tarot self care

Dark Fairytale Lenormand Reading

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Dark Fairytale Lenormand Reading - Tea Bats Lenormand

The Dark Fairytale Opens: What marks the prologue of your dark fairytale?

Scythe and Birds – Cruel comments and arguments, confrontations, disagreements with others, and other such communication struggles. This is an echo of my childhood, and the majority of my experiences with my father as I was growing up. These experiences are a part of the reason I am so very careful with my words, further exacerbated by a few similar issues later on in life when I’ve “fumbled” during an inopportune time and created a clusterfuck mess due to miscommunication.

The Curse: What imprisons you & torments you?

Crossroads – Often, when we have a variety of choices and the freedom to choose our path, it can feel like the generous grace of good fortune on our side.  Other times?  That same freedom and plethora of choices available to us can feel overwhelming.  Right now I am in the latter state of mind, and instead of making choices and moving forward, I’m left at the crossroads spinning my wheels in the muck.

The Ghost: What haunts you and tortures you?

Anchor – From the lack of emotional stability provided through my childhood to the lack of stability in life that came after I left that environment, I now find myself in a constant state of scarcity.  This is not reality, but rather an ever-present need for more stability and security.

Bramblewood: What are the dangers that surround you?

Child – I’m not sure if this is a perceived danger or a real one, but what I see in the Child card in this question is my fear that by being irresponsible or by having fun, that I can lose all that I hold dear. The the idea of being helpless is terrifying to me.

The Mirror: What is your deepest fear?

Book – This bleeds into the previous question, for it is through lack of knowledge that we are at our most helpless.  That’s why children are protected.  They haven’t learned all that they need to know yet, and thus their independence is sacrificed for safety while they learn what is needed to keep them safe. Although this is not something I express often, my deepest fear is loss of knowledge.  My deepest fear is being an idiot.  Helpless to take care of myself or “steer my own boat” due to lack of intellect needed for that simple goal.

The Sword of Truth: What will set you free from your dark fairytale?

Rider – Pursue what I want out of life. It is through energy, zeal, and a constant forward movement that I keep on top of my memory loss and cognition issues caused by the accident that damaged so much of my body over fifteen years ago.  Gideon helps me with this a lot, taking me down memory lane again and again, helping me to remember what I lose, helping me strategize new ways to remember what I need to, and building new pathways through the threads of memories to knit them back together when they begin to fray.

Awaken from slumber (Part 1). What grounds you in your reality?

Woman – Those in my life that nurture me.  L, Z, Gideon, J… all of these people are a part of my life in a way that is not just companionship, but also supportive.  They care about me, care -for- me, and help remind me what is important.

Awaken from slumber (Part 2). What makes you invincible?

Moon – My intuition and the guidance of my spirit guides through my intuition’s voice. These skills create an extra layer of knowledge and guidance, assist me in seeing what is needed when I would otherwise be blind and unaware. Also encompassed here is my creativity, which then blends into my adaptability.

DECK USED:  TEA BATS LENORMAND

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Pazzol Deck, Flowers from the Dead Oracle, The Fantod Pack

Earth – King of Wands and Bee – Get your ass in gear with your business. You have a lot to do and you are dawdling. It’s time to seize up your motivational “oomph” and toss it into the fire to burn brightly and light the way.

Air – Knight of Cups and Rabbit – What you desire is right there for the taking. Use those quick reflexes of yours to snag it up.

Water – Six of Wands and Hawk -You may need a little extra praise and admiration from others this week to help lift you up. There’s nothing wrong with that, just make sure what you take to heart is given in honesty and sincerity.

Fire – Ten of Cups and Possum – Don’t forget that work can make you happy. You are in the fortunate position of being able to do what you love, which has allowed your business to grow and thrive over time. Work at getting back in touch with that joy that doing what you do so well provides.

Waning – The Limb atop The Bundle – Don’t allow yourself to be tied down by fear of failure.

Waxing – The Blue Dog atop The Ancestor – Accidents can just as easily be fortuitous as a misfortune. Stay open to the potential for happy accidents.

Take Away – Like so many of my readings over the past week, this is about the holiday rush, but it also reaches beyond that to the general “malaise” I’ve been experiencing this week and how it has been dragging me down.  The advice here is to get moving and once started, things will begin to roll along easier. Sitting back and not doing anything isn’t helping anything.  There is also a reminder that I received the other day… that accepting praise and allowing it to lift you up is not necessarily a bad thing as long as you are selective with who it comes from.

DECKS USED: PAZZOL DECK, FLOWERS FROM THE DEAD ORACLE, THE FANTOD PACK BY EDWARD GOREY

Cartomancy Reading – Experiences

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The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows: “Experiences are a part of life, big or small, but what we do next will help us even more.I hope you all have a wonderful week, write this one down! You may need it later. ❤️”

Cartomancy with the Haunted Playing CardsWhat experience(s) am I not allowing myself to have right now?

Seven of Diamonds – Slow moving growth.

Eight of Clubs – Getting anywhere fast.

Four of Spades – Recuperative rest.

Take Away: You are spinning your wheels, neither moving quickly in the things you need to do, nor allowing yourself the slow progress of growth. You are also not getting the rest you need to bounce back stronger. All in all, these cards are saying you are stuck in a moment of stagnancy.

How could I use the answer above to shape my next journey?
Five of Diamonds atop Three of Clubs atop Four of Diamonds atop Ace of Spades

There is a need for stability that is lacking right now, and it has wedged itself between your ambitions and your ability to move forward and take action. This need for stability is bred by your scarcity issues, and the only way you are going to break through it is to force yourself to get moving even though you don’t feel like it.  Put away “what you feel like” and just move your ass anyway.

How might this be beneficial to me? Why?
Ace of Clubs atop Ten of Clubs

You need motivation to push you forward, or the scarcity issues you deal with overtake and make you stall out. Once you get moving and get the ball rolling on what needs to be done, it will get easier.

DECK USED: HAUNTED 8s PLAYING CARDS

A Liminal Time Tarot Reading

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A Liminal Time Tarot Reading - The Infernal Tarot

1. Otherworld – a message from the otherworld

Three of Wands – Get moving. The time for planning has passed.  You need to get your ass in gear and start getting things done.

2. Thinning veil – honoring what is

Four of Wands – Hearth and home. This ties into some other readings you’ve done this week, and the need for a greater amount of gratitude considering all that you have.

3. Final Harvest – gathering nourishment for the soul

King of Swords – Embody the ambition and responsibility that is required of you, and the rest will fall into place.

4. Death – what I’m readying to release

King of Cups – As the holiday rush begins, you will have to release the extra time and attention you’ve been enjoying with Gideon. It sucks, but  you know that’s how it has to be.

5. Transmutation – supporting my cyclical passage

Two of Cups – Let those around you help and support you as you dive into the busy season.  You don’t have to go at it alone.

DECK USED: INFERNAL TAROT

Lenormand Reading – Illuminate

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Malefique Lenormand

How to find the flame of hope in trouble times?

Coffin and Child – Look at these problems as an impetus for change and the opportunity to start fresh.

How to ignite the flame of hope?

Letter and Cross – Use crappy news to spark your oppositional nature and get you worked up. The stirring up of energy feeds into your hope, as it awakens your determination.

How to keep the light of hope burning within?

Book and Heart – When you need a little extra help fanning the flames of hope, reach out to Gideon for this. He knows you better than anyone.. often better than you know yourself, and has the ability to lift you up.

How to amplify my light and shine for others?

Tree and Anchor – Amplify your light by making sure that you are taking care of yourself.  You can’t help others if you are wearing yourself down and not caring for yourself properly.

DECK USED: MALEFIQUE LENORMAND

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Mio Im's Tarot, Season of the Witch Samhain Oracle, This Deck Is Haunted Oracle

Earth – Eight of Cups and Elements – It’s time to focus upon moving away from what isn’t working for you and seek a more harmonious path. Your health needs attention right now. Don’t ignore the discord and discomfort, but instead use it to tell you what patterns and habits need to be discarded for something better and healthier that will put things back in balance.

Air – Three of Hearts and Centaur – Look closely at what is making you happy… and what isn’t. This week, make sure that you are focusing on those things that make you happy. Not the things that should… but what actually does. In doing so you will be able to give your inner narrative something more genuinely positive to focus on. Keep in mind that satisfaction is not necessary the same as happiness.

Water – Page of Swords and Ritual – What habits in your life need re-examined with a critical eye? These cards tie into the Air section of this reading in that you need to look at what you are doing, look deep and examine if these habits are truly making you happy, or just a form of self medicating to bury unresolved past issues.

Fire – Queen of Wands and Grief – Don’t allow confused and conflicting emotions to pull you away from what needs encouraged to flourish this week. You have a lot of prep work to get done. Allowing feelings of failure or being hyper focused on what isn’t going well at the moment is only going to hold you back and slow you down.

Waning – Boogie Man atop Planchette – Don’t let worries about the influences of your father plague you this week. He came through the thinning veil last year and really upset your balance. You are more prepared this year, and in a better place.

Waxing – Ectoplasm atop Living Doll – Work on remembering and acknowledging all of the ways that difficulties and the pain from your past has transformed into positives in your life and in yourself.

Take Away – The advice in these cards is about focusing on what is truly important.  That includes self care, but also in finding those things that truly make me happy.  Set worries and inner conflict aside, let go of the “shoulds” and look for the truth beneath those thoughts and desires.  Where does the truth truly lie?

DECKS USED: MIO IM’S TAROT, SEASONS OF THE WITCH SAMHAIN ORACLE, THIS DECK IS HAUNTED ORACLE