The WTF Moment
A trip to the restroom
into a stall I step
and turn
to find something
far too adult
at face level
on the door
and I have to pause
for just a moment
and wonder
how it is something
so innocent
could become
so very perverted
in one’s mind
Today’s meditation was just over twelve minutes long, and was another of the #DailyCalm sessions from the Calm app.
The topic of today’s meditation was about worry, and how there is good, productive worry that allows us to sort things out and act on what’s bothering us, but also unhealthy unproductive worry where we stew over things that we have no control over. It spoke about how to tell the difference, and how the mindfulness aspect of meditation can help us in breaking the pattern of unhealthy worry.
Today’s draw is the Page of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s thoughts, education, logic, ambition, and communication.
I feel like there is direction in this card far more than in the traditional imagery of the Page of Swords. The sword in this card appears to point the way forward to greater heights, and that is where the message in this card lies.
Sometimes when we find ourselves ready to move forward and find our footing, we forget to connect what we’re learning to our overall life goals. The reminder here is to make sure that you are doing that. How is what you’re learning and the path you’re choosing to explore going to carry with you down the road? Will it make you a better person? Will it improve the condition of your life or those of others? Is it frivolous and fun? Does it have a purpose?
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for…
The Chariot – Day 10
What good opportunity is available to me right now?
La Lémurie – Your ancestors and guides have knowledge far beyond anything you could hope to learn in your own. Don’t be shy about reaching out to the to seek out knowledge or hesitant to acknowledge their influences in your life, for they are a part of your foundation.
How can I make the most out of this good opportunity?
L’Éveil – Give them the opportunity to rise up and speak to you. They are there waiting for your attention and acknowledgment, and eager to help.
Strength- Day 11
What awareness can help me overcome something?
La Claircognizance – The awareness that your intuition will not steer you wrong and can be trusted implicitly… blindly, without need to sort things through first. Where this knowledge comes from is not as important as shat you do with it and the trust that you put in it.
How can I grow within my strengths or personal powers?
L’Humiliation – Do not allow others judgements, jealousies, envy, or nay-saying words and actions to cause doubts to rise or to cause you to silence your abilities. You know yourself best and there will always be those who reject what they can’t (or refuse to) understand.
#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #2
Question: How will my physical health and the plans that depend on it play out in the next two weeks?
Reading Summary: You are hale and healthy (King of Pentacles). Stay on the same path you are on, and continue to protect yourself with strength and determination (Knight of Wands), and you will be able to reunite with those visiting just fine when the time comes (Two of Cups).
The connection of orange and red is strong between the King of Pentacles and the Knight of Wands, speaking of the solidity of the King carrying forward into the Knight. The blue is then absent from the Knight, but reflects from the King of Pentacles into the Two of Cups. This connection speaks of continued stability in the relationships with others through the continued stability in your own health.
Take Away: The message here is to keep doing what I’m doing. I’ve been taking the immunity boosters ever since J tested positive for Covid, and I need to continue taking them as well as making sure I avoid exposure so that plans over the next couple weeks will go smoothly when Ms B comes to visit.
I am once again playing catch-up with posts, and I can’t for the life of me remember what my self kindness was for this day.
The Celebration
Spring begins
with sweet blooms
small and delicate
opening
to greet the sun
and soon
vibrant shades
of yellow and pink
are sure to come
as life stirs
eager and bright
in the breeze
that carries
crisp new scents
and raindrops tease
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Ten of Wands, Forgiveness atop Pride – Shit happens. Sometimes you over work yourself a your body is upset as a result. Sometimes money gets mismanaged or unexpected expenses rear up and you feel overwhelmed by it all. Don’t let your pride and resulting indignation from that pride turn around and hold you back from letting go of blame, whether that blame is directed at others… or cast upon yourself.
Air – Three of Cups atop Knight of Swords Rx, Dreaming – Don’t let thoughts of “should be doing” take away the joy of time spent with loved ones. You can still get done those things you long to do, just do them with others instead of alone. Speed isn’t always everything, and sometimes help might make things go slower instead of faster, but that’s okay.
Water – Temperance and Supporting – Stop pushing yourself so hard and give yourself time to process. Emotions aren’t something that just always makes sense right away, and even when they seem to make sense, they aren’t logical. You can’t just plow forward and ignore how you feel. Instead, you need to give yourself time to work through them and support yourself rather than ignoring what’s needed.
Fire – Three of Swords and Worthy – Disappointments happen and are a part of life. They are not a reflection upon you. This is about Gid and I’s friend “N”, and the fact that he’s still repeating old behaviors I’d hoped that we had helped him to correct in himself. Old behaviors that involve abuse.
I’m very disappointed and I’m struggling with my emotions concerning this. Honestly? I’m just not sure I want anything to do with him anymore… and that just makes the disappointment that much worse. These cards are a reminder that his actions are not a reflection on me and I shouldn’t allow myself to feel responsible.
Waning – Mice and Tree – Degradation and corruption of health caused by pushing too hard and doing too much. Burnout is a real thing, and you need to make sure that you don’t allow it to slide past a bit of exhaustion and into taking advantage of your reduced immune system to create health issues.
Waxing – Fish and Tower – Go with the flow for now, but make sure you’re paying attention. Look around and be watchful as you move along in the currents of time.
Take Away – There’s encouragement here to go easy on myself this week, and to take care of myself and my needs. Make sure I’m focusing on the present, and on the positive, so that I’m not dragged back into negative inner dialogues and unhealthy habits. It’s still not time for indulging in alone time.
Today’s meditation was fourteen minutes long, and was another of the #DailyCalm sessions on the Calm app. This session was a bit longer than normal, but oddly felt shorter. I’m not sure why.
Today’s meditation was about intuition, and about how when we look within our selves at who we are and who we want to become, it can help guide us forward even (or perhaps especially) during times when we are feeling at a loss.
Today’s draw is the Eight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of expediency, action, and alacrity. It can also be an indication of air travel, which is what is depicted here in the imagery of the card in this deck.
The imagery in this card makes me think of more of a Six of Swords theme with a bit of The Sun mixed in for good measure. It’s about moving away from troubles and into brighter days and brighter skies. Leaving behind darkness to seek out the pleasure of sunshine and good times.
Today’s card is a reminder that I’m on the way out of my depression and need to focus on the light and on the climb instead of on what I’m leaving behind.
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for…
The Empress- Day 6
How can I create {more} abundance for myself?
The meaning of Archangel Jeremiel in this deck is the equivalent of the Judgement card in the tarot. This card speaks of examining one’s life and how far we have come, looking at all that we have done, and ascertaining that which we want to improve within ourselves and who we want to become.
Archangel Jophiel in this deck is similar to the Sun card in the tarot, and encourages focusing our attention on the positive, while leaning in to optimism and those things that bring us joy.
To create more abundance in your life at this time, the message here is that where we place our attention and focus is important. The more we focus on the positive, the more positive things are then invited into our lives.
What part of me can use a little bit of TLC today?
Merlin – When one manifests new things and experiences into the world, they then in turn change the world. You have lost touch with the true magic of your craft. It’s time to remember why you create, why you manifest the beautiful things you do and then send them out into the world. Remember that money is a byproduct, but should not be where focus lies or the goal of these endeavors.
The Lovers – Day 9
How am I currently treating {my relationship with} myself?
In this deck, the meaning of the Jesus card is about forgiveness and compassion. In the wake of the darkness and harsh judgements of the depression. You are now at a place where you are beginning to give yourself the compassion and forgiveness needed to heal and recover from that time of darkness, as well as the transgressions against yourself that took place during that time.
In what area or way am I asked to make choices in support of myself?
Saint Brigid in this deck appears to be the equivalent of the Queen of Wands in the tarot. She represents the inner fire within us all and our passions. These energies need to be stirred up in your life now that you are rising out of depression’s pit and finding the light again.
Side Note – There is an underlying message here in the vibrant amber glow connecting Archangel Jophiel, Jesus, and Saint Brigid that reinforces the message in the first prompt for today. It is an encouragement to connect more deeply in a spiritual level with my jewelry design and allow that connection to lift me up and bring more joy into the process.
The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April
This year so far has prepared me for…
The Sun – Having served your time in the journey down into depression’s pit and in the climb back out again, this year so far has prepared you to truly appreciate being in the light once more and reiterated for you just how important gratitude, positivity, and optimism is in making life worth living.
Now I…
Nine of Wands and Strength – …can go forth with strength and awareness of not just what I need to protect myself against (the cloying grip of negativity and the depression that it can then pull me into), but also how to do so effectively.
This spring I will make a habit of…
The Magician atop Biased Rx – …not taking my abilities and unique skills for granted. I am aware of just how harsh and dark my inner critic can be, and the damage its pollution can cause in my mind and life. I will remember that I have all of the skills, abilities, and tools I need to manifest whatever I want into reality.
This will allow…
Seven of Cups atop Wheel of Fortune – …me to turn my dreams into reality and seize control of my times of good fortune, as well as find the boon in times of bad luck as well.
Play with Gideon tonight really helped me with the tension I was starting to feel. The subdrop is coming… or well, it’s here even if it’s in the early stages. This time with Gideon helped in easing those feelings a bit.
The Awakening
I am ready
for spring’s warm kiss
to ease the sharp nip
of morning frost
and awaken within
hard earth
the seeds that push
and pierce through soil
and green to replace
dried husks of gold
allowing rebirth
to begin
Twisting the Leaf 