Various Paganism, Tarot, Etc

Relationship Trauma (Daddy Issues)

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Cursed Auguries Tarot and Roots & Wings Mini OracleWhat wounds need healing from this relationship?

Knight of Swords and Balance – His impulsively savage treatment and painful words have set you off balance, and now, that balance is something you constantly seek and work to improve upon.

What basic truth / trust has been damaged?

Two of Wands and Transformation – That you don’t need to plan every little thing out for things to turn out okay. It’s hard to trust that if you don’t have your thumb on every little piece of the plan that things will still go as they should and to your benefit.

What is this trauma is holding me back from experiencing?

Two of Swords and Moon – The ability to be decisive without struggling with uncertainty. That uncertainty lies deep within and whispers.  You pretend it’s not there, and no one ever sees it… but it’s there beneath the surface and shows itself in how exact and precise you are in executing the decisions you’ve made.

Why it’s important to heal this trauma?

Page of Pentacles, Intuition atop Potential – it will help unleash your potential to grow into something better and greater than you are now, freeing your intuition in the process do that it will become easier to follow.

What are the first steps in healing this trauma?

Five of Pentacles, Vulnerability atop Perseverance – Remember that your feelings of scarcity are an echo of your past and not the reality of this moment. Those feelings compounded with your fears create a sense of vulnerability that makes it feel more reality based than it actually is.

How can you be more open to the healing of this trauma?

Page of Cups and Hope – Stay in touch with your emotions and positive in your outlook. Don’t shut your emotions down just because they are uncomfortable or unpleasant to deal with.

Advice from the spirits and guides.

Three of Cups and Sun – Chin up! Stay positive and look to others to help lift you up and keep you aloft emotionally.

DECK USED:  CURSED AUGURIES TAROT, ROOTS & WINGS MINI ORACLE

Finding the Fire Within – Part 1

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Sofia Rito Lenormand

How can I discover my true self?

Rider and Stork – Trust yourself and your ability to weather change like a champ. More often than not,  you’re capable of seeing change coming long before it arrives. You already know yourself well enough to adapt without losing yourself in the shuffle, but by not ignoring what you see coming you can give yourself a bit of extra time to not get flustered and stay true to the path you want to be on and person you want to be.

What fears are holding me back from growth?

Letter and Lady – Ugh.  Seriously?  Okay so… yes.  I have mommy issues.  I fear the loss of my mother’s love and care, regardless of the fact that I’ve never really had all that much of it in the first place. I fear the painful and even cruel things she might say, and how much they would hurt to hear them from her.

I am not in any way, shape, or form, dishonest with her about who I am or what I do… but, there is a fear in me of losing what little… love there is from that corner somehow and I avoid her for this reason.  This avoidance and the fear that it’s rooted in hold me back in my personal growth and are a theme of shadow work that I need to look at exploring in the future.

What external factors are holding me back?

Tower and Key – Yes… I also have authority issues.  Although I am able to function around those issues for the most part, there are times when I struggle. Customs and border patrol agents, police officers, etc… these authority figures trigger my issues, especially if they are playing the “authoritarian” card in their interactions with me.  It does hold me back, too, because once I’ve been triggered and my back is up, it becomes far less likely I’ll be able to deal with them in my normally unflappable-seeming manner… causing hold ups and delays that otherwise wouldn’t happen.

How have these internal and external factors hindered my growth?

Crossroads and Book – They can cause you to be shortsighted, and not be as observant on gathering as much information as is needed to develop past these issues.

What would it be like to release those fears?

Scythe and Garden – Less cutting inner narrative. Less fear of external cutting narratives. This would result in more confidence because these things would no longer be a deciding factor and would carry far less weight than they do now.

I forgot to do the self care card at the bottom.  But, I did do a self care reading on Saturday.

DECK USED:  SOFIA RITO LENORMAND

New Moon in Virgo – September 2021

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Today is the new moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us. Today’s spread is about  integrating the qualities within, and brought to you by Sharron Basanti of Seeds of Shakti.

Meraki Tarot

1. What do I need to de-clutter that no longer sparks joy?

The Hanged Man atop Seven of Swords – You need to do a culling of your tarot collection. It’s stealing away far too much of your time to find each month’s decks. Of course, with the holiday rush coming, this is going to have to wait a few months, but keep in mind that when you start getting into next year and reorganizing your home for those shelves you want, that you need to do some culling as you go.

2. What habits do I need to start building to be more organized?

Queen of Pentacles – Supporting others that place no value in your support.  There should, at the very least, be a sense of appreciation and respect from those you expend your time and energy to nurture and support.  If you aren’t getting even that much from them in return, you need to pull back.

3. What patterns do I need to break that don’t contribute to my well-being?

Seven of Pentacles – Remember that growth takes time.  Whether this is growth of your emotional self, improvement of your physical health, or the flourishing progress of your business.  Everything takes time.  Take a breath and allow things to move at their own pace instead of pushing for more.

4. How can I harness the energy of the Virgo New Moon to re-align with my purpose?

Seven of Cups – Choose your path wisely.  You have a lot of different options ahead of you, but to stay aligned with your purpose, you need to take some time to look at each option in depth.  Once you  have all the information, making the right choices for you will be much easier.

5. Message from the Ancestors and Guides.

Three of Cups – Lean on others near and dear to your heart for a lift of spirits and emotional support. You may have dodged a bullet with your MDE and temporarily shifting your meds, but you’re not quite out of the woods yet and they can help you stay away from that pit’s edge now that the chemical side of things is better in hand.

DECK USED:  MERAKI TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Virgo Season

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Virgo Season Tarot Reading - Symbolic Tarot of Wirth

What is a major theme of Virgo season for me?

King of Cups – Gideon. Virgo season is all about Gid. Spending time with him. Sharing with him. Allowing him to help in keeping you calm, centered, and in touch with yourself and your emotions. Letting him help keep you from diving into the mentality of the holiday rush before it’s actually begun.

How will this theme impact me?

Four of Wands – It will allow you to enjoy the time that you have left, giving you a focus on the pleasures of home and him for as long as possible before all must be forsaken to keep up with the rush.

How can I trust life’s ebbs & flows this season?

Four of Coins – Keep in mind just how stable your foundation really is. The ebbs and flows of life are not going to knock it out from under your feet, even if it sometimes feels like they might.

How can I improve my daily routines?

King of Swords – Work on what works for you. This involves being more steadfast in your routine. Lack of structure is not your friend, but strategy is.

A message from my digestive system.

The Magician Rx – “You have everything you need to make me work smoothly, so why aren’t you doing it?”

A message from my ancestors and guides.

The Wheel of Fortune – Life is going to have many ups and downs, but along the way you need to make sure that you’re still taking care of yourself.

DECK USED: SYMBOLIC TAROT OF WIRTH

Morning Bonus Read – Monthly Key Spread

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Monthly Key Spread - Tempus Fugit Lenormand

Key to Your Heart: What will Guide you to make decisions that are aligned with your heart and your truths this month?

The Whip and The Book – Make sure you are focusing on getting things in order and not screwing off or fucking around this month.  Although the work side of things is not yet upon you, it’s time to start getting your ducks in a row when it comes to making a plan, detailing out what needs to be done, and gearing up for the mindset needed to dive into holiday prep.

[Side Note: Whenever I see the whip and the book together, it makes me think of those teacher nuns with the rulers and the knuckle slaps? No, this is not something I’ve personally experienced, but it very much is what comes to mind when these two cards come together.|

Anchor: What will ground you in the face of anxiety, stress, overwhelm, and existential dread in general?

Feminine Energy – Look to the women in your life for support when you are feeling overwhelmed or stressed. L is still around and willing to help in any way she can, but you have to actually be willing to reach out and ask for that help.

Star Wand: What accelerates your magic, creativity, and manifestation powers?

The Letter – You need to make that list that you wrote about the other day. Fill it with your accomplishments, with what you’ve done to improve yourself and your life this year, what you’ve overcome, and the good decisions you have made.

Blessings from the Stars: The Universe has got your back – how will you be supported this month?

The Clover – Luck is on your side.  It might come as a “flash in the pan”, but good fortune will be there for you when you need it most.

One Trick Up Your Sleeve: A life saving idea or inspiration for any unexpected challenge or difficult moments?

The Fox – You were blessed with a quick and clever mind.  Use it. Pay attention to what’s going on around you, keep in mind the motives of others, and use your cunning mind to stay engaged… and you’ll be fine.

Emergence Pt 1: What is emerging within you / within your reality right now?

The Ring – Commitments and responsibilities are starting to rise up. Make sure you’re not taking on more than you can handle or end up painting yourself into a corner.

Emergence Pt 2: What are you expanding towards?

The Dog – A blast from the past is coming.  This isn’t someone with negative motives or motivations, but rather someone you knew and was a friend returning…. or rather, you are returning to their lives rather than the other way around (although it might feel as if they are coming into your life).

DECK USED:  TEMPUS FUGIT LENORMAND

Transitioning from August to September

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Neurotic Owl Tarot and The Painted Runes

Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

Eight of Cups and Algiz – Now is a time to move on from anything unhealthy, and that includes unhealthy associations and negative inner dialogue. You already know what needs to go, so there’s no need for further reflection at this time, just get on with it.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

The Emperor and Gebo – Leave behind the idea that you are unshakeable, and thus that anything (or anyone) you invite into your sphere won’t have the influence to rock your foundation. It is a false belief, and it volunteers you for extra life lessons you don’t need right now.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

Five of Pentacles atop Nine of Cups, Eihwaz – The restructuring and preparation as you transition towards the holiday rush is going to cause some disorientation and a rise of scarcity issues that have been set aside for quite some time now. Work on staying aligned with what you really want and don’t focus too hard on those rising concerns, as they are an illusion caused by stress.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

Temperance and Othala – Moderation does not mean stagnation. Take a moment to really look at the actions and motivations of others. Do you need that in your life? If not, float free of it (and them) like a leaf skimming past rocks in a babbling brook.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

Six of Swords and Jera – Instead of focusing on the hang ups and obstacles, look instead toward your accomplishments. Make a list. What have you done to improve yourself and your life this year? What have you overcome? What good decisions have you made? Seriously. You need to make a list to look back on as a reminder.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

The World Rx and Wunjo – That feeling and faith that things are going along perfectly only to have your world turned upside down by a wrench thrown into the works. This is about the PayPal fiasco and the raw uncertainty and imbalance that was created through their unjust treatment. It isn’t fully healed yet, but you’re getting there.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

Five of Wands and Inguz – Breaking free of inner conflict and stagnation that you were feeling in the spring is a remarkable feat you should appreciate having accomplished. This was a really big struggle for you for a time, and yet you managed to move past it into a happier and more comfortable place through a good deal of work on exploring your feelings and your connection with your guides.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

Seven of Swords and Thurisaz – There are elements at play that are wanting to usurp your power and leave you confused and listless. Make sure you are shedding those things and people that you know are not healthy for you. Don’t hesitate, this is needed before you move forward and become distracted by other things.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

Six of Cups and Kano – Tap into the positive memories and those things you cherish from the past to help motivate you forward into the future and the holiday season ahead. You need these extra little bits of spark to help light the fire of your creativity.

Message from the Spirit World – Your past is not just a wound that needs healed, but also your foundation and support. There are positive things in your past that have made you the man you are, and you can tap into them to lift yourself up as well as inspire you creatively and otherwise.

Message from the Mind’s World – Micromanagement of your world will turn what should be a boon into something far less enjoyable.  This shift is in perspective and not reality.  Make sure you aren’t gripping on so damned tight that you turn what should be a positive outlook into a mentality of fear and “not enough” thinking.

Message from the Physical World – Take a look at the shifts that have happened in your life recently and make sure there are no “leaks in the hull” that need to be patched up. A bit of preparation and early adaptation can make a world of difference in the long run.

Take Away – A lot of this reading is about letting go of people who are holding me back, holding me down, or have negative intentions towards me. I know who they are, and the cards here are indicating that now’s the time to make sure to release them so they’re not in the way moving forward.

DECKS USED: NEUROTIC OWL TAROT and THE PAINTED RUNES