Drenched
Droplets cling
to delicate petals
and trail along
strands of hair
to drip drip drip
onto skin
flushed warm
from exertion
as face turns up
to greet tray sky
and pray
for more
ever more
rain
Into the Shadows Lenormand Reading
These shadows are being illuminated for me at this time.
Letter and Man – The summons is coming, and I’m going to have to balls up and actually go and do what needs done when it gets here. It won’t be long before my attacker is up for early release again, and I will need to go in and testify. This shadow came up in a reading that was done for me on Saturday, and is what these cards are referring to.
What are these deep, dark shadows teaching me?
Birds and Ring – Whether you want to or not, there is a commitment to society. Going to this hearing is about more than just my own safety, but also the safety of others. He needs to stay in for as long as possible. The longer he’s in, the safer I (and those around me) are.
As I walk this journey, I’m healing these wounds.
Lilies and Bear – As I walk this journey, I am learning that I am more than capable of standing up for myself and don’t need others to do it for me. Not then… and not now. There are some things that you have to do for yourself, and this is one of those times for me. No one else can do this for me.
DECK USED: THE DREAMING WAY LENORMAND
Home is Best
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Four of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of home coming, celebration, and the comforts of hearth and home.
When a cat shows their belly, they are essentially telling you that they trust you or are so confident in where they are that they perceive no danger at all. It is the most vulnerable part of their body, and to expose it in such a way is a huge indication that they are not just comfortable with you and their surroundings, but consider themselves to be in a “safe harbor” of sorts.
Today’s card is an encouragement to enjoy home as much as you can… and I am. I’m so very sick, and I’m completely staying home and taking the day off, burrowing into my bed and alternating NyQuil with chicken noodle soup. Fuck the rest, home is best.
DECK USED: CAT TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJun2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for June 6th and 7th
About happiness…
Top Row – Have fun and approach life with childlike wonder. When you enjoy all that you can in life, you will find that over time your life will be so filled with joy, and that other’s judgments and opinions won’t matter as much anymore.
About coziness…
Bottom Row – There’s something to be for enjoying the small things in life, and not letting other’s nefarious ways bring you down. When you mind your own business life can be much less harrowing and far more enjoyable.
DECK USED: AFFIRMATIONS OF THE FAIRY CATS AND ТЕРАПИЯ СЧАСТЬЕМ
The #STCTarotChallenge Statements of Power Prompt
Questions for June 6th
I have accepted this.
Ace of Pentacles and Ace of Swords – Self-care is necessary. Skipping your vitamins and not taking care of yourself in all of those small ways that add up over time can lead to a whole new type of misery. Better to tolerate the little nibble-size pieces of misery now as you are doing the things you don’t really want to do, than biting off a whole big chunk of misery at once like you have right now.
And now I…
Ace of Cups and Four of Pentacles – …am newly dedicated to making sure that I am taking care of myself and my needs (emotional, physical, and otherwise), so that I have a strong foundation beneath my feet to help me keep those larger bites of misery at bay.
Take Away: Not taking your vitamins for a whole week was a bad fucking idea and you’re paying the consequences for it now. Learn from this experience so that you won’t have to repeat it again later.
DECK USED: CAT TAROT
NyQuil is my friend. So is sleep.
Gideon’s Challenge
The Connection
Dead leaves
and wet knees
muddy boots
and deep roots
here in the forest
it’s all connected
take off your shoes
toes bare
and unprotected
dig in deep
beneath the leaves
to find cool soil
and let senses ease
sip at the calm
the earth can give
and let stress trickle away
like water through a sieve
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
Asking For Help
Today’s meditation was done in the bathtub to the soothing tunes of Ms Ebba Forsberg’s Been There album (which I believe is her absolute best piece of work to date with the addition of the song “Real Slow” on the Falling Folding Flipping Feeling album).
Today’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, struggles, and setbacks in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, work, or manifestations. This often translates into themes that have to do with scarcity and Times when one needs to seek out help from others instead of suffering through alone.
In this card, the coins look like flowers, and the plants appear to be supporting them. This speaks to me of that need to seek out help when you need it instead of forcing yourself to suffer on your own or insisting you can handle it yourself.
I’m very guilty of this stubborn insistence. It’s not pride so much as history that has taught me this is the way it should be, and it is a habit I am actively working on breaking. Today’s card is a reminder of this journey, and the need to seek out help when you need it. No garden flourishes without a little help from not just the gardener, but also the rain and sun.
DECK USED: TAROT BALBI ARGENTINIAN EDITION
#DiscordTarotholicsJun2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for June 5th: Do Spread #1
How is the rise of summer energies manifesting in my life?
Seven of Swords and West – Time is getting away from you. You’re doing well and resting and are enjoying it. And, that recuperation is needed. But not so much that you miss out getting on top of the things you want to get done this summer. If you don’t start moving soon and get that creative spark motivated, time is going to get away from you right up into the fall and the beginning of the holiday season.
How can I harness these summer energies for my purpose?
The Chariot and Growth – Seize the day and get going.
Where would I be best served in directing these energies throughout the summer months?
Page of Pentacles and South – Sometimes having to be an adult sucks, but it’s a necessary part of life. It’s time to re-introduce more “adulthood” into your life and motivation, instead of avoiding the projects that need done.
DECK USED: SPIRIT OF THE WHEEL ORACLE AND AUNT LILY’S TAROT
The #STCTarotChallenge Statements of Power Prompt
Questions for June 5th
I am strong enough to…
Knight of Pentacles and Page of Wands – …lend my passion and drive to new things at a less breakneck pace than I’m used to. Not everything has to be a rush, and a little restraint would be a good (and healthy) thing.
So I can…
Queen of Swords and Two of Swords – …make better decisions based on my experience and logic instead of just “winging it”. Not that “winging it” doesn’t turn out okay, but it’s a whole lot more stress than if you take your time and do things at a more manageable pace.
DECK USED: TAROT BALBI ARGENTINIAN EDITION
I soaked in the tub today. It was so nice I didn’t want to get out.
Gideon’s Challenge
More and More
Billowing
they grow from
mountain’s peaks
to fill
empty space
with presence
so much larger
than the mountains
they seem
to be birthed from
and in this I see
how my love
grows and grows
for you
dwarfing all else
mountains included
