No Hiding Allowed

Today’s meditation was skipped

Femme La Florale TarotToday’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a projective beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with going after one’s passions with a “all systems go” mentality, and diving headlong into those things that kindle one’s “inner spark”.

Situational depression is not an MDE.  They are not the same.  But they feel the same in the moment.  And today?  Today I spent a good deal of time with a “fort” of pillows around my head while burrowed under a blanket. J came over and forced my ass out of bed, dragged me out of the house and made me step in among the trees.

And it helped.  I can’t say the depression still isn’t there, but it -did- help.  Today’s card is about making sure I’m connecting with those things that light up my inner spark. Not just connecting with them, but getting my ass moving and DO them.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th thru 12th

Femme La Florale TarotWhat is one of your most positive qualities?

Ten of Swords – My ability to move on from painful experiences, understand and learn from them, and continue on from them without allowing them to keep me bound.  As horrible as these experiences are, once they are over I am able to use them as a lesson rather than wallow in their aftermath.

How can you help this positive quality flourish in your life?

Queen of Swords and Knight of Wands – Don’t allow those hard times and troubles to convince you it’s the end of the world. Remember that if it’s something you truly believe in, there will always be another way to move forward and go after what you want.

And one of your least positive qualities?

Nine of Cups – Excitement and experimentation go hand in hand, but the joy is fleeting before I’m on to the next and the next.   This means that I end up with a lot of skills and experiences, but very few of them “stick” over time if they do not provide enough challenge to keep me from becoming too content.

How can you utilize this least positive quality to your benefit?

The Hermit and Queen of Wands – Examine why you reasons and motives for picking up new projects and passions, and for setting them down.  This knowledge is useful, but takes self reflection.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I went for a walk in the wetlands today.

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_6858Taking a Break

I want to stick
my head
in the sand
and pretend
the world
isn’t there
Insulated
and quiet
with life muted
and worries gone
I can close my eyes
for just a moment
and everything
can be okay

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Eggs and Baskets and Patience, Oh My

Today’s meditation was skipped.

The Victorian Romantic TarotToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of

Like yesterday’s card, today’s card is more about the imagery than it is about what card it is in the tarot. There is encouragement here to wait. Soul in tatters and not fully unscathed, nevertheless right now is a waiting game. There’s no more action you can take no matter how much anxiety or energy you pour into the problem. For the time being it’s not in your hands, so just sit back and wait.

Aside from this there is also a meaning in this card that has to do with my current situation as well. This card is about boundaries, and it’s about protecting what is important to you. It is a reminder that there are things I can do to help make myself a little less dependent on others, a little more independent, and a little more protected concerning ending up helpless at the whims of others.

I need to look into finding someone to build me a commerce website… or building one myself. Then if the rug is pulled out from under me on the platforms on which I run my business, I at least have a recourse already set up and ready to go. that’s going to be expensive, and I don’t really want to do it. But I think it’s time.

DECK USED:  THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 11th and 12th

The Victorian Romantic TarotThink of something you would like to experience {more of} this year.

King of Pentacles – More stability. More security. It’s not just about success, or achieving one’s goals. It’s about feeling rooted. Grounded. Sure of your footing, no matter the situation or circumstance.

How can I achieve this?

King of Wands – Pour yourself into your passions and drive. Get the shit done that needs to get done, and delegate along the way to make sure you get the best results possible.

How or where am I guided to {re}connect with my {true} passions?

Six of Wands, The Moon and Ten of Swords – Success comes through accepting that uncertainty and failure is a part of life, and a learning experience. Don’t let it drag you down and drown you. Instead, allow it to lift you up into something better.

What {untapped} skills/resources can help me with this?

Three of Wands atop Five of Cups – Remember to keep moving forward, even when feeling disappointed or discouraged. Don’t let it slow you down or hold you back.

DECK USED: THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I let play with Gideon distract me for a while, which helped ease my anxiety a bit.

Gideon’s Challenge

IMG_8536Time Decelerate

Patience
is a virtue
that is not easy
when heart flutters
and skin tingles
nerves jangle
and every little
movement
of the world
makes it difficult
to sit still
and wait
as seconds tick by
far too slowly

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Divination – How Does It Work?

This is a perspectives prompt that was offered up recently by one of the Discord servers that I’m a member of. Question: “How do you think divination works? To give some context to the question – there are various models I know of. For instance, some say that your tarot deck connections to The Universe. What do you think?“

I get this question often with long-term clients, and the thing is? That “where does the message come from?” question is actually pretty common when you read for others. The thing is, the answer is different for everyone depending on their beliefs, their skillset, and their sensitivities. Some options are…

1) The Universe – This includes but is not limited to God, other deity, divinity of all forms, and other “universal” energies or personalities. The way that I see divinity is that it is essentially the energies of creation, evolution, and balance in all things. People interpret these energies differently depending on their belief system and to parse out what “parts and pieces” of these energies they specifically want to deal with.

2) The Dead (whether it is the individual or their residual energy) – Mediumship is a thing. There are those that receive messages from the dead as their main source of divination. There are others that the dead surely influence their readings without them even realizing.

3) Guiding Spirits – This could include the dead and ancestors, but also includes the Fae, angels, demons, and other entities that are there in the background to help guide and protect you.

4) Other Entities – Sometimes mischief makers can influence a reading. These aren’t guiding spirits so much as entities out for their own agendas. Most people who encounter this issue, in my experience, find that they were divining just fine and then suddenly find that their deck/pendulum/etc is “acting up”. They cleanse the deck and in the process end up repelling the entity regardless of the fact that the entity is probably not residing in the tool being used.

5) The Subconscious – Our brains are busy working things out all the time in the background, and we don’t even realize it. Sometimes the messages we receive from divination come straight out of that dark inner working of gears, no external influences involved. This also includes communicating with your inner child and other parts of your past and present self.

6) Our Intuition – That mysterious “inner knowing” we all have. Some tap into it more easily than others, and some use divination to translate what their intuition has to say.

7) Clair-senses and Other Abilities – Much like with one’s intuition, sometimes these “other” abilities can be hard to understand and interpret without a little help. Divination can often provide that intermediary / translator needed in these situations.

I see divination as a bridge between languages. The languages of the above sources… and your conscious mind and understanding. Whether it’s pendulums, tarot cards, scrying, automatic writing, etc… the divination method is meant to help you better understand what needs to be seen, heard, or understood. It’s there to help you communicate with yourself and these other entities, elements, and energies.

Gagged, Bound, and Feeling Helpless

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Erotic TarotToday’s draw is the King of Feathers (Swords), which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s intellect, education, logic, ambition, and communication.

You know?  Most of the day I thought this was about the King in this imagery.  But as the day draws to a close? I find that this card wasn’t about embodying the energy of the King at all.  It was a warning that I was going to be taken down and made to feel like the little bitch in chains.

It’s been a rough evening.  I definitely feel like the little bitch on the floor, gagged and without recourse other than to just “take it”.  And so I take a breath and tell myself “tomorrow will be a better day”.  Not sure how many times I’ll have to say it to make myself believe it… but I’m trying.

DECK USED:  EROTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th

Erotic TarotWhat is something I should {try to} master?

The Fool and Queen of Roses (Coins) – Being more carefree and free spirited with your support of self and others. Kindness is not a limited resource. You can spend as much as you like and there will always be more. So don’t be sparing with yourself and generous with others… be generous with both.

Why?

Two of Candles (Wands) and King of Roses (Coins) – It will help you to plotting a path to greater “riches”. Remember that wealth is not always about monetary gain, in this instance it’s far more about stability and finding better footing.

DECK USED: EROTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I searched out my wrist brace today and made sure I wore it when I went to pick up the two shelves.  My wrist is feeling quite a bit better.  Still tender, but not screaming.