Passion’s Emmenagogue

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was one of the harp string meditations.  It was nice and quiet, although I might have dozed off just a bit.   I need to find a way to stop dozing off during meditation that doesn’t include crashing me out of the relaxed peace I find.   I’d say set myself an alarm, but that would definitely defeat the whole meditation purpose because alarms give me an adrenaline spike.  I’ll figure something out.

Herbal Tarot - Seven of Wands - Wild GingerToday’s draw is the Seven of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of progress through determination,  perseverance, and the meeting of challenges head on.

What really stood out the strongest to me today in the imagery of this card is the confident and determined expression on the figure’s face, and the defensive hold on the wand in their hands.

Asarum canadense (Wild Ginger) is an emmenagogue, which means that it helps stimulate blood circulation in the area of the sacral chakra. As with many plants, it’s medical use is tied into its spiritual use, and on the spiritual side of things, wild ginger is a plant that is used to create a spark of warmth in the heart, inspiring bravery and tenacity when confronting obstacles in our path.

The message here in today’s card is a combination of the imagery that stood out so strongly to me, and the meaning behind the wild ginger. The message today is about knowing what your goals are and standing strong concerning them regardless of whatever criticism or hurdles stand in your way.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: What emotions am I being invited to feel more fully?

Bleu Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Gratitude and contentment in a solitary manner (Nine of Balls). Patience for gradual change (Death), and the awareness that there are many paths before me and I will need to make my choice again and again (Seven of Fishes).

Take Away:  The emotion portrayed through these cards as one of comfort. Everything’s going to be okay, and you’re not being forced into anything. Just relax, enjoy the ride while staying focused on what you want to happen as things change along the way.

DECK USED:  BLEU CAT TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: As an adult, where do I take myself too seriously?

Brady TarotReading Summary: I spend too much time focusing on building up stability in my life (Ten of Roots) rather than having a good time (Six of Horns).  There’s room for both, you just need to work out how (Daughter of Arrows).

Take Away: I spend a great deal of my time focused on stability.  Home stability.  Financial stability.  Resource stability.  These things are a near obsession for me and they definitely are something that I take very seriously. So seriously that somewhere along the line I’ve ended up losing touch with much of the fun and enjoyment that life has to offer.

Part of the efforts I’m trying to make over this spring and summer have to do with finding a better balance between that obsession with stability that creates a constant concerning my responsibilities and obligations… and giving myself the room and freedom to experience a bit more joy and enjoyment. I know it is possible to fit them both into my life so that they can coexist.

DECK USED:  BRADY TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Draw a card while repeating “I am my own personal power” and share how the card reinforces this concept.

Dame Darcy's Mermaid Tarot - Queen of SwordsAs much as I don’t wan to be like my mother, there are certain times (and in certain ways) that I am.

I am analytical. I am intelligent. I am cunning. I know how to handle myself and others in strategic ways when needed. I know how to get where I want to go.

These are all things that I have in common with my mother.  The difference is that I choose to use these strengths in a positive manner.

DECK USED:  DAME DARCY’S MERMAID TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my unique purpose?

Lily Stone Marseille Tarot

Reading Summary: To seek out more depth in life (Judgement) beyond what lies on the surface (Four of Cups), and persevere through the struggles thrown in my path (Seven of Wands).

Take Away: The cards here speak of what I’ve often felt was the meaning of my life.  That is to say, that my life is meant to be one of struggles and strife and hardship… and the reason for this is because I need to learn how to take one’s blows and move forward through them, coming out better on the other side.   I need to see each struggle or event as a learning experience, and find not just the lesson that is within them, but something positive about them that helps me move forward and be a better person in some way.

DECK USED:  STONE MARSEILLE TAROT

 

Cleansing Breaths

IMG_5009Today’s meditation was a little over ten minutes long, and I chose to go with a guided meditation today.  The topic of the meditation was a guidance on one of the methods used to deal with invasive thoughts during your meditation practice.   I think that the quote in the graphic to the right covers that really well.  The method involves opting to acknowledge the thoughts that intrude rather than trying to push them away.   Instead, you recognize that you were thinking, and what it was about… but you don’t allow it to suck you into a dialogue.  Instead, you identify the rabbit hole as a rabbit hole and step over it.

Herbal Tarot - Three of Swords - Pleurisy RootToday’s draw is the Three of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of themes that have to do with disappointment, heartbreak, grief, and other forms of emotional hurt.

I used to feel that the Sword suit was a strange place for this card, as the Swords are supposed to be about thought, intellect, and communication. But, over time I’ve come to understand that it is not the heart or the emotions that spur these feelings represented in the card. Instead, it is the mind that spur these feelings… and the heart that then feels them.   Since the feelings are spawned from the mind, it then makes sense to me that they are in the Sword suit.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the two seed pots that are in the process of falling on the left side of the card.  These seed pods speak to me of renewal, while the plant depicted in this card speaks to me of purging.  Asclepias tuberosa (pleurisy root) is an expectorant, diuretic, and diaphoretic.  It very literally forces the body to purge itself of toxins and its spiritual uses are very similar.

Combined with the traditional meaning of the card, the message that I find here today is about letting go.  It’s about releasing the issues and problems, the bad thoughts and negativity.   Let go of the “can’ts” and the “this sucks” and instead embrace that sometimes things are difficult and sometimes they hurt… but that is temporary.   Once you’ve had a moment to wallow in those negative feelings, it’s time to let them go and keep moving.  Take a deep, cleansing breath and reach for a new start.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I invite more compassionate energy into myself?

Tarot Mood

Reading Summary: Let go of so much of the juggling (Two of Pentacles Rx). Balance out the feminine and masculine energies that are threaded through your emotions (King of Cups and Queen of Cups). Understand this is just one leg on a long journey (The World).

Take Away: You know, I hadn’t actually considered that there might be a bit of imbalance going on in the emotions I’m trying to become more comfortable with and that may be why I’m struggling with it.   It’s something I need to delve into and look at more closely, but the message from the cards rings true. The message in the Two of Pentacles and the World are not new and something that has been repeated often as a reminder lately, and are things that I am actively working on and keeping in mind.

DECK USED:  TAROT MOOD

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Philosophical Question: Does fate exist?

Tarot for DandelionsReading Summary: We move slowly along our path (Knight of Pentacles), making the wisest decisions and judgements that we can along the way (King of Swords), and determined to do the best that we can towards what sparks our passions (Queen of Wands) with the tools we have (Magician).

Take Away: Although I’m not sure that I agree with this answer, the answer in the cards says that no… fate does not exist.  These cards speak of autonomy, personal choice, and control over one’s path and one’s future.  There is nothing in these cards indicating a lack of control, nor direction being placed in the hands of fate.

Side note:  Yes, I covered the nipples on the Queen. These posts on my blog are backed up on Tumblr, which has a very strict “no female nipples” policy.  So I try to make sure I cover the nips when they’re visible just to make sure I don’t get booted off that platform. I think that also may be a policy on IG as well (although I’m not 100% certain on that one).

DECK USED:  TAROT FOR DANDILIONS

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Draw a card and let it serve as a reminder of something good about this very moment.

Phantasmagoric Theater Tarot - Seven of SwordsReading Summary: I’m not the one cleaning the bathrooms. I essentially logic’d my way out of doing the task myself and foisted it off on L.

Take Away: I mean seriously… who the hell wants to clean bathrooms. It’s a miserable experience and it’s something I usually pay others to do for me.  L and Z have essentially put it off on their chore list until it was the last thing, and then tried to skip it to start over on the list.  So, yeah.   I pointed out that the bathrooms needed cleaning and I’d already wiped down the ceilings for them, so they needed to finish it.

So!  We have clean bathrooms!

DECK USED:  PHANTASMAGORIC THEATER TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I live in abundance?

Tarot of MetamorphosisReading Summary: Make the most of what you have (Queen of Pentacles) and be grateful for it rather than constantly focusing on getting more (Temperance).

Take Away:  Abundance comes in one’s perception and there is no “line” or “enough” to where a line can be drawn to say that you’ve made it.  It’s about finding the things that make you happy and help you feel complete and fulfilled, and appreciating them instead of constantly looking for more.   This is what the cards reflect here.   Find those things in life that make you happy and fulfill you now… and you are already there.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF METAMORPHOSIS

Gratitude For the Present

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and ended in me dozing off towards the end of the process.  I’d made it through my piriformis stretches, though, so I know I managed to be in the meditation for at least ten minutes.   Unfortunately, because I dozed, I was nearly late for work!  Which kind of fizzled my zen that I’d managed to achieve during the meditation and nap.

Herbal Tarot - Ten of Cups - MarijuanaToday’s draw is the Ten of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of finding a level of fulfillment or completion in the areas of one’s emotions, relationships, and intuition.

What stands out to me the strongest in this card today is the beautiful green scenery in the background, as well as the tall stretch of the Cannabis plant looking much like an overhang of palm trees over the scenery.

I’m pretty sure I don’t need to go into the medical or spiritual uses and symbolism of Marijuana.  If anything, it’s probably the most well known plant in this entire deck. So I’ll move on to the message that today’s card is trying to portray to me through its imagery.

What I see here is a carry over from some of the readings in yesterday’s cards.  That is to say, that I need to take some time to be grateful for everything that I have and all of the emotional fulfillment currently in my life.

There’s always room for more, but sometimes you have to just pause for a bit and live in the moment.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is my relationship with victimhood?

Grimalkin Tarot

Reading Summary: I move from this quickly by taking control and steering myself into (The Chariot) making the choices that need to be made (Seven of Cups) and using the tools that I have at my disposal (The Magician) to find my way to a better place where I connect with others rather than retreating into myself (Unity).

Take Away:  The cards here indicate that I do not connect well with the “victimhood” mentality but rather move immediately to bypass it and move into the healing process.  There’s no wallowing and no hesitation involved.  Just “how can I move forward” and overcome, and am not shy in reaching out to loved ones to help me accomplish that.

DECK USED:  GRIMALKINTAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I begin to resolve this pattern of neglect?

Everyday Witch TarotReading Summary: Dive into it as you would anything that you choose to put your passionate drive towards (Knight of Wands). Brainstorm on new ideas (Ace of Swords) and new methods of doing things (Ace of Pentacles).

Take Away: The pattern of neglect that is being referred to here is my slacking off on my self care practices. The cards here indicate that if I want to resolve this I need to actually focus upon the practices and use my intellect and ingenuity to rekindle my passion for these activities. The reading here actually picks out the core root of the issue that has caused me to slack off in the first place, which is that lack of spark.

To resolve this issue of lack of spark, I need to consider new ways to look at and approach my self care so that I can foster return of enthusiasm in this area that had begun to wane recently.

DECK USED:  EVERYDAY WITCH TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Close your eyes, take a deep breath and draw a card. Share what it says to you.

Sawyer's Path TarotReading Summary: Procrastination is not your friend. All of that chaotic water indicates you should have your eyes open and be paying attention instead of screwing around.  The reminder to meditate is also present in the Lotus flower on the cup in the corner.  With all the chaos that can swirl around you on a daily basis, you need that calm that the meditation can bring.

Take Away: Stop procrastinating on your meditation practice and start taking it seriously again.  Going through the motions and skipping when you don’t feel like it isn’t going to help you in taming that chaotic splashing going on in your heart and soul.

DECK USED:  SAWYER’S PATH TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What brings me joy?

Tarot of Passing Showers

Knight of Pentacles: Slow and steady progress towards a stable future. Stability is something I crave and feel a great deal of need for. When things feel stable, I have a huge sense of relief and feel a sense of freedom as my worries ease.  Being able to make progress towards the goals of prolonged and sustained stability makes me very, very happy.

Queen of Wands: Embracing my creativity and directing it towards my passions. I have a great deal of creative spark at my disposal and a huge amount of curiosity that allows me to fire off that creative spark again and again towards new ideas and different pursuits.  These pursuits… not just the doing of them but the process of learning and perfecting the skills involved… is a great joy to me.  As is sharing these pursuits with others when the opportunity presents itself.

The Sun:  Okay, so I’m not particularly talented at the optimism thing, and I usually have to actually work at it to accomplish it… but it’s still nice when it happens organically now and then and takes me by surprise.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF PASSING SHOWERS

Reassess and Reapproach

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was relaxing despite the fact that it was an order day and I had a lot of crap to get done. I think that I just needed a break and the meditation gave me some time away from thinking about everything I had to get done so that I could relax and breathe. Usually, having a lot to do creates an opposite effect, so this was a nice change.

Herbal Tarot - The Tower - GarlicToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally interpreted as having to do with sudden change and the chaos that ensues when sudden change takes place. Unlike the Death card, where the change is gradual and organic, in the Tower card the change comes on suddenly and without warning, often with destructive force.

What stands out the strongest to me this card today is the red sky and the flames. It speaks to me of the type of chaos that is hard to recover from.  The type of chaos and destruction that feels like the end of the world.

Combined with the Garlic in this card, which is a representation of ostracization and time spent away from others to reconsider… and restructure.

It’s in the combination of these themes that I find the message in today’s card.  Sometimes when I am trying to restructure and rebuild (as I am now) it can feel like nothing is going right and everything is fucked up.  In these times, it can be a good idea to step away… take a breath… and reassess.   Consider the situation, and consider coming at it from a different angle.   The message here is about that different angle and is an encouragement to reassess.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: Where am I being invited to recognize the beauty in myself, my life, and the world?

Tattoo Tarot Ink & Intuition

Beauty in Myself – The Hermit signifies that it’s time to respect that you need alone time now that you’re able to get it again and how healthy that alone time is for you. This message came through on the Tarotholics spread that I did as well, and there is a reminder here that I need to make sure I’m getting the alone time I need as a part of taking care of myself and my well being.

Beauty in My Life – The Eight of Wands indicates that it’s important to recognize that my purpose will go on and continue, even if I’m not pushing things forward every step of the way. This perpetual motion is natural and creates space for other pursuits and interests.  There is beauty in this.  In the ability to “coast” between pushes and allow other interests and passions room to flourish in those times in between.

Beauty in the World – The mystery of the High Priestess speaks of the fact that in order to see beauty in the world you need to see with your intuition, and not your logic. The beauty is there but it’s not in your face… it’s beneath the surface and requires reading between the lines.

DECK USED:  TATTOO TAROT INK & INTUITION

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: As an adult, where am I neglecting myself at this time?

Trippin' Waite TarotReading Summary: Meditation (Eight of Cups). And moving forward (Three of Wands) with the nurturing and self-care (Queen of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Right.  So… I’ve been slacking on the self care a bit lately.   Not just the meditation, although the cards call me out on that specifically here.   But also on some of the self care things that I normally do like the weekly soaks in the bath for example and the extra stretching that comes along with the meditation that I’ve not been keeping up on. I’ve also been slacking a bit on my daily devotional. All in all, these are things I need to pick back up on and do rather than think about and then “meh” out of again and again.

DECK USED:  TRIPPIN’ WAITE TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Where would I benefit from taking more time?

Golden Girls Tarot

Reading Summary: It’s time to slow down on your ambition and drive (Knight of Wands), and spend some more time focusing on being nurturing to yourself (The Empress) and enjoying what you have (Nine of Pentacles). Have some faith that you have everything in hand (The Chariot) and can afford the break (Nine of Pentacles on top).

Take Away: This wasn’t really a surprising result for this reading as this has been pretty much the theme of my personal readings for the past week or so.  The constant reminders are actually a good thing, as they help to keep me on track.   As is the reassurance that now is the time of year when I can afford a break and that everything is well in hand.

DECK USED:  GOLDEN GIRLS TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I better connect with my family?

The Crystal Tarot

Reading Summary: Be supportive (Ten of Pentacles) and make the choice (Two of Swords) to see the good and wallow in it (Nine of Cups). Don’t let harsh words or irritation steal away that pleasure (Seven of Swords).

Take Away:  The choice to enjoy and wallow is signified by the Two of Swords in this reading because that choice is extremely difficult for me.  Even when the choice is made, actually following through is still very much a struggle for me when it comes to letting to and just enjoying.  (Wallow, btw, comes from the over-spill of liquid from all the cups.)

The cards here indicate that I need to appreciate the good and practice gratitude, be supportive with my family, and not allow their negativity and negative (sometimes painful) qualities to pollute the good I find.

DECK USED:  THE CRYSTAL TAROT

Tarotholics June 21st Challenge Spread

Fanuna's Tarot

So!  I kinda sort a did the wrong Taraholics Challenge spread yesterday.   I thought I’d rectify that by doing it separately today.  This is Spread #3 of the #TarotholicsDiscordJun2020 Challenge.

1. What in my past is it time to let go of this summer?

Six of Pentacles – One of the biggest reasons that I struggle with asking others for help is because I was taught that such help is considered charity and you become indebted to the one that is providing help. The Six of Pentacles in this position is telling me that that is not how it works, even if it feels like it should.  This belief is ingrained not through reason or observation, but was taught to me at a young age and has stuck with me all this time.  Perhaps it is time to start seeking a different perspective in this matter.

2. What have I carried over from winter I need to weed out?

Three of Cups Rx – Now that you have the opportunity to get out and enjoy some alone time, it’s time to do it.  You need that time for your self care and to help you in feeling balanced and grounded.  Restrictions have lifted enough to allow that to happen and the girls are safe being left home alone while you go off and have a bit of time on your own.

3. Where do I need to focus my energy thru the summer months?

Page of Swords – Finding a different way to communicate with yourself.  Preparation for when you need to charge ahead into your responsibilities is fine, but take your time at it and give yourself time to learn and grow.

4. What opportunity will arise to fill the space I’ve weeded?

Seven of Pentacles – Some of the readings lately have spoke about the patience needed to follow the path of my emotional growth, and the changing of habits and methods being a long term effort and not a quick change.  This card reinforces that sentiment, speaking of long term growth that, over time if I stick with my plans, will bleed over into growth in areas I usually am so very, very focused on such as that stability and security I crave.   In other words, following through with plans to make room on my plate to breath combined with getting the alone time I need to feel balanced and centered will, in turn, end up providing long term growth of not just these areas, but beyond that limited scope as well.

4. How can I help this new opportunity to flourish?

The Empress – This new opportunity is about growth, and how that growth, even as slow moving as it is (or perhaps because of how slow moving it is) has the ability to spread into all aspects of one’s life, influencing them all in positive ways.   The Empress indicates that to encourage this opportunity to flourish, I need to allow my more nurturing energies and connection with the earth to rise to the surface.  She also reminds me that these qualities are not weaknesses.

DECK USED:  FANUNA’S TAROT

Summer Solstice 2020 – Midsummer

Yesterday was the Summer Solstice, which is the longest day of the year and one of the eight holidays that I celebrate throughout the year. This day marks the ‘official’ transition into summer and a shift from days that become longer and longer through the spring into days from here on out will grow shorter and shorter for the next six months.

This holiday is often called Midsummer or Litha, although I usually just refer to it as the Summer Solstice. On my path, it celebrates the turning point of summer, where the build-up of creative energy from the spring crests into a time of abundance as we travel into the depths of summer in much the same way that the growing energies of the full moon crest before beginning to wane each month.

Summer Solstice Tarot Spread

Like with new moons and full moons, I usually do a spread to check in with myself and give myself some direction for the next couple of months on each solstice, equinox, and other Sabbats. This spread is an adaptation of my Self Care Saturday spread, so there are sure to be  some similarities in how it is read. The focus of this spread, though, is not about Self Care, but rather about progress and my path. The time period is also longer, reaching through the next handful of weeks until the celebration of the First Harvest (aka, Lughnasadh, Lammas, Lughnasa, Lugh) on August 1st.

Theme of the SeasonMidsummer, Spiral Moon, Owl – Midsummer offers the opportunity to alter one’s course, tipping one’s balance in order to alter reality to deepen one’s connection with their chosen path.

Honeysuckle resides on the center card and speaks of love, while the Spiral Moon reminds us that this is a time of deepening connection to the self.  A connection that is found through peeling back one’s inner layers to reveal the softer bits within.   Through that process, you reveal vulnerable bits.

The presence of the Owl reminds us to be certain to stay on course and focused on what you want. It can be easy to get lost in the weeds of uncertainty and old habits, especially when feeling vulnerable.  Don’t allow distractions to hinder your path or turn you away from where you want to go.

The combination of these three center cards speak of a time of growth and deepening connection with the self.  There will be vulnerability and it may be hard to stay on task with the changes you want to manifest through the season, but stay on task with your self care and your desire to deepen that connection, and you will travel through this time of growth and adjustment with grace.

EarthTen of Cups – Even though the upcoming weeks are a slow time for the business, this time will also allow you a sense of emotional fulfillment concerning where you are and how things are going.  Enjoy this time, and take time to appreciate the sense of ease you feel concerning your work and home life.  It won’t last forever and should be cherished.

AirAce of Cups and Six of Cups – There’s always a bit of messiness involved when you mix emotions with intellect.  With all these new feelings and emotional growth going on, make sure that you’re not smothering the carefully unfurling lotus within you.  Hold the flowering growth with care and foster it’s development rather than allowing your logical mind and inner critic to have free reign.  In other words?  Give yourself the room you need to grow emotionally by shutting up negative thoughts and recriminations.

WaterQueen of Wands – Be open to the joy that comes from those things that inspire you. Making space doesn’t mean you have to be bored or sedate, it means that you allow pleasure and the spark of fun into those places that are usually dry and feeling a bit boring.  By allowing this spark to flourish and joy to bloom, your growth will continue and not be half so stressful as your intellect keeps trying to make.

FirePage of Swords and King of Swords – Strategizing is the name of the game for the next few months.  This is not surprising, as this is usually what happens during this time of year.  The summer is often a time of preparation for the busy season to come late in the fall.  Start now and take your time.  If you start early then there’s no need to rush, and you can feel more stable over all in as you work towards being in a place of preparation for the future.

WaningPanther Spirit – Set your relentless aggression aside. Now is not the time to push and shove towards some illusive promise of perfection. Let go of the need to prod yourself constantly forward.

WaxingLion Spirit – Take pride in your abilities and foster your own self-confidence over the next few weeks.  You are worth far more than the business you run and the money you make.  What you offer to the world reaches beyond these trivial things. You shine as an inspiration to others… allow yourself to acknowledge and be grateful for those qualities you like in yourself as well as the opportunities you are given to help others using your unique gifts.

Take Away – The next handful of weeks need to be a time of rest and recovery.  Stop pushing and prodding at yourself.  Stop the recriminations.  Instead, it’s time to focus on fostering your inner spark and spirit, and giving yourself room to grow within your current emotional journey.  Although there’s some prep you can do for the business during this time, there is no need to rush. Instead, a better use of your time during this time is to focus upon those things that kindle that spark of curiosity and creativity within you and allow that spark to manifest some guilt-free pleasure and joy.

DECKS USED:  LIGHT SEER’S TAROT, THE GREEN WHEEL ORACLE, THE SPIRIT ANIMAL ORACLE