The Summer Cold
Orange juice
and lots of water
aspirin
and long showers
DayQuil has no affect
and the germs
rampage
ever onward
cold sweats
and hot flashes
drenched sheets
and conjunctivitis
for fucksake
a sinus infection
please let me be
at the end
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Seven of Coins atop Four of Wands, Use Your Power – You won’t have much of a balcony garden left of you don’t get out there and take care of them. Take some time this week to get the rest of your garden tender to and planted.
Air – Eight of Coins and Take Stock of Your Achievements – Trust in what you know and what you’re good at. Don’t let doubts and negativity sweep in and steal away your well earned confidence away.
Water – Four of Swords and Receive Your Blessing – Get good rest while you can. Use this opportunity to shore up your strength. You are still in recovery and the better you feel physically, the better you’re going to feel emotionally as well.
Fire – Three of Wands and Practice Tenderness – As you plot your course forward and start moving again, keep your expectations low. Take care that you don’t overload yourself with more than you’re ready for this week.
Waning – Coffin and Rider – You’ve been sick, but this is on its way out. You need to make sure you’re focusing on doing the things you need to do to help this illness move on its way quickly.
Waxing – Tree and Stork – With recovery from your illness will come a sense of rebirth. This renewal of energy and physical health is something you need to focus on encouraging this week. Get back on track with those things that help you stay healthy.
Take Away – This week’s self care reading is all about guiding me out of my illness and through the recovery process. It’s about taking things slow so that I don’t overwhelm myself, and keeping my expectations low so that I don’t over-pressure myself.
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Fool card, which is traditionally a representation of naïveté, foolishness, beginnings, enthusiasm, innocence, and seeing the world through “rose colored glasses”.
I love the array of colors in this card and how they flow with each other in a vibrant dance of joy reflected in the smile on the face of the figure in the card. There’s a great deal of joy here. Excitement blended with calm cool tones.
My cards often remind me to instill more joy into my life, and I see this encouragement here in this card in the dance of bright colors among the cool, calm shades of blues and greens.
Today’s card is a reminder to let yourself shine brightly, no matter where you are or what you’re doing. There is a light inside you eager to get out. Let it shine.
The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for June 6th thru 8th
How can I improve my time spent?
Hanged Man and Hawk – The world, and those that watch over you from beyond it, are willing to share their wisdom with you. You only have to be open to their take on things. Instead of looking inward, seek out their guidance in this area.
What are my money challenges?
Hermit atop Two of Earth, Bustard – The juggling of wants with needs when those wants feel like self-care. And… a bit too much confidence in your ability to dig yourself out of the messes you sometimes make.
How are my goals progressing?
Five of Earth and Frogmouth – Not as well as I’d like, regardless of the fact I don’t want to admit it to others. I would much rather keep my scarcity issues (whether real or imagined) to myself.
The #STCTarotChallenge Statements of Power Prompt
Questions for June 11th
I will continue to…
Six of Coins and Four of Swords – … take a rest from being too generous when I can’t afford it. Gideon says that I often give too much of myself to others, and in being generous in this way, I overtax myself. Being ill this past week has helped me in remembering to focus on my own wellness first.
I will do this by…
Two of Pentacles and The Moon – …being more responsible in those areas of my life where uncertainty and imbalance lingers. I need to look at these areas of my life with stark honesty and shine a light on the lurking parts that I don’t really want to deal with but could be detrimental to me if I don’t. (ie: bad habits)
I got to play with Gideon a bit for the first time in what feels like ages.
Drenched
Droplets cling
to delicate petals
and trail along
strands of hair
to drip drip drip
onto skin
flushed warm
from exertion
as face turns up
to greet tray sky
and pray
for more
ever more
rain
These shadows are being illuminated for me at this time.
Letter and Man – The summons is coming, and I’m going to have to balls up and actually go and do what needs done when it gets here. It won’t be long before my attacker is up for early release again, and I will need to go in and testify. This shadow came up in a reading that was done for me on Saturday, and is what these cards are referring to.
What are these deep, dark shadows teaching me?
Birds and Ring – Whether you want to or not, there is a commitment to society. Going to this hearing is about more than just my own safety, but also the safety of others. He needs to stay in for as long as possible. The longer he’s in, the safer I (and those around me) are.
As I walk this journey, I’m healing these wounds.
Lilies and Bear – As I walk this journey, I am learning that I am more than capable of standing up for myself and don’t need others to do it for me. Not then… and not now. There are some things that you have to do for yourself, and this is one of those times for me. No one else can do this for me.
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Four of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of home coming, celebration, and the comforts of hearth and home.
When a cat shows their belly, they are essentially telling you that they trust you or are so confident in where they are that they perceive no danger at all. It is the most vulnerable part of their body, and to expose it in such a way is a huge indication that they are not just comfortable with you and their surroundings, but consider themselves to be in a “safe harbor” of sorts.
Today’s card is an encouragement to enjoy home as much as you can… and I am. I’m so very sick, and I’m completely staying home and taking the day off, burrowing into my bed and alternating NyQuil with chicken noodle soup. Fuck the rest, home is best.
#DiscordTarotholicsJun2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for June 6th and 7th
About happiness…
Top Row – Have fun and approach life with childlike wonder. When you enjoy all that you can in life, you will find that over time your life will be so filled with joy, and that other’s judgments and opinions won’t matter as much anymore.
About coziness…
Bottom Row – There’s something to be for enjoying the small things in life, and not letting other’s nefarious ways bring you down. When you mind your own business life can be much less harrowing and far more enjoyable.
The #STCTarotChallenge Statements of Power Prompt
Questions for June 6th
I have accepted this.
Ace of Pentacles and Ace of Swords – Self-care is necessary. Skipping your vitamins and not taking care of yourself in all of those small ways that add up over time can lead to a whole new type of misery. Better to tolerate the little nibble-size pieces of misery now as you are doing the things you don’t really want to do, than biting off a whole big chunk of misery at once like you have right now.
And now I…
Ace of Cups and Four of Pentacles – …am newly dedicated to making sure that I am taking care of myself and my needs (emotional, physical, and otherwise), so that I have a strong foundation beneath my feet to help me keep those larger bites of misery at bay.
Take Away: Not taking your vitamins for a whole week was a bad fucking idea and you’re paying the consequences for it now. Learn from this experience so that you won’t have to repeat it again later.
NyQuil is my friend. So is sleep.
Twisting the Leaf 