Finding the Positive for July 3 – 5

Medieval Feathers Tarot's Five of Cups, Agni Roerich Tarot's The Moon card, and Royal Animals Tarot's Ace of Wands

July 3 – Mental Health Card of the Day

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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The @GlitterbyInk #JulyJoy25 Challenge
Celebration of Joy Prompt for July 3 : Freedom
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Five of Cups (Eastern Meadowlark Feather), which is traditionally a representation of pessimism, regrets, doomsday thinking, disappointments, and occasionally, failure (or at the very least, the perception of failure).

It takes a village to raise a child, or so they say. The thing is? That’s not all that it takes a village to do.

I’m an introvert and a pessimist. This means that in general, I’m not a fan of society and often to look at humanity with an overly critical eye.

To me? I feel people should “live by example”, and I very often feel that people don’t do this anymore. More and more we see people behaving badly with entitlement as their excuse. Even those in power that should be setting an example for others seem to have lost that “live by example” creed that used to be integral to good leadership.

Today’s message is a shift in perspective on this pessimistic viewpoint, and encourages considering that freedom allows us to act as we see fit and feel is right. This freedom allows us to make mistakes, and like a child raised by an addict that will never touch drugs themselves as a result, teaches us by a different type of example. These days, more and more, it appears that we are being shown the consequences of acting foolishly, rather than the shining example of what good looks like. Regardless, the lessons are still there.

DECK USED: THE MEDIEVAL FEATHERS TAROT

July 4 – Mental Health Card of the Day

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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The @GlitterbyInk #JulyJoy25 Challenge
Celebration of Joy Prompt for July 4 : Happiness
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Moon card, which is traditionally a representation of uncertainty, illusion, anxiety, fear, the unknown, and the subconscious.

What is happiness? I have a hard time answering this question, whether it’s for myself, or in an “in general” sense.

Inability to answer this question in a general sense is not surprising, as I think that happiness is subjective. But, I’ve often wondered why I’m unable to answer this question for myself. Is it the issues within my upbringing? Is it my pessimistic tendencies? Is it my battle with depression? Maybe uncertainty plays a role? What is it that creates the disconnect in being able to identify what happiness means for me?

I don’t know. And, I don’t know what happiness looks like for me. Or maybe I do… and just I’m unable to identify it as happiness in the same way I struggle to learn to identify so many of my emotions.

This meander through uncertainty is brought to you by The Moon card, which encourages us to bring our uncertainties “out into the light” now and then to observe and consider… even when doing so leaves is as “in the dark” as ever in the end.

DECK USED: AGNI ROERICH TAROT

July 5 – Mental Health Card of the Day

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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The @GlitterbyInk #JulyJoy25 Challenge
Celebration of Joy Prompt for July 5 : Inspiration
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Ace of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of the seed, start, or new beginnings in the area of one’s passion projects, inspiration, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with budding new interests and new passion projects.

I am not a big fan of structure. Which honestly, is a bit odd because I often seek it out and thrive under it.

In my conversation with my shrink the other day, we were discussing how I feel a great deal of guilt over times when I languish. You know, just relax and do nothing but play on the phone or what not.

In our conversation, she reminded me (and not for the first time) that everyone needs downtime. That is, time to not be productive. Even me. She encouraged me to try combating the guilt I feel with a greater show of intention. Specifically, by scheduling my languishing, rather than just “squeezing it in” at the expense of all those other things my brain says needs to be done.

I’ve never looked at languishing as something you might intentionally schedule (instead of time stolen from other pursuits). I’m going to give it a try, though. Maybe in doing so, I’ll find myself feeling a little less guilty about doing something that feels good and I enjoy. Or… that’s the hope at least.

DECK USED: ROYAL ANIMALS TAROT

Gideon’s Challenge – The Pause

Forest FloorThe Pause

Lie down
and stay a while
with the
douglas fir
towering above
and pine needles
to cushion
your back
as you stare up
at the sky
and watch
patterns of light
sift
through branches

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Gideon’s Challenge – Exit Route

Ferry PierExit Route

Tangled up
and disorganized
it seems
there’s
no way out
of this
trapped feeling
blending
distraction
and disorientation
until I feel
lost
and alone

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Gideon’s Challenge – What Is Lost

Pink RoseWhat Is Lost

Kisses
are important
between
you and I
and as I share
I worry
things are changing
in ways
I don’t want
just because
my honesty
is hurting
those I love
perhaps silence
is best
after all

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

Dirty Words

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was one of the #DailyCalm sessions from the @Calm app. Today’s session focused on myopic positivity (aka. toxic positivity), which I write more about below in my card of the day musings.

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The Banned Books Tarot - Strength cardThe @GlitterbyInk #JulyJoy25 Challenge
Celebration of Joy Prompt for July 2 : Friendships
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Strength card, which is traditionally a representation of inner strength, persuasion usually through means of compassion, influence and/or manipulation, and courage.

Myopic positivity (also known these days as toxic positivity) is the act of using positivity to discredit or ignore negative things. It’s the belief that if we just “think positive” that bad things won’t (or can’t) happen and that all our wishes will come true.

Myopic/toxic positivity has made words like gratitude, positivity, and optimism “dirty words” that are often snickered at or rejected by those that need them the most.

Myself included.

What I have learned through this daily exercise in finding a positive message in the cards, though, is that positivity/optimism and myopic/toxic positivity are not the same thing.

Healthy positivity and optimism doesn’t encourage us to ignore the bad things, but instead helps us to bear through those bad things in a healthier way. It makes us stronger, supporting us in ways that keep us afloat when things are turbulent. Thus, it’s part of a healthy support system, just like friends and family are.

The message for today is a reminder that what I’m doing here in this card of the day activity. That is… to explore healthy positivity and optimism, and how these things can help counterbalance one’s (my) own negative and pessimistic tendencies.

DECK USED:  THE BANNED BOOKS TAROT

Oracle Reading with The Naughty Oracle@LightningWildflower‘s July Tarot Challenge
Begin Prompts for July 1 – 3

What is waiting to begin if I give it space?

Clusterfuck of Fairies – You can find calm in the chaos, you just need to step back and let things play out on their own. Serenity comes in not engaging with the bullshit.

What mindset will support the next phase of my journey?

Pissed as a Parrot – Authenticity. People don’t say things they don’t mean when they’re drunk, they simple say the things they didn’t mean to say. That bald honestly is needed right now as you step forward on your path, sans alcohol.

What small steps can I take today that my future self will thank me for?

Boogeyman Bullshit – Confront your fears rather than hiding from them. This might feel like a monumental step, but in truth? It’s not as bad as your imagination is making it out to be.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Onyx Stone Fox for Identifying and Connecting to Truth
Gneiss Stone for Patience in Moments of Discomfort
Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE NAUGHTY ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap because I needed it, even though I really didn’t want to.

Gideon’s Challenge – Shadow Whispers

Storm CloudsShadow Whispers

Failure happens
again and again
until it begins
to feel
like these failures
define me
and I am
nothing
but
a disappointment
to those
that love me most

Photo © ZenStatePhotography