Gagged, Bound, and Feeling Helpless

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Erotic TarotToday’s draw is the King of Feathers (Swords), which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s intellect, education, logic, ambition, and communication.

You know?  Most of the day I thought this was about the King in this imagery.  But as the day draws to a close? I find that this card wasn’t about embodying the energy of the King at all.  It was a warning that I was going to be taken down and made to feel like the little bitch in chains.

It’s been a rough evening.  I definitely feel like the little bitch on the floor, gagged and without recourse other than to just “take it”.  And so I take a breath and tell myself “tomorrow will be a better day”.  Not sure how many times I’ll have to say it to make myself believe it… but I’m trying.

DECK USED:  EROTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th

Erotic TarotWhat is something I should {try to} master?

The Fool and Queen of Roses (Coins) – Being more carefree and free spirited with your support of self and others. Kindness is not a limited resource. You can spend as much as you like and there will always be more. So don’t be sparing with yourself and generous with others… be generous with both.

Why?

Two of Candles (Wands) and King of Roses (Coins) – It will help you to plotting a path to greater “riches”. Remember that wealth is not always about monetary gain, in this instance it’s far more about stability and finding better footing.

DECK USED: EROTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I searched out my wrist brace today and made sure I wore it when I went to pick up the two shelves.  My wrist is feeling quite a bit better.  Still tender, but not screaming.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_4965The Subdrop

Delicate
and fragile
vulnerability
creeps
to cover the
hard stone
that lies beneath
developing
little by little
into a fuzz of
crystals
that a mere
breath
can destroy

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Cleaning House Cartomancy Reading

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Essential Playing Cards Lavender Edition

What must be cleared out to make room for this coming cycle?

Queen of Diamonds and Four of Hearts – Be ruthless in purging yourself of your current draw toward stagnancy. That draw is your depression talking, and it doesn’t need any encouragement or given a place where it’s allowed to grow and flourish unchecked.

What would benefit from a pause to let the dust settle?

Ace of Diamonds and Ten of Clubs – Don’t add any new brilliant ideas right now, you already have enough on your plate. Just concentrate on what is before you instead.

What opportunities can grow in the stillness?

King of Hearts and Six of Clubs – “Happy wife, happy life.” No, the phrase does not entirely fit, but that’s exactly what we have here. These cards indicate that the opportunity given is more time with Gideon, and thus more harmony in your life over all.

When new energy arrives, how can I direct it for greatest effect?

Ten of Diamonds and Three of Clubs – Go for the gold. You want these projects on your plate done. Times of stillness allow you to plan, so that when new energy comes in you can bolt off the starting block full speed ahead with your target in focus.

How can I prepare for the next cycle when it’s time?

Four of Clubs and Six of Hearts – Enjoy the rest and time in harmony with others. Don’t worry about what’s coming, just live in the moment and let it come at its own pace.

DECK USED: ESSENTIAL PLAYING CARDS LAVENDER EDITION

Work It Out

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Golden Age of Romance Comics TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of ignoring the obvious, having a victim mentality, feeling trapped, and encountering self-imposed restrictions.

So… instead of being a pussy about my arm hurting, this card is very much about doing something about it.  I did this to myself, and I know how to fix it.

I’ve been feeling very clouded in the head though, and kind of stewing in the pain instead of reasoning out the exact details of the injury and beginning to treat it.

Today’s card is a reminder that I’m not going to start healing until I take a good look at the damage and reason out a treatment plan.  Only then will I be able to start to act and work on making things better.

DECK USED:  GOLDEN AGE OF ROMANCE COMICS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Question for February 8th and 9th

Chocolate Lover's Message CardsWhat {self-}limiting beliefs have I been clinging to?

Rocky Road Chocolate and Organic Chocolate – The belief that giving yourself the chance to enjoy or indulge yourself along your journey will make the journey more difficult.

What can I open myself up for by banishing these beliefs?

Mothers Day Chocolates and Chocolate Sprinkles – More self-kindness and a stronger connection to a happier inner child. This essentially turns into a happier, healthier life all around… all because you let yourself indulge in a little more enjoyment.

How can I further embrace my highest self today and every day?

Baking Chocolate and Chocolate Bar – Lift yourself up by delving into your creative spark. Within the flow of that exploratory place of creation is your happy place… for both you and your inner child.

DECK USED: CHOCOLATE LOVERS MESSAGE CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for February 9th: Why do I fear failure when I know I can learn from my mistakes?

Golden Age of Romance Comics TarotReading Summary: When I experience failure, I end up even more determined and thus end up pushing myself even harder to succeed (Five of Swords). As I turn toward trying again, this reaction moves me in the opposite direction of happiness (The Sun) and towards overwhelm and burnout instead (Ten of Wands).

Take Away: It is not failure that I fear, or even disappointment. It is that perfectionist within me that wants to take that failure and turn it into success.  It’s the part of me that says “this didn’t work, which means next time I can do better”.   Instead of letting go, a need rises up in me to try again.  This is why I fear failure, because then I try to fit trying again in with everything else on my plate instead of setting it aside for later… or setting it aside for good.

DECK USED: GOLDEN AGE OF ROMANCE COMICS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I bought poppy seed muffins today.  I don’t buy them often because they are SO f’ing good. But I did today… because they are SO f’ing good.

Gideon’s Challenge

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IMG_8934Little Signs

Winter’s
sparse needles
leave branches bare
as cold nips nose
and brings on tears
but as snow falls
beauty breathes
and in each
remaining needle
a promise lives
that spring is coming
and each passing day
will bring
new life

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Weekly Creativity Prompt – How I Lost My Voice

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“Blurring the Lines” Creativity Prompt: “Choose a card to represent a real life experience that happened to you last year (any type of experience counts). Then, randomly draw two more cards, and use them to veer fact off into fiction and expand on your experience with a fictional extension, ending, or additional fictional details.”

Lovely Om TarotTen of Swords – A mighty crash as door frame and lock shatter.  A stranger within my home. A battle waged with ice pick against blade. Pain excruciating, and yet nothing at all, and in the end, the blade won. And then the pain went away and there was only peace, and silence, and stillness.

Six of Swords – Then came a stirring. A pull upon my soul. A glowing thread of comfort and need that drew me from that peaceful place. I followed the thread, seeking to sooth the ache of need felt as it drew me to its end. Bringing me forward through time and space to reunite with that familiar piece of me given to another… and more.

Two of Cups atop Queen of Cups – It lead me to my beloved, who grieved with all his heart.  And I knew that I couldn’t go back, and I couldn’t go forward either. I chose to stay here with him. To wait. To whisper comforting and loving words to him in his dreams and sit on his shoulder or tuck in just behind his ear, day in and day out, until he could eventually join me.

DECK USED: LOVELY OM TAROT