tarot self care

Morning Bonus Read – Virgo Season

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The Insect Tarot - Virgo Season Tarot Reading

Card that best describes me currently.
King of Wands

Although you are not paying attention to the fact that you do this, you inspire others through your passion and your directness… your forthrightness. You allow your true self to be seen, and it sparks enthusiasm and others as a result. Even in things like presenting your depression, your mistakes, and your opinions honestly, you give inspiration to others to do the same.

How can I improve my ability to “go with the flow”?
Page of Swords

Remember that although not all new ideas are good ideas, a great number of good ideas come from new ideas. Accept that a seed won’t share with the world whether it is a good seed or a bad one until it starts to grow. You can’t weed what hasn’t sprouted yet. This means you have to have patience and let things move along at their own pace until you have all the information that you need.

Why should I begin to ask others for help?
The High Priestess

Your intuition needs the support. When you overburden yourself, it affects your intuition, creating blocks to your natural ability to see and understand the unseen. Asking for help can in turn help you, and free up that space for your intuition to continue to stretch and grow.

Why I sometimes feel misunderstood by others.
Two of Swords

Your motivations and opinions are your own, and so are your values and your principles. Your moral compass is what guides you, and it is attuned to you and you alone. Sometimes when you make decisions based on this moral compass, others won’t understand why are you made the choice that you did or how you came to the conclusion you have. When you waffle, they may not understand for the same reason… because they’re moral compass is not aligned with yours, and so they don’t see why you hesitate.

How I can start to see the perfect in my imperfect self.
Eight of Cups

Let go of expectations and step away from what you know is unhealthy for you. Demanding perfection from yourself isn’t healthy, and neither is pushing yourself to your limits and beyond them. Abandon these unhealthy habits and find a path that feeds your soul through a healthier outlook and healthier treatment of yourself.

A new healthy habit I should explore.
Three of Wands

Embracing changes and moving forward with a plan, rather than allowing those changes to cause you to stumble, hesitate, or fall.

DECK USED: THE INSECT TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Anxious Days

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St Croix Lenormand

What can I control?

Book – Knowledge is power and you have the opportunity to seize a great deal of power if you keep your eyes and mind open, and actually delve into unearthing the knowledge needed to succeed. You have the ability to grasp the abstract and those things hidden between the lines, understand complicated and convoluted concepts, and stretch your potential through exploration of such things.

What can’t I control?

Snake – Oh geez.  Okay so this is the PayPal thing again. YES.  I know.  I need to be adaptive and move forward instead of lingering in what I can’t control or do anything about.  The feelings of betrayal are painful, but I am definitely ready to set them aside.  I understand that I may not quite have fully let go of the emotional upheaval that it caused, but I truly do understand that it’s out of my control and something I need to move on from.

How can I work with what I can control?

Woman – Keep in mind that just because Z has gone home doesn’t mean she is not still in easy reach. The valuable advice and guidance she has offered you throughout your life was closer than ever over the past year and a half, but it isn’t gone now that she’s back home.  Reach out to discuss new ideas and discoveries with you, for her input will be as valuable as always.

How can I release what I can’t control?

Mountain – You’re not going to get any answers about why this happened. There is no resolution in sight and you need to just let it go rather than brooding on it or squirming under the feeling of betrayal and injustice that the experience stirred up for you.

Take Away – Dive into searching out different alternative payment methods and ways of doing things that don’t involve PayPal and let go of the feelings that were stirred up by the experience.  Enlist Z’s help in finding new options and looking into their merit.

DECK USED:  ST CROIX LENORMAND

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Animism Tarot, The Essential Oils Healing Cards, Faery Blessing Oracle

Earth – Five of Wands and Cardamom – Obviously, I am still quite worked up over the whole PayPal thing that happened last week. The cards here indicate that I need to work on seeing beyond the feelings of being picked on and the injustice that I feel happened here, and move on to finding a clear path forward. Clarity is needed, and you cannot have clarity when you are still wallowing in shit or trying to stand your ground against impossible odds.

Air – Page of Pentacles and Yarrow – Again, we are on the topic of what happened with PayPal and how my emotions were affected by this event. The thing is though, the Page of Pentacles here indicates that working forward towards a better solution will serve me far better and the Yarrow promises that in doing this I will heal those wounds along the way. Focus forward… not back.

Water – The Magician and Basil – Through your emotional growth in journey, you have learned the tools you need to move past this issue and restore yourself back to balance once more. You need to lean on these tools that you have learned, instead of allowing yourself to fall into old, unhealthy habits. With depression knocking on my door, this vote of encouragement is about more than just my upset with PayPal, but also the onset of depression trying to creep up and drag me in.

Fire – Page of Cups and Lime – Be sure to introduce a mindset of creative play into your work and business, and it will help refresh your perspective and help you see your work in a new light so that it doesn’t once again begin to feel like a chore.

Waning – A Blessing of Airmid atop A Blessing of Dreams – Earthly concerns outweighing your dreams. Now isn’t a time to get weighed down. Daydreams and lollygagging are absolutely not just allowed, but essential.

Waxing – A Blessing of the Wild Within – Although your ankle is not yet fully healed, make some time to take an easy path through wooded areas that will let your true inner nature flourish. Spend some time lying in the moss and gazing up at a canopy of leaves overhead. Visit with those of the green and forest that come to greet you, drawn by that inner root that connects you with them.

Take Away – A large part of the message in this reading is that I need to let go of what happened with PayPal and work on easing the anxieties, worries, and depression that was triggered by the emotional upheaval I experienced. To do this I need to make sure that I am looking forward instead of wallowing, and making sure that I get out in nature so that I can have some time of grounding and healing among the earth and the green and those that rustle among the leaves.

DECKS USED: ANIMISM TAROT, THE ESSENTIAL OILS HEALING DECK, FAERY BLESSINGS CARDS

Morning Bonus Read – Starting Something

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“This week, let’s do a reading about starting something.”

Meow Star Playing Cards1. What is something you will need to start soon?

Queen of Clubs – Supporting my dreams and the dreams of others through my past experience and my personal inner drive.

2. What needs to be done before you can begin?

Queen of Spades – Pull yourself up “by your boot straps” and lean into your learned logic. Strategize how to deal with what’s to come and prepare the others.

3. What is the first step you need to take when it is time to start work on this?

Nine of Hearts atop Seven of Hearts – Connect with what you truly want so that you will not become overwhelmed.

4. What should you remember when working on this?

Ace of Clubs and Nine of Spades – It’s only temporary, but you have to go through the gauntlet to get the prize.

Take Away – The holiday rush is not here yet, but it will come whether I’m ready for it or not.  Although the time to act is not yet upon me, the time to begin mentally preparing and getting my plans in place is beginning. The better prepared I am, the less horrible the experience will be for myself and others when it’s upon us.

DECK USED:  MEOW STAR PLAYING CARDS

Morning Bonus Read – Finding Inner Strength

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Neurotic Owl Tarot

Your inner strength. The area you can seek support.

Eight of Swords Rx – Your ability to see and understand far more than what meets the eye.

The foundation. Digging for the roots without disturbing them. This is where they cradle the core of your being.

Eight of Pentacles Rx – Find comfort in having the many skills that you have honed and made strong. You may only focus on one at a time, but they are all a part of your foundation, and it gives you comfort to know that you have more to offer, and more to fall back on if needed.

Barrier. What is between you and your own power?

The Hermit – Your tendency to spend too much time alone. Although a long time can be good for you, too much alone time is not.

Burden. What is holding you down and keeping you from finishing your journey? This card is always read as if reversed.

Two of Swords Rx – A lack of inclination to actually make a choice. This is not surprising, since I am not really interested in getting to the “end” of my journey yet. A part of my lesson in this lifetime is to enjoy the journey itself rather than focusing too much on the destination. This is something I didn’t understand a few years ago, but has come to light as I’ve begun delving into self-care and looking deeper within myself.

DECK USED:  NEUROTIC OWL TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Self Love

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Hilda Lenormand - Self Love Reading

Something to love about myself.
The Bear and The Tree

Regardless of the chronic pain I experience on the daily, I am always able to move forward into the activities I enjoy and dive into them again and again. This allows me to go out into nature and hike without worrying about if I’ll be able to handle the trails laid out before me, or passing up on some of those that will spiritually benefit me the most due to my body’s inability to handle the climb.

Where can I be more patient with myself?
The Broom and The Clouds

It’s important to remember that the pleasure seeking I do and the addictive tendencies I have are rooted in something that needs healed. They are a self-medicating behavior.  Don’t just berate myself when these behaviors get out of control, but be patient and look at what has triggered things to advance into unhealthy territory.

Where can I be kinder to myself?
The Clover and The Bouquet

Allow yourself to enjoy times when things are good and pleasure can be had.  It’s okay to sink into the enjoyment and pleasure, and wallow in a bit of happiness now and then.  There’s nothing wrong with that and it is a gift to yourself that can help you in restoring yourself and your view of the world around you.

Energies and strategies to draw on.
The Garden and The Tower

Lean into others to help you in moving forward and making sure you see what’s coming and can deal with it in a capable way.  You aren’t alone and you have others to support you, don’t forget about them when you need them.

DECK USED:  HILDA LENORMAND