tarot and psychology

Morning Bonus Read – Monthly Key Spread

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Pagan Lenormand - Monthly Key Spread

Key to Your Heart: What will Guide you to make decisions that are aligned with your heart and your truths this month?

Child – It’s important to focus on your new path, and moving forward.  Youthful exuberance and a focus on this new beginning is important.  Every day is a new day, and an opportunity to do better than the day before.

Anchor: What will ground you in the face of anxiety, stress, overwhelm, and existential dread in general?

Dog – Those that love you most.  Those people in your life that are with you during thick and thin are the direction that you need to reach in when things are feeling overwhelming or anxiety is riding you hard.  This month, you’ll find your center through your contact and connection with these people.

Star Wand: What accelerates your magic, creativity, and manifestation powers?

Fish – When you are open and willing to adapt to anything that comes your way, it opens you up to a more free-flowing energy that allows you to delve deeper into your creativity  and magic, both of which result in different methods of manifestation. Bend like a tree in the wind and you will stand stronger for longer, grow taller, and your roots will dig deeper.

Blessings from the Stars: The Universe has got your back – how will you be supported this month?

Book – You’re smart.  Use it.   You are capable of quickly absorbing all sorts of information and adapting it to your needs.  You gather knowledge like a library gathers books, and although you can’t always pull up exactly the right thing in your mind at the right time, the knowledge is there and tapped in other ways when needed, expanded upon quickly, and braided through with other knowledge to create what is needed at the time.

One Trick Up Your Sleeve: A life saving idea or inspiration for any unexpected challenge or difficult moments?

Stork – Again we see a prompt for adaptability, for the stork is all about change.  Small or large, being able to adapt to the world around you and the changes taking place will allow feelings of stagnancy to fall behind.  Don’t be afraid.

Emergence Pt 1: What is emerging within you / within your reality right now?

Birds – Social energy is strong this month. This is an echo of an earlier reading done over the past week that indicated my social connections will be very important in the month ahead in finding clarity and balance.

Emergence Pt 2: What are you expanding towards?

Scythe – The warning that was given in your transition reading for the end of the month still stands.  That closed minded person or situation still comes.  You will be required to make a sudden and decisive response, slicing through the deception and cutting free whatever hold there is upon you at that time.

DECK USED: PAGAN LENORMAND ORACLE

Integrity and Principles

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Today’s meditation was skipped because today’s an order’s day.

Good Karma Tarot and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of standing up for your principles, beliefs, values, and those things that are important to you.  It is about not caving under pressure or opposition, but standing your ground and standing strong.

You see this theme portrayed in the imagery of the card in the rays of power that radiate around the girl as she stands strong with her staff against a row of others representing her opposition.

Combined with the Flower Fortune cards for today, which says “If you feel you are in the right, stand firmly by your convictions,” what we see in today’s cards is a need to check in with our values, our principles, and our personal truth… especially when we are confronted with opposition.

Just because something is right for someone else doesn’t mean it’s right for you.  Just because something is right for you doesn’t mean it’s right for them either.  Stand by what is right for you, because to yield in these moments is to devalue yourself, your truth, and it can damage your inner integrity.

DECK USED:  GOOD KARMA TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: How can I foster more clarity in my life at this time?

Rainbow Unicorn TarotReading Summary: Let go of the assumption that you are anywhere near reaching your peak (Queen of Wands). You still have more things to conquer (Five of Swords), and a good deal more to still learn and explore (Page of Wands).

Take Away:  I’m good at a lot of things, mostly because I’m enthusiastic about the stuff that catches my interest and it will continue to hold my interest as a grow and flourish in the learning process.  Sometimes, this means that I reach a plateau or a peak, and feel like there’s nothing more to learn.  This can make me feel stuck and uninspired, eating away at my enthusiasm.

The cards here are telling me that the clarity I need to grasp is in the fact that in my current pursuits I am far from that plateau or peak.  I might be feeling a bit uninspired at the moment, but there’s still plenty to dive in when I’m feeling inspiration return.

DECK USED:  RAINBOW UNICORN TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMay2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Grab a spread of your choice that you’ve been curious about… and give it a go!

Good Karma Tarot - The Tea Conference Tarot Spread

1. What message do you have for me today?

Queen of Cups – We’re here for you. All you have to do is reach out, and we’re here to support you. You’re not alone.

2. How is our relationship?

Seven of Wands – Fighting the good fight… But you’re being a little defensive right now. Don’t forget that we’re on the same team.

3. How can I improve this relationship?

Ace of Cups – Be open to your emotions and communicating them. We can come to you through this connection if you’ll allow it to open up.

4. What is the main important thing to work on today?

Nine of Swords – Don’t let all that you’ve done and all that you still have to do shut you down and result in shutting us out.

5. What do I need to learn from this reading?

King of Wands – Our connection is going to take enthusiasm, but also determination. You steer the boat, so make sure that it’s going in the right direction.

6. How can I benefit from this reading?

Knight of Swords – More focus and less impulsivity. Don’t fight back against what isn’t fighting you.

7. Farewell Tea sip: The Lesson learned from this Reading.

Ace of Coins – A new understanding of where you’re at and where you’re going, and a new grounding to your purpose.

Take away: We feel left out, and left behind, during times when you are dealing with feeling overwhelmed or having a busy day.

DECK USED:  GOOD KARMA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I made the girls check all the windows after I got the tree and all the plants inside instead of doing it myself.

It Won’t Last Forever

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Today’s meditation was skipped because I spent the time digging through steamer trunks full of decks pulling out the decks that go into rotation for next month.  Since tomorrow I have to do orders and pull everything in from the balcony, I wanted to get this done today so I’m prepared for the transition.

Magic Tarot and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of misfortune, domestic or financial hardship, scarcity, and ill health.

Sometimes when we’re feeling down or we are down on our luck, we begin to look at everything with a jaded and pessimistic view.  It feels like our luck will never change, that the troubles we are going through will last forever, and that there’s no way out. This is what I see in the imagery in today’s card, as the look on the girl’s face in the illustration very much has that feeling of resentment that comes with sinking into losing hope.

The Flower Fortunes card for today then steps in to remind us that “Your golden opportunity is coming shortly,” which is a reminder that even though it might feel like the misfortune of the moment is something inescapable that will never change… that is not reality.  The reality is that our lives are in constant change, and that constant flux means that in the bad times we need to remember that good times are just around the corner… and in the good times we need to savor and enjoy them to the fullest.

DECK USED:  MAGIC TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

Raven Willow Tarot’s Emotional Exploration Prompt
Questions for May 29th and 30th

Heroine TarotWhat have I learned about enhancing emotions?
Knight of Swords Rx

Knight of Swords Rx – What I’ve learned is that in order to enhance the emotions you want to grow and flourish in your life, it takes forethought. It isn’t about wishing for something or leaping in headlong and reckless, but rather, it’s about finding a healthy path that will get you there.

What have I learned about emotions overall this month?
Justice, Five of Swords Rx, Four of Wands

I’ve learned that unlike clinical depression, there is always a cause and affect when it comes to (non mental illness related) emotions. And that, also unlike clinical depression, you don’t have to just surrender to what comes and accept that you have to ride it out, but can use positivity and optimism combined with security and comfort to counteract negative emotions.  In other words, you don’t have to just lie down and take it.

DECK USED:  THE HEROINE TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMay2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #2
Question: How can I combat or release this feeling of inner imbalance I’ve been experiencing lately?

Magic TarotReading Summary: Take control of your urges to help others and foster their ambitions, inspiration, and emotions.

Reading Notes:  The Queens in this spread go from enthusiastic to sedate in the imagery, each one calmer and more at rest than the last.  The king then trumps them all by overlapping on the last of the Queen cards.   This transition from excited to calm overlapped by the King is an indication of a decrease in enthusiasm and increase in solid strength and ownership.

Take Away: You can only do so much. Instead of focusing so much of your energy on others, be sure to be practical about saving some for yourself. This may mean strategically or even ruthlessly cutting out certain things to make room.

DECK USED:  MAGIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I hung up on my mother because she was being a horrible person on the phone.

Where Are You Focused?

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Today’s meditation was skipped because I couldn’t get any peace and quiet to do my meditation in.  I did some breathing exercises, though.

Spirit Speak Tarot and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Justice card, which is traditionally a representation of finding balance, give and take, and the cause and effect that balances the scales of day to day life. This card can also be a representation of the law and the legal system, and I have personally had it show up to warn me about speed traps on my commute for the day.

What the Justice card is an indication of here in today’s card, though, is about cause and effect.  Combined with the Flower Fortunes card for today, what the cards say is that when your actions are aligned with where you want to go in life, that that’s where you go.

Just like driving a car.  You look where you want to go.  If you focus on the ditch, that’s where you end up.  If you focus on the tree… that’s where you end up.  But if you focus on the road and where you’re going, then you stay on the road and get where you’re going.  So make sure you’re focusing on where you want to go, and not the potential hurdles, struggles, or obstacles that may show up along the way.

DECK USED:  SPIRIT SPEAK TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: One thing to keep, one thing to let go.

Forest Creatures Tarot v2Leave Behind – Eight of Wands – My constant need to push, and rush, and move quicker, and do more. Especially when it comes to my business.  It’s an old and deeply ingrained habit, and although I know it’s not as easy as just emptying your pockets on the dresser and leaving that stuff behind… it is something that I need to make sure that I’m working on and putting my focus into.

Take With Me – Queen of Cups – My desire to expand my emotional intelligence and grow into someone more understanding of myself and others.

DECK USED:  FOREST CREATURES TAROT v2

#DiscordTarotolicsMay2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is the biggest lesson that you’ve learned this month?

Spirit Speak TarotReading Summary: To be careful that generosity (Six of Pentacles) is not something you should be walking away from (Six of Swords). Don’t be too hard on yourself; self-forgiveness is important. (Five of Swords atop of The Star)

Take Away: We’re all still learning and we all make mistakes. Not everyone who is generous is out to trick you or screw you over in some way, and you don’t want to live your life feeling like you’re constantly looking over your shoulder for these people.

At the same time, the biggest lesson that I learned this month is that sometimes generosity is a ploy used to further another’s ends and harm me in the process.  It’s important to stay alert and aware for warning signs of this happening.

DECK USED:  SPIRIT SPEAK TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I sprayed bug spray outside on the balcony on… well, everything.  I have to bring everything off my balcony and inside on Monday to stay inside until Thursday so that the outside of my side of the building can be power-washed.  I’m fucking terrified of spiders, so… Yeah.  I sprayed everything on the balcony today with the intent of getting rid of any bugs or spiders that may be making themselves at home on the stuff I’m going to have to bring in.

Morning Bonus Read – Major Events

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Prompt: “Think back to 5 major events in your past. For each event, draw a card to represent what your past self from that time needs your present self to understand. Lay down that card, then go through your deck and select a card to indicate the message you would want to give your past self who was in the midst of that.”

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Father’s Degradation

Summary – I spent the majority of my childhood hearing how (due to my preferences) I wasn’t good enough, how I was a disappointment and a source of shame for my family, and my father encouraging others in my extended family to dole out the same.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Four of Hearts – “It hurts, and I want to disregard what’s being said and leave it behind me, but I feel like it will always be there lingering in the background.”

What I Want To Say To Them – Strength – You are stronger and more sure of yourself, who you are and what you want, because of this.  Yes, the experience will carry forward with you into the future, but it will become a part of the building blocks that create the man you become.  A man that’s strong and agile, confident and compassionate.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – SemiTruck Accident and Recovery

Summary – Early in my 17th year, I was in a car accident where I was in the passenger seat of a car when it was t-boned by a semi-truck.  The impact damaged a large number of joints and bone structure on the right side of my body. I then went through multiple surgeries to repair/replace what was damaged, physiotherapy, and a stint at a pain clinic.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Eight of Spades – “Don’t forget me. Don’t forget how hard I worked to recover. Don’t turn a blind eye and undo all that I worked for.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Hanged Man – You taught me what I needed to move on. Your strength and knowledge gained during this time of pain and recovery helped me see the world differently. This doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten about you, but that this experience is threaded through my life from now on.  It can’t be lost, or forgotten.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Ex’s Attack

Summary – An ex friends-with-benefits that I broke up with due to his developing meth addiction stalked me and eventually broke into my home one evening to attack and sexually assault me.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Ten of Spades – “The most painful ending of all. It still hurts, even if you’ve moved on… my feet still bleed in the snow.”

What I Want To Say To Them – Wheel of Fortune – You made the right choices for your health and happiness at the time. What happened was not predictable and is not your fault. He is in prison now, and you’ve moved on. This too will pass, it’s just going to take more time.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Blood Moon Betrayal

Summary – The word “pissant” is hands down my least favorite word in the English language.  Essentially, Gideon and I had a group of friends who it was anonymously revealed to me really only wanted Gid and were making fun of me behind my back while plotting how to keep Gid and get me out of the picture.  These were people I liked and trusted and the betrayal damaged the optimism I had for human nature as a whole, ripping youthful naivety from me in one vicious eyeopening moment.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Five of Diamonds – “This still hurts. The experience feeds into those ‘less than’ feelings that rise up now and then.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Star – You are still healing and working on building up your faith in others. Just remember not everyone is the same.  There really are good people out there. Promise.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Home Invasion

Summary – The ex friends-with-benefits mentions above convinced a “friend” of his to come pay me a visit. The fight involved ended up with me destroying his kidneys with an ice pick, permanently losing my voice when he tried to cut my throat, and having a near death experience on my kitchen floor.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Ace of Spades – “I see the world in a new light, one filled with danger and potential for violence.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Hierophant – I am using this experience as a lesson. It taught me to be safer and more aware of the world around me. I’ve consulted home defense and self defense experts, and I will continue to seek new knowledge and better ways to further the safety of myself and my home.

DECK USED:  DEAD ON PAPER’S ARCANA IN WHITE

Dive In!

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IMG_1901Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was one of the guided meditations from the Calm app, which I chose not to do the timed piriformis stretches with because I was wearing a pair of jeans that was a bit restrictive in the hips. I decided to do them later in the day instead of half stripping just to get my meditation done.

The topic of today’s meditation was about change and how trying to avoid change doesn’t truly allow us to avoid it at all, instead it just drags it out and makes it more difficult than necessary.  Instead, if you plunge into the change and allow it to happen, go with the flow and don’t fight it, then things move along much more quickly, and much more easily.

Shapeshifter Tarot and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Wands (Seeker of Fire in this deck… Yes, I know it says Swords on the card, but the suits of Wands and Swords in this deck are all sorts of jumbled up so trust me, with the imagery?  It’s the Page of Wands), which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions and enthusiasm, joys and interests.

In the imagery, as mentioned above, you see boundless enthusiasm. The centaur given the perception of wings in their enjoyment of these things they are inspired to pursue. In the Page you find renewed enthusiasm to expand and grow, a re-connection or a new avenue opening up to begin exploring.

In the Flower Fortune card for today, the saying “If you think you’ve peaked, find a new mountain”, which perfectly aligns with the theme of the Page of Wands and its boundless enthusiasm for something new.

The encouragement here in today’s cards is that when you find yourself no longer enjoying what you’re doing, don’t just keep plugging a long at it.  Change things up and try something new.

DECK USED:  SHAPESHIFTER TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: When do I struggle to trust others?

Conference of the Birds TarotReading Summary: When their expressed intentions (Ten of Pentacles) don’t line up with their actions (Five of Wands Rx), it tells me to watch out and pay attention (The Hierophant).

Take Away: I don’t think that this is so much about struggling to trust someone as about how I know when not to trust someone.  I see a lot of people that talk about what they want out of life and how this or that needs to be just right, and yet when I watch them, they don’t act in a way that progresses them towards these goals.

It’s like wanting to be a lawyer and telling everyone that’s your goal, but not even bothering to apply to law school.   If you’re not willing to go through the process to get what you want out of life, how can you expect to get it.  It’s not going to just land in your lap.

Anyway, when I see people with this attitude about life, it makes it extremely difficult for me to trust pretty much anything that comes out of their mouths.  Their actions (or rather, their inaction) speaks far louder than any words they could speak.

DECK USED:  CONFERENCE OF THE BIRDS TAROT
Daily Self Kindness

Today was the post office day and a long ass drive to the border.  I was so tired when I got home that I ended up taking a much needed nap.  Then I played with Gideon and did my post office haul show and tell with him.