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Morning Bonus Read – Feeling the Feels

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Cheimonette Tarot

Feels I’m Feeling

The Devil  – Temptation to self destruct.  Anti-depressants are a massive help to keeping me well balanced, but they don’t resolve everything.  This temptation comes and goes.  Sometimes it is stronger than others.  This isn’t about death, but rather about turning my entire life upside down, and razing the entire thing and everything I’ve worked for and built to the ground. This temptation is sneaky… slipping in to try and nudge and whisper, insidious and conniving as it works to tempt me astray.

The World – Potential for the new and different. I can see it glimmering in the distance, that promise of something new and better, of growth and transition.  I see it and sense it, I want to push for it and seize it… but I know that’s not how this works.  Growth takes time.

Feels I’m Ignoring
Ace of Disks atop The Moon, Five of Disks

Financial uncertainty and scarcity issues. This is a very strong theme in my life, and a driving force of my motivation a great deal of the time.  It’s a fear that I struggle with, and have struggled with ever since my emancipation from my parents at sixteen.   I am, at this time, doing my best to accept that I’ve done well for myself.  That I’m comfortable and safe, and that everything is stable.  There is no need for this fear and no need for it to rule my life.  I’m working at not allowing it to have such a loud and overpowering voice in my life.

Feels I Need To Embrace

Two of Staves – Pick a direction. Stagnancy sucks. I’ve felt like I’ve been stuck and waffling. I understand the need to pick a direction and I feel that I’ve begun that process.  It’s just taking far longer than I’m comfortable with.

Nine of Cups – Gratitude directed toward the self and toward having put myself in a place where I now have the time and space to even do “the feels” at all.

Feels I Should Feel More Often

Death – Embracing change instead of fighting against it.  It’s so hard not to struggle against change or fall into the feelings of fear and uncertainty that change can bring rise to.   Not all change is bad, though.  And even the change that feels bad?  Sometimes turns out all the better for having happened. Embracing change is hard, but I’m working on doing so more and more.

Seven of Cups – Feeling empowered by my wealth of options instead of overwhelmed by them. This is a perspective change that I’m not always able to shift into.  I can see it.  That wealth of opportunity… but I can’t sometimes get my emotions to follow along with that positive perspective I can see.  So, it’s like I can see it, but not quite touch it.

Feels I should Share With Others

Six of Swords – Discuss with them the desire you have to change direction.

Ten of Cups – Share this adventure with them and make them a part of the whole.

DECK USED:  CHEIMONETTE TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Perspectives

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“Sometimes an outside perspective is helpful. Do a divination reading about yourself from the perspective of someone else. Maybe ask a spirit or deity who cares for you what they see when they look at you.”

SINS Anima Playing CardsWhat do my spirit guides notice about my body?

Six of Hearts – You’re working at finding better harmony. This isn’t an easy task, but you’re slowly becoming more accepting and more kind to yourself, and at finding a way to balance your wants and desires with your body’s needs.

What do my spirit guides notice about my mind?

Ten of Clubs – Overloaded. So many plans and ideas, so much judgement of self, so much inner dialog getting in the way and making you feel overwhelmed even when you’re not actually being overburdened at all.

What do my spirit guides notice about my heart?

Two of Diamonds – Your heart knows where it wants to be rooted, but you’re playing tug of war with it. It’s not a weed, stop treating it like one.

What do my spirit guides notice about my soul?

Six of Diamonds – You are generous with giving of yourself. Sometimes too much so. You offer so much of yourself to others that at times it can be unhealthy for you.

What do my spirit guides notice about my life?

Two of Spades – Two paths before you and you are stuck at the crossroads.  That stagnant feeling you’ve been feeling lately is a sign of this crossroads and the internal struggle you’re going through in trying to “pick a lane”.

What do my spirit guides notice about my problems?

Four of Diamonds – Stop bracing for impact. It does no good and only holds you back. This is  a habit from your youth, and you don’t have to worry anymore about that second shoe dropping… or the first one for that matter.  Take a breath and relax.

What do my spirit guides notice about my general relationships?

Three of Spades – You’re always far too prepared to be disappointed by others. It’s okay to have a little faith in people and not be ready for them to rip your heart out.  It’s okay to not expect the worst.

What do my spirit guides notice about my relationship?

King of Spades – There is a great sense of security, and you know where you stand. You know that your advice and opinions are heard and valued, and that submissives really steer the ship. You know that his support is not a burden to him, even if logically from your perspective it feels like it should be.

What advice does my spirit guides have for me?

Queen of Spades – Own your forthright nature. Own the qualities that make you your mothers son. Your sense of values and moral compass will assure that you don’t follow in her footsteps. Instead, you will use these qualities for the good of others, instead of for your own selfish desires.

What warning do my spirit guides have for me?

Four of Hearts – Stop stalling when you need to get things done that you’re not enthusiastic about. Just get them done.

DECK USED:  SINS ANIMA PLAYING CARDS

Morning Bonus Read – Cancer Season

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Cancer Season Tarot Reading - Cosmic Visions Tarot

What is a major theme of my Cancer season?

Ace of Pentacles – New opportunities abound. Choose your actions wisely and take care on where you put your energy. A small choice made during this time will have vast ripple effects later.

How will this theme impact me?

Temperance – Stretch your wings but measure your responses. It’s okay to explore and to allow things to pique your interest, just make sure you don’t “dive in” head first without any moderation.

What should I embrace during Cancer season?

Father of Pentacles – Okay so… totally crude but, “Grab his dick and ride it for all you’re worth” was what came to mind when I saw the imagery in this card today.  Gideon is usually represented by the King of Cups, but between the bears, the flames, and the direction of his arms reaching?  I just… that’s what I got.  He’s my anchor.  My rock.  My big ass bear.  And absolutely the focus of my sexual energy.

How can I come out of my shell during this time?

The Tower – Rip it all apart, tear it down. Be brave and accept that you can’t build the “house of your dreams” on the ruins of what isn’t working.  You have to demolish before you can build.  The imagery here speaks to me of doing this type of thing with my own thoughts, my own habits, and my own inner narrative.

How can I spend this time being soul-centered?

Nine of Swords – You may not be able to let go of all your fears, but now is a good time to explore them.

DECK USED:  COSMIC VISIONS TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Monthly Key Spread

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Hybrid Tarot - Monthly Key Spread

Key to Your Heart: What will Guide you to make decisions that are aligned with your heart and your truths this month?

Sun – Keep faith that everything is going to turn out just right.  Optimism and  focusing on the direction you want to go in will ensure that as you move forward through the month of July that you continue to head in the right direction. Hold on to the optimistic view that everything will turn out okay in the end… and you’ll find that’s exactly what will happen.

Anchor: What will ground you in the face of anxiety, stress, overwhelm, and existential dread in general?

Rider – Keep in mind that every day is a new day.  You don’t have to carry all that crap with you from one day to the next.  Exhale and let it go, then surge forward with renewed energy and a more positive outlook (The Sun above) to tackle the new day with vigor and an open mind.

Star Wand: What accelerates your magic, creativity, and manifestation powers?

Coffin – Ride the change and allow your adaptability to shine.  Sometimes what sparks that inner creative glimmer and creative energy of manifestations isn’t about what’s familiar but in finding creative ways to adapt to change and mold those moment  to work for us even when within the grasp of changing tides.

Blessings from the Stars: The Universe has got your back – how will you be supported this month?

Clover – Optimism brings luck, so look up and let the luck roll in.  You’re being given the opportunity to “sweeten the pot” by fostering an echo of luck and joy in your life through the optimistic lens you seek to look at life through.  Don’t give up… good things are coming.

One Trick Up Your Sleeve: A life saving idea or inspiration for any unexpected challenge or difficult moments?

Cross – You have been through a lot.  Fall back on these experiences and what you have learned from them to help you through struggles or challenges this month.  You don’t have to reinvent the wheel here, you’ve already experienced all the hardships needed to possess the knowledge and skills required to overcome what may come.

Emergence Pt 1: What is emerging within you / within your reality right now?

Heart – Finding “your place” in how you care about others, feel about others, and connect with others. This month will help you come to a better understanding of what you contribute to other’s lives, and how much they mean to you.

Emergence Pt 2: What are you expanding towards?

Scythe – Making a clean break. You’ve been struggling for quite some time to let go of old habits in order to make room for new better ones to take their place. You’ve struggled to find the catalyst that will allow you to truly let go. This card indicates that the epiphany that you’ve been searching for is coming and will be based in cold hard logic.

DECK USED:  HYBRID TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Vision Check

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“Use your preferred divination to ask the following questions. If you’re feeling extra, put the cards or tiles into a fun shape as you draw them.”

Jeu de 54 Cartes CarnavalsIn what areas of life is my vision clear?
Eight of Clubs and Eight of Hearts

I know what works for me and what doesn’t, and I’m not afraid to turn away from those things that don’t. My moral compass speaks from my gut and provides me the right path to tread upon.

This card brought about a realization for me that perhaps part of the struggle that I’ve been going through recently with letting go of a few old bad habits is that I’m not following my gut, but instead fighting against it.

In what areas of life is my vision blurry, blocked, or otherwise unclear?
King of Spades and King of Clubs

The desire and passion to steer my business in a certain direction is being blocked by a heavy dose of practicality and logic-based thinking. As much as I want to move things in that direction my brain keeps getting in the way of my creative spark and telling me that it’s not practical and I need to keep things the way that they are.

What factors, if any, are impacting my vision of things close to me?
Five of Spades and Six of Spades

Feeling conflicted about pushing forward along the same path that has always worked for me in the past and made I feel like I am a success. Or setting it aside and trying something else that may be better for me… but may also mean leaving behind the success I have achieved and starting over.

What factors, if any, are impacting my vision of things more distant from my present?

Four of Hearts – My view of the past is blocked by my feelings of the dejection, and a desire to have a stable emotional center that keeps me from looking at the turbulence of the past too closely.

Jack of Hearts – My view of the future is being impacted by my current emotional growth and desire to keep growing as I move forward.

DECK USED:  GRIMAUD’S JEU DE 54 CARTES CARNAVALS

Morning Bonus Read

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Anne of Green Gables Tarot - The MagicianJune 14 – Birth of the Muses
This card shows how our inspiration and creativity is manifesting.

The Magician – Naturally, with just a little push. Highs and lows are natural, but you have all that you need when you need it.  (Anne of Green Gables Tarot)

TV Series Tarot - Ten of SwordsJune 15 – Vestalia – An ancient Roman festival dedicated to Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth.
This card shows us our hearth, the fire at the center of our life and home, and how to tend it.

Ten of Swords – The belief that it is through the things in life that knock us to our knees that have the most profound effect on us and where we go from there. The belief that each pain is a growth spurt opportunity on our spiritual journey. A place where we fall, then pick ourselves up changed and move forward.  (TV Series Tarot)

David's Tarot - Two of WandsJune 16 – Night of Teardrop – Remembrance of the tears of Isis causing the Nile River to overflow.
This card shows what our emotions are telling us at this time.

Two of Wands Rx – struggling with direction and planning at the moment. You know where you want to go, but plotting a course is more of a struggle than expected. (David’s Tarot)

Vox Arcana Tarot - The HermitJune 17 – Goddess Juno – Celebrating the ancient Roman goddess for whom the month of June is named.
This card shows us an area of fertile growth in our lives.

The Hermit – Inner exploration and a better understanding of the self as a result.  (Vox Arcana Tarot)

Family Tarot - Knight of CupsJune 18 – Oak King – A dedication to the Oak King, who is now near the height of his power in his battle with the Holly King.
This card shows us our strength.

Knight of Cups – Going after what you need to be healthy and stable. It might take some time to get there sometimes, but you’re damn good at knowing what you need and not hesitating in moving that direction. Going at your own pace.  (Family Tarot)

Seawitch Tarot - Three of SwordsJune 19 – Scrying
In the tradition of scrying at the time of Midsummer, this card shows us a blessing to come.

Three of Swords – Disappointment is coming… But it’s going to be a blessing in disguise. Sometimes crappy shit happens in order to give you something better, so make sure you’re looking for the blessing even if your heart is hurting a bit at the time.  (Seawitch Tarot)

Botanica Tarot - Ten of Wands RxJune 20 – Summer Solstice
This card shows us how to shine our own light like the Sun.

Ten of Wands Rx – Stop overloading yourself so much with work, responsibilities, and obligations. You’ve been working on this, but you still have a long way to go.  (Botanica Tarot)

Dragon Tarot - Nine of SwordsJune 21 – Festival Strawberries
As the strawberries ripen, this card shows us the sweetness in our lives.

The Tower – sometimes when things fall apart it’s bittersweet and even painful. We try so hard to hold onto those things that are important to us during this time. But sometimes letting go is the only way, and when we do it opens us up to building something better sweeter than before.  (Playful Heart Tarot)

Playful Heart Tarot - The TowerJune 22 – Honey Moon
This card shows us how to release anxieties or worries, how to enjoy ourselves in this moment.

Four of Swords – Truly letting go and being able to enjoy the moment requires excepting that everyone needs time to rest and recover, even you. When you put your nose to the grind stone too often and for too long, you miss out on all the good stuff going on around you that you could be a part of.  (Vintage Flower Faeries Tarot)

Vintage Flower Fairies Tarot - Four of SwordsJune 23 – Saint John’s Eve
Like the herbs traditionally gathered on St John’s Eve, this card shows what protects or heals us.

Six of Cups (Buttercups) – Childish exuberance allows you to be lifted up out of the drag of depression and see the world in a lighter and more optimistic view. Don’t shut this out of your life for it not just heals you when you are struggling with that drag, but also protect you from it in the first place.  (Botanica Tarot)

Botanica Tarot - Six of CupsJune 24 – Guru Purnima – Indian festival of expressing gratitude to teachers.
This card reminds us to have gratitude for lessons and teachers as we move forward.

Nine of Swords – It is only through for confronting our demons that we learn how to deal with them and abolish them. Remember to show gratitude to those that help you in this quest.  (Dragon Tarot)

Connolly Tarot - Six of WandsJune 25 – Parvati Earth Mother
This card shows us how to ground ourselves and how to connect with the Earth’s abundance.

Six of Wands – Connect with the earth in the plants, and seek praise from them instead of from people. It is through your connection to the wild growing places that you will find your connection with the earth and her gifts, as well as that quiet still place of grounding within yourself.  (Connolly Tarot)