Intuitive tarot reading

Managing Priorities

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Today’s meditation was skipped.  It was suggested by the cards but all I really wanted today was time with Gideon.

Eros TarotToday’s draw is the Two of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of balancing different aspects of one’s life, struggling with prioritizing multiple responsibilities or projects, and themes to do with time management. This card can often indicate the ability to adapt to a constantly changing playing ground in one’s life.

The imagery in this card absolutely says to me “both need equal attention”.  Not that I’ve been with a woman in… well, a really long time now. Gideon and I have been together going on 14 years, so at least a bit longer than that.  But, in my experience?  When it comes to pleasure, foreplay, and breasts… both need equal attention.

The card is sexy, but the message?  That is about making sure I’m balancing my needs with my business and my business with time spent with Gideon.  Only through a modicum of balance can I make sure to eek out as much pleasure from the day as possible while still managing to get my responsibilities taken care of.

DECK USED:  EROS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for February 14th: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this upcoming full moon?

Eros TarotReading Summary: Gideon (Two of Cups) has all the tools needed (The Magician) to help you keep from twisting in the wind in your current situation (Five of Swords). Allow him to distract you and use those tools to make you feel happy and loved (Ten of Cups).

Take Away: You need the uplift, and Gideon is the one to give it to you. Let him sweep you up into experiences that bring joy and pleasure into your life.  You need these to help in counteracting the struggles that you’re dealing with right now.

DECK USED: EROS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I agreed that I’ll call the doctor tomorrow about losing time.

Valentine’s Day Tarot Reading

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Valentine's Tarot Spread - Luna's Light Angel Tarot

How can I accept myself as I am today?

Nine of Coins – Take some time to look at and admire all that you have accomplished and recognize how well off you actually are. Give yourself credit for all that you’ve done.

What can I do to show myself love today?

Four of Cups – Meditate. Let go of your dissatisfaction and disillusionment. Accept that you have done what you can for today, and that it’s out of your hands now until tomorrow. Brooding on the issue is not going to help you, and is forcing you into an unhealthy state.

How can I best express my love today?

Hanged Man Rx, Seven of Wands atop Chariot Rx – Restrain yourself from going gung-ho into “fight mode”. You know you’re in the right, but getting up in arms is not going to resolve things any sooner. You will draw in more bees with honey than vinegar.

Something someone else does to show me love.

Page of Wands – They give you new and exciting things to focus on to take your mind off of the things that you can’t deal with right now. Gideon, in particular, has been working to distract you through your shared passions and new adventures you create together in your play.

Something that will bring more love into my life.

Three of Swords – Acknowledge your pain, sense of betrayal, and disillusionment, and then let it go instead of holding onto it so that it continues to bleed you. Don’t coil yourself around that pain, or it will continue to cut you over and over again.

DECK USED: LUNA’S LIGHT ANGEL TAROT

Do What You Can

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Today’s meditation was skipped, although I settled in for some piriformis exercises and have been doing some deep breathing off and on throughout the day to work on keeping my anxiety under control.

Luna's Dark Angel TarotToday’s draw is the Six of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of success, especially the sort of success that garners public recognition, people pleasing, high praise from others, and public accolades.

Although the figure in this card’s imagery is successful and holds their laurel wreath high, their head is bowed at an angle that suggests that their success is hard won and the weight of that battle weighs upon them.

The message here in this card is a reminder that you are not entirely helpless, even when it feels like it. Make those happy that you can. You’re limping, but not dead yet.

This is about the issues with Etsy, and a reminder that although I cannot reply to customer inquiries at the moment, renew sold out items, process returns or refunds, etc.  I can continue to fill orders.  It’s a reminder to do what I can until I can once more do everything needed.

DECK USED:  LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #2
Topic: Current security issues with Etsy.

Luna's Dark Angel TarotReading Summary: You feel completely undermined (King of Pentacles Rx) at the moment and more than a little betrayed (Imagery in the Ten of Swords). It echoes back to how you felt with the PayPal debacle (Four of Cups atop Three of Swords). Take this as a time to chill (Four of Swords) until balance can be restored (Six of Pentacles).

There is a reminder in the color correlation between the Cups in the Six of Cups and the Coins in the Six of Coins, combined with the direction that the figure in the cups faces as if looking to the pentacles figure’s juggling.  It is a reminder that just because you were treated so poorly in the past issue with PayPal does not mean you will receive the same treatment this time around.

The green in the Four of Swords bleeds into the bottom right corner of the Three of Swords, a reminder that times of struggle and disappointment are a time to take a step back. To rest, meditate, and recuperate from the shock and pain of the struggle, trial, or test you have been confronted with. This green then flows upward into the Ten of Swords, indicating that to not heed that need for rest can make things far worse in the end.

The orange glow that is shared between the Four of Swords and the King of Pentacles Rx then offers promise that taking the rest needed can help restore a sense of balance and groundedness, even when dealing with said trials, tests, and struggles.

Take Away: The cards have been saying this a lot over the past few days. Rest.  Recover.  Recharge.  It’s hard for me to let go of control and ease myself away from an issue.  I’m so geared towards picking at things until I fix them that not getting anywhere with the picking causes a lot of anxiety. I need to take a breath and step back, letting things sort themselves out in their own time. It’s much harder this time around than it sounds.

DECK USED: LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Lots of good crying in play with Gideon today.  Heartrending stuff.  But… I actually feel like I needed the cry, and feel a bit better after having done so.

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Luna's Light Angel Tarot, Love Story Oracle Cards, Cute Little Lenormand

Earth – Eight of Wands and Regret – Go Now or you’ll regret it.  This reading was done just before J dragged you out to a walk in nature, and these cards are an encouragement to get that nature time.  You need it. You need more of it, so make sure that Saturday isn’t the only day you go out and spend some time among the trees.

Air – Ace of Cups and Patience – Be kind and patient with yourself and these emotions that have risen up. Remember that what you’re feeling is temporary, and will pass.  It’s not the end of the world, even if it might feel like it right now, and in the end the good feelings will come back… you just need to have a little patience.

Water – Five of Coins and Mystery – Make sure you’re not allowing the unknown to feel like it’s the end of the world. You’ve been doing a lot of that lately. Your issues with uncertainty and instability are creating an overreaction and dooms day thinking.

Fire – Two of Hearts and Effort – Allow your loved ones to connect with you and help lift you up. Let yourself lean on them. It’s okay to need help when it gets too much for you alone, and right now? It’s too much.  It doesn’t matter that it’s not physical work that’s overburdening you… they can still help.

Waning – Child and Mountain – There’s a lot of new things going on in your life right now that are blocked in one way or another. IKEA not having the shelves you need in stock, and Etsy’s security issues causing business problems while you’re trying to get things back on an even keel, being at the top of the list. These cards indicate that those obstacles are going to start easing up during this week, allowing for movement once more to resume.

Waxing – Ship and Anchor – The energy and feelings of finding “safe harbor” are coming. You need to focus on the things that will help further these feelings instead of allowing yourself ton continue to dwell on the “unanchored” uncertainty of feeling adrift.

Take Away – Subdrop and an approaching MDE… this situational depression overlapping these other issues is more of a struggle than I’m used to, even in the deepest of MDEs. I find myself struggling to function at all, when all I want to do is hide away, sleep, and cry.

Today’s reading is a road map to finding myself a better “place” to “stand” emotionally.

DECKS USED: LUNA’S LIGHT ANGEL TAROT, LOVE STORY ORACLE CARDS, CUTE LITTLE LENORMAND

No Hiding Allowed

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Today’s meditation was skipped

Femme La Florale TarotToday’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a projective beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with going after one’s passions with a “all systems go” mentality, and diving headlong into those things that kindle one’s “inner spark”.

Situational depression is not an MDE.  They are not the same.  But they feel the same in the moment.  And today?  Today I spent a good deal of time with a “fort” of pillows around my head while burrowed under a blanket. J came over and forced my ass out of bed, dragged me out of the house and made me step in among the trees.

And it helped.  I can’t say the depression still isn’t there, but it -did- help.  Today’s card is about making sure I’m connecting with those things that light up my inner spark. Not just connecting with them, but getting my ass moving and DO them.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th thru 12th

Femme La Florale TarotWhat is one of your most positive qualities?

Ten of Swords – My ability to move on from painful experiences, understand and learn from them, and continue on from them without allowing them to keep me bound.  As horrible as these experiences are, once they are over I am able to use them as a lesson rather than wallow in their aftermath.

How can you help this positive quality flourish in your life?

Queen of Swords and Knight of Wands – Don’t allow those hard times and troubles to convince you it’s the end of the world. Remember that if it’s something you truly believe in, there will always be another way to move forward and go after what you want.

And one of your least positive qualities?

Nine of Cups – Excitement and experimentation go hand in hand, but the joy is fleeting before I’m on to the next and the next.   This means that I end up with a lot of skills and experiences, but very few of them “stick” over time if they do not provide enough challenge to keep me from becoming too content.

How can you utilize this least positive quality to your benefit?

The Hermit and Queen of Wands – Examine why you reasons and motives for picking up new projects and passions, and for setting them down.  This knowledge is useful, but takes self reflection.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I went for a walk in the wetlands today.

Eggs and Baskets and Patience, Oh My

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

The Victorian Romantic TarotToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of

Like yesterday’s card, today’s card is more about the imagery than it is about what card it is in the tarot. There is encouragement here to wait. Soul in tatters and not fully unscathed, nevertheless right now is a waiting game. There’s no more action you can take no matter how much anxiety or energy you pour into the problem. For the time being it’s not in your hands, so just sit back and wait.

Aside from this there is also a meaning in this card that has to do with my current situation as well. This card is about boundaries, and it’s about protecting what is important to you. It is a reminder that there are things I can do to help make myself a little less dependent on others, a little more independent, and a little more protected concerning ending up helpless at the whims of others.

I need to look into finding someone to build me a commerce website… or building one myself. Then if the rug is pulled out from under me on the platforms on which I run my business, I at least have a recourse already set up and ready to go. that’s going to be expensive, and I don’t really want to do it. But I think it’s time.

DECK USED:  THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 11th and 12th

The Victorian Romantic TarotThink of something you would like to experience {more of} this year.

King of Pentacles – More stability. More security. It’s not just about success, or achieving one’s goals. It’s about feeling rooted. Grounded. Sure of your footing, no matter the situation or circumstance.

How can I achieve this?

King of Wands – Pour yourself into your passions and drive. Get the shit done that needs to get done, and delegate along the way to make sure you get the best results possible.

How or where am I guided to {re}connect with my {true} passions?

Six of Wands, The Moon and Ten of Swords – Success comes through accepting that uncertainty and failure is a part of life, and a learning experience. Don’t let it drag you down and drown you. Instead, allow it to lift you up into something better.

What {untapped} skills/resources can help me with this?

Three of Wands atop Five of Cups – Remember to keep moving forward, even when feeling disappointed or discouraged. Don’t let it slow you down or hold you back.

DECK USED: THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I let play with Gideon distract me for a while, which helped ease my anxiety a bit.