Intuitive tarot reading

Gagged, Bound, and Feeling Helpless

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Erotic TarotToday’s draw is the King of Feathers (Swords), which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s intellect, education, logic, ambition, and communication.

You know?  Most of the day I thought this was about the King in this imagery.  But as the day draws to a close? I find that this card wasn’t about embodying the energy of the King at all.  It was a warning that I was going to be taken down and made to feel like the little bitch in chains.

It’s been a rough evening.  I definitely feel like the little bitch on the floor, gagged and without recourse other than to just “take it”.  And so I take a breath and tell myself “tomorrow will be a better day”.  Not sure how many times I’ll have to say it to make myself believe it… but I’m trying.

DECK USED:  EROTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th

Erotic TarotWhat is something I should {try to} master?

The Fool and Queen of Roses (Coins) – Being more carefree and free spirited with your support of self and others. Kindness is not a limited resource. You can spend as much as you like and there will always be more. So don’t be sparing with yourself and generous with others… be generous with both.

Why?

Two of Candles (Wands) and King of Roses (Coins) – It will help you to plotting a path to greater “riches”. Remember that wealth is not always about monetary gain, in this instance it’s far more about stability and finding better footing.

DECK USED: EROTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I searched out my wrist brace today and made sure I wore it when I went to pick up the two shelves.  My wrist is feeling quite a bit better.  Still tender, but not screaming.

Work It Out

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Golden Age of Romance Comics TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of ignoring the obvious, having a victim mentality, feeling trapped, and encountering self-imposed restrictions.

So… instead of being a pussy about my arm hurting, this card is very much about doing something about it.  I did this to myself, and I know how to fix it.

I’ve been feeling very clouded in the head though, and kind of stewing in the pain instead of reasoning out the exact details of the injury and beginning to treat it.

Today’s card is a reminder that I’m not going to start healing until I take a good look at the damage and reason out a treatment plan.  Only then will I be able to start to act and work on making things better.

DECK USED:  GOLDEN AGE OF ROMANCE COMICS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Question for February 8th and 9th

Chocolate Lover's Message CardsWhat {self-}limiting beliefs have I been clinging to?

Rocky Road Chocolate and Organic Chocolate – The belief that giving yourself the chance to enjoy or indulge yourself along your journey will make the journey more difficult.

What can I open myself up for by banishing these beliefs?

Mothers Day Chocolates and Chocolate Sprinkles – More self-kindness and a stronger connection to a happier inner child. This essentially turns into a happier, healthier life all around… all because you let yourself indulge in a little more enjoyment.

How can I further embrace my highest self today and every day?

Baking Chocolate and Chocolate Bar – Lift yourself up by delving into your creative spark. Within the flow of that exploratory place of creation is your happy place… for both you and your inner child.

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#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for February 9th: Why do I fear failure when I know I can learn from my mistakes?

Golden Age of Romance Comics TarotReading Summary: When I experience failure, I end up even more determined and thus end up pushing myself even harder to succeed (Five of Swords). As I turn toward trying again, this reaction moves me in the opposite direction of happiness (The Sun) and towards overwhelm and burnout instead (Ten of Wands).

Take Away: It is not failure that I fear, or even disappointment. It is that perfectionist within me that wants to take that failure and turn it into success.  It’s the part of me that says “this didn’t work, which means next time I can do better”.   Instead of letting go, a need rises up in me to try again.  This is why I fear failure, because then I try to fit trying again in with everything else on my plate instead of setting it aside for later… or setting it aside for good.

DECK USED: GOLDEN AGE OF ROMANCE COMICS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I bought poppy seed muffins today.  I don’t buy them often because they are SO f’ing good. But I did today… because they are SO f’ing good.

Adaptation Helps

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Crystal Visions TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of moving on in the face of disappointment, abandonment, giving up out of frustration, and walking away.

In the imagery of this card, the figure does not appear to be walking, but she stands, and she considers it. Leaving the water sounds good, and the light of the horizon and the moon’s glow holds all the appeal. But, she stands as if to consider her options before she steps forward.

This is a suggestion to have a backup plan to fall back on. Look at the path ahead and research other options… just in case.  You don’t have to abandon where you’re going as you leave behind what you no longer want… but make sure you’re staying open to all the ways you might be able to get there.

The shelves I want came in stock today… for three minutes. And then we’re sold out again. Just that fast. Today’s card is just saying that “there’s more than one way to skin a cat” when moving through my transition to my new home organization.

DECK USED:  CRYSTAL VISIONS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 7th and 8th

Crystal Visions TarotWhat is a hidden talent you possess that needs encouragement right now?

Seven of Swords and Two of Wands – You are strategically inclined to plot and plan in order to find the best path forward in the direction you want to go. Whether this is about the changes you’re doing in your home this spring and summer, or setbacks in your business, you don’t give yourself enough credit for this talent. Obstacles don’t have to be obstacles to someone with this particular skill… instead of obstacles, they are only challenges to strategize around and overcome.

How can you best encourage this talent into growth?

Three of Pentacles, Three of Swords atop Two of Swords – Consult with others for suggestions and ideas, and don’t let disappointment be your deciding factor.

DECK USED: CRYSTAL VISIONS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I’ve been icing and heating my right forearm and wrist all day.  It’s such a pain in the ass, but it’s been acting up and I’m hoping I can get it to calm down.

Rediscover Your Curiosity

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Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was another quiet session of breathing exercises and piriformis / forearm stretching… this time in the dark, since it was pre-dawn.  I’m thinking I need to get myself one of those sleep masks (or borrow L’s) for my meditation.  I relax more when there’s no light, and since I usually meditate during daylight hours, I think it might help me sink into it a bit more.

Victorian Romance TarotToday’s draw is the Page of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s thoughts, intellect, logic, ambitions, and communication. This often translates into themes that have to do with learning new ways to communicate with others, beginning new educational pursuits, exploring new ideas, and seeking to sate one’s curiosity.

As I find myself sitting here just admiring this guy’s clothes (although, not the hat). He cuts quite a dashing figure, yeah?  Okay so… my questionable fashion sense aside…

The way that the figure in this card looks at the sword is not one of battle or determination.  It’s a gaze filled with interest and curiosity.  As if his gaze admires the curve of the blade, the shine of light upon it, and explores its weight and swing for the first time.  As if he likes what he sees.

This card’s message for today is to find the beauty and grace in the things you enjoy.  Explore them like the are new, and rediscover your enjoyment all over again.

DECK USED:  VICTORIAN ROMANCE TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 7th

Victorian Romance TarotHow or where has fear stopped me from living my best life?

Two of Swords atop Seven of Swords – There have been moments of indecision that have allowed others to take advantage of you.  When you are unwilling or unable to make up your mind, your moments of indecisiveness allows for an opening for these experiences to happen.

What one step could I take today to begin to overcome this?

Knight of Cups and Ten of Cups Rx – Go after what you want in your heart instead of trying to force emotions out of the decision making process. It is when you try to ignore input from your emotions in the decision making process that you end up stalling out and struggling with indecisiveness.

Side Note: This is why you struggle with being decisive during the subdrop, because your emotions are running high and you’re trying to push their input out of the way and function on logic alone when making decisions.  It is also one of the reasons you are especially vulnerable during this time and it’s important to lean on Gideon, as when your emotions are stirred up in this manner  you are more vulnerable to manipulation from outside sources… something he is very good at protecting you from when you are unable to do so yourself.

DECK USED: VICTORIAN ROMANCE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I came home from the chiropractors and took a nap.  It’s an orders day, and this means that I’m probably going to be up all night getting orders done, but I really needed the sleep.

Enriching Our Lives With Others

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Today’s meditation was another quiet ten minute session of sinking into centering while working through my breathing exercises and piriformis / forearm stretches.

Tarot de LuzToday’s draw is the Two of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of connection and unification, mutual attraction, and alignment of feelings with another.

Here in this imagery, what I see is not so much about others, but about what the connection with others can do for us.  The centering it creates, the surety of foot through life’s path it can foster, the connection with the world around us that it inspires.   Where alone we may be great, we’re better together… that’s what this imagery says.  Love makes things better… makes everything better, even if just by way of a small bit in some instances.

The card today is an encouragement not to block people out.  It’s a reminder that by opening our hearts to others, we enrich not just their lives, but also our own.

DECK USED:  TAROT DE LUZ

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for February 6th: Do Spread #1

February is often about making plans and preparations for the arrival of spring just around the corner. Plans and preparations are great! But they are only the first step. Use the three cards pulled in this spread to discover what signs you should keep an eye out to tell you when it’s finally time to take action.

Магия Сердца Oракул and Kei Tarot LoveSigns for Action in February

Seduction – Keep a watch on your addictions, specifically for those that are trying to stretch beyond the healthy boundaries you’ve put in place for yourself.

Area of Life Action Will Be Needed In for February

Page of Cups – Emotion are a major drive behind when your addictions become too tempting. Instead of indulging in “comforting acts” that feed your addictions, use this month to explore your emotions more deeply and learn from them.

Signs for Action in March

Movement atop Pervert – Be sure to pay attention when you start to feel the need to rush to the point that you are willing to sacrifice quality and your normal standards just to “get it done”.

Area of Life Action Will Be Needed In for March

Nine of Cups – You need to examine if these shortcuts are really going to make you happy, or if it’s something that’s going to be looked back on later as “Damn, I wish I done that the right way the first time.” Make sure you are focusing on your long-term satisfaction, instead of the momentary pleasure of a job being over.

Signs for Action in April

Deal – Keep an eye out for any agreements, contracts (and contract renewals), promises, and other types of deals that may arise this month.

Area of Life Action Will Be Needed In for April

Wheel of Fortune atop The Magician Rx – If you are feeling powerless, and like everything feels out of control, make sure you look into things deeper instead of just allowing these feelings to sit and grow. Act and be assertive instead of getting into something that feels wrong or unbalanced.

DECK USED: МАГИЯ СЕРДЦА OРАКУЛ AND KEI TAROT LOVE

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 6th

Tarot de LuzWhat are three of my best personal qualities? {selected, not drawn}

The Hanged Man – The ability to step back and see things from multiple perspectives, and the desire to truly understand these perspectives that are not my own.

Justice – An extremely rigid moral compass that is not based of others expectations or society’s rules, but off of what feels right to and for me. This includes a need for fairness, balance, and consequences.

The Hierophant – The desire to help others in finding their path, the urge to share my knowledge and teach. Because my own path is alternative in nature, it helps these teachings and guidance from becoming too rigid where flexibility is needed.

How can I use each quality to grow within/towards what I love? {drawn, not selected}

The Hanged Man → Three of Swords – Make sure that you don’t allow this ability to dip into others perspectives end up dragging you down. You already carry a good deal of disappointment concerning humanity as a whole. Don’t intentionally go looking for more.

Justice → Knave of Cups – Make more allowances for emotional factors. You are on a path of learning and growth emotionally right now, and that will at times bring moments of uncertainty. It’s natural and a part of your growth, not something to struggle against. Think outside the box and use your imagination more in these moments.

The Hierophant → Ten of Wands – Remember that no matter how passionate you are about something, you can still only take on so much. Don’t allow your passion and desire to help others turn into a burden or result in burnout.

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Daily Self Kindness

I put off doing laundry until tomorrow.  I’m not sure if this is a self kindness because I just wasn’t in the mood for it… or unhealthy avoidant behavior.

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Eros Tarot, Yoru no Sumi-E Light Edition, Lighthearted Lenormand

Earth – Page of Wands and Kintsugi – Breaking is a part of growing. In order to become more whole and a more beautiful soul, you must break and then mend the cracks. At the moment? Your cracks are showing.

This is a reminder that I need to take a break. Everyone needs rest once in a while in their passions and on their journeys. I have time scheduled in two weeks to have some time off, but these cards indicate if I want to make it to that point two weeks from now, I’m going to need to let myself have some time now.

There is also a reminder in here that I need to call and get my appointments made with my shrink for 2022.  I usually get them made in November, but with the whole death thing last November combined with the holiday rush, I just forgot.

Air – King of Swords and Communication – Level up. Communicate. Be assertive. Lead. These cards are a reminder of who you are, where your strengths lie, and that you need to stand strong in that and not allow others to tear you down.

Water – Nine of Cups and Harmony – This week be sure to spend some time sinking into the things that make you feel good and content and happy. Acknowledging and indulging in them a bit in the week ahead will help instill harmony where things are currently feeling chaotic.

Fire – The Chariot and Healing – Lean into healing this week and adopt it as your main priority. If this means speaking out (an echo to the Air position in this reading), do so.  If it means wallowing in those things that make you feel good?  Do it.  Take charge of your healing and what needs done for it to not just thrive, but flourish.

Eros TarotFound on the Floor – The Sun – Make sure that you are not abandoning your efforts towards positivity and optimism during this time.

Waning – Scythe and Snake – Set your feelings of being attacked and the rise of emotions that came from it aside.

You’ve had a bit of time to examine why you reacted as you did, and to continue to hold onto these feelings and dwell over the experiences will only drag you down or cause you to make poor decisions in the future. Don’t allow these things to influence bad future decisions, but instead set them aside and leave them behind.

Waxing – Dog and Lady – Look toward those you trust and know are loyal to you, especially of the female persuasion.

Take Away – In the waxing position, it doesn’t say why I should be looking in this direction, only that I should pay closer attention.  Whatever is coming, I will need their help or they will help mitigate the effects of.  Or it is possible they will bring something into my life this week that is needed.

The rest of this is about finding balance in my life this week, where I’ve been feeling unbalanced.  The cards here are all guidance on “finding myself” as I try to pull myself out of my current funk.  As this trend spreads through the entire reading, that it is where the “loyal woman” comes into the picture as well.

DECKS USED: EROS TAROT, YORU NO KUMI-E LIGHT EDITION, LIGHTHEARTED LENORMAND