Noisy Museum Tarot

Don’t Skip It

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Today’s meditation was skipped today as it was an orders day.

Cult of Weimer Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Lovers card, which is traditionally a representation of love, marriage, successful unions, and (as is often the case for me in readings) making healthy choices aligned with what you want in life.

I have a hard time with self care sometimes.  I just do.  It’s linked into my self destructive tendencies, I’m pretty sure.  There are just times when anything that is self care oriented sounds absolutely horribly miserable.  This includes exercise, meditation, morning smoothies, going outside for fresh air, physiotherapy for my mobility, working with my plants on the balcony… even eating or showering.

These are all things that are necessary to a healthy me, and yet… things I sometimes struggle with them regardless of that fact. Making healthy choices for myself (which means doing these things that are simple and easy and yet feel so horribly unpleasant during those times) is extremely important and yet can become monumentally difficult at times due to this.

And, today is one of those days.  Today’s cards are a reminder that need to do these things even when I don’t wanna.  That I can do it, that it’s not as horrible or monumental as it feels like it is… and that I need need to not let that dark cloud of “meh” convince me to skip it.

DECK USED:  CULT OF WEIMAR TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Grab a spread that you’ve been curious about and give it a go!

Noisy Museum Tarot

1 What part of me has been yearning to “get messy”?

Seven of Swords – The strategist is tired.

You know, I never really thought much about this before, but there’s some validity to that phrase. I plan and plot, I scheme and strategize… it is a constant cycle of weights and measures in my mind as I seek how to get the most out of every situation. How to make the most out of my time and energy.

What would it look like to not be constantly conniving and strategizing my life like this?

2 Why have I been censoring or editing myself?

Page of Swords Rx – I want to be kinder. I want to be a better person than the narrative in my head. This requires making sure I don’t spout off with answers or commentary without examining what I am going to say first in order to avoid being insensitive or worse. I don’t really consider this to be a bad thing.

3 Where/how did I learn that it’s not ok to be imperfect?

Two of Pentacles atop Nine of Cups – When I learned that not meeting the expectations of authority figures have consequences that imbalance myself and my life, turning everything on its ear.  Namely, this is a lesson that my parents taught me. I was such a disappointment to them in so many different ways that I didn’t have any control  over (sexuality, interests, etc), that I tried really hard to satisfy them in other ways in which I did have control over (perfectionism).

4 How can I release the tendency to self-censor?

Six of Cups – I am not my father. I need to leave those dark clouds from my past where they belong… in the past.  It’s possible to have learned the lessons needed from these experiences and carry those lessons forward with you into the present without carrying those dark clouds with you as well.

5 How would creating more of a joyful “mess” benefit me?

The Architect (The Magician) – It would provide me with a new set of skills and tools to navigate life with. By being overly rigid, I am cutting myself off from these additional skills.

6 How can I get messy (i.e., let my hair down, color outside the lines, play like a child, etc) today?

The Moon Rx atop Five of Cups – Don’t allow uncertainty to steal away your enthusiasm.

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BekahMurphysMagic’s #IntuitiveHealingTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for September 29th and 30th

Cult of Weimer TarotHow can I become more confident in my intuitive abilities?

Lean into optimism (The Sun), and ensure that you are making choices that keep your emotions (Seven of Cups) in balance with everything else going on in your life (Two of Pentacles).

Neglecting your emotional balance in deference to other goals and endeavors will damage your confidence on many levels, including how you interpret messages from your intuition. So, too, will allowing yourself to sink into a negative mindset.

What have I learned from healing and connecting with my intuition this month?

To stand back and take a breath (Five of Wands Rx). Success (Ace of Pentacles) doesn’t always necessarily require a forward leap (Ten of Cups).

This challenge was a reminder of how developed my intuition already is, and that sometimes it can be harmful to continually push to advance without taking time to sink into the growth I’ve already accomplished.

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Daily Self Kindness

I forgot to type in what I did for myself today but considering my struggles with self care today, I think the fact that I had a smoothie with spinach added in is pretty damned good.

Realistic Expectations

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Today’s meditation was approximately thirteen minutes long, and was the 9th installment of the Foundations II series on the Balance app. The meditation primarily dealt with going deeper into labeling techniques during meditation (namely with the thinking and feeling labels), as well as focusing on the breath.

Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cards and Noisy Museum TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of action, speed, movement, and alignment.

In the imagery for today’s tarot card, I don’t see wands in the imagery so much as I see shooting stars… or perhaps more accurately, a meteor shower.

Sometimes when we’re working on something, it can feel like nothing we do is enough.  Negative narrative snowballs like piercing and painful spears, showering down on you like a meteor shower from above.

The Thera-Pets card for today tells us to remember that just because we’re being hard on ourselves during these moments doesn’t mean it will improve our performance… or do anything but tear you down in the moment.

Better to be patient with yourself and just do what you can.  As the card says… the rest will fall into place.  And by not abusing yourself with expectations beyond your comfort zone. You’ll be happier in the end, and it’s far less stressful that way.

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The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt for the Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for September 4th and 6th

TERRA Intuitions Oniriques and Cursed Auguries TarotHow can I build my confidence?

La Magicienne and King of Pentacles – Ground yourself in the knowledge of what you’ve done, and what you’re capable of. Acknowledge your manifestation powers, as well as your connection with the earth. 

How can I speak my mind?

Dissimulation Agressive and Justice – Be careful to deliver unpleasant messages with kindness, but don’t hold back and not deliver them at all. Sometimes people need to hear the bad shit, even if it hurts… and sometimes, they need to hear it from you specifically.

What makes me bulletproof?

Le Porteur de Chance and Ten of Pentacles – You are adaptable, and because you keep your eye on the goals that you want to achieve, as things come up that would get in your way you’re able to adapt in a way that moves you towards these goals instead of holding you back. This often looks like luck, but is actually a skill.

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#DiscordTarotholicsSep2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Noisy Museum TarotReading Summary: Keep in mind that most of your bad habits, self-destructive tendencies, and addictions (The Devil) are a way of self-soothing and self-medicating (Queen of Water). They are distractions (Ace of Fire Rx).

Take Away: Maybe it’s time to examine just what I’m avoiding.  What am I self-medicating and self-soothing?  Why do I need these things and what is causing me to need them to the point that they become unhealthy?

This might be something I need to unpack after the holiday season, as it definitely doesn’t sound like an easy fix but more of a lengthy exploration and potential shadow work.   With the holiday rush coming, it would be a bad idea to start these new explorations right now, but it might not be a bad idea to at least start mulling these questions over.

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Daily Self Kindness

Time playing Enu with Gid is always a pick me up.  The character is always so cheerful and can have a positive influence on my own mood, as long as I can slip into his skin and play him successfully.