#DiscordTarotolicJan2021

Universal Kindness and Respect

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IMG_8835Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was a guided meditation in the Calm app with the addition of an interval timer for my piriformis stretches.

The topic of today’s meditation was twofold.  It began with a slow, full body scan that started at the top of the head and ended at the tips of the toes, with slow breaths throughout the process to breathe relaxation and release tension in each body part you’re focusing on at a time.

The second part of the meditation was a discussion on compassion, and how being compassionate includes not just how  you treat others but also how you treat yourself.  This is something that I personally struggle with and although I fully agree… I still struggle with.   But, I’m working on it.

Bonestone & Earthflesh Tarot - The EmperorToday’s draw is the Emperor card, which is traditionally a representation of being “the boss”, authority, and themes concerning structure, responsibility, and “the greater good”.

Okay so, what stands out to me in the imagery of this card is the two figures in the card.  I say this because they oddly echoed back in my mind to the show I’ve been watching on Netflix recently and how Eun-Hyuk used Hyun Cha to go get things for him and protect the people of the Green Roof Apartments.

Hyuk stands back through so much of the series and rarely puts himself in any kind of danger, but sends Hyun in again and again, sometimes for important things… but often just for trivial shit.

The reminder in these cards is to make sure that you are treating others fairly and kindly, no matter how above them you are.  They may be there to help, they may be there to protect you… they may be there to serve in some way.  But they are still human and just as deserving of respect and kindness as you are.

DECK USED:  BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What concession can you make to provide for yesterday’s inner child craving?

Wayward Dark TarotReading Summary: Work on changing (Death) how you look at stability and success (Nine of Pentacles), and you will find better balance and harmony with your inner child (Two of Cups).

Take Away: The thing is, that it isn’t so much about that there is or isn’t stability and success in my life but my perception of that stability and success.

Convincing that inner child that it is safe and secure will require taking a look at how I see these values and what they really mean, and redefining that into something more attainable than the expectations my father beat and berated into me throughout the majority of my life both as a child and as an adult.

DECK USED:  WAYWARD DARK TAROT

Purefield.Healing’s Taking My Power Back Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I increase my power in the most ethical & aligned way?

Atomic Tarot

Reading Summary:  Focus on learning (Heart of Stars) how to take only what you need (Seven of Stars) and leave the rest behind (Ten of Stars).

Take Away: Moderation is not my strong suit, but I am working on it in certain areas of my life. These cards indicate that it is through clearing out those things I no longer need and taking with me only that which I do, I can increase my power as a result.  I like this idea and I’ve actually been feeling the urge to purge in a number of areas lately.  In fact, I’ve sent a number of bags of crap to Goodwill this week, and a number of them out into recycle bins as well.  I have no doubt that if the urge continues, so too will that trend.

DECK USED:  ATOMIC TAROT

New Horizons to Explore

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Today’s meditation was skipped.  Not for any particular reason but mostly just because… well, I didn’t feel like it. I know it’s not a good excuse, but it’s what happened.

Heaven & Earth Tarot - Ace of SwordsToday’s draw is the Ace of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of the seed like beginnings of new ideas, new ambitions, new knowledge, or new communication.  The key here is in the fact that it’s the sword suit, which deals with intellect, logic, communication, and ambitions… and an Ace, which is about the seeds of something new.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the moss-like drape of vegetation from the sides of the crown.  The book calls these “laurels”, although… they don’t look like laurel to me.

The reading that I did earlier this morning was about alone time, and making sure that I seek out alone time for myself even when it feels like a waste of time or some sort of frivolousness.   This drape of mossy “laurel” is a reminder to me of that healthy alone time that I need to make sure I’m getting enough of.

The seed of the ace is there to encourage me to look for new ways to get that alone time, new places to go and things to see, new trails to hike and locations to visit so that I continue to stay interested and eager to seek out that needed alone time whenever I’m able instead of losing interest and procrastinating on it.

DECK USED:  HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What does your inner child crave that you’ve been ignoring?

Earth Bones TarotReading Summary:  You’re paying too much attention to feelings of scarcity (Five of Jars atop Ten of Petals Rx). Step up and take control (The Emperor) instead of doubting your intuition and emotional growth (Page of Jars Rx).

Take Away: Stability and validation concerning my emotions is what my inner child craves that I have been ignoring.  The thing is?  I honestly ignore my inner child as much as possible.  Maybe because it’s called my inner “child” yeah?  I don’t relate well to children and have a hard time relating to that term as I was never really much of a “child” even when I was one. 

That, of course, means that my “inner child” is quite repressed and neglected.  I only let it out to “play” when I’m feeling good, and considering how much time I spend in the slippery slide of depression, crawling out of that dark pit, or hovering right on the cusp of the pit at risk of falling in?  That’s not a lot of freedom for my inner child to get some air.   Right now (not surprising as I’m sliding down that slope of the pit) my inner child is feeling vulnerable and unsure of itself and, due to my trying to ignore the encroaching depression… invalidated.

DECK USED:  EARTH BONES TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I stop procrastinating?

5 Cent Tarot

Reading Summary: Take charge (The Emperor) and do one small little thing at a time (Temperance), and you will feel more nurtured and able as a result (The Empress).

Take Away:  Maybe it’s time to start doing a few orders a day, one cleaning task a day, take chores and things that need to be done in bite sized pieces… rather than putting them off to do in large chunks because it just feels like “too much trouble” or overwhelming.  That’s the major excuses that I have for procrastinating most of the time after all…. that it feels like “too much” or “too much trouble” or is just overwhelming for some reason..

DECK USED:  5 CENT TAROT

Balance Adjustments

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IMG_8801Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was another of the guided meditations with interval timer for my piriformis stretching.

The topic of today’s meditation was about how to deal with intrusive thoughts during your meditation practice.  The thing is, everyone has that “problem” and it doesn’t at all mean that you’re not good at meditation just because you have trouble getting your mind to stay still.

The interruption of thought during meditation is natural, and when they happen, that is when the true “work out” of meditation begins as that is when you begin to train your brain to learn something new.  In this meditation, the method for dealing with those thoughts is not to push them away, nor fall down the rabbit hole they create.  But rather to acknowledge it happened with a “That’s nice, but not now” and then set them aside.  Of course, they might come back, but that’s when you rinse and repeat.

Bonestone & Earthflesh Tarot - JusticeToday’s draw is the Justice card, which is traditionally about give and take, cause and effect, and finding balance in moments of imbalance.  It can also at times be an indication of legal matters or the legal/justice system.

What stood out to me the strongest to me in the imagery of this card today is the woman on the right with the bow and arrow.  In fact, she stood out so strongly to me that I barely even noticed her counterpart standing behind her.

She stands strong and ready, looking outward and alert.  Sometimes, it is like the woman on the left… a time to look inward and allow vulnerability to thrive.   And sometimes, it is like the woman on the right… a time to stand tall and be ready for anything.

The woman on the right is who I want to be, and who I gravitate towards.  The problem is that now is a time of vulnerability for me as I struggle with this new rise of depression and seek to find my footing on uneven ground.  The Justice card is about balance, and is here to make a promise.  It promises that everything comes back around again in time.  The depression… and the good times as well.  Like scales set up outdoors will swing and shift, tip and dance in even the slightest breeze, so too does balance shift and tip with the goings on of life.

DECK USED:  BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread 3

Paracelsus Dreams TarotSomething Important in Your Life

The Hermit – Healthy alone time.  This isn’t the “retreat to lick your wounds” time or the unhealthy alone time that gives inner negative thoughts time to pick away at you, but rather the healthy alone time you need to stay balanced and happy.

The Influence of Fire Energy upon my Healthy Alone Time

Page of Wands – Seek out new ways to make the healthy alone time that you need happen. It’s important to pour some of your attention and interest into this endeavor instead of trying to ignore these needs, or half-assing at fulfilling them.

The Influence of Earth Energy upon my Healthy Alone Time

Knight of Coins – Patience and determination are important. You’re going to slip up sometimes but you need to make sure that you’re still going for it.  Instead of using slip-ups to turn your inner thoughts unhealthy, accept that you’re human and everything takes time.  Instant gratification is not your friend and it’s better to take bite sized efforts along the way than it is to barrel head long in and then starve for long stretches between.

The Influence of Water Energy upon my Healthy Alone Time

Four of Cups – You judge yourself too harshly for taking this needed time. It’s important to view that need for healthy alone time more as a need, and view it less as a frivolous action.  You’re not “wasting time”, regardless of if it feels that way.  That is your past talking.  That is your inner negative narrative whispering in your ear.  Be grateful and understand that healthy alone time is necessary… and not some disposable silly “fun time” that’s a waste of time or resources.

The Influence of Air Energy upon my Healthy Alone Time

Three of Swords – Don’t allow the air suit to cause you to ignore your need for healthy alone time. It’s not a luxury… even if it sometimes feels like it. You have to fight back against that slave driver in your head.  You have to fight back and reclaim this personal time as yours rather than something you’re stealing from somewhere else. Don’t allow your head to play games with you that make you ashamed of your needs and what’s healthy for you.

DECK USED:  PARACELSUS’ DREAMS TAROT

Inspiring Changes

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IMG_8792Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was a guided meditation with interval timing for my piriformis stretches.    The topic of today’s guided meditation was about envy.

I don’t really remember much of the actual guided meditation. I just remember that  it was about looking beyond what people have to the people themselves. Life isn’t about things, but about people after all.

Heaven & Earth Tarot - The TowerToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally a representation of sudden and sometimes violent change.  This isn’t the calm and steady organic change that comes with the Death card, but rather it is sudden and without warning.

When I drew this card this morning, I had thought the message was about tearing down old to make room for new, and perhaps it still means that… although considering what went on today and the racial slurs that are currently spray painted all over my car?  I’m thinking this could very well have been a warning, regardless of the fact that the question was about being provided with a positive message to provide perspective.

Perhaps… the perspective here is that we need to do some renovations on our security in the building so things like this are less likely to happen. I’ve spent time speaking with the police, and going through security cameras, etc.  Maybe once things have settled down it’s time to call a security meeting and look at making some changes for the better.

Sometimes crap ass shit has to happen in order to light a fire under the ass of change.  That’s today’s message.

DECK USED:  HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT

LionHart’s Elements Tarot Challenge Prompt
Topic: Something I should know about my current passions/desires.

Magical Nordic Tarot

 Reading Summary: You’re going to have to move forward with patience (Knight of Pentacles) because you have a lot of conflict (Five of Wands) surrounding your feelings about the past (Six of Cups). Collaborative help from others (Three of Pentacles) will keep you moving forward and in control of your direction (The Chariot).

Take Away: This message is an echo of this morning’s bonus read.  It speaks of making sure I’m moving in the right direction by working with those I love and that want to support me.  It’s about allowing them to step in and keep me afloat when the influences of my past slip in to start screwing with my head and my heart. If I want to stay on track with my passions and desires, I can’t go it alone. I need the help of others to help keep me on track and healthy while I move forward at a slow and steady pace.

DECK USED:  MAGICAL NORDIC TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can you bring more of what you want into your world?

Tarot of the DivineReading Summary: Be clever and “beg borrow and steal” (Seven of Swords) all the positivity and fun you can get (The Sun). It’s about going after what inspires you (Knight of Wands) with forethought and strategy at your back (Page of Swords).

Take Away: Go after the fun.  Focus on those things that really “light my fire” and get me going.  Use my mind, my wit, and the full force of my skills, abilities, and faculties to go after those things that have the potential to bring positivity and fun into my life.

The key here is twofold.  First, that I put myself “all in” to going after these things.  And second, that I focus on those things that truly foster my happiness and positivity.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE DIVINE

Look Around

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Today’s meditation was another of the skipped days.  This means that I did not meditate and unfortunately I can’t remember why.  It’s a Friday, oh…. OH.   It’s because I left early to drive up north and get back at a reasonable time.  So I skipped it. 

Bonestone & Earthflesh Tarot - Six of WandsToday’s draw is the Six of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of accolades and public recognition of success… whether the obtainment of them, or the need for them.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card is that the guy in the card is putting on his own crown.  There’s no one else in the card, just the guy and his crown and his big ass ego crowing with pride. 

The message that I see in this card has to do with not forgetting to look down.  Sometimes, it’s easy to forget that your personal perspective is just that… your personal perspective. This means when you’re feeling good sometimes you forget that not everyone is feeling good, and when you’re feeling like crap, not everyone else is feeling like crap.

It’s easy to get wrapped up in your own perspectives and forget to look around, especially when things are feeling intense or your ego is beating at its chest in a show of pride.  The message today is a reminder to look around and pay attention, and remember that although you are never alone… your personal perspectives are unique to you and only you.

DECK USED:  BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Draw or write something free-form inspired by the card(s).

Pamela Coleman Smith RWS TarotThere was once an old crone that lived at the edge of a small village and helped the residence with their woes.  She made teas and tinctures, herbal blends and salves and all sorts of good things… and sometimes bad things too.  She knew the secrets of how to heal and how to kill, and she listened to the troubles of those in the town with quiet patience before dolling out her gifts to those that sought her out for her secret knowledge. (The High Priestess)

One day on her way into town, the old woman was nearly trampled by a man on a horse.  When the horse reared up and hooves flew through the air, the man shouted his curses at the crone, insulting her with disparaging words and blaming her for the near-miss instead of taking responsibility for his own carelessness and lack of control. (The Chariot)

The old woman tsk’d at the brash man that was so course with his words and insulting in his attitude. She shook her head as she apologized to the man and offered him a gift to soothe his anger and pride. She provided the man with a talisman charmed for success, promising that as long as he wore it he would win every battle. Snatching up the talisman from her grasp, he looked it over and slid it on as she spoke words of success and victory and always managing to obtain just what he needs… and as he rode away she whispered after him “just what you need… but no more”. (Five of Swords)

From that day forth, the man would indeed win every battle and every challenge he put himself to… and yet he would never manage to obtain what he truly desired.  There would be no wealth… no full pantry or full coffers, no fine home or beautiful steeds.  For with every win he would get just what he needed in that moment… and no more than that.

DECK USED:  PAMELA COLEMAN SMITH‘S RWS TAROT

Small Steps vs Grand Gestures

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Today’s meditation was… oh hell I dunno.  I’m behind in getting my posts up by a few days and I don’t really remember what the meditation was for the 14th.  I’m pretty sure it was one of the days I skipped it though, as I seem to have skipped an entire four days in a row if my timer app can be believed (which, it can). So… yeah. 

Heaven & Earth Tarot - Seven of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Seven of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of delayed gratification, sustainability, and long term progress. Instant gratification this card is not, as all of the themes that this card has to do with involve waiting and the “long game”.

Again, what stands out to me the strongest in this deck is the words at the bottom of the card.   Not that I don’t find the artwork breathtaking, which I do… but the words say “Success Unfulfilled” which… seems a bit negative in connotation when the theme of this card is traditionally more about success being fulfilled over time.

Today’s card is a reminder to me that as I work through the orders that need to be done for shipping out tomorrow, I need to remember that this is the small work that growth is all about.  With every small bit of work, the progress becomes larger… and more.   And over time?  You find yourself at your goals and surpassing them.   But it takes time.   So take a breath and do the small work, and let things build over time.  Not everything has to be a grand gesture or massive action.

DECK USED:  HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT

LionHart’s Elements Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I best use my creative energy in support of my future self?

Occult TarotReading Summary: Lean your creative energy into your work (The Magician), and don’t allow yourself to be distracted by whims (Page of Cups Rx).

Take Away: When I’m not feeling particularly grounded, it’s really easy for me to end up distracted. Ideas and little side projects that catch my eye draw me away from my work, and then I struggle to get caught up with my work, etc.  It happens all the time.

The cards here indicate that if I want to use my creative energy in support of my future self, I need to make sure that I turn that creative energy back to my work again and again, taking the skills that I learn from those distractions and reinvesting them into my work.

DECK USED:  OCCULT TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is a really great idea you had but then forgot about?

Garnet Witch's TarotReading Summary: Shifting how I balance my responsibilities (Two of Pentacles) so that I can let some of the weight and responsibility (Magician) die out (Death), and make way for more emotional exploration (Ace of Cups).

Take Away: I wouldn’t say that I forgot about it.  Just… that it got put on the back burner while I was plowing my way through the holiday rush.

The weird thing (and current struggle where this is concerned) is that now that I’m on the other side of the holiday rush, I can’t remember what I was doing that made it feel like I was getting somewhere on this idea prior to the rush’s arrival.

DECK USED:  GARNET WITCH’S TAROT