Seek the Light

Today’s meditation was skipped because I pulled an all-nighter last night, and I knew that if I laid down to meditate I was going to fall asleep and sleep for hours. I had a lot to get done today, and couldn’t afford that sleep.  So I skipped instead.

Journey of the Sacred Bee Tarot and How to be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Sun card, which is traditionally a representation of happiness, success, joy, and the celebration of life.

Hints of little tugs on the depression side of things have been whispering quietly in the background lately.  Emotional upset has made them louder, and my anxiety is not helping.

The advice here between the affirmation card “Seek the Light” and the Sun card is that I need to take more time to pay attention to the stuff that makes me happy.  Seek out those things that lift my spirit and provide hope and happiness in my life, and spend some time enjoying them… and celebrating them.

DECK USED:  JOURNEY OF THE SACRED BEE TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS

CoffeexTarot’s Who’s Your Spirit Guides? Prompt
Questions for August 17th thru 19th

Really F*ing Obvious Divination Cards and the Sacred Bridges TarotHow do I strengthen our connection?
Proceed with Caution atop Spirit Needs a Lift, Five of Waters Rx atop Kali

“Don’t do it. I will latch on and suck you dry.”

This guide wants to connect on their own terms, and only when they are needed.  They are not around all the time, and have no desire to be.

What hopes do you have for me?
ssSatisfaction atop Too Small, Ten of Waters

“My hope is that you will start paying closer attention to the needs of your body and listening more closely to what it’s telling you instead of disregarding it’s complaints.”

This is something I do a lot due to the chronic pain I deal with, but sometimes it can be a problem if it means I’m not actually following up on problems, or neglecting my body and paying for the repercussions of that.

What potential do you see in me?
Seek Medical Advice and Ten of Staves

“I see the potential for big growth and a great deal of satisfaction and pleasure.”

There is lots of brightness in these cards. Positive outcomes and happiness. This guide sees me as capable of all these things and that I deserve them.

DECK USED: REALLY F*ING OBVIOUS DIVINATION CARDS AND THE SACRED BRIDGES TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
:  What kindness do I need to gift myself with?

Journey of the Sacred Bee TarotReading Summary:  Be patient with yourself (Seven of Disks) as you step into the depression that is coming (Three of Swords). Lean into patience rather than moderation (Alchemy Rx), and work at staying conscious of yourself and your thoughts during this time (Princess of Swords).

Take Away: Its coming.  You know it’s coming.  It’s okay to let it come, just make sure that you stay aware of what’s happening and don’t let yourself sink into it.  Your inner dialogue is a fierce son of a bitch, and he won’t help you right now.  Lean away from that voice and into the patience that’s recommended here.

DECK USED: JOURNEY OF THE SACRED BEE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I did end up napping today, regardless of skipping the meditation in order to avoid that happening. Apparently I needed at least a little bit of a recharge.

Morning Bonus Read – Self Love

Hilda Lenormand - Self Love Reading

Something to love about myself.
The Bear and The Tree

Regardless of the chronic pain I experience on the daily, I am always able to move forward into the activities I enjoy and dive into them again and again. This allows me to go out into nature and hike without worrying about if I’ll be able to handle the trails laid out before me, or passing up on some of those that will spiritually benefit me the most due to my body’s inability to handle the climb.

Where can I be more patient with myself?
The Broom and The Clouds

It’s important to remember that the pleasure seeking I do and the addictive tendencies I have are rooted in something that needs healed. They are a self-medicating behavior.  Don’t just berate myself when these behaviors get out of control, but be patient and look at what has triggered things to advance into unhealthy territory.

Where can I be kinder to myself?
The Clover and The Bouquet

Allow yourself to enjoy times when things are good and pleasure can be had.  It’s okay to sink into the enjoyment and pleasure, and wallow in a bit of happiness now and then.  There’s nothing wrong with that and it is a gift to yourself that can help you in restoring yourself and your view of the world around you.

Energies and strategies to draw on.
The Garden and The Tower

Lean into others to help you in moving forward and making sure you see what’s coming and can deal with it in a capable way.  You aren’t alone and you have others to support you, don’t forget about them when you need them.

DECK USED:  HILDA LENORMAND

Finding Your Spark

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I can’t remember why. I’m playing catch up at the moment and I didn’t take notes for the day.

Alchemia Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Page of Wands, which is a traditional representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s enthusiasm, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with budding enthusiasm, exploration of new inspiration, and potential that is fed by the inner fire that feeds our determination and enthusiasm.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, the message here is about finding those things that light your fire.  The things in life that create a sense of enthusiasm and spark within you a sense of energized inspiration.  We all have those things, although sometimes it can be harder to find them than others.    These are the things that create light and brightness in our lives, and make life a joy.

The Page speaks of beginnings, and thus the message is to keep searching for new things that can create this feeling for you, and brighten your life as a result.

DECK USED:  ALCHEMIA TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAugustTarot #SOLTarot Prompt
Questions for August 16th thru 18h

Gratitude Oracle and Crystal Bone TarotA talent or skill I am guided to share?
Perspective and Page of Cups

My journey of emotional growth, and my perspectives along the way. How I look at things is unique, and although I sometimes feel as if sharing my journey lands on deaf ears, the truth is that there are other people that need to hear how I navigate this journey and the different perspectives that I discover and develop along the way.

A talent or skill I am guided to hone {more}?
Self Care atop Open Minded, The Star

Seeing self-care as an essential, instead of as an indulgence and treating it as such. Although I often go through the actions of self-care even when I’m not feeling up to it, my mind is often closed to the idea that it is something that is needed for my well-being and to keep me float on a more positive vein and away from the depression pit, rather than something that I just do because I’m supposed to.

What can I do to grow from my current manifestations?
Intermingle atop Acceptance, Eight of Bones

Spend more time with others while they are doing their own thing and encourage them in their endeavors. The summer has been a lot about connecting with those around you rather than sinking deeper into yourself, and in order to really bring this theme home you need to continue to spend time with them and allow them to broaden your horizons. Don’t retreat.

What tools or awareness can empower my current focus?
Seek atop Effort, Five of Crystals

Patience. Sometimes the things you seek take effort and time to accomplish. Don’t allow yourself to become discouraged and your perspective to change to one scarcity and loss instead of determination and forward thinking.  Don’t give up just because it’s difficult or it’s taking a long time to get there.

DECK USED: GRATITUDE ORACLE AND CRYSTAL BONE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for August 16th

Flower Evolution Card Deck and Alchemia TarotUse Your Logic With This Pomegranate Flower and Five of Wands – at this time you’re having a lot of anxiety, and emotions that was stirred up and set out of balance or your experience with PayPal. Sinking into those emotions and letting them ride you just because you want to fight for what you feel is right and feel as if they have overstepped it’s not going to resolve these issues. You need to use logic and look at things logically, remember that you weren’t really using them for anything important anymore anyway, and this is in no way a threat to your business regardless of what your feelings are telling you.

Use Your Intuition With ThisLilac and Knight of Cups – Getting what you want out of life, isn’t always about logic and strategy, but about flexibility and intuition.Knowing what you want is half the battle, but going after it is another thing entirely. Sometimes I think she really wants take more than drive and determination as you rigidly go along a preset path. Instead you need to be adaptable, and use your intuition to know when it’s time to shift your weight or adjust course in order to get to where you want to go.

DECKS USED: FLOWER EVOLUTION CARD DECK AND ALCHEMIA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Today was an orders day and I’m pulling an all nighter in order to get everything done.  I’ve been making sure to eat every two hours, in order to ensure I don’t have a blood sugar crash.

Let Your Inner Voice Lead

Today’s meditation was skipped because I ended up falling asleep.

Etruscan Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Six of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of the boon of having an abundance of choices.  The problem is, this situation can often be seen as abundance, but it can also be seen as overwhelming.

In today’s card we see the image of a woman whose boon has turned to bane in such a way. So many bowls, so many choices, and yet she appears completely overwhelmed.

The encouragement in these cards today is about seeking what feels right.  When you touch upon your inner voice and let your intuition guide you, the overwhelm falls away as those things that are truly meant to be will shine brighter.

It is in finding those things that harmonize with you, with your desires and wishes, dreams and hopes, and allowing your inner voice to help guide you to them, where you then find those things that help you glow more brightly, allow you to enjoy the world around you, and give the opportunity to truly connect and enjoy your journey.

When you feel overwhelmed by the choices before you, seek the answer within. Allow your inner voice and intuition to shine.  You won’t be sorry.

DECK USED:  ETRUSCAN TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
:  Do Spread #3

There is Always Light Oracle and The ASL TarotSeeds Sown – What seeds for my emotional growth planted in the spring have flourished and grown strong?
Wisdom atop Mother, Six of Cups

My efforts to reconnect with my inner wisdom and intuition, as well as with my spirit guides and their guidance to help in making choices when am I feeling overwhelmed.

It’s through my connection with these things that I am able to sort through the choices before me, and find the right path, and the right choices, for me.  That inner wisdom and guidance are a guiding light that shines brightly like a beacon, leading me ever forward.

The Chaff – What seeds have not flourished and I need to let go of to encourage healthy growth in other areas?
Unveil and Ace of Chalices

Exploring my emotions and helping me to acclimatize with the newness of it all so that they are no longer quite so overwhelming. I just didn’t manage to explore this very much this Summer, as I was deep in the middle of what is mentioned previously as well as trying to find and keep my equilibrium, and adjusting to taking time off and not beating myself up about it.

The Harvest – How can I best prepare now to reap the benefits of a positive and healthy harvest in the Fall?
Phoenix and Ten of Chalices

Let go to the bad stuff and focus on the abundance of good stuff that you have going on and it will lift you up. A phoenix cannot rise from the ashes without leaving the ashes behind.

DECK USED: THERE IS ALWAYS LIGHT ORACLE AND THE ASL TAROT

The #MysticStarChallenge at the Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for August 15

Etruscan TarotWhat message does Justice have for me?

Lord of Pentacles – Be wise and will grounded, and when that pendulum of cause and effect swings back in your direction, won’t hit you in the face quite as hard as it might otherwise.

What obstacles does Justice want to warn me about?

Four of Wands – Get your home insurance in order. Now that you have the paperwork you need, it’s time to go in and make sure it gets done.  You’ve been putting it off, and the fact it’s not done is causing anxiety.  Stabilize yourself by doing what needs done to secure and protect your home.

What guidance does Justice have for me to overcome this obstacle?

Two of Pentacles – Work it into your day-to-day juggling of tasks and responsibilities. Do it on the way home from something else as a stop along the way. Put the papers in the car so that you have them handy when the opportunity arises.

DECK USED: ETRUSCAN TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Alexandros and Yurei time with Gideon while I worked on orders.  I don’t know what it is about that character, but Alex really has the “soothe and stabilize” thing down pat for me, no matter which character I’m playing off of him.

The Fertilizer

Today’s meditation was twelve minutes long and was the second installment of the Foundations II series on the Balance app. The meditation in this installment was about posture, and how your posture can enhance your meditation practice as well as influence you energy level and alertness both in meditation as well as throughout the day.

The Tarot of Loka and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally a representation of sudden unexpected change that often carries with it calamity and chaos. It is often the tearing down of something in order to make room for something else.

I personally had my own Tower card moment, recently. And I can honestly say that “Foraging for Beauty” in the moment? Was not easy.  IS not easy. Especially during the moment and when recovering from impact.

The thing is that sometimes when shit falls apart on you, it can be hard to see the good that can come from it. The message in today’s cards is to remember… all flowers bloom bigger and brighter with a bit of shit mixed into the soil.

DECK USED:  THE TAROT OF LOKA AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

CoffeexTarot’s Who’s Your Spirit Guides? Prompt
Questions for August 14th and 15th

Personal Power Oracle 2nd Edition and Crystal Bones TarotWhat negative forces are you protecting me from?
I Am Determined atop I Am Forgiving, Five of Crystals

“I am protecting you from those people that you are too forgiving of, that are determined to do you harm by tapping into your energy and tearing you down.”

In earlier readings it was made clear that they are here to build me up and guide me into strength. It makes perfect sense that this would be what they are here to protect me from.

What beliefs do you want me to accept?
I Am Curious, Five of Bones atop Justice

All strife and butting of heads works itself out in the end. It’s okay to stand back out of the way and watch with avid curiosity, rather than stepping in all the time to get involved in order to help them find compromise and resolution.

DECK USED: PERSONAL POWER ORACLE 2ND EDITION AND CRYSTAL BONE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Draw or write something free form inspired by the card(s).

The Tarot of LokaThere was once an old man that thought he was better than everyone else. A lifetime of people caving to his cruel tongue had turned him from a soured soul into someone rotten through to his very core. (Evil atop Ten of Air)

He had many people under him to do his bidding, and treated these people like tools for his use, instead of human beings. (The Magician)

Then one day a woman of pure heart caught his eye and he was overwhelmed with a need to claim her as his own. She was kind and gentle, supporting and sweet. These were qualities he could not resist, and he did everything he could to garner her favor and attention. (Queen of Water and Ten of Fire)

Unfortunately, a lifetime of cruelty and disregard for anything but his own whims and desires placed her out of his reach, and he was unable to claim what he now realized should have been his destiny.  A destiny that he’d selfishly squandered. (Judgement)

DECK USED: THE TAROT OF LOKA

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap.  I mean I know it’s not much but I do feel better for having taken it.

Morning Bonus Read – Birth Charts Reading

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
Let’s mix divination and astrology! Draw one card (or tile) for each of the planets in your birth chart, and see what the cards notice about each planet’s placement and meaning. If you’re familiar with your birth chart and its meaning, compare what the cards say with what you know or can learn from other sources.

I want to give a special thank you to the Astrology Owl site, which is where the astrology information in this post came from.  They’re site is very well organized and quite extensive, and I highly recommend the site for anyone seeking a quick look at any variety of Astrological aspects in their chart. My chart was looked up using the Astro-Charts website.

Felix the Cat Playing Cards

Sun (overall you)

Two of Diamonds – Always juggling responsibilities and trying to find the continually shifting sweet spot of balance. Unfortunately that juggling sometimes feels like a hell of a lot of work. Grounding helps immensely.

12th House 11° 17' Taurus - "You want to enjoy life’s moments and the pleasures that are available to you. A hopeless romantic you take your time in love and when building a relationship. There is a desire to succeed in life in a traditional way but on that same note you are deeply in tune with your own values making your pursuit of success authentic to you. You zodiac sign is associated with the earth element giving you a deep spiritual connection to the cycles of Earth, growth, and stability. You recognize that life is better enjoyed when you feel secure and stable in your relationships and environment." [Source]

Moon (your emotions)

Three of Clubs – Your emotional journey is uniquely yours. You have a plan and you’re trying to follow it… but you have a habit of lagging off now and then and losing track of what you’re doing. Still moving forward though, even then.

6th House 4° 53' Scorpio - "Highly perceptive and aware of the motivation of others. You desire to keep your emotions deeply private, often finding you need a few close confidants to open up to. As a Scorpio Moon you need an outlet for pent up energy. There is a sensuality and seductive quality to your interactions with others. The Scorpio Moon is associated with the water element. This gives an emotional and passionate overtone to your personality. In order to feel secure with someone you need loyalty. You take your relationships very seriously as you deeply invest yourself emotionally in everything. " [Source]

Rising (how you seem at first glance)

Six of Hearts – Generous, easy-going, welcoming. Appearing as if you know more about what’s going on than the average Joe, and may be willing to share that information with others… maybe. Good at self expression. Able to blend into the background or not, depending on what’s needed.  Old soul.

1° 14' Gemini - "As a Gemini Rising you will be playful and outgoing even if the rest of your chart implies a shier disposition. You will certainly have a way with words! A Gemini Ascendent will give you a natural curiosity about the world and a youthful and casual appearance. You have the ability to fit in anywhere making your style very chameleon like. A Gemini Ascendent will be adept with... getting their point across accurately. People are instinctively interested in getting to know you more." [Source]

Mercury (your mind and communication)

Ten of Hearts – Always open to communicating my positive thoughts and feelings, but not so much the negative ones. Finds communication with people that you’re comfortable with far easier than acquaintances and strangers.

12th House 23° 30' Taurus - "This Mercury placement in the natal chart provides the individual with a methodical mindset. You think things through developing ideas down to their absolute core. There is an ability with this placement to sum things up succinctly and accurately... As Taurus is an earth sign there is a very practical approach to communication when Mercury is placed here. When you engage in most conversations there is typically a reason behind what you are saying and you tend to have a very logical mental pathway... Change can be difficult for you as there is an appreciation for routine and predictability." [Source]

Venus (your love and attraction)

Queen of Clubs – All in, once you’ve made the decision. The fact is though it might take you a while to get there as you think things through first. You want others to see your way of thinking and how you do things. Supportive of others dreams.

1st House 23° 5' Gemini - "The Venus in Gemini individual will love having interesting and varied conversations with people. You will quickly leave a conversation that does not immediately grab your attention. You often enjoy word puzzles, keeping busy, and having fun. You will have a natural ability to...often knowing when people are lying to you and picking up on the hidden meaning behind what someone is saying. As a Venus in Gemini you absolutely dislike boredom. You ensure your environment and the people around you are keeping you mentally stimulated. " [Source]

Mars (your drive)

Eight of Hearts – Temporal. Everything is great until you let go of the balloon. Trying to juggle too much and ending up frustrated and having to let go of things instead of finishing them.  A need for fairness in life, which when isn’t present creates a fight against injustice.

10th House 16° 24' Aquarius - "You do not shy away from conflict with this placement but rather embrace the raw passion of fighting for the underdog. Nothing motivates you more than creating social change or having a run in with authority. There is an anarchist nature about you that is driving everything you do. You choose not to live by other people’s rules but instead your own convictions. As a Mars in Aquarius individual you have made your peace with the idea that you will not fit in. You were not made to follow the crowd. You are a visionary." [Source]

Jupiter (your luck and growth)

Jack of Spades – You will come out on top no matter what. It’s not about determination so much as it’s about adaptability and enjoying the climb on the food chain ladder. The challenge that can often feel like a game, and can be enjoyable as long as there’s sure footing and solid ground under your feet.

12th House 12° 19' Taurus - "Jupiter in Taurus in the natal chart will give your personality a creative and earthy flair. You will have an earth goddess vibe to you as you give off an energy of effortlessness and natural beauty. This placement is nurturing and indulgent. You are flirtatious and enjoy the attention of many love interests. There may be a tendency to keep your feelings to yourself. Jupiter in Taurus will give you the know-how on building wealth. You naturally enjoy security with this placement and will therefore do what you can to create a stabilizing career or streams of income. You typically enjoy life’s luxuries and do what it takes to have the funds to do so. " [Source]

Saturn (your sense of discipline)

Ace of Diamonds – Easily distracted by new and shiny projects and manifestative ideas. Wants to try everything.

8th House 2° 13' Capricorn - "Individuals with this placement are very deep thinkers and typically ambitious, although rarely apt to admit it. You tend to like work that is steady, reliable, and predictable. Saturn in Capricorn individuals are often very successful in the work they choose although will often having many failed attempts before they find success. People with this placement have great stamina tending to loosen up later in life once they find the success they were searching for. Saturn in Capricorn indicates a childhood with strict rules and restrictions often giving you a complex of not believing you are “good enough” for the people in authority. This tendency may have caused you to place unnecessary pressure and deadlines on yourself. When you do not reach the goals you have set you tend to be pessimistic or feel depressed about yourself. The energy of Saturn in Capricorn gives you a sense of duty and responsibility even for light-hearted and fun situations." [Source]

Uranus (your tendency to change)

Six of Spades – You are more likely to walk away than you are to change yourself to fit the situation. Your harmony is in finding those people and things that suit you, not changing yourself to suit them.  That said, you have a remarkable ability to adapt to changes around you when needed, making it look far easier than it often is.

8th House 0° 45' Capricorn - "The Uranus in Capricorn in the natal chart generation brings a rebellion to established systems of government and authority... desire radical changes in power structures. You tend to have a very linear mind... typically have the gift of foresight and can often sense events or disasters before they happen. This generation has a very inventive mind and enjoys practical applications of their ideas. Seeing ideas take shape in the physical realm is very satisfying to individuals with this placement. You are often in tune with alchemy, metaphysics, and the occult. " [Source]

Neptune (your dreams and intuition)

Six of Diamonds – Your intuition is often used to help others. Oh, you also use it for your own self benefit, but it is something that you enjoy offering out to others when you are able.  Your dreams are often shifting depending on what you’re focused on at the moment, but you’re fine with that as long as you have something to focus on and keep you busy.

8th House 10° 5' Capricorn - "Capricorn is associated with being very grounded and practical while Neptune is associated with dreams, fantasy, and delusions. Neptune in Capricorn is pulling dreams into the physical realm... There is an impulse to be spiritual but a need for evidence. You may go through periods of time in your life where you have a total rejection of your belief systems only to upcycle them at later dates. Neptune in Capricorn gives you a sense of spiritual connection and makes the often reality focused Capricorn more open to metaphysical and psychic experiences. Neptune in Capricorn individuals are working through the restructuring of how society expects one to make money. You may dream up and implement ways to create your own income outside of the traditional methods. Neptune in Capricorn individuals are bringing awareness to society’s often unhealthy relationships to work." [Source]

Pluto (your power and transformation)

Five of Diamonds – You are the Hanged Man. Transforming struggles and hardship into learning experiences and lessons. Pausing to think and take value from even the hardest of experiences. This allows you to be open minded, even during times of struggle.

6th House 11° 12' Scorpio - "The Pluto in Scorpio in the natal chart generation is here to transform society’s relationship to elements of life often thought of as private. Individuals born during this time are helping society accept things once thought of as taboo. Important life themes for the Pluto in Scorpio generations include sex, the occult, and death. You are bringing a restructuring to society’s view of these things. You are hoping for greater tolerance of sexual expression, spiritual connection, and uncovering aspects of life that have been repressed. You are asking people to address the shadows that exist in life and not create a facade that pushes reality farther and farther away. " [Source]

Summary

I would say that in most cases, the astrology text I found and the card interpretations are both spot on, but that they went in different directions.  This could be because I’m not well versed enough in astrology to have understood the planetary representations properly, though.

DECK USED:  FELIX THE CAT PLAYING CARDS