Month: May 2022

Stay the Course

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Tarocchi del DisordineToday’s draw is the Eight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, expertise through practice, honing a skill, quality craftsmanship, handicrafts, and manifestations through skill and hard work.

There’s a certain amount of predictability in the Eight of Pentacles. The depiction of someone working at their craft, repeating the same item again and again, is an image or progress and improvement. But it’s progress toward a specific skill or goal.

Today’s message, I feel, is about that predictability, and the unpredictability (the woman is nekkid) that can derail things if allowed to do so.  This card says “Don’t let today’s unpredictability take away from all of the work you’ve done and advancements you’ve made in your craft.”

DECK USED:  TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for May 9th and 10th

Cosmic Cat Wisdom Cards and Tarocchi del DisordineIn what ways are you unhappy with who you are now?

Comfort atop Tolerance, La Forza – Physical contact is often uncomfortable for me, and I hate that I have to force it, even sometimes with those that I love and care about… and even when it is I that needs the comforting.

I know that part of this is because of my clairesentience, but even with people that are a null to that sense, it’s still more often than not a tug-of-war between forcing it and tolerance of it.

How can you improve upon the person you are now?

Equilibrium, Eight of Wands atop Sei di Denari – Establishing and maintaining balance in life is going to require an active participation in being kind to yourself, and giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and a bit of slack. It isn’t just others you need to be generous with, but also yourself… and this is going to take actual conscious action on your part.

DECK USED: COSMIC CAT WISDOM CARDS AND TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 10th and 11th

Tarocchi del DisordineWhat scares me about relationships?

Il Carro Rx and Cavaliere de Denari – A lack of independence that has been surrendered over time in order to build something better.

Yes, I want better in my life and I’m happy to work toward that, but I fear that lack of independence.  Even after all this time with Gideon and finding that comfortable balance with him between submission, strength, and independence… I still fear its loss.

What needs to heal from past relationships?

Sette di Spade and Asso di Bastoni – A lot of the confidence you once used to motivate and inspire yourself was stolen from you due to the trauma of a past relationship. You are still half curled into yourself in cautious defense.

This is about the “ex” that is still in prison (and will hopefully remain there for a good amount of time to come).  The stalking.  The assault.  The “visit” from one of his prison buddies.  These cards indicate that it’s taken a toll on my confidence… a toll that I’m still recovering from years later.

DECK USED: TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

Daily Self Kindness

I ate a LOT of food at Olive Garden today.  You know, since I had to go anyway and they were paying.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_9603Piercing the Skin

The ache spread
little by little
as longing
withers my insides
turning moving parts
into a husk
of nothing
but the pain
of separation
and I miss you
so much
that I feel surely
soon the thorns
will pierce out
through my flesh
for all to see.

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Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes Lenormand Reading

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Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes Lenormand Reading with The Butterfly Circus Lenormand

A Thought to Change

Man and House – You are not an island, and it is time to stop thinking of yourself as such. You have people who love you, people that depend on you.  You live with some and others are near by and close to your heart. There is so much support there that you refuse to see, because you believe you do not deserve it or worry it will fall through. It’s time to start accepting that you are not alone.

A Behavior to Change

Bouquet and Tree – You need to start treating your physical health better. This goes beyond just eating healthier instead of eating junk all the time (which you are definitely guilty of), but also in making sure you are getting enough exercise, enough physiotherapy for your body to work properly, and enough rest. Taking care of yourself is important and you need to take it more seriously.

The Outcome

Bear and Child – Greater fortitude and strength, both mentally, emotionally, physically, and situationally. You can start again and build greater strength by tapping into these changes instead of ignoring the need to begin working toward them.

DECK USED: THE BUTTERFLY CIRCUS LENORMAND

Facing the Right Direction

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Liber Florum TarotToday’s draw is the Three of Wands (Cypress), which is traditionally a representation of beginning a journey, expansion, commencing with plans, and making progress.

Having a plan and actually -acting- on that plan are two very different things.  So many times, it can be easy to stall out and fall into stagnation because you just can’t move seamlessly from the planning stage into the action stage.

Today’s card is a reminder that plans aren’t enough.  Action is needed as well if you want to move in the direction of your dreams. Remember that sometimes it’s as simple as facing in the direction that you want to go in, and then start moving your feet.

DECK USED:  LIBER FLORUM TAROT

The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 9th thru 13th

Eastern Ink Tarot and the Quiet Mystic OracleHappy Mother’s Day! What message does the Divine Mother have for me?

Knight of Wands Rx and The Unseen – The reason that you are struggling with your motivation right now is because there are deeper, yet unacknowledged things that need to be addressed.

How can I connect more fully with the Divine Mother?

Page of Swords atop Ace of Pentacles, Joyful Scarring – With intention, acceptance, and an open mind. Approach this relationship as a new exploration in manifestation, and be kind to yourself throughout the process.

What is the best way for me to share my love with the Divine Mother?

Queen of Cups and Space Invasion – Foster optimism and positivity to help combat the negativity you naturally lean towards, and encourage self-compassion.

How can I embrace and incorporate the Divine Mother’s energy into my everyday?

Ten of Swords and Serpentine Shed – View painful endings in your life as a chance to shed old harmful habits. It is an opportunity to begin anew and do better in all the ways that should matter most.

How will the Divine Mother’s message and energy support my growth and abundance?

Three of Cups and Cosmic Wanderlust – By opening up to the energy of the Divine Mother, you are able to connect with a greater sense of connection and joy, and allow that positive energy to then unfold itself throughout all aspects of your life… thus creating more of what you desire most.

DECK USED: QUIET MYSTIC ORACLE AND EASTERN INK TAROT

ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 9th and 10th

Liber Florum TarotWhat is my relationship with authority?

Ten of Swords (Lily) and Nine of Pentacles (Mandrake) – Dismal at best, unless I’m the one in charge of my own personal choices and situation, or at least feel the one that is in charge is well deserved in that position.

I am fiercely independent and don’t go easy when anyone steps into that sphere of independence and tries to take it out of my hands. I really don’t care much what all else they are in charge of as long as they leave me any of my own concerns alone.

Ie: I am someone that is easily friends with extremely influential people as long as they don’t try to use that influence to control or manipulate me personally. (At which point I will promptly tell them to fuck off and walk away.)

How can I develop as a leader and authority figure?

The Moon (Poppy) and The Star (Olive) Rx – Don’t let your fear of the unknown control you and take away the hope and joy being in such a position can bring.

DECK USED: LIBER FLORUM TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

After a visit to the lab to have my blood taken for a crapload of tests?  I went and had an oreo blizzard at Dairy Queen.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_0046The Watcher

The sweet girl sits
at the window
and observes
the world
passing by
known by
every bird and
construction worker
as the watcher
in the window
always there
with a curious
and attentive gaze

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Do Something Inspired

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Universal Goddess Tarot - Ace of Wands (Bastet)Today’s draw is the Ace of Wands (Bastet), which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s enthusiasm, drive, willpower, principles, determination, and inner spark.

From the LWB: “I am energy, vitality, inventiveness, birth, fire. I am the active principle. I am Bastet, Egyptian goddess, fertile ray of sun that illuminates and warms the earth.”

Bastet is a lioness goddess, a role shared by other deities such as Sekhmet. Eventually Bastet and Sekhmet were characterized as two aspects of the same goddess, with Sekhmet representing the powerful warrior and protector aspect and Bastet, who increasingly was depicted as a cat, representing a gentler aspect. Before this deity’s nature was ameliorated around 1500 bc, she was known as a ferocious goddess of protection, and whose more gentle aspects make her the goddess of home, domesticity, women’s secrets, cats, fertility, and childbirth.

I feel that the LWB combined with being set upon the Ace of Wands leans more into Bastet’s fierce lioness traits. This card says… Do something today. Do something that sparks your enthusiasm and your interest, kindling that inner spark that the depression keeps banked.  Do something that brings you joy and stirs you up inside.

That’s the message in today’s card.

DECK USED:  UNIVERSAL GODDESS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 8th: Do Spread #1

Winterseer Oracle and Antique Anatomy TarotWhat positive quality do I have that others admire?

The Moon and Seal – Even when you are feeling uncertain, your creative spark continues to grow and shine. Instead of fear or uncertainty turning you away from creativity, you find solace and shelter within your creative endeavors.

What positive quality do I wish I had that I admire in others?

Three of Elixirs and Raccoon – The ability to survive and thrive in intensely social situations. As much as you want to enjoy socializing and groups, that is really just not where you shine, but is something that you admire in others.

What step(s) can I take now to work toward developing that quality in myself?

Eight of Elixirs atop Two of Elixirs, Dove – You need to accept that some people show their love and affection differently than others, and those that love you understand that you are not a particularly social person. It’s okay to walk away when you need to, and your way of showing love to others is no better or worse than anyone else’s. Accept yourself as you are instead of trying to be something you’re not.

What step(s) can I take to make the positive qualities I already have shine brightly?

Six of Coins and Rat – Work on accepting help from others without worrying (or anticipating) that it’s going to end up biting you on the ass.

DECK USED: WINTERSEER ORACLE AND ANTIQUE ANATOMY TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 8th and 9th

Universal Goddess TarotWhat positive traits do I bring to my relationships?

The Tower (Morrigan) and The Lovers (Venus) – You show people that it is possible to stay on a healthy path and make healthy choices, even when it feels like your world is falling apart. And in doing so, you encourage others to do the same.

What unrealistic expectations have placed on myself?

Judgement (Ceridwen), Five of Coins (Hel) atop Temperance (Anahita) – There is a lack of temperance to how you treat yourself concerning your inner narrative and it’s influences. You judge yourself too harshly and allow the feelings of scarcity and aloneness that result from this to lead you away from positivity and moderation.

DECK USED: UNIVERSAL GODDESS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I spent some time digging in the dirt out on the balcony today, and I quit when my body said it was time to quit instead of keeping going.  I didn’t get done everything I wanted to as a result, but it’s a win for self-care and self-kindness.