Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

New Palladini Tarot, Soulflower Plant Spirit Oracle, Tree Angel Oracle

EarthThe Hanged Man and Bleeding Heart (Independence) – It’s time to take a look at your inner workings and start seeing them from a different perspective. This softer side of you where emotions come from and where the heart rules, are not weak or as vulnerable as they feel.  They are simply under developed and need time to grow.  Do not forsake them for the hard outer shell of logic just because logic is the more comfortable and familiar fit.

AirThe Hierophant and Borage (Optimism) – Lighten up.  You don’t have to be so serious all the time.  People will still take you seriously even if you let loose and allow yourself to have some fun.   A little fun and some expressions of joy will also refresh your enthusiasm for teaching at those times when it feels like you’re dragging a bit in those areas of your life.

WaterThe Empress and Campanula (Alignment) – This is an echo of yesterday’s Tarotholics reading.  It is an encouragement to be kind and supportive of yourself by looking at all that you have accomplished, and allowing yourself to take pride in your capabilities and the rewards of your hard work.  Let the knowledge of your accomplishments be a balm for the wounds your inner critic has wrought.

FireFour of Pentacles and Iris (Inspiration) – You are well entrenched within a place of stability right now.  Take this time to wallow in your creative spark and let your inspiration fly free. The business is slow but steady, your finances are in-hand.  Now’s the time to do some creative exploration and have a little fun.

WaningBeech – You may have some trouble with concentration this week and struggle with distractions and memory.  It’s okay, just remember that this time is temporary and look at it as a time to set big decisions and heavy responsibilities to the side until things are back in balance again.

WaxingElm – Although concentration may not be your strong suit over the next week, communication will be. Not the inane conversations of small talk and passing conversations, but deep and connected communication is possible this week, including some of those profound word drops that seem to pop into conversations with people out of nowhere and change lives.  So make sure that you pay attention to what you say, and how you say it… be sure that you speak with empathy as well as an open heart and open mind.

Take Away – This week is an ideal time to distance yourself a little more than usual from your responsibilities and obligations.  Fill that time with endeavors that allow that inner spark within you to shine, and with people that are conducive to true depth of communication. Take some time for yourself this week… everything else will take care of itself.

DECKS USED: NEW PALLADINI TAROT, SOULFLOWER PLANT SPIRIT ORACLE, TREE ANGEL ORACLE

The Fight for Justice vs Self Care

A reading topic posted on one of the Discord servers that I’m a member of.  I was curious what the cards would say for this topic, so I decided to go ahead and give it a go.

The question is… The world is full of those we need to stand up for, and/or things that we need to continue to fight for ourselves. Spend some time with your divination tools meditating on how to balance fighting for justice with internal peace and self-care this week.

Tarot of the Animal LordsMyselfKnave of Chalices – You are currently going through a time of transition where you are in the process of learning about your emotions, how to live with and balance (instead of suppress and ignore) your emotions, and while doing so, experiencing a depth within your emotions that you’ve never experienced before.

The Fight for JusticeFive of Pentacles – If you want to continue upon your path of growth, this isn’t a good choice right now. Even if you are able to take the steps to allow others to support you on this path, you will need to close down that emotional growth to protect yourself, as keeping yourself open and vulnerable during conflict is a very bad idea.

Personal Peace & Self CareFour of Wands – This path is not just the easier path, but the healthier path for you at this time. It offers stability and progress, as well as support from others that is both easily given by them, and easily accepted by you.

Balancing the TwoThe Fool – Take the easy road. This is not usually the best choice for you, or the healthiest choice. But in this instance, it is. Allow the fighters to fight their fight, and take the time you need to grow and develop so that you can become a better and more capable iteration of yourself.

Clarifying Card (because surely my cards aren’t telling me to mind my own business) – Two of Pentacles Rx – Yep… That’s exactly what they’re saying. Mind your own business, or upset the apple cart… your choice.

DECKS USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Tarot of the Animal Lords, Nature's Wisdom Oracle, Secret Language of Animals Oracle

EarthThe Devil and Daffodil (Serenity) – Make sure you are fully aware of where your addictions lie and what influence they have on your life this week. There is a chance of the scales tipping to unhealthy if you’re not careful, and you can’t be careful if you don’t have your eyes open wide and aren’t paying attention. Make sure you are being honest with yourself about where you are and what you’re doing, and use that self awareness and truth to keep your actions and addictions in balance. In other words… it’s time to slow down a bit.

AirThe World, Two of Wands, Fish (Fearlessness) – You know the direction you want to go in here concerning your inner critic and internal dialogue. Don’t worry so much and keep your eyes trained on where you want to go because there’s better things to come if you can stay on track. This is a healthy transition that should be a celebration, not a time of trepidation.

WaterKnight of Wands and Iris (Messenger) – Bound forward, intrepid traveler.  Now is the time to seize your opportunity and make the most of it. Make sure as you bound forward to find things that bring you pleasure and joy, though, that you’re not leaving behind the emotional growth you’ve worked so hard to achieve.  This opportunity is not meant to bury and ignore the awkwardness of change, but to insert a bit more joy into your life along the way.

FireThe Tower Rx and Mushroom (Caution) – Fear of change does not mean that you avoid change.  It means that you take care and caution as it happens.  It’s okay to dive into and indulge in the things that bring you joy and spark your enthusiasm, just make sure you’re not diving into them as a method of avoidance concerning the personal transformation you are going through.

WaningTree Frog – The time for sitting still has come to an end.  Set aside your procrastination and hesitation, set aside the contemplation on what you want to do and where you want to go.  It’s time to start moving along your chosen path rather than sitting still and thinking about it.

WaxingFairy Wren –  As you move away from the stagnancy of sitting still, gather up your passions and inspirations, your enthusiasm and your joy.  Use these emotions to carry you in the direction you want to go.  These things will help breathe fresh air into your life and support your forward movement along the path you desire to tread.

Take Away – It’s time to get inspired and move forward.   I’ve sat still and hesitated long enough.  The way to do this is to reach out to those things that spark my creativity and my enthusiasm.  Just make sure that in the process you don’t fall into the pitfalls of addiction or avoidance along the way.   These things are there to bring joy, energy, and enthusiasm… not to hide within.

DECKS USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS, NATURE’S WISDOM ORACLE, SECRET LANGUAGE OF ANIMALS ORACLE

Inspiration and Warmth

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and I was a little distracted because I think I’ve devised a plan to make more room for my decks.  I know, I know.  Not what I should be thinking of during meditation, but it kept popping into my head.  SO…  I suppose you could look at it as that I got a lot of mental push ups done during those ten minutes as I kept bringing myself back to center.

Herbal TarotToday’s draw is the King of Wands, which is traditionally interpreted as a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, ambitions, interests, and drive.    This often translates into themes that deal with inspirational leadership, authority mixed with an entrepreneurial spark, and vision one is on a path of leading others towards.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card is the cinnamon plant combined with the very strong look of determination on the face of the figure on the card and the fact that he is facing (to my way of reading right and left) the past.

Magically speaking, cinnamon is used to create a spark of inspiration and warmth, and what I see in the direction that the King faces here is that sometimes you have to look to the past in order to find the strength you need to move forward… and lead others forward with you… into the future.

The message here is about learning from the past instead of discounting it or trying to forget it.  The wise leader does not ignore lessons learned or potential lessons in their past, instead they take these experiences and move forward with them, letting them help and guide his steps and… in turn… the steps of those that follow them.

Although I do not really consider myself a leader, I do consider myself a guide and I enjoy helping others find their own personal path and discover what works for them and fits for them.  This means I don’t seek to create conformity, but rather to inspire… and I use my past experiences in many different ways to help in this goal.   Today’s card is an encouragement, and a reminder, to continue along this path with warmth and inspiration.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: What toxic beliefs would I benefit from releasing?

Happy Tarot

Reading Summary: You need to take some time and reflect (Hanged Man) on the fact that you don’t have to be perfect all the time (Six of Wands).  Better to own your mistakes and transform them into strength (Queen of Cups).

Take Away:  The belief I need to release is that deeply ingrained need to do better and be better all the time.   The problem is that in that drive is the inner critic that makes sure that any time I fall short from these impossible standards, I pay the price for it.   The cards suggest to take a more understanding and caring approach, and ease up on that demand for perfection from myself.

DECK USED:  HAPPY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What do I need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Tarot SireneReading Summary: It’s time to start moving in a direction (Three of Wands) that fosters your passions (Queen of Wands). This means that you might have to make some difficult choices (Two of Swords, and deal with a bit of sacrifice concerning your need for stability (Five of Coins).

Take Away:  A lot of the readings over the past few days have touched on this need to let go and allow myself some room to breathe and time to have some fun.  Here there is encouragement that now is the time.  The energy of the new moon gives a chance to start again, and I need to utilize that energy to move away from the slave driver mentality concerning my business and into an energy of more fun and enjoyment while things with the business are slow.

DECK USED:  TAROT SIRENE

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Instead of starting something new, what is something current I could focus on this new moon cycle?

Nicoletta Ceccoli Tarot

Reading Summary (left to right):  It’s time to put an end (first card) to the slave driver mentality you saddle yourself with (second card), because overwhelm (third card) puts you on shaky ground (fourth card) and is not your friend (last card).

Take Away: These cards are pretty much a reiteration of what has been coming up over and again throughout the past few days. The cards have given me this answer in different imagery and different phrasing again and again.  I’m doing my best to listen, and to direct my energy away from obsessing over my business and onto other things… it’s just a struggle to achieve and feels like two steps forward for every one step back.

DECK USED:  NICOLETTA CECCOLI TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What am I grateful for?

Tarot of the Animal Lords

Reading Summary: That the cycle of life (imagery in The Wheel) may take me through many changes and a lot of chaos (The Tower), but it also provides me with a new perspective for each experience I have (The Hanged Man).

Take Away:  Sometimes I forget just how grateful I am for this quality in myself to take the negative aspects of what has happened in my life and turn them into a perspective that allows for positive growth.  Occasionally, though, I run into someone that seems determined to wallow in the feelings of negativity and victimization that horrible events can create, and I realize anew just how glad I am that I am not able to linger in that place. I think that my life is far better for it.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

 

Patience Can Be Progress

Today’s meditation was fifteen minutes long and was tagged on to the end of my yoga session.  I needed a little extra time stretching today, so instead of taking time aside from my yoga, I extended my yoga practice and incorporated the meditation into it with the addition of some breathing and focusing exercises.

Japaridze TarotToday’s draw is the King of Gardens (King of Pentacles) which is traditionally interpreted as a representation of measured authority, abundance earned through self discipline, business acumen, and financial/resource security.

What stood out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card this morning is the blue/black hue of the figure’s face and that the folds on the back of the head looked like a different face to me… and I am left confused. Honestly, the imagery in this card is much like the imagery in the Hermit card in this deck.  Confusing and a bit too random and abstract.  Even in the aspect that I picked out of this card, I really am at a loss.

So, going by the traditional meaning of the card rather than off of the imagery, what I see as the  message in today’s card is a reassurance of sorts.   It is a reassurance that I am doing all I can at this time to provide stability and security in my home to those that depend on me, as well as for myself.

No, my mortgage is definitely not getting paid off at the rate I would prefer it to be, but at the same time?  I am still managing to keep up on it.  I’m still managing to keep everyone safe, and put food on the table, and keep us all in the resources we need to be healthy and happy.  Today’s card is a reminder to acknowledge for myself that I’m doing a good job.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I better cope with ambiguity?

Tarot of the Animal Lords

Reading Summary: By not getting frustrated (the cage in the Three of Swords), but instead treating it with understanding (Queen of Chalices) and patience (Knight of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Usually, ambiguity frustrates me, and that creates a divide between me and the source of that ambiguity.  Instead, if I confront this behavior with understanding, it will create a deeper connection with the source of that ambiguity which will facilitate the potential for progress, while patience will help in getting where I want to go regardless of the wishy-washy bullshit. 

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I better connect with my inner adolescent?

Bleu Cat TarotReading Summary: I am not really all that connected at all with my inner adolescent, which is where the Death card comes into this spread, as it is an indication that I will have to enact change in order to find that connection.

The Queen of Fishes with the Magician indicates that I need to take the emotional growth and lessons I’ve learned lately and use them as tools to apply to the cause (Eight of Balls).

Stalker note… the Queen of Cups seems to be getting very friendly with me this week.

Take Away:  I never really had much of an adolescence.  I was too busy being an adult.  Because of the suppression of this part of my development, I’ve never had much of a connection to this highly underdeveloped side of myself.  The cards here indicate that if I want to have a connection there, it will require long term commitment to the changes needed and using my emotional skills to build that bridge.  

Honestly?  I don’t think that I am yet at the stability phase of my current emotional growth to where I’m prepared to try and make that connection.  Not yet anyway.

DECK USED:  BLEU CAT TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: Draw a card for someone who taught you a lesson.

Tarot SireneReading Summary:  I didn’t specify the person, but rather used the cards to tell me who the person is.   The person in these cards is my meth-head ex. His very selfish Knight of Cups pursuit of me landed him in the Justice system (thank the fuck).

Take Away:  So anyway, yeah.  This is him.  And the lesson here?  Listen to your inner compass when it tells you to step back.  I stuck around far too long and paid for it deeply. If I had listened to my instincts and inner compass?  I’d have dumped his ass a lot sooner and probably been able to circumvent the whole obsessive bullshit that followed.  Moral of the story?  Listen to your gut… don’t hesitate or procrastinate.  Just do it.

DECK USED:  SIRENE TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What have I let go of?

Tarot Mood

Reading Summary: Using going to bars (Three of Cups) and alcohol (vodka reference in Temperance) to avoid crash-and-burn emotions (The Tower)

Take Away:  It used to be that when I was super upset, instead of grounding and spend time with my plants… I would drink. At those times vodka was my friend, and yet never really solved anything and the feel better was only temporary. After making the promise to you not to do anymore drinking (because I clearly only drink for the wrong reasons), I began using my balcony and the plants there as a refuge and for grounding during times of high distress.

DECK USED:  TAROT MOOD

 

You Are Not Alone

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was another of the harp strings meditations.  It was relaxing and comfortable, and time flowed quickly as if it had no meaning at all.  The shift in time during those ten minutes is really remarkable, and I have been tempted to bump the meditation up to twelve or fifteen.

Japaridze Tarot - Five of Tides - Five of CupsToday’s draw is the Five of Tides (Five of Cups) which is traditionally a representation of stress, struggles, tests, and trials in the areas of one’s relationships, emotions, or intuition.  This often communicates itself through themes involving grief (depicted very eloquently in this card’s image), as well as themes to do with one’s failures and regrets or pessimistic views.

Two elements stand out strongest to me in the imagery of this card today.  The first is the baby bump the woman is sporting. This speaks to me of temporary grief.  The emotions represented here are deep, as communicated by the deep cobalt color of the woman’s dress, but life will move on past this moment and moments of joy still exist in the future.

The second element is about the emblems on the three caskets closest to the bottom of the card.  To me, the moon represents pagan/esoteric religions, while the Star of David is a representation of Judaic religions, and the cross a representation of Christian religions.  The three of these speak to me of diversity.  They indicate that the emotions and experiences depicted in this card are universal.  They are something everyone experiences in their life at one point or another… and when in these experiences, you are not alone.

The message in today’s card is about weathering emotional storms with grace by looking forward beyond the moment for hope, and remembering that you are not alone.  Some of my readings this month have warned of some emotional turmoil over the next month, this reminder is one of hope and comfort.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What do I need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Tarot of the Animal LordsReading Summary: There is a clear depiction of movement in these cards based on the colors.  On the left there is a darkness that as you progress to the right becomes brighter and more vibrant, speaking of moving away from the left and heading to the right.

Use your inner strength (Strength) to take control and move away from (The Chariot) inner turmoil (Three of Swords). Take comfort in your loved ones and those that you love and trust (Two of Cups).

Take Away:  The cards here indicate that my self care this month is going to require that I take steps to turn away from those things and situations that cause me inner turmoil.   This “turning away” from is going to require strength to accomplish, as well as a strong hand and careful control to keep myself on track on this other path.

This is about that “all work and no play” issue that I constantly have going on and the slip up into that mentality that I slid into over the past two weeks.  It’s time to get that back under control and my commitment to leaving room on my plate for the good things in life back on track.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question
: How am I asked to honor myself during this full moon?

Tarot of a Moon Garden

Reading Summary: Enjoy what you have (Nine of Cups) and take a rest (Four of Swords)  It’s okay to disconnect for a bit as long as you don’t linger there too long (The Star Rx).

Take Away:  This advice isn’t so much about self care as it is about honoring myself, and the ways I am being asked (by the universe) to honor myself at this time. By taking some time to focus on my gratitude for all that I have and all that I’ve earned, combined with a bit of time disconnecting from my responsibilities while I rest and recover, I honor not just myself but all that I have accomplished up to this point.

I need to remember that life isn’t always about pushing forward constantly, but about enjoying what you have in the present.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF A MOON GARDEN

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my favorite memory?

Everyday Witch Tarot

Soon after I emancipated my from my parents, my mother took me out for a ride in her little red Corvette one day. She told me that if I ever needed anything that I should call her, and when I told her that father wouldn’t like that, her response was “what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him”.

At the time it made me feel very supported and loved and cared for.  Even though I would never have taken her up on the offer, just the fact that she offered made me feel as if I could take on the world.

I know now that that’s not how it was meant, and that she was just looking for an “in” so she could get her hooks into me and use me later. But, that doesn’t change the warm and supported feeling that lives within that memory even now.

DECK USED:  EVERYDAY WITCH TAROT