Stay the Course

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Tarocchi del DisordineToday’s draw is the Eight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, expertise through practice, honing a skill, quality craftsmanship, handicrafts, and manifestations through skill and hard work.

There’s a certain amount of predictability in the Eight of Pentacles. The depiction of someone working at their craft, repeating the same item again and again, is an image or progress and improvement. But it’s progress toward a specific skill or goal.

Today’s message, I feel, is about that predictability, and the unpredictability (the woman is nekkid) that can derail things if allowed to do so.  This card says “Don’t let today’s unpredictability take away from all of the work you’ve done and advancements you’ve made in your craft.”


#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for May 9th and 10th

Cosmic Cat Wisdom Cards and Tarocchi del DisordineIn what ways are you unhappy with who you are now?

Comfort atop Tolerance, La Forza – Physical contact is often uncomfortable for me, and I hate that I have to force it, even sometimes with those that I love and care about… and even when it is I that needs the comforting.

I know that part of this is because of my clairesentience, but even with people that are a null to that sense, it’s still more often than not a tug-of-war between forcing it and tolerance of it.

How can you improve upon the person you are now?

Equilibrium, Eight of Wands atop Sei di Denari – Establishing and maintaining balance in life is going to require an active participation in being kind to yourself, and giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and a bit of slack. It isn’t just others you need to be generous with, but also yourself… and this is going to take actual conscious action on your part.


The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 10th and 11th

Tarocchi del DisordineWhat scares me about relationships?

Il Carro Rx and Cavaliere de Denari – A lack of independence that has been surrendered over time in order to build something better.

Yes, I want better in my life and I’m happy to work toward that, but I fear that lack of independence.  Even after all this time with Gideon and finding that comfortable balance with him between submission, strength, and independence… I still fear its loss.

What needs to heal from past relationships?

Sette di Spade and Asso di Bastoni – A lot of the confidence you once used to motivate and inspire yourself was stolen from you due to the trauma of a past relationship. You are still half curled into yourself in cautious defense.

This is about the “ex” that is still in prison (and will hopefully remain there for a good amount of time to come).  The stalking.  The assault.  The “visit” from one of his prison buddies.  These cards indicate that it’s taken a toll on my confidence… a toll that I’m still recovering from years later.


Daily Self Kindness

I ate a LOT of food at Olive Garden today.  You know, since I had to go anyway and they were paying.

Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes Lenormand Reading

Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes Lenormand Reading with The Butterfly Circus Lenormand

A Thought to Change

Man and House – You are not an island, and it is time to stop thinking of yourself as such. You have people who love you, people that depend on you.  You live with some and others are near by and close to your heart. There is so much support there that you refuse to see, because you believe you do not deserve it or worry it will fall through. It’s time to start accepting that you are not alone.

A Behavior to Change

Bouquet and Tree – You need to start treating your physical health better. This goes beyond just eating healthier instead of eating junk all the time (which you are definitely guilty of), but also in making sure you are getting enough exercise, enough physiotherapy for your body to work properly, and enough rest. Taking care of yourself is important and you need to take it more seriously.

The Outcome

Bear and Child – Greater fortitude and strength, both mentally, emotionally, physically, and situationally. You can start again and build greater strength by tapping into these changes instead of ignoring the need to begin working toward them.