the focus (Nine of Cups).

Although the holiday rush is on its way, it’s not here yet and I need to remain focused on settling into the emotional growth that I’ve made this year for the month of September, processing how far I’ve come and where I’m at now before diving into preparation for the holiday rush.

Small changes can be made along the way this month, but I need to make sure I don’t dive right in too early as it could damage the progress that I’ve made in my emotional growth.

What needs letting go from the previous months?

Shadow –  I’ve done a great deal of shadow work this year. But, it’s time to put that away now that fall is approaching. September allows me some time of adjustment to the things that I’ve learned, so that I can move forward with purpose as the season moves closer and closer to the holiday rush to come.

If I don’t let it go, it will make things more difficult in the months ahead.

As the seasons change, how can you best apply your focus toward your goals?

King of Swords – Have a plan, and stay focused. I know what I want, and I know it’s going to be a rough journey. Just stay focused on those ambitions and goals, and it’ll be fine.

How can you best bring more abundance in to your life?

Seven of Wands – Make sure to stay strongly rooted and connected with my moral compass and what I know to be right and wrong. Make good choices and don’t let others lead me astray with their contrasting values and their own goals

I was given advice recently that went against not just what I know to be right for me, but also against what my guides have been advising me on for months.

For a moment, because it spoke to my old habits and tendencies, I actually entertained it in my mind. I’m not sure if this is because it came from an external source, or because it was a temptation of old unhealthy behavior that would be so easy to fall back into.

That advice, of course, was it discarded… As it should’ve been. But this is a good reminder to be careful of repeats in the months ahead.

What influence will provide positive change this month?

King of Wands – It’s mine.  My goals, my passions. My desire, drive, and ambitions. Take the reins and set the pace. Remember that, in life and especially in the business, I am the captain of the ship. Be sure to delegate where needed to keep things running smoothly.

Message from Spirits and Guides.

Page of Swords – Learning a new path and new methods to achieve your goals can often be confusing. It’s okay to feel like you’re fumbling around in the dark sometimes… everybody does once in a while.

DECK USED: LONELY DREAMER TAROT 2ND EDITION

Relationship Trauma (Daddy Issues)

Cursed Auguries Tarot and Roots & Wings Mini OracleWhat wounds need healing from this relationship?

Knight of Swords and Balance – His impulsively savage treatment and painful words have set you off balance, and now, that balance is something you constantly seek and work to improve upon.

What basic truth / trust has been damaged?

Two of Wands and Transformation – That you don’t need to plan every little thing out for things to turn out okay. It’s hard to trust that if you don’t have your thumb on every little piece of the plan that things will still go as they should and to your benefit.

What is this trauma is holding me back from experiencing?

Two of Swords and Moon – The ability to be decisive without struggling with uncertainty. That uncertainty lies deep within and whispers.  You pretend it’s not there, and no one ever sees it… but it’s there beneath the surface and shows itself in how exact and precise you are in executing the decisions you’ve made.

Why it’s important to heal this trauma?

Page of Pentacles, Intuition atop Potential – it will help unleash your potential to grow into something better and greater than you are now, freeing your intuition in the process do that it will become easier to follow.

What are the first steps in healing this trauma?

Five of Pentacles, Vulnerability atop Perseverance – Remember that your feelings of scarcity are an echo of your past and not the reality of this moment. Those feelings compounded with your fears create a sense of vulnerability that makes it feel more reality based than it actually is.

How can you be more open to the healing of this trauma?

Page of Cups and Hope – Stay in touch with your emotions and positive in your outlook. Don’t shut your emotions down just because they are uncomfortable or unpleasant to deal with.

Advice from the spirits and guides.

Three of Cups and Sun – Chin up! Stay positive and look to others to help lift you up and keep you aloft emotionally.

DECK USED:  CURSED AUGURIES TAROT, ROOTS & WINGS MINI ORACLE