These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Six of Chalices atop Three of Wands, Zuriel – It is only through finding a balance between your experiences in the past and your plans for the future that you’ll find peace in the present. It can often feel like the past and the future are opposing forces, one pulling away from you to the left, and one stretching out ahead into the future on the right. This perception leaves the present seemingly alone and as a result abandoned as we spend so much time touching one or the other on either side that we forget… it is mindfulness in the moment that can create the balance needed between the two. Get your ass back into meditating daily. It is as essential as taking a leak first thing in the morning or taking your meds before you go to sleep at night, so stop skipping it.
Air – Ace of Swords atop Knave of Wands, Remiel – Pluck from the tangled pile of new ideas you have collected and find one that sparks your interest and allows you to learn something new to add to your repertoire of passions and skills. Note that this advice speaks of one… one idea. One project. One new thing. Do not add many to your plate or it will be too much. Just one. Try exploring just this one thing for a while, allow it to flourish and have fun with it. It has the potential to grow into something beautiful if you don’t smother by overcrowding it with too many other things.
Water – Two of Wands, The Gate of Sahaqiel – It’s time to start focusing on connecting more strongly to your intuition. Make sure that you are making space for spiritual pursuits and your connections therein. Connecting to the divine is important, and sometimes that means you have to intentionally make plans for it in order to fit it in. In the tail end of your recovery it’s especially important that you keep in mind that these things also need to be factored in or the end up left behind.
Fire – The Wheel, Knave of Chalices, Sandalphon – New beginnings are upon you right now as you find yourself in the last dregs of your depression’s recovery. Acknowledge this new start for the opportunity it is to learn a new way of doing things moving forward and turning those things that have not worked for you around into something better. Sometimes your efforts may bite you on the ass, but we are given opportunities in order to take them and try… so don’t let this opportunity pass you by. Use it to try something new and something better, resurrecting new life from the ashes of what you leave behind.
Waning – Cave (Protection) – Uncurl from your shell and stretch. The time to hide yourself beneath the shell that protects you from the harm others can create when you are vulnerable is at an end. You are close enough to the surface now to safely stretch your arms wide and greet the world on your own terms once more.
Waxing – North (Expansion) – Be true to yourself and the moral compass you know so well. Be brave and be strong as you continue along your path and remember that it is not a single lesson we learn in life, but rather many over the course of our time. Now is a time to explore and stretch your wings after so much time cramped in the dark.
Take Away – My recovery from depression is sliding into its last phase before solid ground is once more beneath my feet. Now is a time to stretch and take in the sunlight and fresh air. Pick a project that inspires and explore its potential, but be sure not to overwhelm myself with too much focus on the past or the future. Put more focus into making sure I’m meditating each day and consciously taking the time and effort to stay connected to my spiritual path as I begin to “awaken” from the dark pit’s hold upon me.
Today’s meditation was a little different than the norm because I didn’t use a timer at all, nor a guide. I think the meditation was about a half hour long, but I’m not entirely sure. Instead of using these things, I chose to simply lay quietly and take time to breathe and listen to the world going about it’s business beyond my windows and walls. I did some small stretching, but nothing major, it was more just about being quiet and not allowing my brain to go through its normal constant litany of what needs done and what not to forget before I manage to write it all down.
