Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

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EarthSix of Wands, Nine of Wands, Mugwort (Cycles) – Artemisia vulgaris is the “Wheel of Fortune” of the plant world. The wands here in the reading speak of having spent a long time working towards finding a sense of accomplishment and carrying that forward. The Mugwort card is a reminder that all things come in cycles and what is good today can topple tomorrow. Remember that these cycles are natural and when things feel to be turning into a down swing, it’s a temporary situation in the same way that the good times are temporary as well. Cherish the good while you have it, and when the bad times come, hold tight to the knowledge the good times will come around once again.

AirEight of Cups and Calendula (Shine) – With the drop coming, there is sure to be some self doubts creeping up and in around the corner.  The danger in these self doubts is allowing those doubts to turn you away from what brings you joy and the areas where you truly shine.  Calendula officinalis teaches us not to turn away from those areas where we shine, but to turn toward them and allow the skills and abilities that make you special shine brightly for others so that they, in turn, are encouraged to let their own beauty and greatness shine as well. This message is an encouragement concerning my upcoming class on Wednesday.

Water – Ace of Swords, King of Cups, Devil’s Club (Reclaim Power)Oplopanax horridus is a representation of the strength and resiliency of one’s inner spirit and, as well as the need to allow yourself to make the hard choices and loose the sharp edge of your tongue when needed to set balance in your life. The cards here speak of the need to stay centered in your emotions and not allow the intruding thoughts and perspectives of others to rock the boat and cause disruption.  With the drop coming, this is especially important, as it creates a vulnerability that causes chinks in your emotional armor that those sneaky little thoughts and opinions from others can sneak through.

FireEight of Pentacles and Ginseng (Conservation) – By being discretionary on where you invest your focus and energy, you can provide for your needs and responsibilities better than spreading yourself too thin.  Panax genseng’s lesson is that quality results and stamina both come by choosing your battles and playing to your strengths.  This week, be sure to continue that focus on keeping some space free on your plate, which will allow you to better focus on those interests and responsibilities that really matter to you.

WaningThe Brat and Pedestal – It’s time to move away from feeling “precious”. This isn’t to mean move away from not feeling valued, but it has to do with the potential for being overly sensitive and getting up on one’s high horse as a result.  Although these type of feelings have the potential for sprouting up in the week ahead, it will be important to make the conscious choice toward focusing on remaining grounded and well balanced instead, and not allowing those feelings to take control.

WaxingGift Revealed and Whispers of Spring –  The energies of spring create a sense of freshness and invigoration that need to be recognized and appreciated this week.  Wallow in the springtime spark that is all around you and allow it to uplift you into a lighter space within your heart and mind.  Don’t forget to have a little fun as well!

Take Away – It appears it’s going to be a somewhat rough and emotionally sensitive week this week.  The cards are reminding me that I have strength to help me through and crappy times don’t last for ever.  Instead of focusing upon the struggle and strife, I am encouraged to do my best to continue looking on the bright side by focusing on the little things that bring me pleasure even during times of darkness.  Self care this week will require that focus on these little things, as well as making sure that I don’t overload myself so that, like thinning of plants to allow air circulation and room to grow, I too have room to expand and flex in those interests I choose to pursue.

DECKS USED: BUNNY TAROT, HERBAL HEALING ORACLE, FAIRY WISDOM ORACLE

Taking Control

IMG_3763Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and focused upon a long full body scan that took up nearly the entire length of the ten minute meditation, and then a brief mention of the topic of patience at the end.

I think that this guided meditation was initially intended as simply a body scan, and that the patience part of it was more of an addition to the end due to the current state of world affairs and trying to give people a bit of ease with the fact that the entire world is currently in a state of “sit and wait” for the time being.

There was nothing in the talk or the quote included and shared in the image for this post that I objected to, it just felt incongruous with the rest of the meditation.

img_9606Today’s draw is the Five of Flame (Five of Wands) which is traditionally a representation of trials, conflict, and tests in the area of one’s drive, passions, and ambitions.

As I’ve mentioned before, this card is hands-down my absolute favorite imagery on any card in any deck, across the board.  I love this depiction of the Five of Wands, as it speaks to me of so much more than just conflict and strife, but also of strength, determination, and empowerment.

The message that I saw in today’s card is about taking actions to back those things you want to happen.  Intentions are all well and good, but unless you are willing to confront your challenges and take them on? Those intentions aren’t going to take you very far.

I did this today by going back and deleting the draft posts that I had made for the posts I’d missed over the past week here on the blog.  I had a long line of “catching up” to do, and as a part of my determination to give myself more space and take more pressure off myself concerning the blog and my personal readings, I went through and deleted the “catch up posts” that I needed to do, allowing myself to discard the idea of catching up entirely.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: Where am I most in need of support right now?

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Reading Summary: Emotional well-being (Ten of Water) and passion projects (Ace of Fire) where a better sense of direction (Three of Fire) is needed.

Take Away:  Well, considering what we’ve been doing all day, the fact that I’m going to need some pretty hefty emotional support is to be expected. The drop is going to be a bitch when it comes.

The other two are also about what we’ve been doing all day.  Usually once we start getting intimate with our characters in rp, we end up losing direction in our play.  I really would like to continue to explore the characters we are currently playing and I’m really hoping that doesn’t pattern happen this time.  These cards indicate that in order to avoid that result it’s going to take a team effort.

DECK USED:  THE GOOD TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Do Spread #3

IMG_3771Me:  I am a practical provider and juggler of responsibilities between work and home. I am extremely grounded.

My Goal: A closer bond in my relationships with my guides.

The Obstacle:  Because I am so very grounded and logic oriented, it can be difficult sometimes when trying to delve into unfamiliar areas of the esoteric.  This difficulty shows its face as uncertainty and a lack of confidence in both myself and my process.

Guidance:  I need to take time to figure out how to make amends and reconcile with my spirit guides because I have ignored and neglected them and their role in my life (and existence as a whole) for so long.

DECK USED:  FANTASTICAL CREATURES TAROT

#MidnightTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: How can I handle upcoming challenges and roadblocks to my goals? (rephrased to not be built off previous day’s cards)

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Reading Summary: Perseverance (Strength), staying present (Six of Cups), and not ignoring what’s right in front of me (Eight of Swords).

Take Away:  That last one is a toughie for me, as that selective ignorance is something I really excel at when it comes to things that are bothering me or I am struggling with. The cards here say that as future struggles emerge, I will need to make sure to stand strong and keep my mind in the game.  Don’t allow “what used to be” or how things “used to be done” to distract me from the present issues and best solution.   That best solution, incidentally, might be right in front of my face… so pay attention.

DECK USED:  FANTASTICAL CREATURES TAROT

 

The Overflowing Plate

Today’s meditation was interrupted by the fact that my neighbors across the street apparently have absolutely no clue what social distancing means and had a huge party complete with a balcony full of people and a yard full of kids.

On Thursday, they had a similar gathering, but this one was ridiculously bigger.   I mean, I get it.  Being stuck inside sucks, especially in the middle of spring when the weather is nice and the sun is shining.   But seriously?

Anyway, yeah.  No meditation.  I will try to fit one in before I sleep tonight and hope I don’t fall asleep before I finish the meditation.

King of Flame - King of Wands - Stolen Child TarotToday’s draw is the King of Flame (King of Wands), which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s passions, drive, and ambitions.  This often translates into an authoritative energy filled with confidence to go after what they want and the leadership and charisma to confidence others to join in their endeavors.

What really stands out to me today in the imagery of this card has to do with the expression upon the child’s face combined with the flaming crown the child wears and matching infinity above the head of the lion.   What comes to mind as I saw this card this morning was the Shakespearean phrase “uneasy lies the head that wears the crown”.

Responsibility is hard… and sometimes? It just plain sucks.  That includes responsibilities to myself, if I’m honest.  You’re right.  Even if I’m not doing the monthly challenges regularly, I need to make sure I’m doing this daily draw and finding the positive message in the card.    So, I’m going to cut back, and only add in a challenge or two in these daily posts when I feel inspired to do so for a bit.

I think with all the stress going on, I have been trying too hard to push myself into my passions in order to ignore my stress and anxiety.  That backfired a bit and I fell behind on my posts as a whole.   I’m going to try and turn that around now by cutting back on my “responsibilities” concerning how much I am doing.

Incidentally, I have also chosen to forgo using the Healing Meditation Deck for the rest of the month for my daily pulls.  Although they work great as a bit of added details and guidance in a reading (such as my Self Care Saturday readings), they don’t fit the purpose of these “finding the positive message” card of the day posts.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

Accepting Help

IMG_3695Today’s meditation was just under twelve minutes long and focused upon a full body scan where the guide took the attention through each muscle of the body instead of each part of the body.

I’m a big fan of this sort of meditation, and I like the specificity of doing the body scan from muscle to muscle rather than body part to body part, but I feel that if we are going to do it muscle by muscle, it needs to be a longer meditation.

I don’t feel I get enough time focusing on moving my breath through each muscle when they try to cram the whole body into a twelve minute session.   This could easily be stretched into a good thirty or forty minutes and I probably would have still enjoyed it immensely.

Five of Pentacles - Stolen Child TarotToday’s draw is the Five of Oak (Five of Pentacles) which is a representation of tests, trials, and struggles in the area of finance, health, resources, and the hearth and home.  This often translates into themes concerning scarcity issues, financial losses and/or poverty, as well as all of the worries and sense of isolation that can accompany these themes.

What really stands out to me today in this card is the mice and the honeycomb.  Although the badger child hoards his honeycomb, there is enough to go around for all to partake.  Sometimes when you’re in need, it’s hard to look up from your struggles to see where a helping hand may lie.  These rats have chosen to look up and although the badger child wishes to keep all that goodness to themselves, they share regardless.

The message here is that reluctant charity is still charity, and we all need a bit of charity now and then.  Don’t ignore what’s being offered just because it’s coming from someone or somewhere you’d usually reject out of principle.  This message fits in very well with some issues that happened today concerning my building and the need to take a run to the hardware store for supplies with… what is arguably one of the most difficult residents in our building.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: Current state of my relationship with my community.

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Reading Summary:   Feeling a bit overwhelmed (Ten of Wands) but still standing strong (King of Wands) while I worry about transitions and changes (Six of Swords).

Take Away:  I think that everyone is worried about the current changes going on in society and where we are going from here. At the moment, like so many others, I am a bit overwhelmed by these worries and hit’s causing a bit of a struggle concerning action related to my passions and drive as I work to support others through this difficult time.

DECK USED:  SHADOWLAND TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is my greatest source of emotional strength?

New Liminal TarotReading Summary: When I’m feeling chaotic and defensive (Seven of Wands), taking some time to rest and reevaluate (Four of Swords) allows me to find balance once more (King of Swords).

Take Away:  These cards indicate that my emotional strength at this time lies in my ability to keep myself from picking at negative thoughts and being unkind to myself. A lot of times when I sense my own vulnerability, I will react by attacking, but the cards indicate that for true emotional strength, I need to see these moments as a time to reassess and find balance rather than allowing myself to fall into bad habits.

DECK USED:  NEW LIMINAL TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question
: Am I confident in naming my boundaries?

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Reading Summary:  Absolutely (Strength).  Especially boundaries having to deal with emotional connections with others (King of Cups) and boundaries that deal with the  stability and security of hearth and home (King of Pentacles).

Take Away: My responsibilities are an extremely important part of my life and so it’s not surprising that it would come up that naming and standing by boundaries concerning my responsibilities to stability and security came up as somewhere I have a good deal of strength.  With my heart and soul very much belonging to you, it is also no surprise that I have absolutely no issue with setting boundaries where my emotions are concerned.

What is not included here is also interesting, as there is a lack of Swords and Wands, indicating that I have difficulty in enforcing mental boundaries and boundaries that have to do with my drive and ambitions.  This is also very fitting as it is where I am less apt to set boundaries for myself especially, but others as well. 

DECK USED:  PASTEL WAITE SMITH TAROT

#MidnightTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: How can I deepen my spiritual practice?

New Liminal Tarot

Reading Summary: If I want to move forward into a new connection (Ten of Swords), I need to take my time because trying to move too fast (Eight of Wands) is creating issues (Seven of Wands).

Take Away:  I recently had another reading with a similar question that indicated much the same thing as this.  I’m creating my own road blocks by overloading myself in different ways due to a feeling of uncertainty about how to move forward.  If I want to deepen my spiritual practice and that connection with my spirit guides, I’m going to need to let go of that trepidation and the subconscious methods of aversion that it’s creating.

DECK USED:  NEW LIMINAL TAROT

Sharing and Discretion

IMG_3683Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and focused upon a spreading kindness practice where the guide takes you through a moment of reflection to get you to open up and relax before then guiding you to opening up your heart and spirit to direct loving kindness first to yourself, and then to another that you may have felt a bit of envy towards.

Everyone feels a twinge of envy now and then, and I think that’s pretty healthy.   This practice is meant to help in learning how to turn that sense of envy into a feeling of mudita, or unselfish good will and joy for that other person.

Six of Flame - Six of Wands - Stolen Child TarotToday’s draw is the Six of Flame (Six of Wands) which traditionally is a representation of harmony and growth in the area of one’s drive and ambitions.  This often translates into themes of victory and public recognition.

This is not what I see in the imagery of today’s card, though.  Instead, what stands out to me in this card is the posture of the wolf boy as he appears to actually slink through the night rather than standing tall.   The wolf is a majestic animal, proud but shy.  What I see here is the public perception rather than the truth of the inner spirit.

The question I see today in this card is… What perception are you putting forth that others are picking up on and creating a misconception about?

The message here is about making sure I am watching how I say things and what I share with others.  I’m very open here on my blog.  I also share large parts of those posts with our little Discord community, and the message here might very well have to do with our recently returned poet. It’s possible I need to consider a bit more discretion concerning what I take from here to share over there.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I use this opportunity to take back control? (built off yesterday’s cards)

Rabbit Tarot

Reading Summary:  I need to focus upon the transition taking place (Six of Carrots) and not allow plans for the future (Two of Sticks) to cause this opportunity for growth to slip through my fingers (Seven of Carrots).

Take Away:  Such cute bunnies.  Just sayin’. This is a reiteration of the reading done previously on this topic (yesterday).   It’s about not adding so much to my plate that it creates a distraction that pulls me away from the spiritual growth and potential connections with spirit that are under development.  It’s about making sure I don’t create a self-sabotage caused by my sense of uncertainty during this time of change.

DECK USED:  BUNNY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Where does my self-worth come from?

Cry Baby TarotReading Summary: Even during difficult times (Three of Swords) I am able to adapt (Page of Pentacles) and keep my stability in place (Four of Pentacles).

Take Away:  The presence of the pentacles in these cards are an indication of the stability and security that I am able focus on and sustain even during times when difficulties and emotional strife arises.  Instead of allowing things to fall apart, learn as I go and adapt to keep that stable foundation secure.

DECK USED:  CRY BABY TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question
: How confident am I to make decisions?

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Reading Summary: Sometimes I seek council from others (King of Cups) to find the most sustainable path forward (Seven of Pentacles), but I’m not afraid to discard what isn’t working (Eight of Cups) for the sake of finding something better (Four of Wands).

Take Away:  Very.   The King of Cups in this spread is Gideon, and what is indicated here is that although I  reach out to Gideon for perspectives besides my own, I have no problem doing what needs to be done to better a situation by making my own decisions once I feel that I have all the facts and perspectives I need.

DECK USED:  MARSHMALLOW MARSEILLE TAROT

#MidnightTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: What is my relationship with spirit? How can I improve it?

Cry Baby TarotMy Relationship With Spirit:  I’m not open enough.  I’m willing to seek the connection I want but inside I still am feeling caution and a lack of trust.  This is creating unnecessary boundaries.

How To Improve That Relationship:  My guides are waiting in the wings (Five of Cups) but I need to get out of my own head (King of Swords) and trust on my inner strength to sustain me (Strength) and keep me from erecting those boundaries (Nine of Wands again).

Take Away:  Trepidation is getting in my way and I need to have more trust in myself and in my inner voice.

DECK USED:  CRY BABY TAROT

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

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EarthKing of Wands, Widower, Master – The combination of the widower and the master indicate that in order to move forward with my drive with my business and finances I need to step away from the emotional aspects of money and business a bit and keep a stable and practical mindset on these topics this week.  This means no emotional spending and keeping a practical eye on my finances and where my money is going. (ie: Buy the supply of chain for the business, and not the pretty deck that will make me feel all happy and giddy to have in my hands.)

AirAce of Pentacles and Thoughts – Don’t get so lost in your thoughts that you miss a rising opportunity.  It’s easy to get so deep into your head that the world outside of your mind gets its volume turned way down.  This week you need to make sure you’re paying attention.

WaterEight of Cups, Sorrow, Gift – There is a risk this week of looking gift horse in the mouth, and walking away from something prematurely as a result.  Build off the concept of not getting lost in your thought mentioned above, make sure that you are paying attention and squeezing ever last drop of juice out of situations that can be to your advantage. And don’t throw out the rind, either.

FireKing of Pentacles, Soldier, Longing – It’s okay to wish for better times, but don’t let those wishes distract you from your goals.  Stability and security take a balance between defending what’s yours and going after what you want.  Focus on keeping those aspects in balance this week.

WaningTapas (Zeal) – It’s time to start examining things that are not currently serving you. Like all migrations, these elements can be brought back into your life later when they are of use again, but at the moment they are just added baggage that doesn’t need to be carried.

WaxingAsana (Physical Postures) and Vrkshasana (Tree Pose) –  Take some time to connect with nature and ground deeply.  You need this for balance and calm.  Make the time to do this, even if it means reaching beyond your norm to get it done.

Take Away – Practicality is the theme of the week this week, along with ensuring that I am paying attention to my surroundings and possible opportunities to shed old baggage in order to free up space for more useful elements to grow and flourish.  There is also a need to spend some time connecting with the earth, even if that is through extra time at the farm.  It’s possible I could ask to stick around after my shift for a bit just to get a meditation in on some bare earth.  I’ll have to ask them about it and see what they say.

DECKS USED: WHITE SAGE TAROT, LAND SKY ORACLE, VYKLADACI KARTY (LITTLE CZECH ORACLE)