The Magic Within

Today’s meditation was skipped again.  I keep telling myself that I’m going to get back on track… and yet? I still am skipping this.  Tomorrow is another day, yes?  Another try at doing better.  I do feel better today, though.

Tarot V and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally a representation of hope, spiritual guidance, renewal, and the inter-connectivity of ourselves to the world around us and spiritual plane.

Today’s message reminds me of the saying “To the world you may be just one person, but one person, you may be the world.” Sometimes you are the Star in another persons life. You are their hope, their connection, their guiding light.

And you may not even realize it. It could be a coworker you’ve never spoken to, an employer, a friend, the barista at the coffee shop. To these people, you just being there lights up their lives, inspires them, or makes things better in some way that may seem small but makes a huge difference.

Don’t forget the magic you hold within you. Don’t forget how cherished you are by the world around you. You make a difference, whether you realize it or not.

DECK USED:  TAROT V AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for October 30th
: The last harvest is upon us. What needs to be discarded from my life?

Le Fantastique Tarot Hallucine du Dr ZarielReading Summary: Traditional (Le Pape) comforts and expectations (Ten of Diamonds) abandoned for what you really desire to push for and conquer (King of Clubs).

Take Away: This isn’t so much about giving up on the desire for stability and comfort, so much as setting thoughts of it on the back burner so that you can fully focus on the moment and what needs to be done now.

By allowing that focus to come to the forefront, you can focus deeper and accomplish more because the distraction isn’t there to pull your attention away from where it needs to be.

DECK USED: LE FANTASTIQUE TAROT HALLUCINE DU DR ZARIEL

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 30th and 31st

PVRGATORIVM and Tarot VWhat messages do my Ancestors have for me?
Eight of Swords, Knight of Clubs, Prayer

Open your eyes when charging forward instead of taking things on faith. Yes, you are more than capable of “winging it” blindly and there is a time and place for that.  Now is not that time and place, though.

How can I express my gratitude for the remainder of the year?
Three of Coins, The Moon, Bound

Remember that when you work together, there is less uncertainty, and less struggle. Their fate is also bound to your fate, so it is only right that they should bear part of the load.

The message here is that it’s important to be grateful for those that are there to help you and support you in your endeavors. Make sure you are expressing that gratitude to these people.

DECK USED: PVRGATORIVM AND TAROT V

Daily Self Kindness

I got Gideon time tonight.  Not enough, but it felt really good.

October Lessons Cartomancy Reading

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“It’s about that time again! We are closing in on the end of October, a month full of festivities, harvests and rich culture. Let’s tone things down and enjoy that this week. 🎃”

Halloween Playing CardsWhat can I do for myself to celebrate this month?

King of Hearts atop Ace of Hearts – Spending time with Gideon is a must. You need his help to lift your spirits and breathe in some fresh air for you.

What aspect of my my life at this time can I obtain a useful skill from?

Two of Clubs – Looking where you’re going doesn’t have to be anxiety inducing. Planning a path forward doesn’t have to rip you off your stable foundation.

Are there any other current aspects of my life I could benefit from? How?

Four of Diamonds – Yes. You are supposed to be resting and caring for yourself right now, so stop beating yourself up about it. Without rest and recovery there is no stability.

What lesson(s) have I learned that can benefit me from October into November?

Eight of Diamonds – You are experienced in what lies ahead. The holiday rush is coming, but there’s no reason to be nervous about it.

How can I get the most out of these lessons?

Ace of Swords – Listen and accept. Open yourself to these lessons and absorb what they are teaching you. Let down that stubbornly hard, protective shell that is not needed.

DECK USED: HALLOWEEN PLAYING CARDS

People Need People

Today’s meditation was skipped, although I did take a couple of “pause and breathe” breaks throughout the day today.

Tarot del Toro and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Queen of Goblets (Cups), which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This often translates into themes that have to do with compassion and emotional support.

This sentiment is echoed in the How to Be a Wildflower card for today, which speaks of the shelter that we find in each other through their presence and support in our lives.

In turn, we also provide this support to others. Even introverts need people. They not need as much social contact as an extrovert, but they still need people. People to love, and people to love them in turn.  People to support, and people to support them in turn.

Sometimes I dream of going up into the forest and never returning.  A cabin by a river, a tree with a rope swing.  Solitude.   And yet I know that as introverted as I am?  Even I need people.

DECK USED:  TAROT DEL TORO AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 29th thru 31st

Tarot de Marseille par Pole KaAncestors hear, come far, come all, I now call you forth, how do you answer my call?

L’Étoile – With eagerness and wisdom, the ancestors come forward to be heard. They wish to instill hope, to connect and communicate through that connection, to support and to guide you forward on your path from one day to the next.

Cards on the table, ancestors respond, show me your guidance from somewhere beyond…

Le Fou atop Le Pape – Be positive. Don’t lose hope. Begin piecing together your inner spirit. You don’t have to be so rigid in your expectations of yourself.  Loosen up and let yourself have a bit more fun.

Thank you for your guidance, through highs and through lows, before you depart, tell me, what should I know?

Deux de Denier – You need to focus on balance. Everything else will fall into place.

DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE PAR POLE KA

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Tarot del ToroWhat will I surrender today?
Six of Cups and Eight of Wands

It’s time to begin releasing the guilt.  You were raised to be a workhorse and you know that “training” from an early age is why you feel guilty now.  That guilt is preventing you from getting the rest you need.

Release the guilt.  Do it now.  It’s much easier to find balance without that static playing loudly in your head and heart.

What wisdom does bat have for me today?
Nine of Wands and The Magician

You’re going to end up going into the customs office today.  Stay friendly, but distant.  You have everything you need to get through the checkpoint as needed, so just relax and do the process.  It takes time, but it doesn’t have to be stressful.

DECK USED: TAROT DEL TORO

Daily Self Kindness

I stopped to eat at Denny’s instead of trying to hold out until I made it home.

Adaptation and Balance

Today’s meditation was skipped yet again.  I did have intentions, but they didn’t pan out.  Too many orders to get done and not enough time in the day.

Черное Таро and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Justice card, which is traditionally a representation of balance, cause and effect, consequences, and can often indicates a theme of law or justice system involvement.

When I think of balance, I think of Maat’s scales.  The weighing of a heart on one side, and the feather on the other, and the symbolism of finding balance… perhaps only in death.

The reason I feel this way about it is because in life, the world is ever-changing. That means the “scales” that each of us carry with us that weigh and balance the different priorities in our lives and the things we have done, or conscience, and well… everything really.  These scales must be in constant motion, constantly adjusting as the world around us changes, and as we grow and change.

Only in death do the scales still entirely. Only then to we have the possibility of perfect balance.  The cards here today speak to me of that.  Of the fact that although we strive for balance in our lives, that goal is always going to be just out of reach.  Sometimes closer, sometimes further away, but never perfect. Because here in life?  We are meant to grow and change, we are meant to learn and expand.  And with every moment of growth, every shift in priorities, every change in our lives, our minds, our emotions… that balance must shift.  Embracing the changes helps us in making those adjustments go more smoothly.

DECK USED:  ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Orphic TarotWhat healing lesson is waiting for me to realize and accept it?

Nine of Swords (Melas Oneiros) – Your perceptions when you are in a mental health crisis are warped. Reality is not as bleak as it appears to be during these times. Find a better way to tell when you’re in real trouble than just guessing blindly in the dark

How can I work on accepting this lesson?

Four of Cups (Echo) atop Death Rx (Hades) – Instead of always looking forward and charging ahead, take time to sit with where you are and more fully explore it.

Your StrengthThe Moon (Pan Selene) – You are good at moving forward with surety, even when things are feeling uncertain. As mentioned above though, you need to remember that sometimes moving forward is not the answer.

Your WeaknessJudgment (Dionysus) – You are too hard on yourself and set your expectations far too high.

AdviceFive of Cups (Mourning Orpheus) – Stop retreating. Stop hiding. All it is doing is making things worse. Don’t allow your emotions to control your actions… or more specifically, your inaction and stagnancy. It’s taking up too much control of what’s going on in your life.

DECK USED: ORPHIC TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Черное ТароHow will the dark half of the year help me grow?
Ten of Pentacles and Wheel of Fortune

It will be a reminder that there are good and bad times, and nothing last forever. It will help you to see that even when things feel like they’re going bad, your stability will not be threatened by the whims of these minor up and downs in life… no matter how major they may feel in the moment.

How will this growth help me love and appreciate myself?
Queen of Swords and The Chariot

It will remind you of your strengths and adaptability, allowing you to see that you can continue to move forward with purpose regardless of how you’re feeling by reconnecting with that logical side of your nature that is a part of your history and heritage.

DECK USED: ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО

Daily Self Kindness

Let’s see… I took a nap that I probably shouldn’t have taken.  I also had my smoothie, which was really good today for some reason (as if it’s not made the same way every day or something), as well as my vitamins, tea, collagen peptides, and muffin.

Samhain Tarot Reading with the Old Whispers Tarot

Old Whispers Tarot - Samhain Tarot Reading

Death: What is coming to an end in your life?

Ten of Swords – A cycle is coming to an end and the beat to fuck feeling of being unable to move is coming with it.  You will not be stagnant and struggling forever.

Death: What aspect of yourself you no longer are.

Knight of Swords – The time in your life when you foolishly go flying forward into battle with impulsivity at the tip of your blade has come to an end.  You have tasted the forbidden fruit of rest and recuperation, and found a liking for the taste.

Trick: Negative influences getting in your way of letting go.

Five of Wands – The principles of your past and the new ones your establishing are clashing against each other.  Rest vs motivation. Self care vs delving into your work. These conflicting passions are getting in your way.  There is no balance here, only a struggle for dominance. Is balance even possible? Or will you need to pick a side and stand firm?

Treat: Positive influences. Blessings in disguise.

Three of Pentacles atop Five of Cups – You disinterest and dissatisfaction is creating more opportunity for you to work with others instead of taking everything upon your own shoulders. Because you’re not so gung-ho about work, you are less willing to take the full weight of the work and the business on your own.  You reach out to others more, involve them more, and allow them to help rather than pushing them away to do it all yourself.

Cat: Your inner wisdom. The biggest lesson learned this year.

Four of Swords – Rest is important. Recuperation is important.  You need it.  In interspersing time off into each month, you have successfully managed to avoid even a single bout of catastrophic burnout for a full year.

Ghost: What is still haunting you.

Nine of Swords – Your mental health is not at its best. You’re struggling with the edges of cloying depression and can’t seem to shake the clinging tendrils of it.  Perhaps you cut back to your normal dose of meds a little too early when heading off the onset of that last MDE.  Next time try three weeks instead of two.

Spider: The road ahead. The life you are weaving for yourself.

Eight of Wands atop Nine of Cups Rx – The road you are currently on is not a good one. You’ve been neglecting yourself for the past couple of weeks.  Self care has gone down the toilet, and your running on autopilot with the business instead of getting ahead of things a little at a time as you’d planned to do. Continuing on this course will only lead (very quickly) to unhappiness.

Bat: The fear that remains.

Knight of Pentacles – That slow progress is no progress.  Not that you’re making any particular progress at the moment, you’re backsliding. But, as always, you struggle with the concept of slow progress. You need to stop looking at slow progress as having your wings clipped.

DECK USED:  OLD WHISPERS TAROT

Hopes and Dreams

Today’s meditation was skipped again today.  Maybe I need to tattoo on the back of my hand “don’t let your emotions cause you to bail on your responsibilities to yourself” or something.

Skele-Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally a representation of hope, spiritual guidance, renewal, and the inter-connectivity of ourselves to the world around us and spiritual plane.

The dreams that we have when we’re asleep have an important purpose. Even when we don’t remember them or even remember that we dreamed at all… we all dream.

Daydreams also have a purpose. They are the spark of hope in the world, providing us with ideas and allowing us to imagine the things we’d like to see or experience in the future, or remember those things we’ve already experienced in the past.  Through daydreams we have a direct line to hopes and dreams, memories and past joys, and the guiding light of our own desires.

The message in today’s cards is that daydreams are important. They provide hope, giving us something to guide us forward and lift us up, even during the most difficult of times. Don’t discard them as unrealistic or a waste of time.  They have value.

DECK USED:  SKELE-TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 27th and 28th

Garden Of Lucid Daydreams Oracle and Trionfi Della LunaThey took their brooms to seek the night, what knowledge can witches of the old provide?
The Bathers atop The Weed, Five of Swords and Death

Do not neglect the cleansing that needs to be done, for it will stave off conflict in the future. Take care in what you share of these methods, for that knowledge can be used to circumvent the cleansing that is done and the protections that are erected afterward.

And as the veil keeps growing thin, how am I to prepare for Samhain?
Consultation atop Desire, Ten of Wands atop Page of Swords

Get in extra time and let your communication and time together beat back a bit of the overwhelm that you’re already feeling. It won’t obliterate it entirely, but it will help.

DECK USED: GARDEN OF LUCID DAYDREAMS ORACLE AND TRIONFI DELLA LUNA

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for October 27th
: Can anyone on the other side make contact when the veil is thin?

Skele-TarotReading Summary:  From the newly passed (Ace of Pentacles) to those that have been crossed over for quite some time (Ten of Pentacles), any who need to reach across the veil to obtain the peace and satisfaction they need can do so (Nine of Pentacles).

Take Away: It makes sense to me that this was answered in all Pentacles, for it is a question about spirits reaching through the veil into the physical world.  The answer here indicates that it is through pursuit of “satiation” and completion that those that reach through the veil at this time of year do so.  Perhaps this is not the only reason, but the answer seems to make it clear that the “door is open” who all that need to use it before they will be able to move on.

DECK USED: SKELE-TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I ate healthy food today including spicy tomato pasta with fresh herbs, my morning smoothy of probiotic with spinach and berries, as well as my tea with collagen peptides. It’s not all that I ate today of course, but I made the effort to stick to mostly healthy choices today instead of the cereal and cookies I’ve been leaning heavily on over the past week.